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I wrote this when I was out in the country. In a wooden house with dogs, and if you listen, you'll hear one of the dogs come to hear me play. His name is Gilya and he is a French bulldog. I love dogs and I often play to my dogs, I don't know why, but they come to me.

As for the song, it's simple - I'm a human being and I have feelings. From the very love that lifts you up to heaven, to the longing that your heart can't bear. Sometimes love is my main theme, because honestly I can't understand it. And I've been in lots and lots of places looking for home, but I can't find it, sometimes I've found it in someone, but this story, although my first encounter with an angel, is quite sad and physically twisted with pain (I even thought I might die).

And this song was written on the road, made up on the road, played on the road. I wanted it to resemble the delta blues and be as sincere as it could be, because maybe one day - the right person will hear it and... whatever.

I'll just be glad if it's just there so I can turn it on quietly in my headphones one of these days and cry nostalgia about something...that didn't happen.....

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“In My Room” episode 2: how to record tapes

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Its not usually video, and i dont try to teach you, just show you how it works

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You forgot about it

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Have you heard the new song yet?

And it's waiting just for you!

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Have you listened to the new release yet? This needs to be fixed!

https://artists.landr.com/056870722436

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New song and demo from album

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I'm gonna show a version of a song from the album

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Tomorrow is my birthday, but I don't feel happy.

Somehow it always happens that on this particular day everything goes without magic: at 17 I got drunk on vodka alone, at 18 I got drunk with “friends” who didn't even remember this day. It often happened that this very day was a summing up of a certain age and always these summaries were quiet mourning.

By the time I was 23, I had almost died several times, had scars, lost a tooth, left all the tender feelings with girls who didn't need them, been condemned by those who in the footsteps of Pontius Pilate had forgotten their own mistakes, almost ended up in war, participated in politics, but I had never gained something greater than myself.

I always wanted to belong to something huge, important and perfect, but giving myself with all my soul - turned out to be the captain of a sinking ship, and to shoot ... I want to live.

I always wanted to live, I wanted to feel the colors much brighter, to breathe the air more often after the rain, to see the dawn more often in a kind of timid coziness, but I know the wire, I know the red brick, I know how to narrow the wound with duct tape so that the cut does not split. I'm regretful. I regret that if I could meet my younger version, I would not be able to please with news of a good and good future where there is eternal love, conscience, justice and honesty and kindness. I am sorry that humans have not created a safe world and sorry how the sometimes stupid decisions of soft people sometimes lead to the most tragic victims.

Everything has to be paid for...but hasn't God already made the payment for us?

I am not stupid and may be naive in believing something good, but the last year I have lost everything I had with a T, but reborn into what should have previously become of me. Gold is tested by fire, for gold is for protection and iron is for honor. I face many challenges along the way, but I pass them with pride. Probably everyone knows what problems I have with distribution, but even with that I keep faith and control, trying to create something new and valuable. I could monetize a lot of my activities, but that's in another country, for the sake of other people and for the sake of breathing freely, without fear of dying. Every morning I am afraid of people with machine guns knocking on the door, every morning I am resurrected.

There are many changes and many new trials ahead, but finally there will be happiness. I love everything and everyone, and I don't want to lose my love. My soufflé has melted, and I have new and new feats in a foreign land, in a foreign language and in a foreign homeland. A stranger in my own country.

Well friends, I know few people will read this, but pray - God is with us. I promise that I will be able to cope with all the difficulties and no matter how valuable...Aut vincere, Aut Mori....

Thank you for your attention. Happy birthday to me and God bless you. Amen.

Dum spiro, spero...

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I'm really excited!

Thanks guys for your activity and actions with the channels and music - I really appreciate it!

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Ich weiß nicht, was ich will...

Einerseits möchte ich natürlichere Instrumente... und andererseits... kann man auch tr-909 verwenden... ich weiß nicht.....

Wie entscheidet man sich für ein Genre?

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Neben der Musik habe ich auch ein Geschäft und erledige etwas Papierkram. Ich spiele gerne Gitarre, und ich mag Overdubbing, aber... Ich verbringe viele Stunden damit, zu studieren, mich mit bürokratischen Problemen zu beschäftigen und Sprachen zu lernen.

Und vor kurzem habe ich auch ein Bandcamp eröffnet, um ehrlich zu sein... Ich war überrascht, dass es sich als sehr praktisch erwies.

Außerdem werde ich meine Probleme mit dem Filmen meiner selbst nicht los... Ich mache Videos und versuche, dieses Problem in den Griff zu bekommen, aber ich schäme mich zu sehr. Mich selbst zu filmen ist komisch... für andere ist es cool, aber für mich selbst kann ich es nicht. Filmemachen und andere Jobs sind einfach, weil ich mich selbst nicht sehen kann und ich nicht wirklich mit meinen Videos interagiere, und es ist mir peinlich, etwas auf TikTok zu drehen.

Ich hoffe, dass ich mich mit der Zeit noch überwinden kann, denn "Ich gegen mich" hört sich nicht gut an....

(Oder ich werde jemanden finden, der mir dabei hilft).

Außerdem habe ich viele Kritiken zur Kreativität bekommen, aber ich verstehe immer noch nicht, was "easy listening" und "heavy listening" bedeutet.

Wie auch immer, ich hoffe, dass es mit der Zeit besser werden wird. Vielleicht werde ich Videos über Bücher machen oder anfangen, interessantere Dinge zu zeigen. Aber ich will auch kein Clown sein, ich will kein Clown sein....

Ja, es ist eine andere Zeit und etwas Oberflächliches wird mehr geschätzt, aber ich will nicht dazugehören, auch wenn ich manchmal über die dümmsten Bilder lachen kann. Trotzdem möchte ich etwas Schönes und Sinnvolles bringen, nicht etwas Einfaches und Dummes.

Nun... danke fürs Zuhören!)

Link zu #Bandcamp hier ist ein weiteres, ich würde mich freuen, wenn ihr es abonniert.

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EP on SoundCloud

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Today there will be an EP and a youtube video !🍾

On top of that, "May and July" will be out in February!

On top of that... there will be a single "The story of a princess"

It's coming!🥂

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I was doing EP right now.

And something inside me clicked. I listened to the works that I wanted to #release as an album and I didn't like them... unfortunately, I'm not able to create everything as it is conceived in my head, because mostly some of the works are homage to the past. I tried to replicate the whole process of recording and working on the project, but unfortunately... not that.

So I will add these tracks to the EP which will only be on online services like #mx3 and #soundcloud.

And that's probably 8/6 tracks ready. I'll do the artwork and maybe some of the works will be #singles

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Coming Soon: My New EP 𓅓

This release is more than just music. It’s a journey through darkness, where light still flickers at the bottom of the abyss.

Slow and heavy sounds, lyrics with elements of biography, and a quiet hope breaking through the shadows.

I’ll be sharing this work with you very soon. Stay tuned:

SoundCloud: https://soundcloud.com/calumsta

Instagram: https://youtube.com/@calumsta

And other platforms:

https://linktr.ee/calumsta

This EP is an attempt to find beauty in pain and strength in vulnerability. I hope it resonates with your heart.