butterflies2008

[butterflies2008]

You can pry dumb nicknames out of my cold. dead. hands.

Graham? No. Graham-cracker 🫶

Beatrice? No. Bumble-bea 🫶

[butterflies2008]

When I learn how to overcome my shyness its over for all of you 😎😩

[butterflies2008]

Me, randomly: Anyways- are my ribs cute?

[butterflies2008]

Wondering how borderline off-putting I can act before people get sick of me. Testing pretty-privilege.

[butterflies2008]

You ever talking to someone about your problems (which happens so rarely) and then realize your a total basket case and theres a reason you don’t go around talking about this stuff 😭

[butterflies2008]

Getting motion sick basically every time I get in a car is so inconvenient for me

[butterflies2008]

i'm so bad at cooking it's truly outrageous

[butterflies2008]

ever since I was a little girl I knew I wanted to run low on storage space

[butterflies2008]

Maybe all the things you thought made you you aren’t really…you. Barbie (2023) / Fight Club (1999)

[butterflies2008]

ever notice how the only thing beatrice truly hated was herself/her identity, because everything else was Gods work and therefore deserved love and compassion, but she was the antithesis to gods work and therefore didn’t deserve the same love

[butterflies2008]

My best friend hates Uggs, I love them.

I hate crocs, but she loves them. But also, I have to like them at least a little bit bc they make her happy. And anything that makes her happy is a good thing.

[butterflies2008]

I think there’s something so deeply and intimately and morbidly true about The Last of Us’s primary thesis which is that humanity’s fatal flaw, in that very Shakespearian way, is that we are destined to care too much about one another so much so that we discard the collective entirely. like we have such a capacity to love the human race and humanity as a whole, to grow our communities and govern cities how we know best and foster such connection with the masses which we are part of, but it’s overtaken by our capacity to love even just a single other person. like one human can come into your life that creates such an intrinsic and passionate love in you— or maybe two people or a family’s worth or any small number— and you suddenly would burn entire villages down just to keep them safe.

joel doesn’t blink twice murdering to find ellie. he doesn’t look back when he decides to do what he does at the hospital later on. he has no remorse about any of it it, because this one girl has grown to mean more to him than any possible greater good could ever mean. and it’s reciprocal. ellie would— and does— do anything she can to help him, save him, protect him, and, eventually, to avenge him. because that’s what you do when you love someone. not when you love people. when you love someone.

and it’s selfish, in a way??? because we love these people and would do so much for them because they mean more to us than other strangers do. it’s exactly like an iteration of the trolley problem, actually. one track has your daughter on it and one track has fifty people. don’t even try telling me you wouldn’t go onto track B if it meant saving your daughter and her puppy dog eyes from the whimpering and pain and fear. The Last of Us says yes, you would. I would. we all would. and like yeah that is our greatest weakness, that we have such a unique ability to love a handful of people so deeply that our compassion towards community and strangers and the bigger collective starts to slip from view. but goddamn what a fucking great fatal flaw it is to have. we are all going to die and the world will burn because we loved another person too much.

[butterflies2008]

i would like to stop making realizations about my childhood now. i think i've learned enough, thanks.

[butterflies2008]

Really I just love attention and praise from anyone :|

I feel like I crave male validation because yk, I have daddy issues :/ (its so problematic for me like i wanna hate it so bad but I CANT)

And I crave female validation because yk, girls

[butterflies2008]

When you go to school without makeup feeling fine, but then people say you look sick and tired 😭

[butterflies2008]

Why do people only compliment me when I heat style my hair??? 😭 like I’m trying to get my curls back and keep my hair healthy but IT MAKES ME SO INSECURE BRO

[butterflies2008]

Guys, you don’t understand. I need her SO BAD