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We let you both live… and you wasted it. ABBY ANDERSON | THE LAST OF US PART 2

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don’t you dare fall in love. 

pairing. dealer college student! ellie williams x f! reader. 

synopsis. ellie tries her hardest not to mix business with pleasure. or, ellie gets a new customer and unfortunately falls in love with her.  warnings. 18+. drug dealing, references to anxiety, sexually explicit descriptions. eventual: smut, stalkerish behavior, violence, drunk/high kissing, homophobic behavior & slurs. 

an. trying my hand at dealer!ellie and it turned into a near eight thousand word fic. planning for this to be multi chap because i’m insane. please comment and reblog, it really makes the effort worth it<3 i hope u enjoy.

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everyone has a weakness

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Abby deserves a plus size person (me) to love her and care for her and give her kisses (she deserves me) and cook for her and cuddle w her and tell her she’s not a bad person (again me(

REAL (i need to also do this immediately)

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updated my masterlist links since I changed my name twice. I might write some ellie or abby fics sometime soon so if you're into that stuff, stick around!

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So I know this was a lok blog but if I wrote for Abby x reader/Ellie x reader (tlou2) would you guys be interested?

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Hi! I just wanted to send something without the assurance that you’ll see this. However, I assume that you’re done with writing? I loved your writing and I understand if you feel as if you’re finished :). Hope you stay safe and take care of yourself <3

Hi! Uhh I think I'm probably done writing for lok, but I do have an hotd blog that I'm writing on rn, its m/f tho and not sapphic.

I write what I hyperfixate and I only hyperfixate when I'm lonely. Shortly after starting this blog I got a partner, so my hyperfixation died.

I can tell you all the ending I had envisioned for tgt if you'd like, the middle part is a bit iffy cause I could never figure it out. I do have the ending tho, not written but just saved in my memory.

The ending actually came to me when I was still writing tgd and that's how I knew I'd need to make a sequel.

Thank you for the nice message though, I'm sorry I just ditched this blog. I really loved it.

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Idk if any of you guys like dudes and also like Umbrella academy but I made a blog for any male characters cause I'm currently hyperfixating on stranger things and umbrella academy men.

A touch of death prologue

Pairing: Five x Fem!Reader

Warnings: brief violence and spoilers for the new season?

Word Count: 1k

Synopsis: After witnessing the love of his life die brutally at the hands of the Handler, Five is pleasantly shocked to find you in the future. Only problem? You don't know who this grumpy man is.

A/N: hey! This is my new account for male x fem fics and I'm super excited to show off my five fic idea. In this version five came back as an 18 year old instead of 13 (especially cause he definitely doesn't look 13 in the new season, lol). Let me know what you think!

In one timeline, you were the love of someone's life. You kept someone going and motivated them everyday throughout the hardest of years. Not only that but you were a badass assassin who used your powers for what the commission called the balancing of timeliness. But deep down you knew it was evil, knew it was wrong. 

And in this timeline, life was entirely different, for the most part. You were raised alongside your seven siblings to be a superhero who fought for the greater good and knocked down any bad guy that came your way. Except as time went on and all the bad guys disappeared you felt as if all of you were becoming said bad guys. It was hard trying to suck it up and lie to yourself, especially when you felt entirely alone. 

But your strange dreams of another life alongside a snarky brunette helped keep you going. This act of escapism always brought a smile to your face but the problem was that it wasn't real. So everyday you woke up with the dreadful realization that whatever you had just dreamt wasn't real and slid your black satin gloves on and got to work on pretending to be perfect along with your siblings. 

Life was like that for far too long. So the day your world turned on its axis you really couldn't find it in you to mind as much as your siblings did. After the arrival of the strange umbrella academy you hoped life would seem meaningful again now that there were new people around. 

You also couldn't help the feeling of familiarity you felt when you looked into the eyes of the younger looking one. In all your dreams of the snarky brunette his face was always a blur. But something in you told you that the man standing amongst what your father dubbed "the umbrella academy" was him. It had to be. 

It was so strange, all the words exchanged right before the fight went over your head in that moment as you stared him down (the look he gave you made your heart ache with melancholy, it was like he'd seen a ghost) but now as you jogged the treadmills with your siblings you kept repeating those conversations in your head. 

"Why is y/n on the balcony with those weirdos!" Said the knife guy. Your siblings had given you accusatory looks at the time but you genuinely had no clue who these people were. 

A fight broke out and when your strode up to the fedora wearing one with your fists ready to punch his face he said another thing that shocked you long enough to get pushed to the ground by one of the umbrella members, you don't know which, you just know they muttered out a quick "sorry!" after. 

"Look y/n, I really don't want to fight my sister in law." But you definitely weren't married, hell you hadn't even had a boyfriend before, let alone a crush. 

You were so lost in thought about the fight earlier that you didn't notice Ben and Marcus, nor did you notice Marcus get off his treadmill and walk up to stand in front of you all. It wasn't until he spoke that you snapped out of it. 

"Can someone explain to me how you got your asses handed to you in 30 seconds?" He paced in front of the row of treadmills and you all turned yours off. "Do you have any idea what would happen to our reputation if anyone had seen this!" He gestures to the screen of the fight, and you all shamefully look down. 

"I mean we haven't faced a decent enemy for years." Yeah, try any enemy. All of them had either scattered to different parts of the world or died at the hands of the academy. All that was left was petty crime which Marcus felt was beneath you guys to stop. "This could be good for us." 

You start to tune him out, wiping your sweat off with a towel and pulling your gloves back on, your black fingertips disappearing under the satin. 

"They say they know me" you speak up and all eyes turn to you. Ben rolls his eyes and barks out "yeah they keep saying I'm their brother." 

"Maybe if I go over there and pretend to be buddy buddy with them I could figure out if they have a game plan so we could have the upper hand." 

Marcus puts his hand up to silence you and sighs "I like your dedication y/n," he starts. "But, why would they trust you? And also you saw what that one chick did to all of us in five seconds flat." 

You roll your eyes and step off the treadmill, walking over to Marcus and gesturing to your gloved hand. "We all know I can easily handle my own in a fight and…" you sigh "one of them said I was their sister in law which means in whatever timeline or dimension they come from their version of me is married to one of them." 

Jayme snorts, "it's true, the younger one hallucinated making out with her." 

You could hear a pin drop after that, all of their faces either morph into one of disgust or some type of mild version of anger. Except for Sloan, she almost looks happy for you. She knew how alone you felt and how most days you just robotically went about your day. 

"What?!" Christopher exclaims and you roll your eyes. 

"Obviously I'm not actually married to one of them but what if I just… pretended to remember them or be on their side?" 

Ben hops off his treadmill at that and walks over to you and Marcus. "Well I could easily do that too, they keep saying I'm their brother and I think brothers trump sisters in law" 

"Yeah but you aren't the most hospitable" Marcus interjects and Alphonso laughs. "Y/n can be nice and would probably play the part better than you." 

And so it was set. You would try your best to infiltrate them to get information to help your siblings and maybe you could figure out why you've been dreaming of one of them for years. 

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Is it just me who doesn't like constantly consuming smut? Like an occasional smutty fic isn't bad but when every fic in a tag is smut it annoys the hell out of me

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Soooo..... I know this is pretty much a sapphic blog but I'm pretty obsessed with stranger things rn and I've consumed like all the eddie munson/Steve Harrington fics I can get my hands. Thus inspiring me to write my own and I'm either debating putting them on here or making another writing blog just for male characters.

Any thoughts on what I should do?

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At this point people could make a drinking game out of all the shitty things that keep happening in my life rn

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Word: Selfish

You feel so fucking selfish right now. Maybe you're being too hard on yourself but at this moment you feel like the villain. You feel selfish for choosing love over morality and a little scared over the fact that you didn't even have to think about it. When it was time to choose, you chose Kuvira instead of the world. You chose her despite knowing what she was doing was wrong because fuck have you never loved someone as much as her. Maybe it's unhealthy, but the way she caresses your cheek and how she says your name, so soft and sweet. It rolls off her tongue like a sacred word and it sends chills down your body. You hadn't felt seen until you met Kuvira and somehow she magically felt the same way. You know everyone is disappointed in you and that your sister Asami is hurt by your choice, but what can you say? Love makes you selfish like that.

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I'm sad and it's late so I went through my inbox to look at the one word prompts I still have in hopes of writing something.

And I found this weird gem and I've got no clue what any of em are in reference too

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I was scrolling through my page, just reminiscing, when I found this and I'd like to update you all on my situation with spiders.

I have moved out so I no longer have my dad to kill them for me BUT one of my roommates thinks spiders are cute and has already relocated two spiders to the backyard for me.

Also I would still be okay with being squeezed to death by a titanoboa.

You'd think @banal-isenatha would be used to these kind of conversations after five months together

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It's like 3am here and I just wanted to let you know that I love you, I miss you and I hope you're taking care of yourself.

I ain't never gonna stop loving you

Uhhhh, lol this got sent to me while I was like dying of covid so I was in fact not taking care of myself 😅.

But I miss you guys and I love you too. I probably should have tried to channel my manic episode yesterday into writing. Instead I cried on the phone to my partner while they convinced not to adopt a cat or chinchilla sooo yeah, that's how my life has been