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!Teen! Bob Reynolds x !fem teen! Reader

Back story of Let me be selfish

Summery: Bob and Readers last time seeing each other was chaotic and hurt, Bob made a promise to reader just for her graduation, but Bob had to be butt hurt seeing some of his old high school friends again as they return either from college for summer. And can’t help but to make stupid choices that push Reader to her limit.

Warnings: will go into Bob’s pov for a little, under age smoking, buying drugs, underage drinking, fluff (only small amount), arguing, angst, accusing of cheating, Bob is low key a dick while intoxicated. Reader says mean things, !!!LET ME KNOW IF I MISSED ANY!!!

Note: I would just like to say I think teen Bob would be way more confident, and not be as shy. Because in my head I would like to think Reader brings out another side of Bob especially him as teen and teenagers are really stupid at times and will say and do stupid shit

!!NOT PROOF REREAD!! So I’m sorry if this is ass (Also I got A LOT of these ideas are from my ex high school boyfriend)

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This was nice, laying here together in the grass while the leftover pizza Bob ate slowly was still in the pizza box, he smiled down at me as he gave me the crust knowing the cheese crust was my favorite part.

I sat up eating the crust as I looked around the park with all the kids running around and parents talking as I sighed with a smile. Bob gently rubbing my back as he laid down his arm covering his eyes from the sun, it was humid and warm but the breeze was so refreshing.

I looked back at Bob, “The graduation is tomorrow, you’re still going right?” I said turning back to Bob as he lazily nods his head, “I’ll be there, I’ll be the one cheering almost losing my voice.” He smiled as I laughed softly.

I laid back down looking up at Bob “I still can’t believe it.” I sigh as Bob shrugged, I knew the whole graduation thing was a sore topic for Bob since he dropped out.

Of course his parents never knew until it was time for graduation and he wasn’t graduating, that summer Bob lived with friends and with me for a while, my parents didn’t support the whole Bob dropping out, but they understood Bob’s home life, and didn’t want their daughter dating a guy living at a motel or something.

At least they could watch us and make sure we were ‘behaving’ and not giving them any grandkids just yet, my mom words not mine.

I was lost on thought when Bob blurted out, “We should run away together, over the summer. Just you and me, who knows maybe we’ll get to New York like you always wanted.” I laughed a little at his words but Bob looked up at me and I realized he was being serious.

I looked at Bob confused, “Don’t you and your band have gigs over the summer? You know at those shitty bars, we’re most of the…you know drunks go too?” I say as i shake a little at the thought of Bob going with his band to a place where a bunch of drunk fools could easily throw a beer at Bob or yell something harsh and violence was so easy to get into.

I also knew that’s where Bob found some dealers for weed and cigarettes. I didn’t agree with the smoking but I knew it helped relax Bob.

He let out a sigh and did a lazy shrug “They can handle themselves, and besides when we get to New York, I already have money saved, and you’ll get that scholarship, I can get a job…probably as a waiter or barista, just a paying job, and we’ll figure it all out.”

Bob said gently as he moved a piece of my hair out of my face. I wanted to believe him, believe it would be that easy for us, for him.

No matter how much Bob said he hated Florida, I knew apart of him loved it here, the beaches, and the warm weather everything.

Bob sighed “ Get away from all these rich folks.” He smiled as I rolled my eyes “Why to be surrounded by more?” I laugh gently

We laid in silence Bob of course had a pack of cigarettes on him lit one as we looked down at me as I sighed turning to my stomach as I looked up at Bob

“Promise me you’ll at least not smell like cigarettes at my graduation.” I asked as Bob nods his head in agreement. “I’ll be good tomorrow.” He blew out some smoke.

I played with Bob hand as I twisted the finger he had on, before i took it off his finger and put it on mine, it was to big for me as I showed Bob as I shook his head, I gave him back his ring but denied it before he had me sit up as he took off the necklace I always wore and slid down the to locket, before clipping the necklace on again

I looked down at the necklace as I held it in my hand, before I turned around to give Bob a kiss as he wrapped his arms around me pushing me down to lay on his chest.

Bob put out his cigarette and tossed it into the pizza box we had to throw out,

I played with the ring as I looked up at Bob “So when would you want it back?” I smiled as Bob gave me his dorky grin “When I give you a new ring that you can keep on forever.” He leaned back in for a gentle kiss.

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We start walk away back to the car, as we walked passed by some flowers before I picked one to show Bob. But when I put the flower to close to his nose he looked like he was about to sneeze “Cucumber!” I yelled Bob looked at me taken back “What?” He looked shocked and confused as I started laughing,

“My grandpa told me when I was younger, you can stop a sneeze by confusing your brain.” I shrugged playfully, Bob began to shake his head “And you decided to yell ‘cucumber’” he said as I kissed his cheek

“It caught you off guard, and it can be an inside thing now. So whenever I see a cucumber I’ll think of you.” I smile before Bob raises his eyebrow at me before I softly jammed my elbows in his side.

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Later on we were back in my bedroom Bob had brought some CDs of music, he was playing one of his favorite band Radiohead, Bob laid on my bed as I finished setting up my graduation outfit and putting all the cords and sashes on, I was also adding last minute things to my cap.

It was just some gems made into a star with pictures of my parents, me and Bob, and some of my friends from school, it was simple but cute.

I was at my desk, when my mom walked in to see Bob laying on my bed reading some comic and me finishing my cap, she gave me a look since my door was fully closed “This door needs to stay at least 5 inches open” she said before giving me a small smile as Bob looked up “Sorry Mrs. (Last name) completely forgot.” He said as my mom gave Bob a small nod “It’s okay just remember next time.”

My mom looked at me as I hummed to the music as she looked at my necklace, I looked up at her confused why she was still in my room but she just smiled and shut the door leaving it slightly open.

“If you could have any superpower, what would it be?” Bob asked as he rolled over on the bed as I turned around “You asked me that already.” I smile as Bob rolled his eyes “Ya but when we were like 10 or something, come on what would it be now?” He smiled as I rolled my eyes “We were 13 and I said Black widow…now I think it would be between doctor strange or spider man.” I smiled

Bob nods his head “I haven’t changed, I would want to be like Thor, but with the strength of the hulk.” He smiled “So you want to be a god like, but the strength of the hulk, but I know you also like Hawkeye, so with his skills too.” I say as Bob immediately nods his head “Yup basically, you get it.” He said before going back to his comic.

We went back to what we were doing it was comfortable, me and Bob never had to talk much we just understood each other, enjoyed being around each other. He would come over just to be around and I would go to his, he would play his video games while I did homework.

My parents would say we had this connection, we would act as if we hadn’t seen each other for years even if it was just two days without seeing each other even when we were younger and kids our friendship was even like that, when I would leave during winter break or during the fall to go visit my grandparents.

Bob would see our car and run to our house so when I opened the door he was right there, my mom found it adorable my dad he thought it was cute until Bob was fifteen and I was fourteen , and over that summer because during that summer Bob would write me letters since my parents refused to get me a phone just yet and those letters were friendly, until it became innocent love letters that my mom had found because I left one out on my bed.

So when Bob hugged me, my dad had given Bob this look that he’s still hunted by, he never showed me the look but he say my dad still gives it to him every so often

Bob hummed to the music as he acted the drum parts with his fingers, I didn’t say much as I finished hot gluing the final parts to my cap, before I put it on and turned to Bob, “So what do you think.” I smiled as I posed myself, he didn’t say anything for a moment’s but gave me a smile “It’s adorable, you’re adorable.” He smiled as I got up to give him a kiss “You’re just saying that.” Bob hummed “Maybe.” He gave me a goofy smile.

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The next day, I was sit in my bedroom doing last minute makeup touches and my mom had added a bow to my hair, as she smiled so happily at me as I add a little bit shimmer to my eyes.

My mom had looked at my jewelry box before pulling out a bracelet for me.

I put on the bracelet and fix the locket on my necklace before I start playing with bobs ring, my mom was about to say something before we heard a knock on the door as we looked up to see Bob at my door holding my favorite flowers for me, I got up and gave him a hug, I could smell some pot on him but I didn’t say anything.

My mother smiled “Thank you bob for using the front door.” She smiled teasing Bob on how she found him one time sneaking in through my window.

My mom was quick to pull out her phone and take a picture of me a bob as he looked down at me and looked up at him smiling, to her the cutest pictures she could get of us were the ones where me and bob weren’t paying attention to the camera but to each other.

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My parents took their car as they went to go pick up some thing before my graduation, me and Bob took his car, we didn’t say much, the car smelled like smoke and pot, I let out a sigh.

Bob didn’t say much as if he knew he fucked up, “I’m not that high right now…okay. I just had some early today.” He confessed as I shake my head

“I can smell in Bobby, I smelled it earlier when we were at the house, I just…I did want you to smell like it today, hell I didn’t want you getting high today.” I shake my head as I lean against the window

Bob rolled his eyes “Oh whatever, sorry I can’t please you, it’s just a shitty day, and I needed to do something.” He said annoyed

I shook my head I didn’t want to argue with him today, not right now.

I stayed silent for the rest of the ride as Bob dropped me off before going to park

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Bobs pov

Once I found a parking spot it wasn’t ideal but it was still a good walking distance.

The ceremony didn’t start for another hour, I had time to kill, I went into my glove compartment to pull out a pack and my lighter, I got out the car and leaned against it as I lit the cigarette as I looked around the parking lot, many of the graduates walking away from their cars rushing to check in.

“Robert?” I took out my cigarette quickly as I spun around to see John and some other guys I went to school with, “Hey there.” I said as tried to fan away the smoke as they looked at me shock

“Dude it’s good to see ya, I mean it’s been awhile you left during junior year.” John said as I nod my head, god I hated John, he use to make fun of me and was on the varsity baseball team. He had a thing for (reader) use to tell her to leave me for him.

“Ya you know. Had something’s that I needed to do.” I shrugged as John nods “I mean ya dude, I’m guessing you’re here for (reader) you guys are still going strong. You’re real lucky, she’s smart and has a good future, pretty as hell too…sorry over stepping.” He let out a cocky laugh before snapping his finger as one of his little minions got him a beer from the back on the trucks cooler.

“Ya want one? It’s ment for the grads after all this, we’re heading down to the beach.” I stood up straighter (reader) didn’t bring up going to the beach after the ceremony

I shrugged “ya sure I’ll have one.” John tossed me and beer as I caught it with one hand before put my cigarette in my mouth as I opened the beer, before taking a drink.

“So you still smoking huh? Figured (reader) would have wanted you to quit after you know the whole thing at Alfredo's Bail Bonds.” John laughed as did his friends, (reader) didn’t know about that summer job I refused to tell her since she was away that summer seeing her grandmother, also I would have to tell her I wasn’t just smoking and doing’s pot, that I was on myth.

I took a swing of the beer before taking a smoke “How everything for you John?” I didn’t give to fucks about John and his life I just didn’t want the attention on me.

“I’m at U.M. it’s nice, nearly full ride, I would still be in Miami if I didn’t have to come to my sisters graduation. But you know we all gotta make sacrifices.” He smirked as I gave him a hum.

John let out a laugh “I mean you were literally one of the top ten in our grade, I payed you to do half my work for me…you could have probably gotten into any college you wanted.” John shook his head as he took a drink of his beer. I couldn’t help but shutter a little at the thought, sure I hated school but I didn’t realize till now how close I was to achieving something I could be proud of.

I was quite for a moment before I felt John pat my back “Maybe I’ll see ya around, who knows maybe I’ll hire you as a janitor or something when I my dads company.” He said with a stupid smirk before walking away towards the stadium.

I couldn’t help but let my thoughts wonder at the life I could of had, I stayed by my car until I looked at phone to see the time,

Shit the ceremony was about to start, I put out the cigarette before dumping the rest of the beer and tossing it in the trash as I rushed to get to the ceremony and find (readers) family,

Fuck I smelled like cigarettes and beer, I hurried to the stadium and found a seat near where (readers) family was.

During the graduation I couldn’t help but have self loathing, watching people on went to school with and where younger then me walk the stage and get their diploma. I was so far deep I didn’t even notice when they called (reader) name.

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(Readers) pov

I heard my family cheer for me as I looked up to find the as I waved, I looked around and didn’t see Bob as I looked around until I found him as I walked to my seat, he seemed to not be paying attention as I let out a sigh and sat back down.

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The ceremony had ended and I was making my way to my parents as my mom and dad gave me a hug, we took pictures they gave a congratulations. I smiled but I was looking around for Bob as my dad let out a sigh and pointed towards the wall where Bob was leaning against.

I walked over as Bob saw me and stood up give a smile that I could tell fake but I didn’t want to make a scene as Bob gave me a quick kiss, his lips tasted like beer and he smelled even more like cigarettes.

He didn’t say anything but give me a quick hug as I let out a sigh before eventually pulling away, my parents asked if I was riding with Bob or with them.

I knew I should have went with them but I told them I would see them at the house as me and Bob walked to his car, Bob lead us until we got to the car and I took the keys “You’re not driving.” Bob rolled his eyes “I’m even drunk, I only had like half the can.” He said annoyed as I shook my head getting in the drivers seat

“You shouldn’t have had any at all.” I said irritated as Bob got in the car before I left reversed and began leaving the parking lot,

We drove in silence before I couldn’t help but ask “Why are you being like this today? I mean i just...out of all the day I would like my boyfriend to be completely sober and cheer for me at my graduation.” I was hurt and it seemed like Bob couldn’t give two flying fucks

It felt like every thing I was saying was going in one ear and out the other, I sighed. I was done, I didn’t want to argue with Bob, I wanted to go home and have dinner with my parents and Bob and I wasn’t gonna go to the beach party.

I wasn’t gonna go for the sake of Bob and how he felt, but I didn’t care anymore.

I turned to Bob “Why are you…what happened?” I asked softly not wanting to sound irritated as Bob let out an irritated sigh “I’m just…I ran into John and his stupid friends and of course he had to bring you up. And of course he had to bring up the fact I dropped out, and how i didn’t get me fucking diploma.”

I looked at Bob as I gave him a smile “You could always get you GED.” I shrugged try to give some hope “And who gives a shit what John said, he’s just some dough bag who still thinks he’s in high school.” I roll my eyes

Bob looked annoyed “I give a fuck (reader) I was so close to graduating and in the top of my class, and I just dropped out!” He yelled as if it was my fault as I couldn’t help but yell back

“And whose fucking fault is that? huh Bob? I told you to think about it, I warned you.” I said as Bob rolled he’s eye “Ya because you always know (reader) you always have to be right. Hey I don’t know how about for once you maybe feel bad for me, maybe show that you actually care how I feel!” He yelled as I pulled to a sidewalk

I turned to Bob “I do care, I care so much! But you’re acting like this is my fault, that getting my diploma is the worst thing I could do because it makes you feel like shit.” I sigh trying to get Bob to understand my point of view

Bob didn’t say anything as I looked at him before took breath and went back to driving as I took Bob home as he looked at me confused but I didn’t say anything when we got to his house and got out the car.

I walked Bob to his door before giving him a kiss on the cheek “I’ll see you tomorrow at the party!” I asked hopeful Bob only gave me a quick nod as he turned and walked to the house as I stayed in the spot he left me.

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When I finally got home, my parents looked confused since I was home alone and Bob wasn’t anywhere to be seen, my mom was about to start dinner as I told her I wasn’t hungry and I was gonna go out with some friends.

My parents looked at each other then me before nodding in agreement as I let out a sigh and went to my room to change into a swimsuit, with a crew neck over my swim suit and shorts before grabbing my keys and leaving my room as I said bye to my parents before head to my car and driving to the beach.

When I pulled up I saw some of my classmates and friends drinking and talking to some people, as I made my way over I saw the couples either making out in the car or arguing over something as I let out a sigh walking towards my friends before I almost trip over in the sand before I felt someone catch me as I looked up to see John.

“Careful there, lucky I caught ya.” He smirked as I stood back back up “Ya thanks.” I said not in the mood for John

He looked around “Ya boyfriend ain’t here with ya? I saw him earlier.” He said with cocky “Had a drink with him.” I shook my head “No he didn’t come, hand to get home.” I shrugged trying to walk away from John before head grabbed my wrist before nodding to a cooler “Well why not get a drink, you know just some two old friends chitchat.” He smirked as I rolled my eyes “We were never friends John.” I said looking up at him

“Well then just two old classmates getting a drink.” He said pulling me towards the cooler and grabbing two beers and handing me one, before guiding us to a towel area and we sat down, John waisted no time to chug his beer as I hadn’t even opened mine.

I was uncomfortable to say the least as I looked around trying to find anyone I knew to go and start a conversation with and leave John but all my friends were talking to some guy or girl, or making out with a stranger, and some were playing a game of volleyball.

I didn’t say anything until I felt an arm around me as I looked to see John right up next to me as immediately pushed him off, “I have a boyfriend.”‘I said annoyed about to get up when he grabbed my wrist before nodding “You’re right, I’m sorry.” John seemed genuine as pulled my wrist away before he gave me a small pout “I’ll make it up, come on. Theirs this area with literally the best place to see the stars…and just because I know how you are, a bunch of pear over there.”

I hesitated for a moment looking around then up at the stars that you could hardly see from the light pollution. I let out a sigh “Fine” I said as John immediately got up and lead us to the area,

On our walk I didn’t say anything to John as he saw my locket “That’s pretty.” He pointed at it as I gave him a quick thank you before looking away.

“Where did ya get it? If you don’t mind me asking.” He looked at me as I looked around “It was a gift from Bob for my 16th birthday, he just gave me his ring.” I said not really bothered to have a conversation with John as he nodded his head

We walked in silence until John finally stopped “Here we are.” He smiled as I looked at him confused before he pointed up and wow you could see almost every single star it was beautiful.

But before I could react or say anything I felt a John wrap an arm around me as he stood over me, as if he would kiss me. I immediately pushed him “What the hell John, fuck this.” I said annoyed walking away as John laughed

I walked back to everyone, but as I passed by couples I let out a sigh missing Bob, as I mumbled to myself “This was a mistake.”

I went to my car not bothering to say by to anybody as I just drove, not caring where just needed to drive. As the music played and I drove I couldn’t help but cry a little.

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That weekend my parents had insisted on having a graduation party for me, family has came over, and so did some of my friends but I couldn’t help but look for Bob, I had told him about the party weeks ago and texted him about it but he never replied.

I was having a conversation with a cousin as they congratulated me and we chatted over stupid family drama, until I felt a hand on back as I instantly looked back to see Bob giving me a smile as he kissed my cheek.

My cousin excused themselves as they walked away leaving me and Bob.

He didn’t say much but move a hair out of me face with a soft smile, “Hi.” I looked up at him “Hi.”

Bob had given me a small bouquet of my favorite flowers as I couldn’t help but give him a kiss, for the rest of the night Bob and I didn’t talk much about want happened before.

He stayed near me as I talked to guest and danced with me for a little while.

I was in a middle of a conversation with an uncle and aunt who were going on and on about my cousin who was in law school and why she couldn’t come, Bob had gotten a text, I didn’t pay much attention but when I looked back him, he looked irritated and hurt.

I raised an eyebrow asking if he was okay as he just gave me a short nod and took a sip from his soda. As I continued my conversation Bob eventually got up to make a call, giving me a kiss on the cheek before leaving.

An hour had passed and I hadn’t seen Bob anywhere as I looked for him asking friends where he was and even some of my family, they all shrugged not knowing until I finally walked towards the front to see if he was out there.

I saw to people on the sidewalk across my driveway as I noticed one, I called out “Bobby?” He immediately turned around with wide eyes as I started walking towards him, he gave the guy some cash real quick before walking towards me to the side walk as I looked at him confused

“W-what are you doing out here? I was looking for you.” I say as I looked up at Bob before look him over, it wasn’t until was about to talk I smelled the pot in his breath I didn’t say anything until he looked down in sham.

“Are you for real Bobby?! You’re fucking high right now, great.” I said annoyed as Bob rolled his eyes “I just needed to let out some steam. It not that big of a deal.” He sounded unbothered as I shook my head

“Bobby my parents are here, my family, if I can smell it they sure as hell will too. And what were you doing over there huh?” I said point to the sidewalk on the other side of the street.

“Non of your business, and so who give a damn if you can smell it! They already don’t like me.” I shook my head at him and his words

“I give a damn! I want my family to like you eventually! And you’re not helping me.” I said looking up at him. I didn’t notice how loud we were being that my family had heard and my family and friends were overhearing us.

“Well it’s not like we’re gonna be forever together! You made that very clear at the beach, when you were kissing John! So why should I care what your family thinks?” I looked at Bob confused “What are you talking about?” I asked when Bob pulled out his phone and it was a picture of me and John from the beach, from the angle it looked like we were kissing.

I looked at the picture in disgust “We didn’t kiss, he put his arm around me and was standing above me, I was looking up at the stars. Bobby I pushed him away immediately, I would never do that.” I said trying to get Bob to understand but all he did was shrug me off

“Ya definitely, what he talks about getting you and how pretty you are at the graduation and literally that same night you just happened to be with him? Fuck off (reader)” he yelled as he stumbled a little as I grabbed him

“Bobby you’re high, please let’s just get you inside you can sleep on my bed and we’ll talk tomorrow.” I said nearly pleading with Bob.

But all he did was push me off him “Get the fuck off me, you fucking bitch!” He yelled as I stepped back and I saw the bag of weed fall on the ground along with a bag with white stuff

I couldn’t help but feel angry, “You bought fucking drugs in front of my house?!” I yelled as Bob waved me off and attempted to pick them up but I beat him to it.

I held the bags as he stood up stumbling “Give me the damn bags (reader).” He said in a command but I shake my head “Chose, me or the damn drugs.” I said sternly as Bob looked at me shocked

“your choice Bobby, because I’m done.” I couldn’t do it anymore Bob on drugs, he needed to get better. I stood there hoping he would pick me as a tear ran down my cheek.

Bob hesitated before grabbing the bags from me slowly as I felt more tears run down, he didn’t say anything as I yelled “Fuck you Robert! Get the hell out of my sight, out of my life. I never want to see you again! You’re nothing but a piece of shit and pothead. We’re done!” I yelled through tears

He took a step back looking down before he mumbled “I love you.” Before walking toward his house as I cried.

My mom instantly ran to me as did my best friend as they held me, and took me inside the house, my father told everyone the party was over and the guest took off mumbling and whispering to each other.

I was in my room crying in my bed my friend sat next to me running their hands threw my hair as my mom came back with tea.

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Bob’s pov

“Your choice..” her words ran through my head, I was a piece of shit, she said it herself, I was nothing but a pice of shit and pothead according to her and she’s right.

I looked at the bags in my hand regret and sadness took over me, it felt like a void as I walked home,

When I finally got home mom was already asleep in her room, she slept more peacefully since my dad got blipped.

As I got to my room I sat on the edge of my bed my head in my hands as I felt sad and angry at the same time. How could she say those things? Was she saying the truth about her and John? Why did I tell her I still loved her?

Thought ran threw my brain as I finally looked up and at my bed stand where a picture of me and her at the beach stood, I couldn’t help but toss it in the floor as the glass shattered then I found more on my walls as I toss them on the floor and glass shattered.

As I looked over the mess I couldn’t help but cry, I had to get the hell out of this town. She never wanted to see me? I’ll go she’ll never see me again, I rushed to pick a bag and packed my clothes and whatever I could, brought a bus ticket online.

But I needed cash, I looked around and threw my drug money, I spent it all already. I looked around as I saw it, the New York jar. I kept it full of cash, enough for me and (reader) to get to New York probably rent a shitty apartment, and still some left over.

I made a promise to myself that no matter what I never took from it, it was for her and me. But was their a her anymore? Was (reader) actually done with me? I hesitated as I reached for the jar.

She said it herself, “we’re done.” I opened the jar and took all the cash, I put it in my wallet, it had a wallet picture of (reader), I couldn’t bring myself to take it out.

I took a look around my room, it was a mess but I didn’t care. The bus was leaving soon and I needed to leave before I could regret it and never leave.

I left my room and headed for the door when I heard my mom in the kitchen probably getting some water, I looked back at her as she took a sip still half asleep.

I let out a sigh and opened the door quietly leaving the best I could, leaving my car keys in the house, and started walking to the bus stop.

I passed by (reader’s) as I looked at it, the party was over the lights were off, but not hers. I could see her window the curtains opened the window cracked a little, it was funny to think how that was her sign for me ti sneak in through her window.

It had me thinking maybe she wanted me to go by, I wanted to, say goodbye, maybe kiss her one last time.

But as I stood there across the street, her mother walked towards the window and closed it, I think she saw me because when I raised my hand a little to her, she nodded and closed the curtains before eventually the lights went out.

Darkness was left, it was almost like it was symbolic to the end of out relationship, the lightness was gone.

When I finally paid for my ticket and got on a bus I couldn’t help but lean my head against the window, I didn’t know where the hell I was going, but I knew it was for the better.

Memories of me and (reader) ran threw my mind.

Her smile and laugh, those little quirks she had, the sound of her voice and when she sang to music, when she would talk about her dreams and our life together.

I would miss her and forever love her…

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A/n: YALL THIS TOOK FOREVER IM SORRY SO MUCH SHIT HAS HAPPENED HOLY COW! anyways this was low key sad my bad, um anyways this was heavily used by my ex in high school, real interesting story there. But ya how y’all feel? Any thoughts, I did get lazy in certain parts and lost on what to write in areas. But hope you guys liked this back story, much love! <3

Part three will be out maybe June 26-June 29 haven’t decided!

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All I will say is

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Live, love and stan my jealous fictional boyfriends <3333

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Still hurts T-T

me when I reach the angst part of the angsty fic that I specifically chose for the angst

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I'm not just a bitch, I'm a bitch with a backstory

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Let me be selfish (Chapter list)

Chapters:

Chapter 1

Chapter 2

Chapter 3 (coming soon)

Chapter 4 (coming soon)

Maybe some other chapters?

Sequel/backstory (Not needed for the series just better understand of readers and Bob’s history):

Your choice

More to be added soon<3

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Why am I listening to “waiting on a miracle” from Encanto AND IMMEDIATELY THINKING OF BOB, like imagine him watching the old avengers and just admiring them wishing he was just as brave as iron man or Thor.

Or even him now watching the team do all these missions and save the city. Like i know we see Bob at the end of thunderbolts and he seems content with just living at the tower and he doesn’t really know how to control Sentry or the Void yet.

But imagine like he’s doing all this training and finally getting the hang of it, but the team is still sort of babying him and don’t think he’s fully ready.

Y’ALL EDIT IDEA OR WHAT?!

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Let me be Selfish (part 2)

Bob Reynold x fem! Reader

Part 1

Summary: After years of being apart and moving to Manhattan, New York City from Sarasota Springs, Florida and in a new relationship, you see a familiar face on the news.

Notes: Since we don't really know how old Bob is supposed to be l'm gonna say in this story he's like 28 and reader is like 26-27 just she's only a little bit younger then him but she's out of college and a teacher for second grade.

Warnings: cheating sort of? (Not on Bob), Arguing (not with bob), toxic relationship (again not with Bob), swearing, brings up teen pregnancy (in a small part of a conversation), Bob talks about his drug use,

!THIS IS NOT PROOF READ! So I'm sorry if it's shit

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I gently pulled away as I looked down and sighed “Bob, I-I should go.” I said as I grabbed my coffee before I felt Bobs hand grab my wrist. As he looked up at me with pleading eyes.

“(Reader) please….j-just stay for a moment.” Bobs eyes were looking up at me as I looked at him for a moment before nodding my head.

I sat back down a little further from Bob as he let go of my wrist before he sighed and rubbed his eyes, as he looked ashamed, “I was stupid, okay? I didn’t want to leave you but, (reader) y-you knew what you wanted in life. Graduate high school, go for college for early children’s education…get married, have a family.” I looked up at Bob as he sounded like he was going to cry

“Bob…we were teenagers, the whole marriage and family thing was way down in the future for me back then.” I sigh as Bob nods his head

“Ya but you talked about it, and it scared the shit out of me, I dropped out of high school and I was smoking, and you were….God you were on the road to success, and I remember your parents getting on me about how I was holding you back, and if I made us teen parents, they’d kill me.” He laughed softly as I looked up at him

I laugh a little in response as Bob continues “I was sacred that because of me…you would never get out of Sarasota springs, like you wanted. And I was starting to get addicted to drugs and meth. I remember at your graduation I was out of it, I regret that so much now.” Bob nearly cried as I looked down

I tap my cup as I sighed “Ya…because we got in an argument, I was so pissed off.” I sigh as Bob nods his head, “That was when you told me it was either weed or you. That was before you found out I was also doing meth and all that” Bob said ashamed

I felt my eyes water “And y-you picked drugs…I remember because it was after the graduation at the graduation party and I couldn’t find you anywhere until I went to the front to see you buying from someone still high.” I sniffed as Bob looked up at me,

“If I could take it all back I would, I hated myself…still do because of that moment. I hated myself so much, after it happened I went home packed a bag a left” Bob eyes were watery as I looked down.

“I went to your house the next day…snuck in through your window. Your mom was home and she had just called my parents to see if you were at my place, she was worried and was asking all the neighbors where you were. I thought maybe you were just ignoring her and was in your room like you always did, but when I got there….and didn’t see you I cried, saw you left you room in a mess like you were in a hurry, the pictures you had of us on your wall on the ground and the pictures frame of me and you from the beach broken on the floor.” I felt a tear run down my face

“I remember laying in your bed because I missed you, took one of your shirts because it smelled like you…then I put all those pictures back into your memory box, i kept the picture that was in the frame. I still have the picture and your shirt.” I laugh softly as I wipe my face as Bob looked at me with wide eyes.

We sat there in silence Bob looked at me as I looked around the park seeing family’s playing, friends laughing, couples chatting. I didn’t say anything as a tear feel down my face and before I could wipe it away I felt another hand wipe it.

I looked back at Bob as he smiled gently at me, “I’m sorry for how I was when I was younger, I was stupid and dumb. I would understand if you actually hated me.” He spoke softly and embarrassed

I shake my head before gently scooting closer to him before resting my head on his shoulder, “I could never hate you Bob…I loved you to much to ever hate you even years later.” I sighed

I felt Bob become tense before I took his hand making small circles with my thumb just like I did when we were younger, Bob soon relaxed before thinking he kissed my head, “I still really want to be selfish.” He said quietly as if a whisper to himself

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We sat like that for hours, people watching in that park together spoke softly to each other about random things, it was nice and gentle. I wish it lasted longer.

Bob had gotten a call and told me he had to head back as I nodded my head telling I should probably head back home as well to finish up grading homework from my students.

When leaving the park Bob was going one way and I was going the other way, we looked at each other not saying much as Bob held my hand still he looked at me with softness as I stared up at him, almost as if we didn’t have to talk to understand each other.

A moment passed before I finally took breath “I-I should get going.” I said softly as bob nods still hesitant to let me go, as if he was scared that if he let go he’ll lose me. But soon he finally let go tucked his hand in his pocket and said his goodbye when he was about to turn away I acted without thinking and kissed his cheek before pulling away seeing the lipgloss it left behind

“Get home safe Bob, text me.” I looked up at him with a smile before turning around and heading home, I looked back for a moment expecting Bob to be gone but he was still standing in that spot looking at me.

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On my walk home I had much to think about, how I felt about Bob, what I should do about Nick. It was a lot.

When I finally got to my apartment and closed the door I walked into the kitchen to get some water where I found Nick making pasta, “Hey hon, thought I make dinner tonight.” Nick said happily before going to kiss my cheek.

I hum in response as I drinked my water before telling him I was going to grade.

Nick didn’t say anything for a moment, before I turning to me, “I don’t like you working at home, in fact I don’t understand why you work? (Reader) I make more than enough for the both of us.” Nick said as I rolled my eyes as Nick went on and on like he always did when I worked at home.

I finally cut him off “Well we’re not married, nor live together so…gotta pay my rent somehow Nick.” I said slightly annoyed as I sat down and began grading as Nick let out a sigh “Well we could get married.”

I froze for a moment “What?” I said as Nick chucked softly “I’m just saying it would make perfect sense, and you won’t have to work anymore, rely on me. Of course when we get married…you’ll have to stop being friends with certain people I don’t like…they’re just bad examples and people I already don’t like you being around.”

Nick spoke so casually about wanting to basically control my life like he wasn’t already. Nick came over with the food and he gave me my plate before sitting across from me.

“Nick I enjoyed my job, and I enjoy being with my friends.” I say softly not in the mood to argue with Nick. As he sighs “You don’t know what you’ll enjoy or like in a couple of years, and I just want what’s best for you, that’s all I want for you. I mean why take care of other people’s kids when we could have our own one day for you to take care of.” Nick said as he took a bit of his food

An image instantly came to mind of me having nicks kids and I instantly felt sick and lost my appetite,

“Well what if I don’t want that?” I looked up at Nick as he rolled his eyes “Well then (reader) you’re just being selfish.” I could tell Nick was getting a little bit annoyed with me since I didn’t immediately obliged

I sigh “Then I’m selfish, because I don’t see myself ever wanting that life…with you.” I mumble the last part

Nick bit the inside of his cheek as he shook his head “You’re being ridiculous, (reader) I just want what’s best for us, and I don’t really appreciate this conversation after I let you go out with a friend almost all day.” Nick was irritated as I looked at him in shock,

“Let me? Nick I’m a grown woman. I can do whatever I damn please and be around whoever I want.” I raised my voice was irritated as I looked up at Nick.

He was about to say something before my phone buzzed, and before I could reach it Nick instantly picked it up to read the text.

New message

Bobby: “I just got back home, wanted to tell you I thought about you and our conversation on my way back, I miss being around you. Anyways hope you take my advice have a good night sweet dreams.”

Nick read the text out loud before slamming my phone down “What the fuck!” Nick raised his voice “You told me you were going out with some friends, and instead you went out with…who the hell is this guy?!” Nick clenched his hand around my phone as I sighed

“He’s an old friend, and I didn’t tell you it was a guy because this is how you’ll react.” I dropped my fork looking at Nick

He shook his head “Damn right, and what was this conversation and advice, huh?! The guy probably wants to get your pants, with the whole ‘I miss being around you’ and ‘sweet dreams’ bullshit.”

I sighed “I don’t want to argue okay? Can we just leave it?” I spoke softly hoping that it would calm Nick down

But instead he got up threw my phone back at me got his coat and keys “I need to get a drink, after finding out my girlfriend is just a liar and a whore!” Nick yelled at me before leaving and slamming the door

I sat there in silence not knowing what to do tears ran down my face, my phone buzzed again it was from Bob, it was a yellow heart emoji, I laughed to myself a little.

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Two days went by and Nick never came back, I didn’t expect him to. I already had a plan in my head if he ever did, I would break up with him.

I had packed his stuff already in a couple of boxes, just a few clothes he left and his bathroom supplies, along with some decor he insisted I put up even though it didn’t match at all.

I was currently at my school in my classroom, my students were at lunch, I was planning my next weeks lesson when I heard a knock on the classroom door, expecting one of mu students I didn’t fully looked up “What do you need sweetie.” I said before looking up to see Bob.

“Bob! Oh, sorry I thought you were one of the students.” I instantly stood up and fixed my skirt that went to my feet. As he smiled down at me, “Hey…I was in the area…I remember you told me the school you worked at, thought I’d come by say hi and you texted me earlier saying you had forgotten your lunch so….I bring gifts.” Bob lifted the togo bag with a shy smile

I invited Bob in as I got one of the kids seats for him to sit with me and my desk as he brought out the subs I caught a glimpse of the receipt ‘Delmar’s’ I looked up at Bob “You didn’t. Bob you went to Queens just for the subs.” I laughed gently as Bob shrugged as his cheeks went pink

“I thought I hid it well with a different bag, but you told this was the best deli place ever….thought I would bring you something you actually enjoy.” Bob smiled as I looked up at him

He handed me the sub as I laughed softly to myself “You got my order right.” I said as I unwrapped the food as Bob looked at me

“I just got it like you use to back in high school. The guy gave me a hard time started going of on me in Spanish some guy had to help translate what he said to me guess the owner knew him, his name was Peter or something, but I explained that the order was for you and the man instantly stoped and made the order.” Bob shrugged as I laughed

“Mr. Delmar, good man I helped him raise money for a new shop after his last one caught on fire, he has a cute cat too.” I smiled before taking a bit of my sub as it instantly hit the spot

Bob chuckled softly at my reaction before he took a bite of his own and looked at me with wide eyes “This is amazing.” I nod my head as we ate in silence before I went to my desk drawer and got a small bag of chips as we ate.

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Bob stayed for a while as he looked around my classroom and saw all the pictures the kids drew nearly half of them was the new Avenger’s most didn’t have Bob only a couple and that was because the kids would copy the pictures from the news.

Bob listened to me talk about my students and how much I had to use his friends as a way to connect with my students to have them listen. I told him about my lessons plans and everything I would think he would find boring but instead he gave me his full attention and helped me come up with new ideas for crafts to make with the kids.

We talked for what felt like eternity as he told me all about the Avengers and how Bucky was in someway the mom of the group and always had to make sure Walker was behaving himself, and how at dinner Yelena would have her guinea pig eat at the table with them so if it ever got silent you would just hear her guinea pig munching on it food.

We laughed over so many things is was nice and comfortable. But when the silence hit, me and Bob just looked at each other enjoying each other company in silence.

We didn’t talk as Bob ate some chips as I finished some emails. Bob didn’t interrupt he sat patiently waiting for me to finish, he went on his phone for a moment before laying it on the desk and continued to look around my classroom and got a close look at the kids drawing some being about the kids family’s, their friends, the avengers, and me. He smiled at the drawings as he looked over them,

I sent the email before I got up to stand next Bob as he looked around, we stood in silence before he spoke up, “You’re students seem to love you.” I smile at his words as I looked up at him, “ya some of kids parents actually appreciate how much I do for the students.” I smile as Bob nods his head before looking down at me

He was about to say something when the bell rang indicating lunch was over, I sighed before grabbing my eyes to the classroom “Well I have to go get my student…I’m happy you came over Bob.” I say as Bob nods his head before going to wrap up his leftover sub and walk out with me

“Of course, couldn’t have you go hungry, you’re educating the brains of our future.” He smiled and chuckled a little as I playfully rolled my eyes as we walked out, “Well I should go get them…text me when you get home, be safe.” I wave at Bob as he nods giving me a small wave before turning to leave to the front office.

As I walked the other way I had an idea, I turned around to face Bob who was already looking at me before I gave him a smile “Hey Bob? Is there a chance…I don’t know…but if the team, the avengers could…could come to school and meet the kids? I’m sure the kids here would be thrilled.” I smiled as Bob looked hesitant before nods “I-I’ll talk to them about it.” He gave me a smile as nod “Thank you, I would appreciate it, just let me know.” I smile before giving him a wave as he turned around to leave as I turned back towards the playground.

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When the school day ended and my students were all picked up, I finally checked my phone as Bob texted me a while ago telling me he was back at the tower before sending me a picture of Yelena and her guinea pig eating together at the table.

I laughed to myself as I texted him back

(Reader): Omg you weren’t lying lmao that’s so cute.

I smiled to myself as I sent the message before getting up with my coffee mug to head to the teachers lounge to get a refill as I saw some of coworkers in there chatting.

I quietly went to the corner where the coffee maker was before the lounge went quiet as they looked at me. Before my colleague Jason and Sarah spoke up, “Someone had a surprise guest come by for lunch who just so happens to be part of the new avengers.” They smiled as I rolled my eyes at the

“He’s my friend and Bob is not part of the new avengers…he just lives with them…and is their when they have press talks in the background.” I say as I add sugar to my coffee

As Jason leaned against the counter next to me “Ya sure. Anyways dose Nick know?” Jason wanted to know all drama and details as Sarah liked to stay silent and listen,

I shake my head before I whisper to them, “Well me and Nick… aren’t really on speaking terms right now, and I could honestly care less if it bothers him or not.” I smile as Jason and Sarah looked at each other with wide eyes as I smile at them with a shrug before leaning against the counter sipping my coffee

Jason shakes his head “Oh naughty, naughty.” He laughed as I smiled at me as Sarah looked at me “So are you and Nick…over?” She asked as I sighed “Well we will be, once he gets over this stupid tantrum of his, I’ll tell him I’m over it, I already have his stuff packed.” Sarah looked at Jason then at me

“I’m just so done with his bullshit.” I sigh as Sarah nods with Jason, they were one of my few friends that actually said I should leave Nick.

They gave me a soft smile as Sarah pat my back “Well we’re on side with this, I mean from what you’ve told me and Jason, Nick seems like a selfish dick.” Jason nods in agreement with her as I gave them both a soft smile and thank you before fixing my hair “Well I should finish up grading my kid’s math assignment.” I smile before leave the teacher lounge.

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When I finally got home I put my bag and leftover sub on the kitchen table beside immediately going to my bedroom and flopping on the bed, kicking off my shoes before I texted Bob I was back home.

I laid on my bed staring up at the ceiling as I let out a sigh before my phone buzzed with Bob sending a thumbs up and yellow heart emoji before he sent a text.

Bobby: “Glad to know, get some rest and enjoy the rest of your leftovers sub, i already ate mine ten out of ten going again.”

I smiled at his text before resting my phone on my chest. I smiled to myself I felt like a teenager girl again crushing on a boy who just texted her.

“God damn it Bob.” I say before I rest my head on my pillow and eventually close my eyes.

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A/n: okay Bob is such a cutie also did y’all get my reference heh, I know I’m amazing. Anyways Taylor swift definitely came to mind when writing about Bob and reader when they were in high school. Also next chapter wouldn’t come out right away I’m still writing here and there into it, and because it’s my finals week I’m not gonna post a new chapter to the series this week, okay much love byeee!!!

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These new chapters in process of ‘Let me be selfish’ got thinking about making a backstory of Bob and reader when they were younger and in high school.

Tell what y’all think

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I laugh at how their like “Fuck this Bucky is hurt, we’re screwed ”

they really all said fuck this shit I'm out

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Let me be selfish (part 1)

Bob Reynold x fem! Reader

Part 2

Summary: After years of being apart and moving to Manhattan, New York City from Sarasota Springs, Florida and in a new relationship, you see a familiar face on the news.

Notes: Since we don’t really know how old Bob is supposed to be I’m gonna say in this story he’s like 28 and reader is like 26-27 just she’s only a little bit younger then him but she’s out of college and a teacher for second grade.

Warnings: cheating sort of? (Not on Bob), Arguing (not with bob), toxic/controlling relationship (again not with Bob)

!THIS IS NOT PROOF READ! So I’m sorry if it’s shit

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I was back in my apartment the tv still on with the news I had frantically put on to know what the hell was happening outside, my phone buzzing like crazy and my broom that I was just sweeping my living room with laying on the floor. I looked around my room making sure I wasn’t back there in the memory’s I had long forgotten or pushed deep down.

My phone buzzed it was my boyfriend Nick who was out of the city this week for a business event, calling my phone before I finally went and picked it up.

“Hello? Nick?” I say into the phone as I hear Nick breathing hard “Oh thank god (reader) I’ve been calling for what feels like the hundredth time. A-are you okay? Are you hurt? What’s going on?” Nick said out of breath not really giving me a chance to speak before I finally cut him off “Nick! I’m fine, just the city looks a little bit beaten up but what else is new, I’m watching the news right now some press thing about the hero’s that saved us. Hold on let me turn it up.” I walked back to my living room standing as I turned up the tv volume.

Miss Valentina Allegr who was just on trial only days ago as she talks to the press as I see James Buchanan Barnes or Congress man Barnes, then an older man in a red suit, followed by U.S. agents John Walker, a brunette woman, and a blonde woman holding the arm of a man with goldish bold hair. He seems almost familiar as I looked at him for a moment before it hit me that was Bob,

My Bob.

Nick was still on the phone as Valentina Allegr introduced the hero’s as the new Avengers as I see Bob in the back smiling and clapping as the camera catches the hero’s, as I stare at my tv in shock and silence I hear Nick in the phone asking me what’s going on as he stared getting notifications from social media about the ‘New avengers’

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Over a week went by and all over social media I couldn’t escape ‘The New Avengers’ it was the hottest thing people were talking about and the number one hashtag, and also since I’m a teacher for second grade all they wanted to talk about was the hero’s, it didn’t help either that the team was making public viewings helping along the people to rebuild after the distribution that occurred.

Nick had finally got back from his trip, he was currently working from my apartment since he was scared to leave me again worried he would lose me, also because his office and apartment were near all the damage and some his neighbors had there place ruined so his whole building was evacuated,

It was…nice having him over except for the constant dirty dishes and him always asking what I’m making for dinner right when I get back from work as if he’s not there all day. But it was nice having Nick around, he kept me company sort of.

Today was no different, i got to work helped my students with whatever they needed, taught English and math, and taught them fun facts about butterflies. But of course for the writing assignment I once again got a picture draw of ‘The new avengers’ with the whole team, it was a story on how the little girl in my class dreamed to thank the hero’s that saved her and her mom.

Once school was over I headed out only for me to release I still hand to grade math test and didn’t feel like going home just to get Nick on my ass about not making dinner because I was doing work, so instead of heading straight home I went to a cozy cafe, I ordered myself a drink before finding a little corner and began grading.

After about twenty minutes or so, I was in the zone of grading and making sure to put stickers on every test, until I heard a woman with a Russian accent whisper yelling at a man who had his back to me, I didn’t pay it much attention as I went back until I saw shoes on the corner of my eye as the man cleared his throat

When I looked up my eyes went wide as my jaw dropped slightly. It was Bob, my Bob Reynolds

“Hi (reader), it’s…it’s been a while.” he said softly with a nervous smile as he waved awkwardly like he always did since we were kids

I sat there dumbfounded before I could even think of what to do or say my body instantly reacted with giving him a hug as I felt my eyes watering before I looked up at him as he looked down as me. We stood like that as if time had stoped before I realized what was happening, I had gently pulled away.

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Bob and the woman who was apart of the ‘New Avengers’ ordered some coffee and tea before she went to go read in a corner but also keep an eye on us.

Bob sat down across from me as we just looked at each other in silence, before he finally spoke “So…how are things?” He asked gently as I looked at him, he looked just like the Bob I knew but different, healthier. I didn’t realize I was staring till Bob waved his hand in front of me and jumped slightly as he smiled with a gentle chuckle.

I looked up at him as I smiled “I’ve been good, I’m a teacher now…I teach second grade.” I say as I sip my drink before Bob looked at me

“You always did want to be a teacher.” He smiled as I playfully rolled my eyes “I wanted to be a lot of things.” I laugh as did Bob as he nods “Ya but teacher always stuck, I remember you talking about how you won’t ever teach high school or middle schoolers, and you would teach probably pre school or some elementary level.” He smiled as looked down at the test I was grading as I smiled

“ya well pre school was the plan, always enjoyed finger panting, but better pay was second grade the highest I’ll ever go. And I get more sick days and time off, also if I ever started thinking about having kids one day at least I get better maternity leave.” I shrug as I put a sticker on another test

Bob looked at me and nodded before he took a drink from his tea, we sat in a comfortable silence for a moment as I finished up grading the last of the test. As I put them away in a folder back in my purse and looked up at Bob.

He was just looking at me, just like how he use to when we were younger, resting his head on his hand, elbow on the table as he just looked at me.

I shouldn’t have felt flustered or had my cheek burn up as if I was back in middle school when a boy I liked gave me some sort attention or talked to me

I awkwardly took a sip of my drink before I looked up at Bob “So what are you doing now? How’s everything going?” I asked as he just gave a shrug

“Well I’m sober now from you know drugs…sort of, trying to be. Just actually started from what I can last remember, but I’ve made friends…good friends, Yelena is probably my closest friend.” He said looking at me as I smile “I’m happy you’re doing better…it takes a lot to want to get clean.” I say as I reach out and held his arm gently with a soft squeeze looking up at him

Staring at each other in silence neither of us moved as if we were scared to move the moment would end. But of course my phone started ringing I let it ring before it stoped then started again as I let out a sigh turn back to my purse and getting my phone as it was Nick calling.

I sigh before answering as I hear Nick talked to me pissed off “(Reader) where the hell are you! It’s almost six clock and you’re not home, I mean are you gonna pick something up for dinner or something?” He asked irritated as I take a deep breath shaking my head slightly “I’ll be back soon and I’ll just pick up something on my way, I just went to get a coffee and finish up grading some test.” Nick didn’t seem to fully grasp the idea I still had work even after the school day ended before he reply “Fine.” And hung up as I rolled my eyes and put my phone away,

I took a deep breath and put on a smile before looking up at Bob, “It was really nice seeing you again Bob…Um maybe we can meet again when I have more time.” I say as I get myself ready to go before I pulled out a sticky note and pen, I wrote down my number and hand it to him

“here’s my number, just incase you don’t sill have it.” I smile as Bob took the sticky note before he stood up nodding his head “Ya…I’ll add you right now.” Bob said as he got his phone and called my mine as I my phone ringed and I saved his number before I take a picture of him on my phone for his contact before I took his phone and took a funny picture saving it as my picture on his phone as he smiled

Bob was taller then as looked down at me slightly before I handed him his phone “um text me when you get home, want to make sure you’re safe.” He said looking at me as I smiled and nod “Will do…and maybe we can talk more next time we see each other.” I smile before giving Bob a quick hug before heading out with a small wave

As I walked past Bobs friend whom I guess was Yelena she nods to me and I nod back before leaving.

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I picked up some Indian food from a restaurant near my apartment, to me it was best and most authentic you could get in New York and I also knew Nick wasn’t a huge fan but would eat it just to make me happy.

When I got home I texted Bob I was home safe and sound as he replied with a heart and smiling face before texting “happy to hear, or read anyways glad you’re home safe.” I smiled and laughed softly before I heard Nick come out of the room as I opened the to go bag and got plates as I hear Nick let out a irritated sigh

As I turn around and began serving the food as I looked at him, “What?” I shrug as Nick shakes his head “You know I don’t like that crap.” He points at the food as I look up at him “Well I wanted it, and if you don’t like it you’re more then welcome to make yourself something or go get something, I don’t really care.” I served myself as Nick groaned like a little kid who didn’t get his way as he pulled the “I’ve been busy and I still have stuff I had to do, and I’m the one watching over the place.” He said as if he had been helping me

I sat down to tired to argue but Nick just wouldn’t shut up about how he has to be the man of the place and he deserves some respect and credit as I shake my head “What the hell is wrong with you, Nick all you do it be on your damn computer either doing work or playing video games, and you make a mess, don’t pick up after yourself, your not helping in anyway with the apartment it’s still a mess or gets worse when I get home! And all I hear all day is you playing and yelling at that stupid game!”

I sat back down, I had finally cracked as Nick was taken back before he cursed me out and left slamming the door, as I sat at the table almost in tears.

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About a week went by me and bob have been texting every so often, he would tell me about his day and what the Avengers are doing around the building, I would often tell him about my students and how much they appreciate and admire the Avengers.

We would text for hours, as if we had nothing else in the world to get to. Nick hated it, we were still trying to figure things out, after the argument he came back drunk and I didn’t bother to baby him, but after that night he started to help out more, doing dishes and putting them away, cleaning the apartment so often, and picking up after himself.

It wasn’t much but it was better then before, but part of me was over him and over the fighting and arguing. And when I tried to sit down and talk to Nick, he would bring up the soft moments, when we cared for each other, and how he probably would be a different person he never met me. And I hated it because I would block out all the bad when he said these things, but I could never stop it.

I tired talking about with some of my friends from work and outside of work, but they would always bring up how attractive Nick was and how he makes good money. Some would tell me, “Just stick it out, you’ll get a comfortable life because of him.” And I was tired of it.

So I went to Bob, we met in the coffee shop from last time, before we went to a park and sat at a bench as I told him all about Nick, and over the past four years being with Nick.

Bob sat there and listen, as I told him what my friends had said and everything, as he just nodded and listened waiting till I was done to say something before he put his hand on mine “Y-you know I can’t tell you to leave him, I’m not exactly just an old friend so it would sound pretty selfish if i said “leave him” but…(reader) I will say this.” Bob took a moment a breath

He looked down as he sigh “I-I want to be selfish, I just…(reader) when I got some of my memories back, and I saw your face and all our memories together, and when the team went to our old town, they got some of my old stuff like my jornal and memory box, and I read and looked at ever letter and picture we had together. God…I knew I had to find you.” I looked up at Bob as I took breath as he closed his eyes

“I want to tell you to leave him, but I have to be honest, it’s only because I want you back.” He said looking back at me.

I didn’t speak I just looked up at Bob, before he gently leaned forward as if he was going to kiss me, but instead he rested his forehead on mine, closed his eyes and sighed.

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A/n: okay what y’all think, should I make this a small series or what, I find this idea so cute and I probably will use this idea for another short story in the future. Okay bye much love.

[blueberrykizz]

Guys I barely just got 1,000 TikTok videos of Pedro pascal saved in a TikTok folder mind you this folder has been around since 2022😭

[blueberrykizz]

Okay just watch the trailer for stranger things season 5. I THOUGHT IT WAS COMING OUT THIS SUMMER. Yk so people could actually watch it I mean it would just make more sense yk since teens are out of school and even if you have a job like you can come home during summer and watch stranger things.

I lowkey really just wanted another stranger things summer like we had in 2022

Anyways here the link, I’ll probably be balling my eyes out when this season drops

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But ya the younger versions of me is screaming 💙

[blueberrykizz]

has anyone done this yet?

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Been a fan of Lewis Pullman for so long and so happy to see all the love he’s getting FINALLY and heh all the fanfics are feeding me right now during finals 😛

He’s literally such a cutie

I only found his acting in Highston bc I was bored during 2020 but still one of my favorites of his. Definitely worth watching

Not my GIF