bugbuck

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i love sebastian stan

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always sketches but I need to get everything out of my head -THE FEELINGS

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fucking hate how they cut out the timebomb scenes in ep9. episode 7 was LEADING UP TO SOMETHING. Not for the kiss but something after that!!!! not the part where he saves her, either. i bet that the montage in ep7 was gonna be a parallel to them working tgt w the fireflies and the room blimp in ep9. Like????? we were so so robbed. it feels so unfinished.

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give bro his girl back im so serious this is destroying me

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oh, ekko :(

no thoughts, just... thinking about the way Ekko looks at Powder...

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Your eyes and mine

Your touch, and mine

Your heart and mine

Parallels between

I cannot live with you

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near-death experiences

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IT'S YOU THAT I LIE WITH

pairing: xiao/reader yes, it's you i welcome death with. in which where, all of teyvat will crumple in only a few minutes - the countdown starts. everyone gathering to accept their fate.

"Say goodbye to all of your friends and family - for Teyvat will be destroyed." Zhongli's loud voice boomed across the panicking crowd, the countdown decreasing any moment. "There is nothing I can do. I apologize." His eyes held empathy for the pleading people kneeling before him. It was no use for a disguise anymore; as he was now in his old archon's outfit. "I am merely a messenger."

The people from across the world gathers to accept their fate. Others refuse to believe it was the end and fled. All the people could do was pray and hope that some miracle will happen, yet we all know it's going to end.

On top of a mountain, they sit and pray for Celestia's forgiveness. Families come to reunite and friends come to reconcile.

When you had no one.

You watched as the people cry and hug; whilst the sky turns even contrast by the second. It was an orange-red hue, yet it was still morning.

You had absolutely no one here. You couldn't find anyone you knew.

You stood, begging for it to end quickly. When will the meteorite strike? Will it swallow everyone? Was there any chance of surviving?

Was feeling pathetic the only emotion you will experience?

One person comes into your mind.

...An old friend.

Where are you?

The last time you saw him was maybe, eons ago. That time you weren't a coward for everything, before the archon war. Before you lost everything.

Before you shielded yourself from the world.

It's okay to be a bit selfish, right? Everyone's gonna die anyway.

You descended the mountain, running to your feet. It was a confused loop. That didn't stop you, though. You didn't want to be alone, not this time. The feeling to be safe under one's company, that would be amazing. Just for once. Please.

Just let it be this time.

Almost tripping over the rocks, you continued your journey.

What was his name?

...What was it?

Loss of gradual memory was what you endured after the war. The memory of old colleagues, names - Even your own. You'd forgotten almost everything over time.

What you did remember, was the chuckle of somebody. It was faint, yet you could tell your past memories enjoyed hearing that. It was not a laugh. It was merely a chuckle, something of amusement.

You set your foot on the wooden bridge of Wangshuu Inn.

His name is just on the tip of your tongue. You know him. You know him. Who is he?!

"Finally. Just the two of us!"

"You don't like the other adepti?"

"No, dummy. I just think spending time alone with you is the best."

"...Why's that?"

"You're my best company. It's like, I can tell you everything, ████."

Who...?

"Do you think of me.. that way?"

"Yes! Please, don't ever drift away from me. Even if bad things happen. Please?"

"...Okay. Promise.

I won't leave." That chuckle.

"Heh. Thanks.. I'm tearing up, sorry. I don't know why I get so emotional, ████..."

The sky turns deep red. You were losing time.

"Hello!? Is anybody there?! I need someone... I need someone to spend this with..." You crouched, burying your head in your hands. What was his name?

"I can't be alone again." You sniff. "I haven't... I haven't remembered everything yet. I... don't want to die yet."

"Xiao, thank you. Thank you."

"Calm down... I'm right here, you know."

...Is that... his name...?

"Xiao?"

You stood up, and you almost tumbled back again once your body was covered in a hug - Dark anemo energy revealed a familiar boy.

His green hair, his slim figure...!

"Is that your name? Xiao?"

You can feel him nodding.

"I was hoping I would find you." His voice cracks. "I didn't want to see you so helpless, so I stupidly left you on your own. I left you. I thought, it was useless to try to get your memories back, after what I've done you would never-"

You hugged back.

You finally felt the feeling of warmness, under someone's arms.

"Remember that the world is ending soon, so no more crying.." You broke the hug to see his face. "Will you die with me? As weird as it sounds?"

That chuckle. No wonder you loved it so much, you were the only person that could ever hear him be so carefree.

"...Okay. Let's," He smiled. "Let's spend the last of our lives together.

To make up for lost times."

"I only forgot your name, okay? I still remember that time you almost kissed me-"

"T-That was thousands of years ago.."

old work i found in my drafts. did this when i was listening to matt maltese on loop!!!

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mmm cezburges :33

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who else do you need to lose but yourself?

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i will lie with you in the cold sand and i will guide you towards where the sun tears the earth open and there we could live in the moon, all to ourselves

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there is nothing in between

no matter how hard you could think,

or how hard you could try,

there was nothing.

at all.

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LET ME SWAY, WITH YOU BETWEEN OVERGROWN TREES

pairing: scaramouche | kunikuzushi/f! reader an evening filled with only the accidental feelings spilt into the rainy sky.

ㅤ

ㅤEverything, was out of plan.

ㅤRaindrops crashed down at a pace - running down and bartering with the breaths of wind altogether; the evening sky was inevitably transparent, covered by the dark clouds. One could mistake it had already been night. The smell of moisture on the ground comes out musky and pleasant, it could be either a fresh or troublesome feeling to those who'd seldom see it.

ㅤ It plucks grating sounds; much like a crackling firepit. The pitter-patter fills both who hear the sound, as moist from the clothes that had stained wet stick onto their skin.

ㅤ "This, is annoying." She started. "Why." She hugged your shaking body. They were currently in the area of Apam Woods; a forest inside the nation of sumeru - filled with enormous trees across the region, home to a few of the people there.

ㅤ It was not a surprise when the rain had interferred - it was known for its rainy climate changes anyway. Yet, it was the two of them's first time ever setting foot to Apam Woods, not knowing it was going to be this bad.

ㅤ They were here on what was supposedly a small quest to find Rukkhashava mushrooms, sent as a sweet favor from Aether. They accepted as Kuni needed those anyway. She was sent also to keep an eye on him. (The blonde had bribed you with money.)

ㅤ "Why do I need to do this with you." He grumbled under his breath, making sure she heard anyway. The increasing rain had already dirtied most of his clothing, it was a relief his hat was to cover from the godforsaken weather.

ㅤ "Ask your mom." She glared back, not really feeling the moment.

ㅤ She, on the other hand, did not have no hat. "You're bad luck to be with."

ㅤ He was about to make another retort when it was interrupted by a loud thunder, signing that it was getting worser. Surprised by the sudden sound, she shakily yelped.

ㅤ He realized he was a bit-really a dickhead for leaving her to damp under the heavy rain. Begrudgingly, he got close and approached her - pushing his heightened pride away.

ㅤ Kuni pulled the brim of his hat towards the girl and closed the small distance around them. She looks up to him in surprise; still shaking - her hands clutches between their chests.

ㅤ "...Traveler might kill me if you get sick." He stared down, looking amused.

ㅤ A scoff was heard. "I'll blame you for it, that's for sure." She awkwardly lets her hands fall to the side. This close to the former fatui - (She still didn't believe this prick was once a member of the fatui, but, okay) was not an often experience, especially next to his soft porcelain face. Wait, what?

ㅤ "Let's find a place to stay in and wait until this ends." He mumbles, noticing how the thunder was getting more frequent. He looks around, looking for any spot to stay in for the moment.

ㅤ There was no way they were going to stay inside the houses up the big trees. Too slippery. How do these people even get there..? Whatever.

ㅤ He spotted his eye on an overgrown root of one of the big trees, spiraled towards the outside, not too far from them, too. He guided you towards the area.

ㅤ Rain, once again, passed another sheet that wasn't too heavy as before. They were practically really, cold.

ㅤ After getting some shade and walking, the rain hitting the sides of their body stopped. She sat, he followed by. He took off his hat, which was a bit too heavy when there was water pooling inside it.

ㅤ "It's freezing like shit." She huffed.

ㅤ "All you do is complain." He rolls his eyes and took his sandals off, throwing them beside his hat.

ㅤ "You and your hypocrisy, Kuni." She shakes her head. "We've already collected like, a few mushrooms. Don't we have enough?"

ㅤ "We only have SIX out of so many collected, fuckin' dummy. The closest we have to get these mushrooms is here." He leaned against the trunk of the tree.

ㅤ "No need to talk like that, you mullet-headed man. Go ask your poor mother where'd your manners go."

ㅤ "What's even with you and my fucking mom?!" He replied. "Nevermind. Go ask the same to your father."

ㅤ "You fucking ASS."

ㅤ "Yours stink bad."

ㅤ "What- This is why no one likes you."

ㅤ "Yeah, sure, okay." He looks at you in a weird way.

ㅤ "What?!"

ㅤ "Nothing."

ㅤ "Because that'd be stupid - of someone to ever like, ew, or even LOVE the fact that a creature like you could live and act so fully of yourself."

ㅤ All he could do was chuckle. "I saw the way your face looked earlier."

ㅤ She looks at him and gags. "I'd rather die by three swords dismembering all parts of my head."

ㅤ The man of many names shrugs. "Whatever you say." The rain seemingly decreased.

ㅤ "Oh, I seriously cannot wait to go home and escape this sad, pitiful moment with a sad, pathetic creature." That irked him.

ㅤ "You'll have to thank the gods I've been gifted this anemo vision, or I'll have you electrified-"

ㅤ "What an average friendless person would say,"

ㅤ "You think you have more than three?"

ㅤ "Shut up already." She puts her fingers to his lips, pushing it a bit too harshly.

ㅤ "Don't fucking touch me," He looks at her in disgust, with her snickering in return.

ㅤThunder strikes. "What are you even laughing about-?"

ㅤ "Nothing." It was a bit obvious, her eyes were onto his hair.

ㅤ He reached into the direction she was eyeing, finding a lost caterpillar in his hands. "Oh." He threw it at her face.

ㅤ "What the fuck?!" She got rid of it immediately. "Why?!"

ㅤ He shrugs.

ㅤ Silence overcame them, but it was only a comfortable one that had no use to be confronted. She glared at him and set the worm-thing free, kneeling down to put it onto the grass.

ㅤ The rain had not try to stop yet, except now the thunder had died down.

ㅤ She sneakily took a glance at the indigo-eyed boy. And, it was unfortunate he was so beautiful but his personality's shit. His eyes looked so... Homeful? She'd be afraid to be stuck inside them, if she weren't so careful. She always thought he had the prettiest features, and it seemed refreshing to see that up close. Uh, what was she thinking?

ㅤ "You stare a lot," He crossed his arms smugly.

ㅤ "Uh... You have nice eyes?" She attempted to cover it up with a comment, yet it came out, really sweet..? Fuck. She panicked, okay?

ㅤ He looks at her in bewilderment, surprised. That had taken him aback, as they were just insulting each other a few minutes ago. Now complimenting? Wow. (No one had ever complimented him before, he thinks.) Her straightforward nature curioused him more.

ㅤ She sighs, trying to move on to another topic. This was embarrassing. Okay. Leaning her feet towards the rain in front of them, trying to force away the sheer sheepiness. (This damaged her pride and mental) She realized it was really cold out here.

ㅤ "Um, let's do something."

ㅤ "...What?"

ㅤ "Let's just, go out and play in the rain until it stops."

ㅤ "Like kids? What are you, some child-?"

ㅤ "C'mon," She made a tug on his arm, quickly standing up and leading him toward the rain. He tried to stay yet her grip was surprisingly strong, successfully making him follow her, his body feeling the cold and stiff raindrops over his skin.

ㅤ "You'll get sick."

ㅤ "I'm really, strong. You know I can handle it!" She chuckled. Hearing him worry made her... Um, unbearably giddy? For some reason?

ㅤ They were now fully uncovered from the rain - Kuni's outfit was really weighing him down, as he takes his jacket (?) and all his other complex accesories, leaving his black outfit underneath. She sweats, unconciously staring at his now very visible muscles. (Damn.)

ㅤ "Okay, um.. Since we're already drenched in the rain," She coughs to retain her composure. "Let's go take a stroll!" She clasps her hands, and starts to walk. He follows behind.

ㅤ "What exactly do you get in this?" He crosses his arms.

ㅤ "...Just wanted to do something." She played with the clumped dirt under her. "I think rain is very nice. It smells so... I don't know. Like, you know."

ㅤ "Okay, weirdo." He snorts.

ㅤ "Okay bowl-cut."

ㅤ "I- whatever."

ㅤ "So... Hm.. What do you think of me?" She voiced.

ㅤ "Huh?" He stares back, not really expecting the sudden question. The thing with her was there had to be some surprise waiting for him everytime it goes quiet. And that question made him think.

ㅤ "What I think of you?"

ㅤ "You heard me."

ㅤ "Why would you even ask that?"

ㅤ "I'm curious. I just wanted to know."

ㅤ They continue to walk beside each other. "Well." He starts. "You're annoying. You're naive. You're annoying, and," He had the biggest urge, and his mouth did its own decision. "Not so bad, I guess."

ㅤ "W...whuh was that?"

ㅤ "And dumb, I said."

ㅤ Her faint blush told everything. She'd forgotten the other stuff he told her.

ㅤ "Look, I said you're dumb, that's it."

ㅤ "...Mm." The grass looks very fresh today.

ㅤ Another silence ensued between them, this time the awkward kind. Why did he even need to say that? Stupid mouth. Truthfully, there was always some kind of weird air between them, whenever it was like this.

ㅤ He snuck a glance, seeing her flustered pink face.

ㅤ Kuni noticed their hands were just wavering centimeters apart.

ㅤ Um, what's that gotta do with anything-

ㅤ "(Y/N)?! Scara?! Where are you two?" A voice shouted in the distance over the light rain, with both of them breaking their trance, following with a familiar squeaky voice that's too muffled to even hear.

ㅤ "We're right here!" She shouts, waving a hand. A silhouette perked up and finally came into view, as it runs quickly towards them.

ㅤ Aether panted a few breaths. "You guys had been gone for so long... Is everything alright?"

ㅤ "...Yeah." The indigo-haired boy replied, staring towards the shorter girl.

ㅤ Paimon squints her eyes in curiosity - and suspiciously. "Hey... Are you two taking some romantic stroll under the rain or something? Paimon and Aether thought it was another lovestruck couple!" Aether nodded.

ㅤ "Um! No, I'd rather kill myself." She exaggerates the action of barfing.

ㅤ "We were actually about to kiss."

ㅤ "What?! Is that true?!?!"

ㅤ "What are you even saying?! Shut up!!!"

ㅤ a/n: hey so um hi ;P plz folow me and like diz

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man idk man

that feeling of giddyness when you see them, or, when they do something small or, maybe a habit they keep doing that always made you squench of how much you love this person. they just don't know about it smh.

or that thought or scenario playing in your head when you close your eyes; hand in hand - whilst the world hushes with earphones tangled in both of your ears, listening to either fuckin destroyer songs or something like lamp, where it felt like only the two of you could ever experience something like that

whispers of the wind, the evening rain accompanying you two - a patched jacket slopped against each other, along with you who were slowly drooping out of sleepiness due to the feeling of incredible warmth between of you ; couldn't care less if your head lost its pride and fell to rest on their shoulders

when only the two of you could ever share the most darkest of secrets - things only brought up from the deepest depths of your heart; where only they could ever reside in, and that stupid feeling where you were willingly okay to let them break you, which is, pretty messed up in general yet you're too carelessly inlove with this dumb person to ever get that thought in your mind.

the sun finally sets, they realize you've been sleeping this whole time, which they respond with giving your head even more affection by resting theirs ontop of yours - which, you were still half-awake and you're trying hard not to scream right there.

they start to talk, thinking you're asleep - about how they actually feel, how they think of this concept of the two of you being together - and ending it by spouting a 'i don't know, maybe that'll happen? ...whatever..' muttering to themself about you and them's future while you try to not move

then you realize this is just a fiction of your imagination, something that you bet will never happen in your life, because you know they are unreachable ; you don't deserve them and it will never work. it could only even just be visible in your head and yours alone; that thought looping against the harsh walls of your mind and that feeling of complete numbness suffocating you even more when you see them,

because you know deeply, that they are not yours, and you are not theirs.

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LOOKING OUT FOR YOU, LIKE I ALWAYS DO

pairing: xiao/reader a/n my first post teehee

"Listen, I'm not weak, okay? I can manage this myself, Adeptus. I failed one time and it will never happen again." You gulped. The Adeptus in question had changed into an unreadable reaction; you knew he was hurt by this, but seriously. You don't need any more saving and to burden him anymore.

He has been watching over you for your own safety - as monsters seem to latch on to you quite easily. Last time, you were trapped in some cave by a few mitachurls. Ones with huge ass axes. You called out his name the moment the big weapon almost hit your face - Xiao was here to save the day, and that was after you said you were fine taking on that journey alone. And the other times when he had to save you over and over. Yeesh.

He nodded and closed his eyes, crossing his arms. "...Okay. But, if you ever need my help-"

"Just call you. I know," You fiddled with your sheath. "I'll be okay. Stop worrying about me."

You noticed Xiao swallowing that moment. "Please, 'deptus?"

Before you could react, he softly bonked you on your head. That took you aback.

"You're strong, (name). I'm aware that you think you're a burden to me, but you're wrong." He looks down as he realizes he just said something out of order; and it'd be awkward if he didn't end that speech. "That axe almost slicing your head apart made me... Um." He looks away again. "Worried. For you." His hand still stayed.

"Oh," You blush at the close proximity. (Maybe this really was a good idea to confront him. Teehee. Yay.) "...I just feel bad for you know, you could be doing your adepti duties and it would be disrupted by me almost getting killed or something."

He furrows his eyebrows. "You'd rather die than me not doing my 'adepti duties'?" He puts his hand to the side again. Why.

"...Not like that... You get me."

"Protecting you is my duty."

Your cheeks redden deeper. "So straightforward."

He lifts his brows again. His faces were so judgy, but that's cute. "What do you mean? Is it not good to be straightforward?" He deadpans.

You chuckle at his obliviousness. "I like that about you- Adeptus. You're a good friend for looking out for me,"

He nodded, sometimes, he needs to think of something else to say. This man doesn't really have the skill for a natural fluid conversation...

"Call me Xiao."

You lean against the railing of Wangshuu inn; the tension of the air floating away. "So, Adeptus Xiao..?" You say in a weird tone.

"...Why do you say it like that?" Oh, he could hold a blush from appearing. (His blind spot's on the ears.)

You laugh. "Kidding."

"Why."

"Oh my, Oh, Adeptus Xiao~~~!"

"Y-You have no respect."

"What? I'm literally just calling you like I do normally."

"You aren't."

"I amm... Adeptus Xiao..!"

"What's wrong with you???"

Please stop tormenting him.