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I have sad news for anyone (I doubt anyone has really been keeping up with it) that had been reading the delirium files, I've been logged out of Wattpad and I didn't keep up with my credentials as I should have. Therefore it was canceled. Whoops!

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The delirium files

This is from my ongoing story on wattpad!

Chapter 2

My wattpad username is @gphobic

Hope you like it!

2015 February 4th; 4:13

The sound of plastic wheels scraping against concrete rang in Lana's ears; the same concrete that was making her lower body go numb from how long she had sat on it. She looked around her, becoming more aware of her surroundings. On her left, was her quickly developing best friend, Billie; talking to some boy who looked like he hasn't slept in days.  On her right was a group of boys, smoking a disgusting-smelling cigarette. The skate park was not Lana's scene; but lately, she's been noticing, wherever Billie goes; Lana follows. That necessarily isn't an issue, but occasionally Lana feels it can lead her into questionable environments. Her attention shifts back over to Billie; her eyes widening almost immediately at the sight of her kissing that boy. She was at a loss for words, and any words that somehow happened to make it out wouldn't be nice ones Lana was afraid. So she kept her mouth shut. She tried to look away, her mind racing with things to distract herself but her eyes kept glancing over. Amid her panic, she had failed to notice the group of police officers making their way over. A voice cut out into the air, "RUN!" Lana's head shot up looking frantically around, as of almost on cue; as soon as her eyes laid on the policemen Billie's hand was wrapped around her wrist pulling her away.

"Holy shit Billie, why are the cops here?"

Lana's legs were moving faster than her brain, Billie pulled her along, jumping over branches along the way. "Those boys" she replied, sucking in a breath before increasing her speed.  Lana shook her head and could feel her heart beating against her chest; becoming sore after a while.  "Why are we running? We haven't done anything!" Billie didn't respond, she instead focused on running; not taking the chance of slowing down.

2018 March, 15th: 3:28 am

Lana was propped up in the hotel bed, the blanket covering her lower torso. Her hand raised; holding a remote and mindlessly clicking through channels. In the room beside her, Billie was in a steamy shower; scrubbing the day's stress away. Lana could feel a headache creeping its way up, she sighed and held a hand to her head; reaching over in the drawer with her free one and grabbing a small bottle of pills. She twisted the cap off, her eyes flipping between the tv and her hands. With a small shake of the bottle, three small pills fell out onto her palm; Lana took the opened pill bottle and set it on the table. Commotion coming from the bathroom let her know Billie was finished with her shower. She sighed and threw the pills back, downing them with a gulp of water. Numerous abstract paintings hung around the hotel room, some held more recognizable emotions than others. The sound of a doorknob jiggling caught Lana's attention, her head moved slowly to face the door, and soon walked out Billie: her hair wrapped in a towel; same as her body. Her shoulders gleamed with water drops reflecting in the light; she smiled gently at Lana, her eyes full of contentment. " the hot water works great, and I brought the shampoo you like. It's waiting for you in there." She said, walking over to the bed and laying on her stomach beside Lana; her hand holding the towel up in a bunch. Lana felt Billie's wet hair brush against her exposed neck, she shivered at the sensation; running her hand along Billie's smooth arm. " I'm glad I'm here with you, I'm glad you chose me to come here with you."

Billie laughed softly and positioned her body to face Lana; "I wouldn't rather have anyone else here with me, everyone else means nothing compared to you." Lana forced a smile onto her face, softly shaking her head; " you have so many cool and talented people entering your life Billie, when compared to them I have nothing to offer you." Lana avoided eye contact, looking down at her hands. Billie just scoffed; pulling her hand over lanas waist, "hey, listen, you have more to offer to me than any of those idiots. Not just me, the world. You have just as much talent as any other prick in this industry." she leaned in and pressed a warm kiss to Lana's forehead; her minty breath wafting into her face. "That beautiful heart of yours holds more talent than anyone can imagine. You just have to let it free." Lana's face flushed, and she buried it in the crook of Billie's neck "I wish you were as good at doing the laundry as you were flattery."

2015 February 4th; 4:20 pm

"Are we ever going to stop running?" Lana gasped out, clinging onto Billie's sleeve with dear life. No response came, Billie was too busy looking around for anywhere to hide. "Billie!" Lana shouted trying to grab her attention, she just whipped around with a finger against her lips. Her eyes were filled with a crazed look: her muscles pumping with adrenaline. The sound of twigs breakings echoed in the distance, lanas heart leaped as Billie took off again; dragging her along. Fallen trees and piles of leaves whizzed past them, becoming globs of abstract pictures flashing before them. Finally, they came to a stop, with every deep breath she took in; kneeled to give her legs a break, and she looked around. They had stopped in an old abandoned building, the walls are broken down, and vines growing along what was left of them. Billie was quickly working to place loose boards over the entrances, tearing away leaves and mold. "Billie, we're not in a fucking zombie apocalypse-" she whipped around, her chest rising rapidly from her quick breaths. "I'd much rather be hunted down by zombies than spend the rest of my young years in juvie."

Lana's eyes widened "what are you talking about? Why would we go to juvie? What the hell were those boys doing?" billie just shook her head, throwing a small plank of wood to the side and sitting down; Lana did the same. "They were smoking weed; a lot of it too." Lana scoffed "why are you even hanging out with them Billie, you don't even smoke weed." footsteps could suddenly be heard from outside of the wooden shack. Billie sucked in a breath, her body going rigid; the footsteps walked around the property, pausing for a moment before moving on. Billie sighed, the tension releasing from her shoulders. "Do you think they're gone?" billie nodded her head, slowly getting up and dusting off her jeans. She lowered her hand; helping Lana up. "We have to hurry and get out of here before they come back"

2018 March, 15th: 3:28 am

The hotel door slammed closed behind them, billie struggled to slip on her flats as she jumped around on one foot trying to keep up with Lana. "Wait!" she spoke, but Lana was too busy racing cars that drove by on the highway their balcony overlooked. "Hurry up" Lana yelled, looking behind her with a mere smile on her face. "Not my fault you can never keep up" their laughs meshed together, echoing against the thin hallway leading to the outdoor pool. The reflection of clear blue ripples reflected on the plastic gate. Lana quickly opened the lock holding the door closed; Billie's hands snaking around her exposed waist and pulling her against her body. "Were all alone out here~" she whispered, her hot breath sending chills up Lana's spine. "If you want me you'll have to catch me," she said, darting into the pool area and slipping off her flip-flops; throwing them to the side, Her neon bikini seemingly glowing in the low lighting as she moved. Before billie knew it, Lana had cannonballed into the body of water, splashes of water flying everywhere. Billie snickered, watching Lana come back up with hair stuck to her face. "Smooth," she said; slipping her shoes off. Her hands moved up to her towel; Lana watched from the pool, her eyes following every move with anticipation. Billie gently untied the towel, letting it fall to her ankles; the air seemed to evaporate from Lana's lungs, the same body she had seen thousands of times never failed to make her starstruck. "You're so beautiful" Lana whispered, watching billie walk over and lean down to her; pressing a quick kiss to her lips. Lana gazed up at her lover, emotions swirling in her throat. Billie slowly slid into the water, the pressure sending waves crashing against Lana's chest. Her dripping arms took their rightful place around Lana's hips, her head resting on the girl's shoulder. "I've never felt this way for anyone Lana, it scares me. How easily you could ruin my life." their body's swayed in rhythm, the water encapsulating them. "But I won't, that's the scariest part, knowing someone could and having to accept that they won't." she shook her head, cupping small handfuls of water and letting trickles flow down Billie's back. "We always end up running from the things that scare us, but when you stick around and take your chances; you find out that the best of things always hide in the darkest spots." Billie's arms stretched, tightening the grip around Lana's hips. "Since when did you become so philosophical?" she joked, splashing a handful of water at Lana.

She spits out the water that landed in her mouth; laughing and wiping at her wet face. "When you became so unhinged" she spat back, splashing two times more water than billie did.

"Hey jokes on you, I've always been this unhinged"

2015 February 4th; 4:20

Later that day billie and Lana we're sat up in Lana's room; built in the attic. Lana was plucking at an acoustic guitar, making up small tunes from the top of her head. Billie was shuffling through small postcards that Lana had collected over time. Her head raised up to look at lana, her eyes lingering for a moment before she did so. "Where did you get all of these?" lana stopped playing for a moment and looked up at the girl, a smile making it's way onto her fave. She gently set the guitar aside on her bed and moved closer. " well.." she trailed off plucking a card from Billie's hand; "everytime my dad goes to get the mail, the postman gives me old postcards that were returned or never sent out." she gazed down at the deck, reminising. "I've always wanted to travel the world, but this is the closest I think I'll ever get." the room stayed silent for a moment, each of them waiting for someone to speak up first. "Maybe when your music blows up, you can haul me around on all of your tours and whatnot." she jokes, playfully shoving billie with her shoulder. Billie rolled her eyes "trust me, no one will ever hear a song of mine. Besides you and finneas of course"

Lana laid down, propping her head up with her hand. "Why not? You sound amazing billie. Depriving the world of your talent would be a crime." billie shook her head looking up at lana with a raised eyebrow "do you remember what happened today? Someone with actual potential wouldn't get themselves into situations like that." billie moved to wrap the blanket around her but the feeling of lanas hand resting on top of hers stopped her; she looked up with surprised eyes. "Nirvana, Kurt Cobain. Remember those guys? They probably felt the same way but look at them now.." she trailed off thinking of her words "well, no matter where they are now; they're legendary and you will be too."

Comfortable silence hung in the air, billie smiled softly looking at lana. "I can tell we're gonna be friends for a long time."

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The delirium files

Based off of an ongoing story I’m writing on wattpad!

This is the first chapter

If you like it please head over to my wattpad and leave some love!

@gpobic is my username

2014, Dec 24th; 7:36 pm

Lana stared out the closed window, enjoying the cold air radiating off of it, cooling her flushed face. The fireplace crackled in the background, along with meshed conversations. Christmas lights draped from the front porch illuminated her face, glimmering in her eyes. It was a peaceful night, her family and friends surrounded her; welcoming arms open. Yet she couldn't help but feel something missing. She moved her arm, stretching the itchy fabric of her painfully tight turtleneck. Snow was falling gently onto the ground, not a footprint in sight. A soft hand rested on her shoulder, Lana turned to look and was met with the comforting presence of her mother. "Is everything okay baby?" She smiled leaning down to match Lana's height; Lana nodded trying to ignore the tears welling up in her eyes. Even if she wasn't upset, her mother's safe tone always pulled tears out of her. "What's wrong my love? Has someone hurt your feelings?" Her mother's eyes were full of concern, she placed a gentle hand on Lana's cheek rubbing her thumb in circles. " I don't know what's wrong, I always get like this near Christmas." She wiped her tears away with her sleeve, not daring to look her mother in the eye. "But honey that's not normal for a girl your age, you should be thrilled, and excited."

Lana frowned, pushing her mom away "no, what's not normal is that yesterday we were trying to hide all of dads needles from the cops, and today we're eating on our fine China like nothing ever happened."

Her mother leaned in closer, her voice coming down to a whisper. "You know we're in a tough situation right now Lana, but please don't let it ruin your Christmas. I love you, and so does daddy." She pressed a kiss to her daughter's forehead and shot her a sympathetic look, "why don't you meet me in the basement and I'll bring you a few drinks?" Lana's face lit up, she nodded excitedly before shutting the window curtains and making her way to the basement; she carefully walked passed the people crammed into her kitchen, ignoring the scattered 'hello's' and 'how are you doing? Before she could reach the door she felt her iPod vibrate in her pocket, she stopped and pulled it from her pocket; reading the text

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Billie

Let me come to your place, it's so boring over here it's painful :(

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Lana smiled reading the text, having Billie with her for Christmas would make it more tolerable. She quickly shot her a text back, telling her to hurry over.

2019 June 2nd; 9:05 am

Sunlight poured into the room, cigarette smoke hung in the air. Lana pried her eyes open, her mouth stretching in a yawn. She sighed looking around the room; vinyl was hung on the eggshell-colored walls, and golden curtains draped above her; covering a large window showcasing the peaceful beach below them. Lana sat up combing her messy black hair with her fingers, then reached down and grabbed a cigarette from the nightstand beside her. She cringed at the taste of her morning breath mixing in with Tabacco, Glancing over; black and green hair was spread over the pillow. She smiled, moving closer to the figure. Lana snaked her hand around the girl's waist, pulling her closer. With her teeth holding the cigarette in her mouth she muttered close to the girl's exposed ear "are you just gonna lay there all day, or are you gonna come to enjoy this beautiful view with your Even more beautiful girlfriend?""I've been awake waiting for you to get up and make me breakfast" a soft voice replied, Lana barely had time to react before the girl had spun over and was now facing her with a bright "Billie if you ever see me cooking, assume someone has died," Lana spoke before pulling the cigarette out of her mouth, blowing out a cloud of smoke and leaning down; capturing the girl's lips into a soft kiss. Her hands caressed the girl's face, their kisses never seemed to last long enough for Lana. Finally, they pulled away, Billie raised and smirked over at her; "I guess that puts a whole new meaning to ''d kill to have some bacon." They both shared a laugh, their voices echoing in the almost empty condo. "I'll make you a deal if put on a pot of coffee and come soak up this morning sunlight with me; then I'll order us breakfast," Lana spoke, retracting away slightly; and looking into billies eyes which were shining with amusement.

Billie chuckled "So you're telling me that the amazing, multi-talented Lana sunshine can't cook? " Lana simply smiled, biting her bottom lip "since when did you start calling me by my stage name?"

"That's not the point," Billie said smiling mischievously while reaching up and opening the window, the sounds of the palm trees swaying and ocean waves crashing against the shore filled the room immediately.

"Oh I think it's a pretty good point, definitely good enough to bring up" Billie cut her off, leaning in and crashing her lips against Lana's; she reached up, grabbing the cigarette from Lana's hands and pushing it down onto the ashtray putting out its smoldering flame. Her hands moved quickly, burrowing in her hair and trailing down to her lower back. She pulled away but only for a small moment, sucking in quick breaths; "I love that you can't cook" She said before going in for another kiss, her lips moving against Lana's; rougher than the last time, lust overflowing from her tongue. "I love the strongest parts of you and your weakest parts" She spoke against her lips, never once stopping the smooth movement of her hands caressing parts of Lana's body only god had seen. The salty air swirled around them, Lana could taste it with every breath she sucked in. Soon she pulled away breathing heavily, she sat back against the headboard looking over at Billie with a smirk on her face. "You're so weird" she laughed, reaching out and intertwining her hand with hers. "And I love that you're so dramatic." Billies smile faded and her mouth hung open, "I'm not dramatic!" Her smile returned as quickly as it left before adding " if anything, I'm just passionate" she said through a soft smirk. "Well whatever it is you are, I love it."

2014, Dec 24th; 8:17

"Dude, my mom went ballistic today; over some bullshit with her finding condoms in finneas room. She was throwing shit threatening to kick him out if he ever got a girl pregnant". Billie shook her head, pausing for a moment; taking a sip of her drink, a smile creeping up on her face. "The funny part is, they weren't even his; they were mine. I had gotten them in a gas station bathroom with a couple of friends and then hid them in his room as a joke. You should have seen the look on his face when she found them." Lana laughed, trying not to choke on the warm beer sitting in her mouth, she fought to swallow it; gasping for a breath of air once she finally did. "Did you ever tell her it was you?" She said between small chuckles. Billie just shook her head, sipping out of the can; her eyes quickly widened and she frantically pointed at Lana. She swallowed the remaining liquid before speaking "I did end up telling finneas; though, he wasn't as mad as I thought he was gonna be; he wasn't mad at all. He thought it was pretty funny, to be honest." She said smirking while cracking open another beer. Lana used her sleeve and wiped away any residue sitting at the top of her lip before setting down her drink and standing up. Billie watched her with curious eyes; Lana walked over to a wide wooden board propped up onto the wall. She pulled it off of the wall and laid it on the ground, revealing a small hole carved onto the cement. She reached her hand into it and pulled out a small carton, Billie could see from the small couch they were sitting on that it was a carton of cigarettes. "Where'd you get that?" She asked, slightly amused that Lana would even think of touching a cigarette. "My dad leaves them laying around, he's too junked up half the time to notice they're gone. He'll just drive to the gas station and buy another pack." Billie scoffed as Lana took her seat back onto the couch, reaching out and offering her a cigarette. Billie shook her head "if there's one thing I won't do its smoke." Lana smiled and pulled her arm away resting it on her lap "well what do you do?" Billie smirked and shrugged her shoulders "I write music from time to time." Lana scoffed pretending to be offended " and why haven't you told me about this?" She said before taking the cigarette and putting it into her mouth. She reached down into the couch and pulled up a small green lighter; flicking it on and lighting the dart. She took a small breath trying to hold in the smoke, but a few seconds later she was spewing it out and coughing like a madman. Billie couldn't contain her laughter, she was practically rolled over on the couch laughing with tears in her eyes. When Lana finally stopped coughing Billie raised and wiped a small tear from her eye, "I'm gonna go out on a limb and say you've never done that before?" "Shut up"

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Hogwarts' Houses Common Rooms by Midjourney AI

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I have an idea for a fanfic but I have no idea if anyone would read it so I’ll let this be known as my test trial.

The prompt is:

You were Wanda’s lover, until thanos came along and snapped you away from her. She tried everything to bring you back to her (westside) but there was one thing she hadn’t tried.

Instead of strange working to fight against Wanda’s efforts, her lover comes back from the dead to stop her once and for all.

Thoughts?

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