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The best part of the percy jackson books is that from percy's perspective hes just an easygoing funny cool guy who seems pretty harmless but the moment you see him from someone elses pov hes terrifying. Just a crazy good fighter, a force of nature killing machine, literally gets mistaken for a god in disguise. But he doesnt see that side of himself at all because hes too busy arguing with authority figures and respecting women. I love him

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sally's boy [post-tartarus, percabeth]

cw & tw for angst, ptsd, suicidal thoughts, unhealthy attachment

post hoo! sally's perspective.

sally doesn't know what to do with them, but she can't say anything. she turns a blind eye with an aching heart every time she hears the balcony door swing open in the middle of the night, annabeth's footsteps soft because she's trying not to be heard.

the first time she noticed it happened percy had been home for two days. it's three in the morning when she hears a muffled scream from her son's room, and she hurls herself out of bed, something primal welling up inside her as she runs for her boy, her lovely, traumatized, beautiful--

it's not percy who was screaming. she jerks to a stop right outside his door (two months later, when it's still happening, sally will call it their door) and gingerly waits as she hears voices, shaking and hoarse, from inside.

"--safe, beth," she hears percy whisper, over and over with the thickness and depth of someone who knew what unsafe really was like. his voice is strained, like he's trying not to cry. "i love you, i love you, shh, love, i love you, i love you--"

and sally claps a hand over her mouth to muffle her own sob as she hears what annabeth retorts with, like the daughter of a goddess can't help it, like the grisly words are ripped brutally from her throat. "i should've died, i should be dead, you should have let me die, percy, i want to--"

and percy cries, then, an ugly choking sound that annabeth mirrors, and sally can picture them grabbing onto each other, gripping each others' forearms and ignoring the nails that dig into skin. the mattress creaks like they've pressed together, too aware of what would happen if they were ever apart.

then it's muffled again, like they've thrown a blanket over themselves, but sally has heard enough.

it hurts, the next morning, when percy drags himself into the kitchen and blinks blearily at her. he blushes a little at the two coffees that sally has set out, but takes them both with a grateful half-smile. he says nothing, but kisses sally's cheek and accepts a scrunch of his hair before he disappears back down the hallway. he has scratches up his forearms that weren't there yesterday (sally always knows).

it hurts more to think that this is the best sally can do. make two cups of coffee and tousle her son's hair when she doesn't even know what happened to him, other than it was horrible and so terribly other.

so she turns a blind eye, heart heavy, salt drying on her cheeks, limbs aching from a newfound weariness she feels guilty for even having. sally pretends she doesn't know that every night, annabeth heaves her broken body over the balcony railing to come cry in tandem with her broken son.

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"‘If you ever leave me again,’ she said, her eyes stinging, ‘I swear to all the gods –’ Percy had the nerve to laugh. Suddenly the lump of heated emotions melted inside Annabeth."

I thought I would jump back on tumblr and start sharing my recent art, in case anyone isn't on IG <3

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annabeth chase, THE girl ever 🫶

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post-tartarus percabeth headcanons!

i am so abnormal about percabeth rn. tw for post-tartarus trauma exploration, unhealthy attachment. just some of my angsty character exploration. read with caution

after tartarus percy doesn't know what to do with himself, because by necessity his world has been finetuned to annabeth and what her survival means to the world. to him. he goes each day with shaking hands that only still when he is able to hold her, to touch her.

percy doesn't know how to talk to his mom anymore. sally does her best and bakes him endless blue cookies and homecooked warm meals and sits with him in the rain but he can't meet her eyes. how can he? how can he look his mother in the eye when he blames himself for causing so much pain?

percy doesn't care about college. he doesn't care about his life. the monsters are always there, and the paranoia settles into his skin like his organs have forgotten what clean, safe air feels like. he sleeps every night with annabeth shaking in his arms, one hand threaded through her hair and the other clutching riptide like his second lifeline. he almost lost his first, once. and he will never let that happen again.

annabeth knows this is unhealthy. somewhere in her head she knows athena is frowning down on them with disapproval, or maybe she understands. annabeth can't let percy out of her sight. she sees gorgons, fates, giants, titans, evil everywhere, and the shadow of it all clenches around her and all she has is percy. maybe athena understands, or maybe she is scared, too, of what annabeth has become. of what they have made each other.

they would each destroy worlds for the other, kill without a second thought at any mortal, monster, or god who dares step in between them. and they are terrified, but they know nothing else.

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Be careful, Seaweed Brain.

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[dan and phil and CATS - high school lockers]

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*ੈ✩‧₊hello⋆｡°✩

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DIL HOWLTER IS BACK - Dan and Phil Play: The Sims 4 #65 (October 22nd, 2013)

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6:47 (2018 -> 2023)

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very dangerous game

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All jokes aside, I know it’s funny how often Dan and Phil repeat the fact that they’re gay in the gaming video, but it’s probably so freeing for them. As someone who was here during the part of their career where the fandom was batshit crazy, with the state of Dan’s mental health as well as their careers not being 100% stable, coming out and repeating that they were gay was unimaginable. Looking back as an adult and with more context, it probably feels so good to, after all of these years, casually say that they’re gay. Dan and Phil, Dan especially due to the circumstances, spent the majority of their career having a lot of fear and pressure when it came to talking about their sexuality. It probably feels so nice to finally upload a regular video where they mention the fact they are gay and it isn’t a big deal. They’ve never had that luxury for most of their career. So while it is hilarious how often they mention that they’re gay, there’s also the fact that they can say it now and they don’t have to fear large, invasive, and or negative responses. As someone who has grown up with dnp as their career has progressed, it feels really nice to finally see this change.

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updated meme

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im actually able to finish my sims series rewatch now i could never make it through the last ten episodes bc i knew there was nothing after but now! NOW THERES SOMETHING! THANK YOU DAN AND PHIL

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“hiatus survivors” they’re so predictable

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2018 - 2023

Time is an illusion...

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something about the whiskers mug in the dapg setup in the forever home . something something the night changes