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Perfect Blue (パーフェクトブルー), 1997 dir. Satoshi Kon

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I am sick of suffering from others’ mess

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Are all of the hard work up for nothing? Give me a sign. Give us all a sign.

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I’m done with Facebook, Instagram and Twitter... It’s just making me more dissatisfied of how people view me as an individual. & most importantly I’m done with you. Fuck the virus because it’s really affecting my creative process. I’m too attached to reality right now.

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https://vimeo.com/showcase/7314622

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Oh God, it’s summer

And I’m feeling what I know is love

Do I now feel acceptably younger?

When I’m surrounded of love and care

Always in my inescapble reverie

Thinking about the possibilities

Why does it still make me clueless?

When I’ve been here before

Even if I know how this story ends

This is a familiar feeling

Would we end up just friends?

Because they all left me hanging

You act like you and you’re you

I can’t always be right

And I will always be blue

Will my love ever pass through?

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Some of my “old friends” are stuck to the image that they still think I Am —

When truly... a character of certain person really does evolve and mature in time. We have our own personal struggles that separates us from our old selves. I’m not saying that I was an asshole back then. I’d prefer to say that I have moments of immaturity. But you know... I’m still the same cool kid who has a growing insecurity each day. I know I’m not just the only one who feels this way.

This very weird time only makes me reflect about the voices of people like me that can never be heard — Because we are always silent. Always tested, but standing strong. Bottomline, I’m just out here living my life and would not miss any chances again. I rebuke-Not the fucking pandemic that will ruin mental health & dreams. It’s a hard pill to swallow to be completely honest and open. But I’m slowly getting there. — I’m only writing this because I just think it’s good for my mental health. Regards, take care of your brain folks.

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Available now on Youtube https://youtu.be/9vtAO1kBYJQ

Vimeo https://vimeo.com/420199409

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A man on a dating app and surreal dreams that seem so real. A book that might be link to an evil pursuit. The only choice is to give in.

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LONG LIVE DREAMING GENERATION

This time I write a little poetry

While lying in bed

Past midnight

Thinking about the future solely

Sins I only later realized

Times not only I have missed

The world is now aching

And I miss the sun outside beaming

Are the wasted times now more crucial?

Still breathing

Moviemaking

This is what I do to make my world spinning

When all of menace is over

Remember to give your appreciation

It’s a weird phase modulation

Gods are maybe laughing

But this is far from hopeless

Long live my dreaming generation

- C

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Joanna at Fine Arts

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Daly City Bart Station Day & Night, Above & Below

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Parking Stairs

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Creep

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Sunday Photographt, pt. 3

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Sunday Photography, pt. 2