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I have to pee but my cat is on me and I don't want to wake him. UGH.

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I had a really strange dream three days ago and I absolutely cannot stop thinking about it. The details are hazy, but I remember it being imperative that I get both of my arms amputated. I think it was because my legs were feeling odd, but I'm not sure. Throughout the whole dream there was something chasing/attacking me and the people around me and involved in the story of the dream. The person who was going to amputate my arms didn't cut through them all the way and just cut deeper and deeper each time they saw me, but never got to the bone. 

It wasn't gruesome or anything and it was actually an amazing, releasing pain, if there was any pain at all. The dream continued and I can't really organize the timeline of events or really focus on any specifics, but in the end I still had my arms, but had scars where I was being cut. 

The worst part is that when i woke up I thought I would have those scars and actually felt...disappointment and a bit of shame, actually. I seriously can't get it off my mind and I've caught myself rubbing my arms where the scars would have been. I had a dream before this where I survived a chainsaw clipping my neck (I should have died, but it was a dream) and for a few days kept expecting a scar on my neck from that. The thing is that feeling on my neck disappeared after a day or so, my arms have been bothering me for nearly a week now. 

I know I won't cut myself, but it's starting to interfere with being able to think clearly and sleep. Ugh, I don't know, it's just really strange.

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My head feels like it's going to explode. It's to the point where I can't fucking swallow without a surge of dull pain going through my head. 

Unfortunately pain killers and water have not helped. I also think my forehead is really hot (I can't find the thermometer...I need to get my shit together) so I might have a fever and be sick. UGH. 

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I don’t think that the women of tumblr seem to understand that all men are not rapists. I’ve personally lost out on pussy for the sake of not being...

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HYPERBOLE AND A HALF UPDATED THIS IS NOT A DRILL

I REPEAT THIS IS NOT A DRILL

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i scrolled past this pretty fast and thought it was a massive, wrapped up shit.

i didn’t want this

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i really want a job where i can get paid for doing nothing

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How hard is it to kill nine-year-olds?

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did you try turning your government off and on again

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These past few days my mind has been in a really strange place and because I've been thinking about it, I am officially extending my hand to everyone else who needs someone to talk to. 

I've been through my fair share of depression and I know I always feel better when I remember there is someone who wants to help! Seriously, no matter how big or small a problem you have, I'm here for you, even if you just want to vent and don't want me to say anything.

Absolutely no judgement from me. 

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PLEASE TRIGGER WARNING JERRY ROOTING AROUND FOR THAT NIPPLE

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