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It's never too late to follow your dreams.

Who would have thought that a random inquiry would lead to an audition, that would result in me signing a one year contract with Zap Speed Racing.

I had no idea it was even possible at my age but there's an avenue for everyone if you can get your foot in the door.

Feel free to support if you can. If not, thanks for checking it out.

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"i can fix her" is always a mistake

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straight men have beauty standards for men that are completely different than the beauty standards women and gay men have for men and then they get mad when they conform to the beauty standards other podcast bros set for them and women still don’t find them attractive

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Keisuke's FD3S

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i explicitly chose not to depict the sex in New Astoria because it wouldn't add anything. the fact that any of these characters would even choose to have it with each other is the tension release

but also i absolutely cannot trust you all to be normal about the kind of sex that biomechanically enhanced women would have

so i leave it to your imaginations and ao3

once again a promising erotic story ruins the sexiness by concentrating on sex, the least sexy part of sex.

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this passage has lived rent free in my head for years. i thought that writing it down would free its vice-like grip on me

it did not

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new tattoo finished 💕 great work from Eve Xing. 5.5 hours total, incredible work

instagram.com/evexing.art

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SHE'S BACK!

aye, it's true she is 💕 in times like these we have to remember one critical thing:

the things we love must be more important to us than anything the people who hate us can do

without joy we have nothing; we cannot deny ourselves that

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Oh hello New Astoria followers :)

I thought it'd be fun to do one of these. People either really like them or really hate them but i absolutely died thinking about what these would be for NA and it was too funny not to share.

For early access to the first book, head over to newastoria.tv

Sign up for the alpha reader program and get access to the discord server to discuss with other fans of emotionally damaged biomechanically enhanced lesbians 🦾💞

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Slides from the original pitch deck for New Astoria: Synchronous.

Our little sapphic cyberpunk thriller is all grown up 😭

The synopsis:

Curious backwater biomechanic Emory Sterlet gets the worst case of "I can fix her" anyone's ever had when she meets Ying Wu, a cold-hearted Bureau agent with a malfunctioning robotic arm.

They decide to work together to solve a murder in the neighbourhood, but find more than either of them bargained for:

Ying's arm is a military-grade superweapon.

But they're not going to get far with either mystery if they can't learn to navigate each other first.

Sign up to be an alpha reader at newastoria.tv

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Announcement time: We're out of stealth mode with my new project, New Astoria, and the first novel in the series "Synchronous" - a sapphic cyberpunk thriller.

While investigating a gruesome murder, cold-hearted Bureau agent Ying Wu's malfunctioning robotic arm draws the attention of a streetwise biomechanic Emory, who's about to get the worst case of "I can fix her" anyone's ever had.

In the sixty years since The Fall of the former United States, what remained of the populace clustered together in a handful of megacities, scattered across the continent. The ashes of the old world left fertile ground for a new kind of power to grow; governments and mega-corporations formed symbiotic codependent relationships, like binary stars threatening to collapse in on each other.

Ying and Emory form an uneasy alliance to find the killer, but quickly find more than they bargained for: Ying's "Synq" arm is a military superweapon far beyond the bounds of legal human augmentation, and it's not supposed to exist. This is pure crack to Emory, who can't help but to get involved further. Everyone who knows either of them seems to be able to tell this is a terrible idea, but people are who they are, and she can't look away.

"Imagine the two branches of government were Amazon and the FBI, and the only people who could do anything about it were emotionally damaged, biomechanically augmented, and thirsty for bad decisions."

But with a secret government organization that polices the mega-corporations and the street gangs involved, nothing is simple. Ying knows the corporate world, and Em knows the streets, but neither of them have any idea how to navigate the kind of intimacy that physically repairing someone creates between them. They'll need to master all three to find the truth behind the murder, and the secrets of the Synq.

It's Bridgerton-flavored in an Altered Carbon setting in the shape of a wuxia like Crouching Tiger, Hidden Dragon.

If 'lesbians who could punch a hole in your chest' sounds like your kind of thing, sign up for updates and join the Alpha Reader Program for early access to content.

https://newastoria.tv

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PMS, burnout, and caffeination

it's a strange thing to go from experiencing no PMS ever to all of a sudden being brutalized by it

it's not that i didn't believe people's experiences of it - of course i did. but good lord experiencing it in first person is beyond anything i'd imagined

sitting on the couch crying, and laughing about how i'm crying, about literally nothing, but also still definitely crying, is a god-forsaken experience

i saw an instagram video last week where a woman's PMS showed up as another character to tell her things and she's like oh my god i forgot thank you so much for telling me. and it's all shit like 'you are built like mike wazowski and nobody likes you and also you're a terrible person who is doomed for failure' and im like damn that sounds like it sucks haha

this is just like the time i saw a radio program on anxiety and thought 'damn that sounds like it sucks' when i definitely already had anxiety

i've definitely had this before and just not realized that as my body has been changing .... this is just how things are now. also shoutout to my endo who accidentally put me into menopause earlier in the year, fuck you buddy

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the cost of doing business

i am an adult. as long as i can remember being an adult i've pondered the ethical cost of having children. not in the abstract, reproduction sense. the 'me, having a child' sense. and every time i weighed on it with any serious consideration, i always arrived at the same conclusion:

my existence has been a nightmare from which i cannot wake, and i could not bear the thought of cursing another being by giving it one that, genetically, statistically speaking, it is likely to be like mine

"but christina", people say, "given that you understand the nature of the beast, and your family did not and thus did not prepare you for the challenges you would face, and your investment in teaching young people to handle challenges, doesn't that make you ideal for the task?"

yeah, it does. if the task were compulsory, i'd be the most qualified for that. but it isn't, is it? it's optional. given the possibility of not facing that at all, it seems obvious then that simply being best equipped to handle it does not mean i should force someone to

and fuck, i wouldn't wish this hell on anyone

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What does the arab in your carrd mean? Is it like afab and amab?

.. i’m palestinian

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Your dogshit political opinions convinced me that your feelings on the AI MRI paper are nonsense. Nobody with a clearly functioning brain believes the tumblr nonsense you do.

i don’t understand. i didn’t present any political opinions. some dipshit said that it was reading minds and i corrected him about what it was actually doing

the research just ties together three existing things. it’s not valueless but it’s not doing anything new and it is more akin to redrawing flash cards than anything else

sorry, but i genuinely don’t understand what opinion you’re upset about. i presented only facts as to what the research actually was

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Love the argument "oh but if you transition you'll have to deal with being trans your whole life" because first of all there is nothing bad about being trans and second I'm still gonna be trans even if I don't medically transition I'll just be trans and miserable instead of trans and happy

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Cops are trained to be bad. Anyone who insists on being good is not welcome.