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eyes ♟️

a redraw of my p5r fanart (+akechi)

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indulgent yuri akeshu kabedon as per a friend’s prompt 🙊🙈

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honestly the hardest part about writing joker and akechi isnt the half-mean, half-sincere, banter layered with double meaning that only the two of them really understand, it's dealing with futaba and haru and striking the balance between "futaba and haru are wrong for feeling slighted by akiren choosing to be close with akechi" and "akiren is wrong for being close with akechi in the first place".

the reason i say joker and akechi (just the two of them, platonically) rather than specifying shuake (specifically romantic) is because any fic about or even just showing their relationship is going to have to contend with this- joker and akechi are (or at least want to be) friends, despite yaldabaoth and shido and everything in the universe setting them up to be enemies.

they're foils to each other, so they have an understanding of the other no other characters have, despite them both having parallels with pretty much all the PTs, but that doesnt change the fact that akechi hurt a lot of people in ways that can never be fixed, and left them with pain that will never go away and while joker can choose to (and imo already has considering everything in third semester) forgive akechi for trying to kill him, specifically, he has no say over how futaba and haru grieve, and yeah if my friend was given a wish for anything in the world and he brought back the guy who killed one of my parents i'd be pretty mad!!

but again joker and akechi are foils- narrative parallels from the bottom up. their stories intersect and overlap in ways the PTs don't, which allows them to have an understanding of each other from the beginning that the PTs would likely take years to replicate. joker and akechi literally defied god and every force pulling them apart to still try to be friends, in the end.

and while joker loves his friends and he knows they love him back, and they support him and are there for him emotionally, theyre never really going to get him the same way that akechi does, and joker isn't wrong for wanting someone to fully understand him in the way he fully understands (or at the very least wants to fully understand) akechi !! and thats exactly what makes it so tricky- nobody here is really wrong, at least not 100%.

this is a conflict that can only really be resolved by having everyone come to a mutual understanding, but honestly that's the hardest part to write!! it's such a complex issue and i have no idea how to go about it lol

this is isn't to say shuake wouldn't work post-canon or anything, just word vomiting to see if that makes my struggle to write this any easier

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A mask of my own face

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Shuake grrr

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WIP Wednesday

day 3 of posting snippets of my shuake fic to peer pressure myself into finishing it (trigger warning for hallucinations, panic attack, graphic descriptions of gore(?))

Goro sits in his room, head clutched in his hands and nails digging into his scalp hard enough to draw blood that has long crusted over, falling in dark red flakes onto his lap. The lights are off and the curtains are drawn. It is dark and there is nothing nothing nothing nothing but him and the shadows reaching for him with clawed hands before vaporizing and a ghost with a mop of curly dark hair drip drip dripping blood onto the hardwood floor of his apartment. It doesn't speak. Just stares, languid and lifeless. Goro doesn't meet its grey gaze, eyes fixated on the pool of blood at its feet. He drags his nails across his face, angry crimson lines trailing from his chin and disappearing into his hairline. Nothing makeup couldn't cover. Nothing his mask wouldn't hide. Nothing for anyone to latch onto or care about. The only person capable of that was reduced to another skeleton in Goro's closet- another bloodied mangled corpse looming over his bed as he slept. Goro blinks.

The body, alive and rotting from the inside out, does not disappear.

Fuck.

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realizing my shuake fic is gonna be super hard to write because im making goro ask a lot of questions i straight up do not have answers for

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Sleepy ...

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Turnabout Four Swords

based on this

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the persona series (ESPECIALLY 5) seems to have a huge problem of contradicting its themes and morals for no other reason than to appeal to the horny teens or adults.....

like persona 5's first arc is about a gym teacher grooming and assaulting students both physically and sexually only to have horribly predatory adult romances like kawakami and tae later. ok man thats cool just make your teacher and doctor your girlfriend and have them treat you all special like that's totally not like kamoshida at all right

ann is literally a grooming victim and breaks down venting to the protag about her situation and they use her as the fanservice character, have morgana thirst for her the entire game, give her a skintight latex catgirl outfit and a whip and ARE SELLING A FIGURE OF HER IN A DOMINATRIX OUTFIT BY THE WAY ??????? ya thats cool guys

persona 4 has an entire arc about the media being obsessed with sexualizing celebrities only for them to . well you get the point

hopefully metaphor becomes a wakeup call to atlus that they dont need to always cater to the weirdos and horny teenagers playing their games for them to be bangers. or can they at least just sexualize the hot adult men like adachi and dojima i'd like that

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I decided to do cover art for Faith For the Second Run (The fic I am currently in the middle of writing!)

I am *checks watch* 23 chapters late- but, well. Inspiration only struck a couple days ago lol.

To give a summary for the fic: Royal trio centric- Ren makes the wrong descicion on February 2nd, and Sumire is the unfortunate time traveller thrown a year into the past- against her will and without any knowledge on what she's supposed to do.

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persona 5 text posts I made because I was bored part 1 (aka the akeshu edition)

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hmph

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is this a safe space to talk about my headcanon that goro akechi is a csa and physical/verbal abuse victim or should i keep that to myself

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You're not coming back.

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i dont know why but i always headcanon goro's mom as being pretty young, around 21-26 when she had him, if only because i like the idea of goro at around the same age looking in the mirror and seeing an exact carbon copy of what he remembers his mother looked like, and as he watches himself grow older he gets to see what his mother might have looked like if she got to live that long