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" I don't think anyone ever saw me and now no one ever will " yeah so I might have cried A LITTLE

" I don't want to burn again " I'm totally fine I'm okay wdym I'm crying you're crying

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GIVE ME A WHOLE ASS SHOW ABOUT MIRREN AND EBON I DO NOT CARE

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" I don't want to burn again " I'm totally fine I'm okay wdym I'm crying you're crying

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why is this show making me tear up I don't like it

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I started we were liars as a joke why am I actually invested now

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re reading the atlas paradox and oh my god how is tristan in a situationship with every single character

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best of: texts between supernaturally insane people

(& a bonus)

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woagh guys remember to self-regulate 😵‍💫👍

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Portrait of a Young Woman, Jean-Etienne Liotard 

Girl with a Pearl Earring, Johannes Vermeer 

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i’ve been loving all your raven cycle art!!! do you think you might mayhaps ever draw a declan,,,,👀

why of course

declan lynch i love you in a way only an elder sibling could love you

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still thinking about how I found alec lightwood, the most unhinged and confused teenager to ever teenage when I was thirteen and then grew with him as we both fumbled friendships and relationships and learnt about love and reaponsibity and letting go. still can't believe my baby boy is consul now. he has a loving warlock husband and two kids. he's everything I want to be, and he's so grown up and I'm still stuck in this precipice of adulthood and childhood. but ykw? that's okay. he makes me realise that I will also grow up and can have what I want. he makes me realise the paper cuts can bleed but they will also heal and this is the reason why silly fantasy novels aren't silly at all. sometimes they tell u that a messy gay teenager can make mistakes and learn from them and grow up and be the leader of his people.

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y’all ever read a fanfic that you cannot believe an author just wrote for free?? what an honor it is to read a piece of someone’s soul they shared out of nothing but love for a piece of media. what a privilege it is to be allowed their talent because you share an interest!!

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I know that some British people take umbrage at Americans calling the Great British Bake Off relaxing, but it's just because GBBO is such a different kind of stressful from American baking shows.

American baking shows will be called something like "Cupcake Knife Fight", there's horror movie lighting everywhere and dramatic stings every 5 seconds. All of the contestants are shit talking each other and fist fighting over the one single deep fryer provided by production. It will show the judges all whispering to each other at their super villain table overlooking the whole kitchen, and one will be like, "Oh my god. Everyone look at Brenda right now. She's straight tanking it." And it will cut to Brenda, who is running around covered in flour and crying and also bleeding for some reason. Then you get a clip from an interview with one of the contestants, and they're like, "I really need to win this. Without this award money, I'm gonna need to close my restaurant, sell my dad, and live out of my car. AGAIN." Then the giant digital doomsday clock overhead lets out a horrid klaxon, the judges tell half of them that their cupcakes taste disgusting, and one of them gets eliminated and sent to walk down the dramatically-lit shame hallway never to be seen again.

Meanwhile GBBO is in a lovely, brightly colored tent, there are delightful and friendly hosts/jesters there to keep everyone entertained, and all of the B Roll is of like... a bumblebee going into a flower, or a lamb running in a field. And yes, there will be moments where someone will mess up their timing or something, and they'll be looking at their bake through the oven door like, "oh gosh I don't think this will rise in time!" Then they stand up to find Paul Hollywood directly behind them ominously. His creepy whitewalker eyes will glow white, and he'll say something like "the 12th of June. 2035. Drowning." And his eyes will go back to normal and he'll walk away. Then the baker gives a playful grimace to the camera and says "that didnt sound great, did it?". Cut to a sweet looking older woman sipping tea on a stool and she says "oo I do hope that Prue enjoys the taste of my sugary, sticky baps!". Then, at the end, someone gets a gold star for doing good, and the loser of the episode gets in the middle of a giant group hug. You see all of them at the end of the series at a giant carnival with their families and the post credits informs you that all of the contestants have become a Partridge Family-style traveling band and stayed friends forever.

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ever notice how you can be emotionally mature, self-aware, therapized, journaled-up, and still fall face-first into your own humanity?

like you clock the red flag in real time, you name your inner child’s need, you breathe through the trigger—and then still spiral bc someone took too long to text back or you accidentally caught feelings for a walking trauma response

self-awareness doesn’t save you from feelings. it just lets you watch them unfold like, “ah yes. here comes the emotional devastation. completely understood. totally irrational. unstoppable.”

you can be wise and still messy. evolved and still yearning. a tragic little sea slug of consciousness, floating toward the light and bumping into rocks anyway.

and honestly? that’s kind of beautiful.🪼🫧

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Ty totally grades his interactions with other people in his head, nevermind how accurate they are

Like, asked a cute boy what he's doing in the basement of his own house while pointing a knife at his throat? 3/10. Would not hold up in a court of law but at least no one died

Pinning down said cute boy, essentially holding him hostage, and asking him to be your Watson? Completely nailed that one. You best believe he gave it a 10/10. As far as he's concerned, things went perfectly as planned. Look, the guy even agreed!

Oh, now he wishes he'd never met you and left the country without saying goodbye? Well, shit, we might need to add negatives to this system. That, and flee to a school in the middle of bum fuck nowhere with our dead sister

Three years later, show up at his front door in the pouring rain, demanding to talk, then saying nothing while soaking his coach? Now we're fucking talking. At least you didn't ask what he's doing in his own house this time around. 2/10, bonus pity point for character development

(ts was inspired by a woman complimenting my shoes and asking where I got them, and my autistic ass replying "the store." Gave myself a 1 because at least I said thank you before I criminally embarrassed myself?)