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why tf do I want to kill myself???

I'm happy with a lot of stuff in my life rn

but it feels like there is a fog or mist or whatever the fuck rotting everything away in a sense

I dont like it

I feel ungrateful for having these feelings

[catsingbad]

dont fucking tell me I look or act like him

[catsingbad]

well shit

I can't do much but laugh huh?

all I can do is laugh that the son of a bitch won

all I can do is cry when shit get worse and people I love and care about are harmed

maybe it will be ok in the end

who knows

I could be killed soon, or deported

good luck everyone

hope y'all stay alive long enough to see his downfall

[catsingbad]

Identity.

[catsingbad]

fuck you dad

I love you but fuck you and all the shit you gave me

you fucked me up and I'll never forgive you for it

maybe one day I will but for now

just stay out of my life

I dont want you to fuck it up again

[catsingbad]

nobody wants to talk to you so just go away dad

[catsingbad]

dad stop fucking calling us

[catsingbad]

ok great now I have ear pain

[catsingbad]

I fucking hate headaches man

[catsingbad]

I need a fucking knife

[catsingbad]

fucking kill me already just do it just fucking do it just fuck me up and thats all I need

[catsingbad]

please dont hit me please just give me more time

[catsingbad]

I'm fucking trying as hard as I fucking can just give me more time please

[catsingbad]

I'm sorry for being dumb

[catsingbad]

I hate it when they fight

its always so fucking loud

[catsingbad]

every day I am scared I am going to lose someone

whether it would be from natural causes or fucked up freak accidents I am always terrified that one day something bad will happened to someone I love so close to my heart

I dont want people to die

not my family, not my friends (irl or online), not my teachers, not my classmates

I just want people to be safe and happy

but I guess it's unfair to have loved one's safe huh?

[catsingbad]

swearing and insulting people in Spanish is very fun

it's even better when they have no idea what you are saying

like I could be saying shit like "Nobody in your life fucking loves you~" in the sweetest voice to someone that pisses me off a bit and if they asked what it means I could say "oh I called you are a lovely and beautiful person"

am I the only one who does this or is this common lol