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Birds, rabbits, goats, and anything with the sideways eye pupil.

reblog this w your weirdest fear!!! mine’s balloons

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My baby techs look at me with such disgust with my plain espresso or if I’m feeling fancy, espresso with milk. One of my baby techs gets an iced caramel frappe with extra caramel, and I sometimes follow her over to Starbucks to just chat on our breaks, and Jesus fuck Starbucks burns the hell out of their coffee so bad I can understand why they hide the flavor with sugar and syrup and shit. It’s so bad.

I've been drinking black coffee so long the idea of putting sweetener in it is so foreign to me. coffee is supposed to be savory stop killing her!!

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it's so funny when i see people talk about greek mythology, then when someone asks what source, and they say ovid! if i gotta hear that man's name when greek mythology is being referenced, i will scream. MAN IS NOT A GREEK POET! I WILL TAKE HESIOD, SAPPHO, HOMER, ANYONE WHO IS OF ANCIENT GREEK ORIGIN!

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I would fall off boat once we reached Troy and die immediately

Personally I would win the trojan war

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rage

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Send me to Mars with party supplies before next august 5th

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14 year old me searching yahoo answers to find out if i’m gay:

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I've rarely seen a more validating sentence in my entire life.

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I know I promised this weeks ago but here it is. The recipe for my protection pouches.

Left to right, top to bottom: lavender, Mediterranean sage, whole cloves, cinnamon sticks, parsley leaves, star anise, basil leaves, rose quartz, bay leaves, crushed red pepper, rosemary, and Mediterranean Sea Salt.

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You can Decide not to Engage with what's clearly Bullshit

Today's horoscope has me a little on edge if I'm being entirely honest. I'm currently in a newish relationship, and I have a history of short term ones that always left me devastated. I don't want to carry this fear into this new opportunity, but if I'm being entirely honest, I'm still absolutely terrified to let anyone in again.

They always eventually see how weird I am and leave. And I'm always left picking up the pieces and trying to put on a brave face and put myself out there to do it again. And I'm scared that this time will be no different. How can I open myself up to trying again when I still feel the hurt from the last time I was vulnerable. I have such a love/hate relationship with being vulnerable. On the one hand, my vulnerability allows me to tune into the world around me and hear and see what others miss. It allows me to do my magic. But on the other hand, it leaves me so wounded due to little things in this life; little disappointments that everyone goes through feel like wounds to me. And it leaves me with such a fear of rejection, that I'm afraid to ever begin anything new, for fear of when it'll inevitably end, like it always does. How do I fight this?

I suppose that's all I really have for now. I'll update this again later.

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The Moon

Sorry for the short hiatus, guys. I had to figure some things out. But I'm back up and running now. So today's tarot pull is The Moon. The Moon encourages you to let your freak flag fly. Go on, be weird. Everyone is weird and we spend way too much of our lives pretending to be normal. So it's time to let loose and see where it takes you. Try something new, follow the less traveled road.

But also be careful during this time. You never know where your weirdness will take you. Follow your heart and its blissful insanity, but be aware it may lead you into risky situations.

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Encourage desired behavior by rewarding it

I guess Pavlov has taken over my horoscope app because this is the stupidest thing I've ever read. Yeah, I know to reward good behavior. That doesn't mean I'm good at it.

So maybe this horoscope did hit a sore spot for me. I guess at the moment, with the stress of trying to get back into the workforce and the offer letter taking forever, as well as the winter storm bearing down I've fallen back into old bad habits, like eating garbage food and isolating myself. I always tell myself it'll only be for a short time but it never really is. What if I am incapable of changing for the better? Right now everything just feels so tough and impossible. And I know some of my temper right now is because it's so cold in my apartment that I have several layers on, including gloves, but even though I know the cold will only last a few days it just feels impossible to remember the warmth. Even though I know the bad times won't last forever, right now it's difficult to remember the good.

I just got my hope back, so why does it feel like I'm losing it all again already?

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Today's Tarot Pull

My plan was to just pull one card today, but to my surprise a second one jumped out at me. So here are today's cards, The Magician and Judgement.

I know what The Magician's about. I said I'd refresh my protection pouch and get ya'll the recipe for it, but I still haven't done it even though I've been home for a day now. I know I need to get back to my witch roots but I just haven't, the airs not right for it and I don't want to end up with any blowback. Plus it's freezing in my apartment and they're warning of a winter storm coming through in the next few days so I've kind of hunkered down to try to last through it. But again, it's Texas, so if something goes wrong it'll be going very, very wrong. We just aren't prepared to deal with the cold. But I swear I'll fix my spell pouch as soon as it warms back up a bit.

But Judgement surprised me a bit, it probably shouldn't but it did. And I know it's time to judge myself and dole out some tough love. I think I've always known that, but I just haven't. I didn't get as far as I would've liked into my job search today and I didn't study at all for the PTCB, which I promised myself I'd do. But honestly I feel so trapped that I can understand why I'm doing what I'm doing, but it doesn't make it any better. So I guess it's time to give myself some tough love, hopefully it'll help keep me warm during this storm lol

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I'd buy it all up lol. that and the strain called 'get your fucking life together, you dumb slut'

they should make a weed strain called get up bitch clean your apart ment

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The laws you're bound by aren't necessarily your own

Today was a bit rough. I drove home, but now being here I feel myself trying to slip back into my shell of loneliness and hopelessness. I almost didn't want to write this post, I just want to hide under my blankets. The job search ain't great; who wants to search for another job when you're just waiting on one to get its shit together. I hate this apartment, it's sucking the life out of me. I can't wait to move out and leave, but that won't be until August, I wish I could move sooner, and maybe I can if I can find a job back on the coast and break my lease. I need to get my PTCB exam down pat though. I know that will help me monumentally but it feels like I'm drowning in information any time I try to study for it. It's just so much and so overwhelming, and anytime I feel like I get somewhere the practice quizzes pull the rug back out from under me.

On the positive side though I found I had a little more money to my name than I thought, which helps a bit. I think I'm going to start packing up my apartment, it'll at least allow me to move quicker. Tomorrow morning I'll give plasma and start my daily tarot pull again. That's all for tonight.