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No Early!

First day I've slept past 5am and I'm greeted with a super special headache complete with photophobia and congestion and just blegh I'm pretty sure my boss made me sick too, it's quite weird. Lately my work force has shrunk considerably to where there's only 4 of us working most days. 2 morning 2 night, it's like where becoming this weird pseudo family unit. 4 guys building furniture and trying to keep the place clean, of course the cleaning is failing miserably but hey at least were keeping the place a float. I get to do the night shift tonight, which should be good. Got some UNI this morning as well and tomorrow is a half day off, no work just UNI. Going to have to use it to get UNI stuff done though. I get to work full time why suffering at UNI xD

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Eh

I dunno. It's another early morning start for me. Not as bad as the other day. But still earlier then I would like. I feel kinda between worlds at the moment. Between work and UNI and between home and girlfriend. I think this is why I'm creating these "work girlfriends" girls I'm attracted to, I'm flirting with I dunno. Maybe flirting is too strong a word. Perhaps I'm just mistaking general friendship with attraction I dunno. It's an odd morning. Had a good night out last night. It was nice to socialise with some friends outside of work. Opening alone this morning. This is a little upsetting, means I got a lot more work to do, I hope the boss appreciates my work. *sigh*. So many small things to catch the world up on

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God it's early

So here I am at work. I got up at 4am to catch a stupid bus because no trains and that just makes me mad I don't start for another half hour and I'm trying to drink as much coffee as possible. *sigh* Oh did I mention I forgot to hand in my UNI assignment. Even though I did it a week ago I mean fuck me right! Stupid life.

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I love rediscovering old music that's been sitting there just forever. Today's big discovery 'breaking Benjamin' what have I been doing xD

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A Presentation

So today I have to do a presentation...and I dont wanna.  Then I have to do work, at work in a department I HATE.  So I dont wanna do either *sigh*

Today is gonna suck, but afterwards I should be  one more step closer to both pay day and end of semester =D.  but the thing bothering me the most? I havent been able to start my computing stuff *cries* I was so keen and crap and now I cant even find time

GRAHAHAH

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Geeked out so hard...but so worth it ^.^

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Good Morning!

So a happier post today! It's been a couple of good days, I've been rediscovering my passion for yugioh lately, more as a collector than anything.  I think I'm going to start posting on youtube again as well.  I feel heaps like geeking RIGHT out.

Sometimes I do find it hard to get my geek on, sometimes I feel like it would exclude me? But from who? Why should I find it hard? I don't know but I do know I don't want to let it hold me back any more   I think I'll try and get involved in a few more things like my local hobby shop and stuff.

On another note I've also started an Online computer class!  should be fun, if I can keep up.  it's good being a no sort of commitment thing and if I enjoy it I may try open learning again in the future and expand the bounds of my knowledge

Anyway I better go, Trains to catch shit to do 

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Taking Control

Today I decided to take control of my life more.  Recently I've been disengaged from the world around me, at least to some extent.  I've been giving myself illusions about who I am, and what I want to do with my life.  Today I am taking the steps to regain some control and dispel the illusions in front of me.

Essentially, I want to lose weight, I want to improve myself mentally, sharpen the tools I have at my disposal   I want a new creed to live by, something a bit better then "It'll work out, just wait and see" something more like "Sound mind, sound body sound success" something to motivate me, to give me the strength to crawl out of bed early in the morning.

And what does one do about this? Well, I've got a bedtime again.  A good nights sleep is the place to start, I need more energy I need more strength.  Part 2? Exercise. Endorphins as many as I can bloody get, early morning run and walk some additional exercise, more sex and overall more confident.  I want people to be awe of me, I guess I'm vain like that.

But is it really a bad thing to be that Vain? I dont know.  Sometimes it gives me the confidence I need to succeed, othertimes the pride gets in the way to success in a personal sense.  Sometimes it makes you feel very lonely.

I guess I'm Just not sure.  I know what I am sure of though.  I have an assignment to do and I also need to make sure I get everything done today I need done so I need to get out of here for a little bit.  Awesome.

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Putting the Pen to Paper

So here I am, after much hesitation and otherwise putting it off, here to write my blog.  I wanted to start this blog mostly because I am bored, I am also vain and I think it would help put aspects of my life into context helping me make decisions about what I want to do by reflecting back upon it.  Here I shall tell my story, as corny as it sounds.

So on a happier note, or one with less drama to it at the very least.  Today I got my iPhone 5.  I've been suffering with my old 3GS for quite some time now and its nice and refreshing to be able to update like this.  It makes me happy to finally have a new phone, the old ones battery had been dying regularly and It was driving me to the point of insanity.  right now my phone is updating and getting all the apps on board, there's a new row there too I;ll have to spend time organising my apps again, a secret pleasure I assure you =D.

I also should be visited by a friend tonight, which should be fun.  According to the girlfriend it appears we are going out to dinner.  not sure how happy I am about it though.  I love seeing friends and eating out sure, but its more the time restraints which bother me.  I have to get all my Uni affairs in order and this is just another interruption   but I should not despair! my days studying are boring and in truth I think I welcome this kind of intrusion on my life.  We will no doubt drink and be merry, admiring the new tech and otherwise doing things that friends do and that is quite alright I think

Although I have to admit I am quite worried about the exam I'll be sitting today, I've been anxious and distracted.  I dont know if the anxiety is due to signing contracts today ( I really hate committing to a phone plan even though I am more then able to afford it and need it) or the exam as a whole   Its going to be hard and I am worried, I totally under estimated the weighting and went to melbourne instead of studying which was a terrible mistake.  the content is not that hard and the not that much.

Looks like my own distractions won me over once more.  Also looks like this post is doing it again *sigh*.  I'll be back to post pictures of my phone soon enough.  I think I am really going to enjoy posting on here.