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I’M NOT HER - TOMMY SHELBY

author’s note: im thinking about making this into a little series! it was gonna be one long imagine but i decided to slow it down a bit and maybe make it a 3-4 part series, but only if people want it! also i didn’t proofread so sorry!

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Getting married to Thomas Shelby wasn't on your bingo list for the year. Hell, you never wanted to be in the same room as that man whenever you had to be present with your father making deals with the mad man. You were never fond of him, how he could just walk in the room and everyone will obey him for whatever he wanted them to do.

You could remember the day your parents got into an huge argument. Your mother screaming at your father for the life changing action he made. You were upstairs in your room with your younger sister Alice as you guys were sitting on your own beds just listening to the brawl that was happening downstairs.

“Do you not realize how stupid you are?!” Your mother screamed, “Sending her off to marry that mad man Shelby because you couldn’t keep your end of the deal!” She exclaimed. You and your sister looked at each other with widen eyes, your sister covered her mouth as she was trying to process the news she was hearing.

“Do you think it’s me?” Alice questioned, you shook your head. “I know I just turned eighteen but what if it’s me because I’m now an adult” she started to ramble as she started to feel scared.

“It’s not going to be you” You spoke, “You’re the youngest, I doubt Shelby would stoop low and marry an eighteen year old” You were hoping it wasn’t your little sister so she wouldn’t have to deal with that man. You thought she was too pure to deal with a man like Thomas Shelby, how she would quickly drop off the cup of teas and quickly leave the room when deals were being made.

“But I don’t want it to be you either” Alice mumbled, you sighed as the both of you went silent to listen the argument. You were only twenty-two years old, not that it mattered but you being the oldest, you had a feeling you might be the bride to Tommy Shelby.

“You can’t just send her off to him” Your mother begged and pleaded, hearing her cries as she’s struggling to breathe. “She’s our first, please don't do this” hearing her whimper.

Then it hit you like you just gotten hit by a truck. Because your father couldn't keep his part of the deal, you became part of the deal. Although you hated that you have to marry the Shelby man, you mostly hated that this is the way you found out.

Alice quickly got off of her bed to go on yours, sitting behind you as she wrapped her arms around your shoulders, beginning to sob that her big sister was now going away to live with a “mad man”. All you could do was just put your hands on her arms, swaying the both of you side to side as comfort.

You are now officially married to Thomas Shelby, making you Y/N Shelby. You were glad that the whole wedding process was over. The special day itself would've been beautiful if the backstory never existed. Polly, Ada and Alice helping you with your hair and makeup. Putting on the most beautiful, most expensive wedding gown that fitted your body just right. For once you had some appreciation for Tommy since he did everything he could to make the wedding right for you, starting with the venue, the flowers, the setup, everything.

But of course, the wedding had flaws. You couldn't look your father in the eye, knowing he's the reason why you’re here in the first place. How your mother was sobbing because you were being handed to the Thomas Shelby, and how she walked out mid-ceremony as a protest. Causing you to tear a bit during the speech but you did your best to fight it.

Tommy observed your body language the whole wedding, he could tell you wanted to break down right there when your mother left or when she was crying as your father was handing you off to me. Side eyeing to see your little sister Alice is doing everything to show that she's brave in this situation and that it doesn't affect her.

Or how he observed you during the dinner that was after the ceremony. How you were barley eating, just moving your food along the plate with your fork. How you were too quiet and only spoke when spoken to. Or how your sister moved seats to be next to you and you were finally comfortable speaking or joking around simply because Alice was there. Or how your father would speak and you would simply tune him out before you say anything rude at the event.

But right now, Tommy is observing you while you are touring around the house. How you feel out of place in a huge house like this, how it’s basically your home now as well.

Admiring every painting, every sculpture, every furniture in his house. Just so you can feel comfort and familiarity with it. Until you came across a painting of his first wife, Grace Shelby. You were silent as you were admiring her beauty through the art, how you could tell that she probably made Tommy so happy and how she must’ve been a wonderful mother to Charlie.

Tommy broke the silence, “Don’t worry” he spoke. You turned around to make eye contact with him, “You’ll have a painting of ye own” he said. All you could do was give him a soft smile, but you felt out of place that you didn’t deserve a painting.

“Thank you Mr.Shelby but-’

“Call me Tommy” he said sternly, “We’re now married, remember?” he added, you nodded your head.

“Thank you Tommy but I don’t think I deserve a painting” You said, “Let’s not forget why we’re married in the first place” you paused, staring at Tommy’s emotionless face.

“But I’m not her” you confessed as you stared at Grace’s portrait again, “I don’t think having my own painting would do it's own good” you softly smiled.

“Very well” he spoke, “Let’s go upstairs and I’ll show you the bedroom eh?” you nodded your head as you followed behind him. Frances was walking down the stairs, having encounter with you guys.

“Hello Mr and Mrs. Shelby” Frances smiled, “I just put Charlie to bed” she announced. “Thank you Frances” Tommy thanked as he nodded his head, continuing up the stairs.

Weeks went by, you were finally getting comfortable in the Shelby’s house. Focusing more on being a mother to Charlie than being a wife to Tommy, since he was always out on dealing with business, you were glad you didn't have to overthink on everything you did when he was around.

“Nine, ten. Ready or not, here I come!” you said loudly as you removed your hands from your eyes, trying to look for the two year old in the front yard to win the game of hide and seek. Charlie started to get closer to you overtime since you were basically the only parent figure for the little boy, so you had as much bonding time with him.

You started glancing around, “where could little Charlie be?” you said loudly, hoping to get a sound from the little boy which worked. You started to hear a little giggle coming from the flower pots, you smiled knowing where he already was but you wanted to drag it a little bit.

“Is he in the bushes” You asked as you were walking around, hearing the giggles get loud since Charlie couldn't control his laughter, you smiled at the sound. “No he isn’t in the bushes”

Then you started to get closer to the flower pots, “Is he by the flowers?” Asking innocently. Tommy started to pull up through the driveway but you wasn’t paying attention. The giggles from behind the flower pot was only getting louder.

“There he is!” You said as Charlie squealed in excitement. Picking him up and placing him on your hip, “I found you” tickling his sides as he was throwing a laughing fit.

You started realize Tommy was near as you looked up from Charlie to see Tommy walking towards you two. Bouncing Charlie in your arms as you were trying to get him excited to see his father.

“Look Charlie, your dad is here” you smiled at Charlie as the little boy returned a smile back. Starting to meet Tommy half way by walking towards him as well.

Seeing Charlie be so happy with you made Tommy feel things but he wanted to discard the feelings. He believes he couldn’t fall in love with you at all since you were only a deal, but the way he sees you with Charlie or how you help Frances out with the house just because you wanted to.

He saw that you were starting to ease up around him, how sometimes you would offer to bring him something to eat or drink when he’s in your office. How you would ask him how was business or if anything went wrong, how you were much more comfortable around his family and how you invite your sister Alice to the house more.

“Hello you two” Tommy greeted, you gave him a small smile as you handed Charlie to his father. “I saw you two were playing hide and seek. You’re a great hider Charlie eh?” Charlie clapped in response.

“Frances is starting dinner, do you want me to stay with Charlie until then and you can get some paperwork out of the way?” You asked, you never asked him that before. You usually just say hello to Tommy and go back to playing with Charlie.

“I don’t plan on doing any paperwork til later” Tommy answered, “Let’s go inside, shall we” he said, you nodded your head as you started to walk first with Tommy following you behind with Charlie.

Once you guys make it inside, you can’t help but glance at Grace’s portrait walking by.

Because you know what matter you do, you will never be her.

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chmpngekisses · 2 years

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MONTHS - BRIAN O’CONNER.

author’s note, didn’t have a title so this was random. hope you guys enjoy this! i’m back from a long break of writing and hopefully i see got it!

So here you are, sitting on the coach at Dom’s party while Letty’s hand is roaming around his body. You couldn’t help but laugh at your friend, I mean.. with a man like that, who wouldn’t be hands on???

You were sitting alone on the coach, just enjoying the cold beer you have in your hand. You can just tell by his presence that he’s in the same room as you, but you have a feeling he’s not alone either.

You hated Brian, you didn’t have a reason why but you hated him anyways. You hated how he can just sweep any girl off their feet, how he can use his dreamy blue eyes to get what he wants, you hated pretty much everything about him.

You didn’t hate him before you guys dated, you actually adored him.

The way he was so protective over you. How any man can try to come to you, Brian would quickly grab your arm to place you behind him so he can do all the talking. How he caress your body in bed, admire your face while you’re sleeping so soundly in his bed. How Brian would blush every time Rome would mention you in some kind of way while you’re with the two. It was all just adoring him from afar.

But now you can’t stand the way he talks, the way he walks, the way he smiles, you just can’t stand him at all. Which wanted you to leave the party early but Letty wasn’t going to allow that to happen.

Which is why you’re just sitting up on a coach with a beer, trying your best to not look at O’Conner in any type of way.

“You look pretty to be lonely on this couch” A male’s voice spoke, getting you out of your thoughts about Brian. You looked up at the man and shrugged your shoulders with a smile.

“Some guys just get intimidated” You said before taking a sip of your beer, the guy chuckled and sat right down next to you. “But I guess you’re not like most guys” you added.

“Oh please, I get what I want” He smirked, causing you to smile in return.

Meanwhile Brian walked up to Dom and Letty, “Hey, who’s that guy?” Brian asked the couple. Letty shrugged her shoulders, and Dom didn’t say anything.

“So is he a random or like what?” Brian was starting to get a bit irritated, Dom chuckled, wrapping an arm around Letty. “Dom, you gotta help me out here”

“There’s nothing I can do” Dom spoke, “You guys broke up remember? You was just with some chick and now you’re about to cry because she got someone up her sleeve too” he continued, Brian rolled his eyes.

“You miss her, don’t you?” Letty questioned, a corner of her mouth curved up into a little smile as she figured out the truth. “Awww, you miss little y/n!!” she giggled.

“Yeah well” Dom trailed off, “Looks like someone already got to her” he finished, causing Letty to look over Brian’s shoulder. The blond man quickly turned around to see you making out with the random guy on the coach, nobody around didn’t care.

Hell, it was a party.

Something about seeing you make out with other guys didn’t sit right in Brian’s mind, but his body froze, he didn’t know what to do.

All he could do is just watch until he thought of something to pull you away, but once the guy started touching up your upper chest finally gave Brian something to call it off.

Walking up to you and the guy, he pushed the dude off to the side, making you look up to see who it was. “O’Conner?? Are you serious right now?” You said in disbelief, looking for Letty & Dom who were watching the scene like it was from a drama show.

“You’re coming with me” Brian demanded, trying to grab your wrist but you quickly pulled away before he had the chance.

“Y/N” Brian said softly, “Just please” he whispered. Brian wanted to be patience so bad but his patience was running thin.

You didn’t give him a response though, so impatient Brian grabbed your wrist while you least expected it and guided you to the front of Dom’s house, he wanted to leave but he had to make sure you were with him.

“Brian, are you serious? Let me go!” you told him, smacking his arm, trying to stop his movement but putting full stops to your walking but nothing works.

He stops you guys right in front of his car that was parked on the sidewalk, he turned around. “I need you to trust me”

“Trust you?? you just dragged me out of the party and now you want me to trust you?” You exclaimed.

“Y/n I just have stuff to say, please” he whispered.

“Well say it here!” you raised your voice, “I’m going nowhere with you” You didn’t like yelling at Brian. Yelling at him was a rare thing, there were times you didn’t have a choice and now you really don’t have a choice.

“Because let’s face it O’Conner, you can’t just be mad because I decided to make out with someone while you had another girl under your arm as you were drinking your beer! We broke up a while ago so I don’t want to hear any shit from you, you broke up with me! So now here I am dealing with it by making out with other dudes!” you yelled.

“I want to be happy while moving on, like you do!” You shouted, “I’m tired of seeing you with new girls everyday with your arm wrapped around them when that used to be me! I already have to deal with being near you 24/7 because we have the same friends!” you continued, gaining many stares from strangers who are exiting the party drunk as hell.

“I’m stuck with all these memories of us, I hate waking up alone now but you always have company for some reason.” Your eyes began to water, not that you were sad but you had a habit of crying when you’re mad. Brian knew that too, he hated seeing you cry but in this case, he was kind of glad to see you still cared.

“So what more do you want from me huh?” Your anger took over and you tried to shove him but of course, he didn’t move.

“Y/N—“

“No, you’re sick for breaking up with me. You’re sick for leaving me behind and being fine with it” You sniffled, the tears started running down your cheeks.

“I didn’t want to break up” Brian raised his voice, he never yelled at you, it’s not like you had time to react about it so you yelled back.

“Then why did you do it?!” you shouted.

“I thought I was protecting you” Brian’s voice went down to being soft, you didn’t respond. All you could do is just scoff and laugh.

So now you two were just standing in silence, you were sobbing as you were looking at anything but him while his eyes were focused on you.

Brian wanted to make a move, but he didn’t know how. He was scared on how you would react but he hated seeing you cry with no comfort by your side.

Brian took one step forward and carefully placed his hand on the back of your head, pulling in closer so he can rest his forehead on yours. You wanted to pull away but you missed his comfort, you missed the little thumb rubbing on the back of your head, you missed the whispering of reassurance in your ear.

You slowly started to break down, gripping the sides of his shirt to pull him closer towards you then wrapping your arms around his waist, now laying your head on his shoulder as you silently cried.

Brian then wrapped his arms around your neck, slowly swaying you two side to side. He was starting to think about everything that happened after the breakup, how he could just look like he moved on so happily and you were still trying to move forward.

“Come on, let’s get home” Brian whispered, now with his arm around your waist to help you get in the passenger seat, he sat you down and placed your seatbelt in for you. Shutting the vehicle door and jogging to the driver’s side of the car.

Once he got in, he started the engine and took off. Brian thought he should’ve said goodbye to everyone since they did see the incident that happened in the living room and what some people saw passing by the ex couple on the sidewalk, but it didn’t matter to him as he kept driving.

Now inside your apartment, Brian shut the door behind him as you decided to go ahead and head your way to your room. You didn’t feel like changing into pajamas so you just decided to plop on your bed with your daisy dukes shorts, and your long sleeve t-shirt.

Laying your head on the pillow and closing your eyes, you started to drift off into slumber until you heard Brian’s footsteps. Using your elbows to sit yourself up, and turning around to see Brian leaning against the doorframe.

“I thought you would be gone” you mumbled, Brian shook his head. “I was actually gonna crash on the couch for the night” Brian responded with a head tilt signaling the living room.

“Listen, I didn’t mean to hurt you. I thought I was doing it for your protection, I swear” He rambled and sat next to you on the bed, you softly smiled. “And I miss you, Rome won’t let it go about me breaking up with you”

“I promise, I was doing it for your protection when it came to the shit in Miami. I couldn’t let anyone know about you when I ran away” Brian continued, grabbing your hand, making your fingers intertwined with each other.

“But I promise you, I’m going to make it up to you” Brian said as you two were staring in each other’s eyes, he leaned down to give you a quick kiss on the lips then pressed his lips on your forehead for a little while as that was a way to show his love.

“I love you”

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