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“how to recognize AI in fanfic” — hey so this is another not-gentle reminder that AI stole from us. it’s using OUR words and OUR sentences and OUR styles.

writing “long” paragraphs is not a sign of AI — it’s a common narrative choice many writers make both in fanfiction and in traditionally published novels, and AI stole it from us.

using an em dash is not a sign of AI. it’s a stylistic sentence choice that’s been an option in place of commas and semicolons for a very long time, and AI stole it from us.

long sentence structures are not a sign of AI, but are yet another stylistic choice writers often make to create a cadence and tone that mimics the flow of poetry, and AI stole it from us.

“YA narrative breaks”? i don’t even know what the fuck this means, but i can guarantee that AI stole it from us.

italics are once again a stylistic choice that many writers love to use to create emphasis, and it’s a more stylistically acceptable and traditional form of emphasis than bold or underline text. oh, and just to be extra clear: AI STOLE IT FROM US.

stop creating fandom witch hunts over AI when you know fuck all about what it means to sit and write a story, and to spend hours fiddling with sentence structure and dialogue to get the exact right tone. writers will stop writing out of fear that their work “sounds like AI” — IT DOESNT! AI STOLE FROM US! AI SOUNDS LIKE US! — and after a while, all that will be available on AO3 is shitty AI-generated fanfiction.

because yeah, people are going to continue to use AI to write fanfiction whether you “call them out” or not. but making a laughable thread on X that uses asinine criteria is not going to fix that problem. it will just push the real writers out because people will accuse them of using AI when they haven’t, and they will (rightfully) stop writing for spaces that attack them.

anyway. fuck ai.

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And I’m not her and I never will be

NOTES: GUYS THIS WAS MY VERY FIRST FANFIC FROM LIKE 5-4 YEARS AGO PLEASE UNDERSTAND I WAS IN LOVE WITH THE BOOKS AND CONRAD TOO. AND THIS FIC HAS NOT BEEN EDITED! (I was in love with this pic)

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“I’m not her Conrad!” I looked at him, tears in my eyes. “It’s Belly that you want…not me.” I sigh.

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I should have known, I knew Conrad since 8th grade, l told him about my dreams to go to college in California, get the hell out of Boston and leave. He told me all about Steven and Isabel, or Belly and how during the summer they go up to cousins to their beach house.

Susannah invited me for the Fourth of July that summer and every summer after until junior year, when Conrad asked me to be his girlfriend, I was invited to stay, but my parents insisted on only two weeks. Susannah somehow convinced them for three days and a weekend.

It was perfect, I had the boy of my dreams, who treated me with love and care. Every Friday, when my parents invited him for dinner, he brought flowers for me and my mom; he would get my mom dahlia and me tulips. After the nickname he gave me in 8th grade, Conrad always said to never look up the symbolism for tulips, said it was his special thing for me.

It was amazing. Conrad was the perfect boyfriend. My parents loved him, he made my friends' boyfriends look like they did the bare minimum, he wanted me to go to California said we would make it work.

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That was until senior year, Conrad had quit football and became more moody, he began to withdraw himself and isolate from others, he wouldn’t say it, but I knew he was smoking, I could smell it on him. I hardly saw him, but I gave him the benefit of the doubt. It was senior year, a stressful time, I suppose.

At graduation, Conrad and I went out to eat with our family afterwards. He didn’t say anything, just kept to himself and held my hand.

Susannah had insisted I would spend the Summer in cousins, and spend some time with Conrad before leaving. My parents were hesitant but ultimately agreed. I was so happy in that moment couldn’t wait to see what the summer would hold for me and Conrad. If only I knew at that time what I was getting myself into.

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Conrad knew I was leaving after this summer for San Francisco, California, and yet he acted like he could give two shits about me.

He made distance with me, especially in front of Belly. He hardly held my hand, and the one night he promised to have a date night with me, he went with Jeremiah and Steven to crash Belly’s first date.

I knew I should’ve acknowledged it sooner, the way I saw Belly look at Conrad like he held the stars in the sky. He asked if the necklace he got her was perfect, and how he smiled when he saw it.

But I held my tongue till I couldn’t do it anymore, seeing Conrad and Belly at the debutante ball, the way they danced and looked at each other, Conrad never looked at me like that.

When the dance ended and Conrad sat back down next to me, I felt out of place; I didn’t belong here. Susannah and Laurel were talking about Conrad and Belly I front of me on how cute they are. I couldn’t do it.

Conrad didn’t even acknowledge me afterwards, just kept his eyes on Belly. The drive back to the beach house was quiet between me and him. Conrad held my hand…it didn’t feel right not like it used to.

I remember not even saying anything to him as I got out of the car and immediately went to pack. I went out to the back and called my parents, telling them I was taking the train back to Boston as early as possible.

I didn’t even notice Belly out there as I hung up, “You’re leaving?” She spoke, her face looked confused, but her tone was joyful.

I nodded my head “Yes, I just think it would be…nice and better if I at least spend these last few weeks with my family and pack.” I gave her a fake smile as she did the small smile saying how she’ll miss me.

I sighed “No you won’t Isabel.” I smiled as she just froze and nodded walking back inside.

I sat outside in silence hearing the ocean waves and enjoying these last few moments until I heard the door open to see Conrad.

I don’t remember much of the conversation or how we even started fighting. It was about me leaving then me telling him how I was upset.

He proceeded to say how he’s just dealing with a lot of things I could help but become more upset because he didn’t communicate.

Until I finally snapped “I’m not her Conrad! It’s Belly you want…not me so don’t give me that bullshit. I leave for California in three weeks and all summer I had to fight over your attention. I shouldn’t have to fight for my boyfriend’s attention because the next time you’ll see me won’t be till November!”

Conrad didn’t say anything he just shut down as I went off finally getting everything off my chest. All he did was nod and agreed, snd it pissed me off more.

“Fight with me Con, show me that this relationship is worth saving or so help me I’m leaving and I’m not coming back.”

Conrad just started crying “I’m sorry Tulip…but I just…I think you should go.”

I remember looking at him, i hesitated until I finally nodded “Enjoy the rest of your summer Conrad…I’ll see you around.” I was about to enter the house until I felt him grab me and kiss my forehead “I love you Tulip.” He mumbled as I sighed gently pushing him away “Goodbye Conrad.”

I spent that night on the couch, Steven said he would take me to the train station in the morning he insisted said it was Conrad’s request, I just nodded and agreed.

That morning Steven woke me up, early before the house was awake helped me get my last few things. When I was done packing I saw Susannah looking at me. She gave me a smile and hug told me how proud she was of me, she gave me two letters one for when I graduated and the other when I finally married.

It was a little weird to receive these from my now ex boyfriends mother, but she was there for nearly half my life.

She sent me with the best wishes and a breakfast burrito for the ride. When I was finally leaving I saw Conrad sitting on the stairs Steven gave him a quick dab me up as I just gave him a tight smile and small wave as I walked out. Leaving cousins…leaving Conrad, I was going to start a new life at College

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That would be the last time I saw Conrad and everyone till Susannah’s funeral. I left California to go back to Boston without hesitation. It was weird being back but I knew it was the right thing.

I got to the funeral on time, sat in the back as I looked around the room to see laurel and Steven and belly in the front with Jeremiah and Conrad with their dad.

Conrad sang a song and I couldn’t help but cry, when the gathering happened afterwards I stayed in a corner some approach me remembering my face and asking about California and school.

It was quick chitchat until I saw Conrad, I didn’t know if I had any right to approach him after everything, but Jeremiah saw me, thanked me for coming as Conrad followed by finally coming face to face with me.

We didn’t speak and Jeremiah left. But Conrad pulled me into a hug and started crying as I held him. We somehow made are way upstairs because he wanted to be away from people.

We sat their for an hour as Conrad laid in my arms and cried told me what happened. I felt like a horrible person releasing Conrad was going through a lot last summer.

We talked and Conrad kept himself in my arms when the door opened to Belly with a plate of food as she immediately closed the door after making eye contact with us and Conrad ran after her.

I sat there for a moment embarrassed util I heard yelling and instantly ran down to see what happened as I saw Belle trip to the floor and Conrad try to help her.

Belle tried to push Conrad off and saw me on the stairs. Lauren looking at her daughter then following Belly’s eyes to me, she walk upstairs the stairs to me as we went back to the room.

She let out a sigh “I’ll make you a plate but I think it’s best if you go (reader). I’m sure Susannah would be very thankful you came all this way.”

Before I could say anything Lauren stoped me “Please just understand.” She back away to hurry down to help Belly and make me a plate.

I was to embarrass of myself, I sat back on the couch I was resting on with Conrad less then ten minutes ago.

When Lauren came back, she brought me two plates and walked me downstairs as I saw Belly sitting on the couch in pain as she glared at me, Conrad was no where to be seen.

I was quick to leave that house and drive away not looking back as I went back home already moving my flight back to California.

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If I knew now that would be my last time seeing Conrad and everyone after two years I would have tried to make it up, went to find Conrad instead of just leaving.

But what really made me think was, what if my friend hadn’t rescheduled our lunch date to a different day and restaurant, what if the traffic took longer or shorter to Stanford, if I had picked a different parking spot.

I probably would have never heard that nickname ever again,

“Tulip?”

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nobody has been there for me like the ‘x reader’ tag has been there for me

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Me trying to choose one of my fictional crushes for my fake scenarios before falling asleep

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pov: standing and talking to yelena but ur bf is wanting to go to bed:

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DJO Lollapalozza, ph. by Pooneh Ghana — August 1, 2025

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I WILL NOT LIE ITS BEEN OVER A YEAR NOW AND SEASON FOUR IS ON ITS WAS

I was very much down bad for Lord Debling, he was cute guys okay?! And Colin was fine as hell but guys…

LORD DEBLING🩷 the cutie you are

PLEASE I NEED LITERALLY A 100k FANFIC ABOUT THIS MAN 😭

(Not my gifs)

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how i feel when i make up an angst scenario in my head and actually make myself upset:

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my drafts keep growing…

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Me watching all the new fanfics of Clark Kent/superman come to life finally.

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MY BOYFRIEND TIRED TO DO SOMETHING I READ IN A FANFIC OF JOEL MILLER!!!! IFYK YK

He did apologize and sat in a corner for a little while (he put himself there)

It’s so awkward now 💔

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This is so real

this man is truly everywhere

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save me toxic lucien de leon, save me

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The heartbreak especially if the fic was written in 2016 or smth

"holy shit they finally confessed, what comes next--"

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THUNDERBOLTS* (2025)