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For me, being fictionkin is kind of a subtle thing that impacts literally everything I do.

My kin types are all involuntary, spiritually based, and hinge on my UPG (unverifiable personal gnosis) that I reincarnated and lived as each of these people/species at some point.

Many of my memories from these past lives are vague, or they are something silly from my point of view. Most of my personal memories from my Cannon don't show up in the show or are subtlety different. A good example is that Time Lord society on Gallifrey is much more complex than they have time for in the TV series and less human. I also remember the color of the sky and the way the planet looked in natural settings well enough to replicate it in photo edits this life. Elven memories aren't that detailed, probably because they seem to be older. However I still remember what elves looked like fairly well and I still have a tendency to prefer nature and technology that interacts with nature over strict nature vs technology.

Another big thing is that there is literally no way for me to completely divorce being fictionkin from this life. For me, this life is an extension of my fiction kin lives. Of course I am very different now than I was then, but I have also lived more, experienced more, and we all change as we continue to learn and experience new things. It feels no different to me than looking back on who I was as a much younger and less experienced person this life. The memories and remaining emotions from that life influenced my decisions this life and those decisions continue to impact me now.

There is a lot of overlap between being fictionkin and otherkin for me, especially as I tended towards not incarnating as human. Who knows why I ended up human this life, but here we are

I hope this helps ☕

So uh. I’ve always thought fictionkin stuff was something that happened to other people but not me and I’m still somewhat confident in that. But.

Well. I have no idea how it works, so could anyone who has that going on explain what it’s like for you? I know there’s a lot of different ways people experience it, and I wanna hear as many different versions as possible

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Finrod: I can now tell you all: werewolves taste awful.

Celegorm: Dude I could tell that from looking. I didn't need to put one in my mouth.

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I absolutely adore your designs, your work actually got me to read the Silmarillion haha but I am curious, do you have a design for the valar? I’d love to see how you’d interpret some of the lesser talked about valar, like Irmo or Nessa

hello!!!! thank you so much for your kind words! first off, it's such high praise to hear that...! i started drawing this stuff mostly out of a silly love for long haired elf dudes, so it's always very humbling to hear that other people enjoy what i make 🙇 i'm really happy you were able to read the Silmarillion!! it's truly a testament to professor tolkien's amazing work that there is a community invested in his work that's been so consistently active and thriving for decades now :D

now on to your question! i do indeed have designs for the valar -- the first renditions i ever did of them when i was a baby silm fan can be found here, but it's from 2021 so it's very outdated and frankly my old art makes me shrivel up a little ahjsdhj 🫣 then in 2023, i did some rough redesigns of them as chibi heads, but for some reason i never got around to posting it ^^;;; it's just been gathering dust in my gallery, but i suppose this is the perfect time to prove they do in fact exist...!

but this was in 2023, so ive had a few changes ive wanted to make in the time since-- i also never formally drew their fullbody designs, so ive been meaning to getting around that sometime this year :D im not sure when but hopefully before december, fingers crossed! since you asked specifically about irmo and nessa, the most i can say for now is that i think i'll keep irmo's design roughly the same from his 2021 version (though maybe with a more detailed outfit?), and nessa will get a total rehaul to follow her 2023 redesign! im so sorry that this is all i have to offer as of now though 😭

the most i have now are some very tentative manwe sketches from january i havent finished since then hahaha.... i have dubbed him 'biblically accurate manwe' ദ്ദി ˉ͈̀꒳ˉ͈́ )✧

thank you again for sending in such a lovely ask, and may you have a wonderful rest of the weekend! ^^

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Originally I wanted to be a veterinarian and own an alpaca farm.

so one of my friends on discord said “when i grow up i wanted to be a teacher, not a bomb target” and it kinda got me thinking about what i wanted to be, and if something like this could become some sort of anti-war movement?? i know i’m on a small ass account and this is kinda cringe; but if you see this and want to join in, reblog, what did you (or do you) wanna be?

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Absolutely, this goes very hard for me as Gallifreyan kin (and TARDIS) as well as elven kin.

Gallifrey was home to me, and as much as I genuinely think that a lot of my source memories would just be better TV (I remember a lot of very funny shenanigans and the people were much more fleshed out and interesting), but I just cannot with how shallow a lot of the writing has gotten.

As for Alvin, I actually will stop completely with a source if I don't like the way the elves look. If they look too human I frequently will refuse to watch it. Things like that genuinely shattered the fourth wall for me so badly that I just stop.

I think part of the problem with people misunderstanding fictionkin is that for the average person, relating to a character is the only way they can conceptualize connecting with said character.. I’ve talked to people in my life about being fictionkin, for the most part it’s not relatable, which is fine, I don’t need to be understood to be respected.

When it comes to things people don’t understand, one response is to project their own experiences onto it. This makes it hard to point out the misunderstanding, because they’ve made the topic about them.

I get frustrated trying to explain what being fictionkin is for this reason. Relatability for me is part of it, but not the whole story, and required deep introspection. I find that since I’m a horror villain, I have to really emphasize that relatability is not how I discovered this about myself. Instead it was the constant shifts, and the euphoria I got being seen as Freddy that drew me to this conclusion .

I want to be clear that I’m not trying to excuse the KFF community, instead I want to examine why people often get fictionkin so wrong.

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Never not reblogging the Rani calling the Master out on his very gay shit.

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Oh my gods, the waiting is so real. So is not necessarily having a tomboy phase. Granted I had many phases where I was very masculine in my appearance, but at the same time I still liked dresses. And why say at the same time I liked dresses, I would wildly alter back and forth between presentations just by my mood alone. I am still a trans guy, but I am still very much fluctuating back and forth between appearances because I am just like that.

I definitely agree that I see gender as an identity more than simply a and a performance in ways that CIS people simply don't like.

One really weird thing transphobic cis women will say is something to the effect of “I was a tomboy, thank god it was before the transgender craze. They would made me transition.” Like, probably not, girl. As you are a cis woman who has never communicated any form of gender dysphoria. It makes it really obvious that they think being transgender is just conforming to different gender roles. There is an ocean between a little girl who likes traditionally masculine fashion and has traditionally masculine interests and a child that is transgender. They are not a slippery slope. They don’t push you down the slide of transgenderism if you cut your hair short when you’re 12.

There are so many trans men who were never tomboys, who were the picture of the ‘perfect little girl’ and genuinely enjoyed traditionally feminine hobbies and expressing themselves in ways associated with femininity. It confuses and angers cis people when they come out as trans because they only see gender as a role to perform and not an identity. If you’re truly a woman, you’re generally not susceptible to randomly turning into a man. If you’re truly a man, you’re generally not susceptible to randomly turning into a woman.

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Don't Fall for this scam.

Transgender community, please please please do NOT use this product! It will kill you if used, please do not use it whatsoever.

Please reblog and spread the word

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I'm keeping an eye out for heat stroke in my area and I can't figure out what a full body flush would look like on dark skin since all the pictures are just fake training pictures. Anyone have video/pics of a heat stroke flush on black skin?

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The fabled aroallo cishet man up to nefarious things is such a nonsense concept. Loads of queer people don't even know what aromantic is about. If a cishet man has done enough reflecting to figure out they're aromantic then chances are they've already been a friend and ally to queer people for a considerable amount of time.

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when i think about what it means to be queer, i think about resting my head on my best friend's lap in the high school cafeteria when i was unbearably sick but had to come to school anyways because it was finals week, and i remember that a few weeks earlier he told me he might be bisexual because he thought me and Brendan Urie were really hot, and i remembering thinking this guy thinks i'm hot and here i am pale and sweaty, head in his lap in front of the whole school

when i think about being queer, i think about the time i had to present at the school science fair, and i started hyperventilating in my room looking at myself in the mirror wearing men's dress clothes; i think about my boyfriend at the time texting the head of the school's queer spectrum alliance club about it, and how 10 minutes later i had 12 different outfits from 12 different students to choose from to wear instead, no questions asked

when i think about being queer i think about getting so caught up in a make-out session in the woods with a friend that we lost track of time and i ended up being 10 minutes late to physics the day before our midterm and had to ask to borrow a pencil and paper to take notes. i got a 93 on that midterm btw

when i think about being queer i think about how i didn't want to watch a movie alone, and one 16 hour date and 5 years later, i'm engaged to one of the most incredible men i've ever met

when i think about being queer, i think about how in April of 2020, after being kicked out of my college dorms due to covid, i told my friend, a nonbinary lesbian married to a transgender man, that i couldn't handle getting misgendered at home anymore, in less than an hour i was in their car, on my way to the house they were living at, where they said i could stay as long as i needed

when i think about being queer, i think about how when that ended up not being true, when the owner of that house kicked me out, i texted my now and also then ex boyfriend, and again, in less than an hour, i was in a car, on my way to his house where i could stay as long as i needed.

when i think about being queer, i think about a few months later, sitting at his kitchen table, him calling me a motherfucker because i accidentally tugged too hard emptying his drains from top surgery. sorry about that, btw

when i think about being queer, i think about trying to give my fiance his first T shot and it turning into a multi day ordeal because the pharmacy gave him the wrong needles, but ultimately my sister in law was able to do it for him. i think about how for the past year i've driven him to Park West pharmacy, owned and operated by trans people, and they've given him his shot because he doesn't like doing it himself.

when i think about being queer, i think about the road trip i took a few years ago to visit my friends, and even though we're mostly all "queer content creators" to the outside world, we didn't end up creating any content at all; we hung out, i slept on their couches, they bought me food, we played games, and we were happy

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