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Shel Silverstein predicting ChatGPT in 1981

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one thing people will never grasp about transition:

guilt.

not for transitioning, not for not doing it sooner necessarily, not for burnt bridges and lost connections.

guilt for the absence.

for the ghost you were for however many years you lived in hell.

for the quiet hell.

for the agony.

for the exhaustion.

no amount of "im sorrys" can fix your brother rebuffing you because you werent there like you couldve been.

no amount of "ill do betters" will tell your parents youve grown up. youre an ADULT now. youre okay.

no amount of time spent, work done, life effort made, will *ever* be enough in some cases. because its not our jobs. they have to acknowledge weve changed. that we are on some level, okay. that its "okay."

and they may never.

and theres a guilt there. a queer guilt. the kind that is inlaid in our world and beaten into us. birth to death cruelty, guilt, pain is built and beat into us.

and it is terrible.

i know it well.

its dreadfully terrible.

i know it well.

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THE ENTIRE WEST IS BEING PUT UP FOR SALE AND I AM BEGGING YOU TO CALL YOUR SENATORS

Trump’s budget bill has many, many things in it, but buried amongst it is the MILLIONS OF ACRES OF PUBLIC LAND FOR SALE.

This is the entirety of the Arizona state forests, the entire Cascades mountain range. Swathes of pristine desert around the national parks in Utah. On the doorstep of Jackson Hole.

THIS BILL IS BIG, BUT IT CAN BE AMENDED AND ABSOLUTELY MUST NOT PASS AS IS please.

If you have ever enjoyed the wilderness, we stand to lose it all forever.

CALLING your senators - NOT JUST IN THE WEST. ALL SENATORS, is CRUCIAL.

Outdoor alliance has a great resource for reaching out.

I don’t have a huge following but please, everywhere I have ever loved, the forests I grew up playing in, the land I got married on, is all at risk and I am begging.

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Today I learned that Van Halen have that rider in their contract about “a bowl of M&Ms with all the brown ones removed” in order to know at a glance if the promoter read the entire contract.  And the reason they do THAT is because they once had a stage collapse because a promoter hadn’t read the proper way to set up all the specific technical stuff.

So if the band goes in the dressing room or catering and sees brown M&Ms, they know they have to double-check the stage setup for safety.

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you have to stay alive. you're going to be such a beautiful middle aged freak. young freaks will see you in the street and know that things can be okay.

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Remembering the time I was asked to remove 'intersex' from my discord bio by the mods of a furry discord server because "this is a sfw space and that includes bios too" and I got so fucking mad I chewed out one of the mods and was promptly banned for "being rude and disrespecting the mods"., As if my personhood as an intersex man hadn't just been reduced to a fucking fetish porn trope and deemed too inappropriate for teenagers to see in my bio.

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I think mostly what young fandom types (and I guess younger people in general) who are very very invested in the idea that “20 is still basically a minor” need to understand is that the feeling of “I’m just a child pretending to be an adult, and everyone else around me is a REAL adult” is DEEPLY universal (and won’t stop, ever, by the way, sorry!) and also is not, like, praxis.

Believe me, I get it, but the self-infantilization needs to stop, especially when you’re trying to engage in conversations about actual children and the harms they can face. Yes, it is scary to wake up and realize you’re 22 and you still feel like you’re 15, but it happens to all of us. You’re an adult. You have to deal with it.

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Unmute !

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first youtube analysis i've wanted to watch voluntarily

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not to alarm anyone but is anybody else worried about how everybody is fucking stupid

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this is how i know hate is in the minority and concentrates in the powerful

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Akira, 1988, Katsuhiro Otomo

bro last night was totally redacted! last night was fully expunged from the record. bro, do you... can you remember last night? what did we do...? what did... did we hurt someone? bro? why won't you look at me? what did I do...? whose blood is this...? bro...?

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