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Yes 🖤🖤🖤 Realistically, Matthew and I prefer top left, top middle, middle left, bottom left, and he'd absolutely keel over if I did bottom right to him. But as long as we're holding hands, we don't care how it happened 😂

INTERACTION BAIT which one are you and your f/o(s)

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Been struggling a lot recently. I wanted to draw Matthew celebrating my birthday (Aug 15th), but unfortunate things have happened irl which has made that impossible. This was the best I could do over the past couple of weeks. Love you, Matthew 🖤🖤

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This is me, I fear

remember to yearn for your f/o btw . thirst for that f/o like you're dying . make them your muse . let them consume your thoughts . be in love

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⋆˙⟡ Love Notes ⊹ ࣪ ˖

Summary: Matthew Patel loves putting goodies into his jacket for his moonflower when she steals it Rating: PG-13; very mild sexual themes, tooth-rotting fluff, cheesy pet names, Matthew being extremely sappy and romantic, self-indulgent s/i Word count: 830

She was always stealing his clothes. Seemed like every day she had something of his on. Boxers. Socks. A shirt that was just big enough to be comfortable but not long enough to cover her completely. She liked to wear those with nothing else on. You'd think that would make it Matthew Patel's favorite, and you'd be close to being right.

Matthew loved his moonflower wearing nothing more than one of his shirts—a ripped band tee, shirts with his favorite musicals, polos she always called “dorky” but wore with pride and a sexy little jaunt. But no. His favorite was when she wore his jacket.

Matthew's Eisenhower jacket—on clearance at an Army Surplus store, if you can believe it. A piece of history; one of his favorite articles of clothing. Made all the better when his moonflower stole it and got her amazing scent all over it. Vanilla body mists, floral notes in her shampoo, coconut oil lotion. That sweet, feminine smell permeating his jacket. Sometimes he wore it out like that, sans cologne so he wouldn't cover her up.

That wasn't even his favorite part. Again, you'd be almost correct. But no, his favorite part of her stealing his jacket was realizing how often she took it, and deciding to fill his pockets with goodies for her. Vegan candy. A small pack of Oreos. Those gross wasabi seaweed snacks she loved so much.

One time she was on an applesauce stint so he just shoved one of those cups of applesauce in there for her, along with a plastic spoon sticking out of the breast pocket. Imagining her face when she saw that little white spoon poking out, wondering why the hell he'd given her that, only to then find the applesauce who-knows-how-long-later made him pause and chuckle throughout many days.

What Matthew really wished he could see was her reaction to the love letters he slipped in there. He didn't always—but when the mood struck, he went all-out.

Love notes with little paper hearts glued on them. Letters in tiny envelopes and a wax stamp seal. Rolled and ribbon-wrapped like a map with a cheesy love note like “I don't need a map to search for gold because YOU are my treasure”. He loved making them and imagining her beautiful face lighting up every time she read it. Pink in her pale cheeks, eyes glistening in glee behind her cute glasses, maybe even a giggle and a twirl of long, dark hair around a petite finger. God, she was gorgeous. He'd write her a thousand notes just to tell her so.

That evening, he worked on a letter. At home, alone in their dining room while his moonflower relaxed in the office, Matthew wrote for her. The dim light of their kitchen left a calming backdrop for his craft. Papers strewn across the dark wood table, a glue stick that had already tried to escape onto the floor a few minutes ago now stuck between a pen ready for inking and a decorative brown ribbon.

He held a pencil as he tried to copy a cute chibi cat couple on a separate sheet of paper so he could glue it to the letter. His unpracticed hand wasn't making it easy, even with his phone beside him for reference. But it wasn't horrible, either (he hoped). Once it was done and carefully cut out, Matthew read over his letter.

My sweet moonflower,

Stealing my jacket again? I love when you do that. Just seeing you comfortable in my clothes brings me joy. You look so beautiful in jackets two sizes too big for you, boxers form-fitting to your amazing thighs, loose shirts falling over your breasts to leave nothing to the imagination. You do it just to torture me, angel. If this is torture, then chain me up, my love. Let me be tormented for the rest of my life. Keep stealing my clothes so they smell like you.

Devoted and hopelessly yours, Matthew ♡

He glued the cut-out kitties onto the corner, carefully folded the love letter to resemble an envelope, and glued the frayed ribbon to the front. Perfect. His WWII jacket hung on the dining chair beside him, and he slipped the note into the left pocket. In the right, he slid a pack of teriyaki-flavored seaweed snacks (still weird).

“Matthew?” his moonflower called from down the hall. “Yes, angel?” he called back. “Ready for the shower?” “Coming.”

He cleaned up his little mess, pushed in his chair, and left the dining room. At the light switch, he stole one last glance at his jacket. What would she look like tomorrow morning when she found those goodies? Would she glow in that radiant, angelic way? Would she laugh and roll her eyes at how sappy he is? Or would she layer kisses all over his face the second they were together?

Hopefully—Matthew thought with a smile—his beloved would do all of those things.

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So Matthew has MANY pet names for me. It's an inside joke with us that he doesn't remember my real name (and that if he actually used it, I'd be worried he's mad at me). But his absolute favorite pet name is easily:

Moonflower

The moonflower, or Datura, is a pale, poisonous flower that blooms well under the moonlight. It has psychedelic properties which makes it popular recreationally (don't do it) or in religious rituals.

Me: Moonflower, like Datura? Isn't that poisonous? Matthew: You're intoxicating 🖤 The moonflower also has roots in Hinduism. Matthew's Divine Arms are reminiscent of Lord Shiva, given the adornments on their forearms and wrists, as well as wielding a Trishula (the trident). The colors and fact that he can summon multiple Arms is also similar to Shiva's iconography. His implicit Shaivism is important, as the moonflower is connected deeply to Shiva. The moonflower was said to be born of Shiva's breast, which is why many of Lord Shiva's Temples are decorated with moonflowers, and why it's a popular offering to him.

So outside of just its gothic implications, references to the moon, and Matthew being essentially high or drunk off our love, the moonflower is an important aspect of Matthew's religion. It's such a beautiful pet name that it stuck, and I wouldn't have it any other way 🖤🖤🖤

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🏳 Matthew Patel is a Green Flag and Here's Why ⚑

My angel baby is not evil in any way

(backed up by canon)

1) Matthew deals with rejection like an absolute champ.

I believe you can tell a lot about a man (or anyone, really) by how he deals with rejection. When Ramona rejected him after he defeated Scott, Matthew did not get angry. He didn’t call her names, yell, or try to grab her and keep her with him by force. He let her walk out. Despite how much it hurt, he let her leave. The worst that happened was he made this silly angry face after he confusedly said, “What’s going on!?”

Are you telling me I’m supposed to be threatened by this goofy man? I don’t think so.

This absolute angel really ran in there expecting it to be like a romance movie/musical and was so confused when real life kicked in. My cutie. My delusional cutie.

2) Matthew is very respectful of his Demon Chicks.

Not only does he never berate them, yell at them, or treat them as anything less than his equal, he also refuses to sexualize them. You can see in numerous screens in Takes Off that any “up-skirt” shot of the Demon Chicks has them fully covered by a skort. No panty shots for any gross perverts around here.

Matthew talks gently to his girls, trusts them with important tasks like being his body guard and disarming a literal bomb, and is seen to be upset by them getting hurt.

(bouncy :3)

idk about you, but the gentle, sweet way he treats his girls makes me feel very safe and comfortable.

3) Matthew challenges other men to gentleman’s duels.

Matthew does not run in with fists flying ready to sucker punch a man. He invites them to dinner parties, writes them letters/e-mails (depending on the source) detailing the time, place, and reason for the ass-kicking. It’s not his fault Scott didn’t read the letter (“I hand-delivered it during a blizzard!!”). He also announces his presence so he doesn’t catch his opponent off-guard. My man loves to announce his name to rooms full of people, especially if they already know his name. (Seriously, ep 2, announces his name to the League. Like 50 seconds later? Does it again.)

4) Matthew gave Gideon a chance to reject the challenge.

Literally. When Gideon said no to the duel the first time, it wasn’t Matthew who goaded him. Roxie is the one who said “Sounds like you’re scared”. Matthew didn’t say a damn thing. He was really about to let Gideon say no to the duel, and given the way he handles rejection we may have gotten the tiniest little >:( but that’s about it. Like, seriously look at how calm he is after this rejection. He's just chilling with that same rbf.

Matthew, care more 😭😭😭

5) Matthew is not afraid to show his emotions.

Unlike some toxic men, Matthew will show emotions outside of anger without feeling shame or regret. He’s comfortable in his masculinity. Matthew shows concern freely (“I didn’t win? He’s not dead? ….. Is he mad at me?”), and will cry tears of happiness in front of a crowd of people and his friends.

Matthew’s ability to wear his heart on his sleeve really spoke to me. With my past trauma, feeling as though my body and emotions were not mine and didn’t matter, Matthew opened me up to a world of not being ashamed of the way I feel. That it doesn’t make me weak, and that I should be allowed to feel my feelings. How comfortable Matthew is in himself, his masculinity, and his emotions means a lot to me, and I’m forever grateful to him for helping me grow. Thank you, baby 🖤🖤🖤 I love you so much

6) Any time Matthew is shown in anger, it’s ALWAYS comedic.

Unlike other characters whose anger is shown to be genuinely hurtful (Todd and Gideon come to mind specifically), Matthew’s anger is always shown in a comedic light.

He’s always being silly or overly theatrical, or even this angy face:

Matthew is sooooo fucking CUTE oh my gosh 🖤🖤🖤 Am I supposed to feel intimidated by this man? Yeah right. He's a sweetheart 🖤

7) Matthew is very communicative.

He’s honest and open about his intentions, and never has underlying agendas or ulterior motives. He’s very clear and direct. Here are some examples of Matthew being truthful, honest, open, without ulterior motives, and willing to communicate well with others.

“I just wanna say thanks for creating this League. It’s pretty high concept.”

(look how polite) “There’s a fatal flaw in our League. A failure of leadership. [...] I think this League needs a new direction. And a new evil ex in charge.” “Buddy, you think I enjoy being a CEO?? I’ve lost billions. Is there any way you could… Take the empire back? Just let me keep my show and the rest of it is yours!” “Didn’t you read my letter? [Explains what was in it] It was a very detailed letter!” “Money? Who cares about money?? Have you read the script? It’s a character assassination, of me! Matthew Patel!”

8) Matthew does not get defensive, angry, or upset when corrected/proven wrong.

Two instances of this: “All is far in love and—!! …. Um…” “War… I think it’s war.” “Time to fight! >:D” He just completely did not even care. He was even about to use the phrase he learned from Scott during the final battle, before being interrupted.

And the aforementioned: “I didn’t win? He’s not dead? …. Is he mad at me?” Did not get angry at Ramona (or anyone) for revealing this information. Was mostly intrigued, confused, and a little nervous that now Scott was mad because Matthew punched the hell out of him.

(I also love his voice in this scene, so cute 🖤🖤 That deep register he hits is so pleasing to my ears)

9) Matthew has never laid a hand on nor yelled at women.

Call me old-fashioned or whatever, but I don’t believe men should be hitting women for any reason outside of self-defense. Unlike some other men in the series, Matthew is never seen raising his hand to women, threatening women, or even yelling at women.

The loudest he gets at a woman, from what I recall, is when Ramona left, closed the door behind her, and he called out a desperate, “Where are you going!?”. That’s not even yelling at her. That’s calling out in the hopes she’ll hear him. And this is also an instance where it’s seen in a comedic, non-threatening light.

Oh Matthew what IS that (please just let me have a fraction of this man's energy so I can be a functional human being)

Plus, Matthew is just loud in general most of the time. Loud voice, loud personality. I love him so much for that, he’s so extra 🖤🖤🖤 Matthew: *is loud as shit* Me, taking off my clothes: Oh my god, shut the fuck up, you’re so annoying

10) Matthew is strong and never punches down.

Matthew’s Divine Arms are insanely powerful. He can also throw fireballs and punches with ferocity. However, he never fights anyone weaker than him. He only punches up or on equal footing. Scott was seen as possibly stronger than him (and Matthew in Takes Off didn’t even use his powers against him, and in none of the iterations did he use his Divine Arms against Scott afaik).

Gideon made a show that he WAS stronger than Matthew—and then lost, get fucked. Older Scott was very strong. As a child, he and Ramona were outnumbered by the jocks. If it’s not a challenge, if he can very easily best someone, Matthew won’t fight them.

🖤🖤🖤🖤🖤🖤🖤🖤🖤

Lightning round!!

He was disgusted by Scott dating Knives (rightfully) and called Scott a scumbag.

Matthew is a very ambitious person but doesn’t step on people’s toes in the process (remember, he made a deal with Gideon who agreed to it after being goaded by Roxie).

He is not greedy and never uses his money and power to get the things that rich people are notorious for (“Money? Who cares about money??”).

Matthew was willing to hear a young woman out for what she had to say. When Knives (and Stephen was there, too, I guess) came to him with her proposition, even though he had no idea what it was, he said “I like your moxie, kids” and agreed to meet with them.

Matthew is not afraid to show affection. Not just concern and kindness to his Demon Chicks, but even to Gideon. Again: very comfortable in his masculinity; he doesn’t feel as though it’s emasculating to show his emotions and true intentions.

Just some bonus pictures of Matthew because he's gorgeous 🖤🖤🖤

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Oh my gosh?? Thank you so much, Anon!!! 😭😭🖤🖤 This is so sweet!! I'm so happy you like my art and my posts; I'm touched that people really appreciate the Ways to Connect to Your F/o and Why Your F/o Wants You to Live. I may not do it for recognition, but it's still really kind and thoughtful when people let me know that my posts have helped them!

Or even that you guys just enjoy Matthew x me. 🤭🥰🥰🥰 Thank you again, Anon!! I hope you have the best rest of your day (and week and month and year and—)

@cicidarkarts is really nice and the effort they put out shows! They've done some great art for other people in the community and themselves.

<3

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Matthew is the most beautiful man I've ever seen, hands-down, no contest 🖤🖤🖤🖤

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Your s/o (f/o) is the most gorgeous being ever. Period.

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Super cute art! I'd love one of Matthew and me, please 🖤🖤 Got a ton of other art of us on my blog if you needed more refs. Thank you (if you get to us)!

🐝 Chibi RB game 🐝

Hi all! I've been wanting to do a self ship reblog game for a while so here's that post!

So reblog this with a picture of one of your f/os + s/I and I'll draw them in this type of messy chibi style! c:

🚫 pro.ship dni pls!! 🚫

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⋆˙⟡ 50 Reasons Your F/o Wants You to Live (see bottom of post for lists of hotlines)

♡ So you can feel your favorite weather on your skin. Sunshine? Rain? Overcast days? Your f/o wants you to relish that feeling.

♡ To enjoy your favorite media. Television shows, movies, video games, any media that makes you happy or nostalgic. Your f/o adores seeing you light up when you indulge in media that you enjoy.

♡ That fresh feeling you get after a shower or bath. When you're all warmed from the water, when your skin and hair is clean and glowing. Your f/o loves that.

♡ When you use your favorite lotions or perfumes/colognes right after getting clean. Now you smell like your favorite scents, and your skin is moisturized and healthy.

♡ Have a hair routine? Do you oil or use products in your hair? Your f/o not only loves when you care for yourself, but they want to help. If you're comfortable with it, your f/o wants to help you brush, oil, and style your hair. Or even just cheer you on from the sidelines, because WOW you are beautiful.

♡ Talking to your friends or close family. When you chat with people you love, open up about your struggles, and try so hard to enjoy life when it all feels hopeless? Your f/o is so proud of you. They'll be by your side when you need them, hands/any appendages massaging your shoulders, and they'll tell you how well you're doing.

♡ To listen to your favorite music. Get goosebumps from songs that mean a lot to you. Do you sing? Your f/o wants to hear you. They'll sing with you, even if they're bad at it, just to make you smile. Sing as loud as you want.

♡ So you can laugh so hard that you cry. Maybe it was so funny you shed tears from laughing too hard. Maybe you laughed so hard that your other emotions snuck out of you. It doesn't matter. Your f/o doesn't see your tears as weakness. They're a sign you've been strong for a long time.

♡ They want to love as you as you deserve to be loved. Unconditionally. Wholly. You want Prince/Princess Treatment? Your f/o will give it to you. Looking for something quieter? Your f/o is so happy to provide. As long as they can love you like the beautiful, amazing person that you are.

♡ Sharing or non-sharing, your f/o loves you so much. Dupes? They don't matter. Your f/o only cares about you, not whatever fanart others are making of them. You're a sharer? They want you to connect to others who love them, so you can bask in the joy of community and understanding.

♡ So you can drink something warm on a cold day. A cup of coffee or tea on a chilly morning. A warm bowl of soup or stew in the middle of winter. Warming you from within. When you feel that stuck-to-your-ribs warmth, that's your f/o giving you the biggest bear hug they can.

♡ Conversely, cooling off on a hot day. Diving into a pool, playing with a hose or a sprinkler. Anything that makes you feel comfortable. Your f/o will buy you ice cream or shaved ice to help. Pop some fruit in the freezer and enjoy them in a couple of hours. Pour juice into ice trays in the morning and by the afternoon have delicious ice pops.

♡ So you can see the sunset or the sunrise. Both are equally beautiful (but, your f/o says, nowhere near as beautiful as YOU). Catch a glimpse of it. Slow down and watch it if you can. Your f/o will hold you close, and watch with you.

♡ So you can see the stars and the moon. They're beautiful, aren't they? Huge, yet tiny to our eyes. Maybe you'll see a shooting star. Maybe you can see the Planetary Alignment this August 10th, 2025, about an hour before sunrise. It can be magical, if you let it.

♡ Maybe you'll read the best book you've ever read (or hear it in audiobook form). Something that changes you or touches your heart. Something you'll come back to again and again.

♡ Cute animals. That's it: cute animals. Puppies, kittens, cow calves, any animals you like. Seeing them on a screen or in real life. Your pets are the cutest. Go love them, right now. Take pictures of them. Take a selfie with your pet and imagine your f/o took it for your because you're both just SO CUTE.

♡ Cloud watching. Do you like finding shapes in clouds? Your f/o will find some with you. Maybe they have a terrible imagination. "That one looks like an isosceles triangle", your f/o is so silly.

♡ Babies laughter. Do you like kids? If you don’t want them or you don’t have one yet but would like a child in the future, maybe you love the sound of a baby belly-laughing at something silly. The innocence of it all. Your f/o would do something silly to make ANY baby laugh if it’s something you love.

♡ Fresh food. Your favorite dish. Your f/o would serve it to you. If they can’t cook, they’ll order it, or try their best. Maybe it’ll be terrible if they cook it for you. They’ll laugh along with you at how bad it is. But if it’s delicious (restaurant-bought or otherwise)? They’ll be so happy to have made you happy.

♡ Fresh baked goods, too. The smell of sweets and cookies, the scent of fresh bread. Instant pudding mix straight out of the fridge? Doesn't matter. If you like it, your f/o wants you to have it.

♡ Sleeping on clean sheets. That smell of fresh laundry, or just the feeling of being clean. Spray your sheets down with a scent that reminds you of your f/o so they can hold you at night. Or spray with calming scents like lavender, vanilla, chamomile, etc.

♡ Bonus points if you showered, moisturized, and feel clean when you sleep in the aforementioned clean sheets.

♡ Celebrating your favorite holidays. Your f/o wants to celebrate with you. Christmas? Hanukkah? Kwanzaa? Diwali? Halloween? Any holiday you love or celebrate culturally/traditionally. Your f/o wants to be there as you enjoy yourself and immerse yourself in your culture. If they’re from a different culture than you, even better. You can teach them!

♡ Conversely, celebrating a holiday that your f/o celebrates! They’d love to teach you, too, and would be ecstatic to see your interest in something that means so much to them.

♡ Quick. Hug your f/o. Right now. Hug them so tight, or hug them gently. Hug them by leaning into them and letting them hug you. Hug them by putting your head on their chest or shoulder. Hug them by sitting so close your sides are touching. Hug your f/o so they can remind you that they love you. Close your eyes and really feel it. Immerse yourself.

We’re halfway through the list. Take a break if you need it. Stretch. Get some water. Connect with your f/o in any way that’s meaningful to you. Your f/o loves you so much and is so proud that you’re taking the time to pull yourself out of this darkness.

Here is a list of helplines from around the world Here is yet another list of helplines From Korea to India to the US to the UK to Japan to Australia to Africa; these are comprehensive lists from all over.

Ready? Click below to continue. 🖤🖤

♡ That relief after a good cry. You’ve been holding it in, and you finally let it out. Your f/o will rub your back, hold you, or give you space. Whatever you need. They’re not embarrassed or ashamed of your tears. If you’re comfortable with it, they’ll wipe them off, or kiss them away.

♡ Enjoying your favorite season. It doesn’t matter what it is. Spring because of all the flowers and rain. Summer for all the beach activities and sunshine. Autumn for the beautiful colors and perfect all-day weather. Winter for the pure snow and chill that’s amazing for curling up in a blanket. Even if it’s not a season your f/o likes, they love that they get to spend that season with YOU.

♡ Coming home to loved ones after a long day. Your family who cares for you? Your dog wagging her tail in delight? Your cat wondering why you haven’t fed him the second you walked in? Your lizard climbing their tank because they knows it’s feeding time? Any reason you look forward to coming home and spending time with a loved one, your f/o wants you to soak that time in.

♡ The warmth of your favorite spot. Your bed? Wrapped in blankets on the couch? Your desk chair made just-so? Your f/o will set it all up for you exactly to your liking, so they can watch you relax and enjoy whatever activities you like.

♡ Hand holding. Need I say more? Hold your f/o’s hand (tentacle, hoof, anything) right now. Close your eyes and really feel it. Feel them squeeze your hand tight. Feel them bring your hand to their lips and kiss your knuckles.

♡ Skin-to-skin contact. Just like before, really feel it. Imagine slipping your hands underneath your f/o’s clothes if they wear them, and touching their skin or fur. Feel that warmth (or that cold). Get lost in it.

♡ Flowers. If you don’t have allergies (or you do and you’ll gladly down a bunch of meds), your f/o would adore taking you out to see flowers. On a trail somewhere wildflowers bloom. At a flower shop or greenhouse where people tend to them so well and their blooms are huge. At your local grocery store where they keep bouquets. Go look at some flowers. Smell them if you can. Let your f/o buy some for you so you can keep it on your desk or your kitchen table or anywhere you can look at and care for them.

♡ Don’t like flowers? Do this with any kind of plant. Feel the leaves or vines on your skin. When you reconnect with nature and feel that deep peace within you, your f/o is utterly melting and crying in the background.

♡ “This made me think of you”. Was it a gift from your f/o? A meme from a friend? Someone thought of you, and the way that makes you feel, how it lights up your day even if just for that moment, means the world to your f/o.

♡ Do you like camping or s’mores? Have a bonfire if you’re able. Sit outside on the perfect, crisp night and enjoy a firepit and some marshmallows on a stick. Or make s’mores in the microwave, and sit with a fake fire on your screen. If it’s something you enjoy but can’t have right now, simulate it. Your f/o will set everything up for you (and give you lots of kisses while they do).

♡ Fireflies. Like them up close? Go catch some with your f/o. Prefer them from afar? Your f/o will set up a chair by the window so you can watch the fireflies for a little while. Enjoy the sounds of crickets and frogs and nature. Your f/o will be there with you.

♡ Live so you can dream. Maybe you struggle to dream. Maybe you have chronic nightmares. But when you have a good dream and it sticks with you and makes you smile? Your f/o loves that. Share your dreams with them! Make a notepad or journal or write on your phone/pc and detail your dreams to your f/o.

♡ Petrichor. That smell of rain. Earthy, cleansing. Maybe either you or your f/o can’t smell it. Imagine teasing each other for it. “You can’t smell RAIN? It’s RIGHT THERE!” 

♡ Even if you can’t smell it, you can enjoy the sound of it. It’s not raining right now? There are videos of rain sounds all over YouTube. Find your favorite, have your f/o close your curtains, and imagine the fresh rain pouring down. Your f/o would love to hold you through it. Cozy, warm, and beautiful.

♡ So you can make new friends. You’re in the yume community? There are so many people who want to be your friend here. It’s scary to put yourself out there. Connect with someone who seems kind. Ask them about their f/o and start a conversation. Your f/o will be so proud that you were brave.

♡ Have siblings you adore? Your f/o wants you to connect with them. Are they older and out of the house? Text/call them and ask how life is going. Text/call them and tell them you need someone. Are they younger? Watching them grow up, being their mentor and guide when they need you, is a wonderful feeling. Your f/o will be so happy to see you laughing, teaching, learning from, and holding your siblings.

♡ Saying “I love you” to those you love. Your siblings. Your parents. Your grandparents. Your friends. Your f/o. Your irl partner. Tell them you love them. Someone came to mind? Stop reading this right now and send them a text or call them. When you show your love, when you have so much love to give—your f/o is getting weepy-eyed just thinking about it.

♡ That feeling when your heart flips or your stomach is full of butterflies from seeing your f/o. They’re so flustered by that. If they smirk at you, or if they shy away, they get flustered that seeing them or hearing their voice gives you butterflies.

♡ Fulfilling your dreams. Just passing school or college? Looking for a big promotion? Trying to find a job that isn’t soul-crushing? You’re doing it. You’re pushing through even when it feels like you’re barely crawling. And your f/o is so proud of you, beyond words.

♡ When you go to kiss your f/o and you accidentally miss. That silly awkward moment you caught their nose, their facial hair, their fur and whiskers, their gills, their dials. Maybe you missed completely and caught their chin. Don’t be embarrassed! It was sweet and cute. They’ll happily cup your face and gently lead you in for a proper kiss. Lips on lips. Your cheek. Your nose. Your forehead. Your hair. All of the above.

♡ Feeling like a kid again. Even if you are a kid still, maybe you’ve been bogged down by school, chores, or poor circumstances. Jump on a trampoline. Stomp in puddles. Draw with chalk on the sidewalk or driveway. Pretend you can only step on certain tile colors at the store or in school or in your office building. Blow bubbles. Play hide n’ seek with friends, family, or even your dog or cat or other pet where it’s safe for them to play. Reconnect with that silly joy and forget whether you’re “too old” or “too mature” for it. Your f/o will laugh with you over your silly antics.

♡ So you can learn something new. A new language. Learn about a new culture. About animals or biology or medicine or anything that piques your interest. Infodump about it to your f/o. You can talk to a picture of them, or you can write it all down in a word document, a blog post, a journal. Your f/o would love to read all that you’ve learned, no matter how niche it is or how silly it seems to you.

♡ Spontaneous adventures. A road trip. A walk on a nature trail. You never know what you’ll find. Take your f/o on an adventure with you! Take a plushie of them, a picture of them on your phone, or even just keep them at the forefront of your mind. Take them anywhere. If it’s somewhere you want to go, they’re so happy to tag along. Just be safe. Let others you trust know where you're going. Give them a timeframe for when you'll be back.

♡ So you can help others. Make a list like this for people in your community. Volunteer at a homeless shelter. Volunteer at an animal shelter. Help someone who can’t reach something off the top shelf. Offer to call someone an Uber or help them get in touch with their family if their battery died. Give out compliments freely. You like someone’s dress or shoes? “Excuse me. I just wanted to let you know that your nails are so pretty”. You will make their day, I promise you. And your f/o will be so full of joy that you reached out to help someone and make their day just a little better.

♡ To feel love. Platonic love. Romantic love. Any love in between. Your f/o wants you to feel love from everywhere in your life. From friends and family. From your pets. From your f/o or irl partners. But most importantly: from yourself. Your f/o wants you to love yourself, and feel deserving of all the love they have for you. Because you do deserve it. You deserve their love, the love of your friends, family, and pets, and love from yourself. You are worthy. You are loved.

If you need help, reach out. To loved ones, to friends, to someone in the community, to your local hotline, to your therapist, to anyone at all. Your f/o will be so proud of you. You’re not weak. People are social creatures, we’re built to ask for help when we need it. We’re built to help others. To build people up who have been torn down. To be built up by trusted members of our communities or professionals.

Vent to your f/o. Send them letters or journal entries. Tell them that you set up that appointment with your therapist, or finally made a date with a loved one for coffee or lunch, or invited your friends to hang out with you at someone’s house or your local park. That will make them so happy. Your f/o will be so happy that you’re trying. They love you. They want you to live. Not just survive, but really, truly live.

And if you really feel like you have no one else, my DMs are open. To anyone. LGBTQ+ fears and worries? Nerves about school or work? Dealing with racism or any kind of prejudice? You can vent to me. It feels good just to get it out. We’re social creatures, and sometimes what we need more than anything is to connect with another person. Let me be that for you, if you have no one else in your life.

⋆˙⟡ ♡ Remember, your f/o wants you to drink water, eat nutritious food, exercise (even if it’s just a walk, 5 squats, or standing while you watch television), take care of your hygiene, and relax. Not for them, but because these things will help make you happy. And your f/o adores nothing more than seeing you thrive. ⋆˙⟡ ♡

I felt, as an at-risk person, that this list was necessary for others in the community dealing with depression; for any ficto/yumeshipper/person with fictional crushes. And if you have more to add, feel free to reblog and add them. Or reply and I'll add it to the list with credit to you.

If you still need more, please see this List of Ways to Connect with Your F/o that I made.

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Back for Round 2 let's get into it (and reblog to the right blog this time omg me dumb dumb) @leonsdearest Oh my god why are you two SO CUTE??? Just looking at you guys with all that adorable art makes me so happy. You guys are adorable, and I love the sweet tenderness you share. And sappy? Oh my goodness, are you sappy, but I love it so much 🖤🖤

@avatarduck I would commit crimes for you and Wan. You two are somehow so extremely silly but also so wholesome and I love to see it. Plus there's just something about the way you two LOOK together that's just??? Perfect. Absolute chaos gremlins, I'm all here for it 🖤

@cowb0yluvrr You and Vash and Spike are just top tier I LOVE seeing art of you and your men!! You are so in love with your men that it's tooth-rotting in the best way, and seeing you gush over them (and knowing they gush just like that over you) is so sweet 🖤🖤

@asenarieka Envy x Astrid is like peanut butter and jelly. Do not separate, a whole meal, sweet and part of a balanced diet of yumeshipping /pos /silly I just love seeing you guys together, and how somehow it's Envy keeping YOU in check because you're feral, I love it (plus FMA is one of my fave animes so you clearly have wonderful taste 🖤)

@cesienthusiast Speaking of FMA, your thirst for Wrath and Greed gives me absolute life. Like it was a GIFT to have stumbled upon your blog and become your mootie. Cuz now I get to watch your feral escapades while you thirst over two extremely cool men from an extremely cool anime. Lots of people with fine tastes in this list 🤘😩

@akashicdestiny Oh my GOSH you and Crawli are SO CUTE!! You're both so sweet on each other, always cuddling and hugging and holding onto one another, and it's adorable. Just love to see you both on my tl, very OTP, very cute 🖤🖤

@macaquewifey You and Macaque are absolutely ADORABLE!! I love seeing the art of you two, you look at each other with such reverence, and it's so obvious how in love you are. The comfort you bring to one another is next level sweet and caring, and I'm so happy you've found one another!!

@mahitosoulmate Come get your feral wife 😭😭😭 But you know what? You're just as feral. You two are made for each other. Talk about "match my freak", you guys match each other's freak SO WELL, and it's sweet <333 You both can be unhinged together without worry or judgment, and I think that's downright beautiful 🖤🖤🖤

@gojos-girlfriend Oh. My. CUTE. He is SO SAPPY with you!!! I love it. I love seeing him trying to be all romantic and you're just like "oh my god, how much sugar have you had?" and he's like "not enough" and makes kissing faces at you. YOU KNOW HE WOULD LET'S BE REAL. You're so cute and wholesome and so sweet I have cavities /silly /pos 🖤🖤

@moxanji-real Not only are you super sweet, but you have SANJI to treat you like the PRINCESS THAT YOU ARE. And I know that man is treating you so right, with so much love, so much adoration. He looks at you like you're the most amazing person he's ever seen. When you kiss him and he just melts? Oh man, I'm right there melting over how cute my OTP is 🖤🖤🖤

I know there are still so many mooties I haven't mentioned!! I wish I could give all of you a shoutout because you DESERVE IT! Love seeing all of your beautiful selfships so much, please keep sharing the love!! <333

⋆｡♡˚ F/o Positivity Chain! ৎ౨˚₊

This community needs more love going around. So let's start a game! Tag a few of your mooties, or even people you'd just like to get to know better, and tell everyone what you like about their yumeship! Try to have a good mix of different shippers so everyone can get a chance to have something kind said about their beautiful ship! I'll go first.

@sweetpayaso Not only is your ship just adorable to look at from the complementary colors, I loooove seeing the silly antics between you and Jack, and how much you both seem to adore each other!

@rotgrave You and Maria have such a sweet, beautiful, and tender relationship. From everything you've told me, you two are absolutely perfect for each other, and are healing deep wounds within both of you

@sugarhoneybiscuit You and Mammon are SO FREAKIN CUTE??? The way he comforts you and brings you such joy is adorable. Seeing all of the imagines you share and having that glimpse into what your relationship is like is beautiful

@mia-ships I love multi-selfshippers, so seeing you and your husbands (particularly Lance and Zoro) is so much fun! Seeing all of the love you have to give is such a hopeful experience. You and your husbands are so in love, and they treat you well, as you deserve

@l1tt13app13 The understanding between you and your f/os is genuinely sooooo sweet. I adore seeing all of your art, the way you lovingly hold one another, the cute ways your men tease you. It's just tooth-rotting fluff and I'm all for it

@starlit-sanguine Look, SOMEONE has to keep your men on a leash (especially Gid), and you're just the person to do it! Seriously, without you, these men would fall apart. We should all be thanking you for your service. Plus, seeing you and Gideon get married in that Miiverse picture was somehow the funniest and most wholesome thing ever

@subnausea Ummm you and Ryley OTP? That isn't even enough. You guys are SO in love and it's beautiful. You love everything about each other and bring each other so much hope and happiness. It's so sweet and wonderful to see (no pun intended)

Thank you to everyone on this list (AND ALL OF MY MOOTIES!) for sharing their beautiful selfships. It's such a joy to see all of you guys on my timeline!! Please tag as many people as you'd like, and feel free to come back to tag more! I may do just that :D

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⋆｡♡˚ F/o Positivity Chain! ৎ౨˚₊

This community needs more love going around. So let's start a game! Tag a few of your mooties, or even people you'd just like to get to know better, and tell everyone what you like about their yumeship! Try to have a good mix of different shippers so everyone can get a chance to have something kind said about their beautiful ship! I'll go first.

@sweetpayaso Not only is your ship just adorable to look at from the complementary colors, I loooove seeing the silly antics between you and Jack, and how much you both seem to adore each other!

@rotgrave You and Maria have such a sweet, beautiful, and tender relationship. From everything you've told me, you two are absolutely perfect for each other, and are healing deep wounds within both of you

@sugarhoneybiscuit You and Mammon are SO FREAKIN CUTE??? The way he comforts you and brings you such joy is adorable. Seeing all of the imagines you share and having that glimpse into what your relationship is like is beautiful

@mia-ships I love multi-selfshippers, so seeing you and your husbands (particularly Lance and Zoro) is so much fun! Seeing all of the love you have to give is such a hopeful experience. You and your husbands are so in love, and they treat you well, as you deserve

@l1tt13app13 The understanding between you and your f/os is genuinely sooooo sweet. I adore seeing all of your art, the way you lovingly hold one another, the cute ways your men tease you. It's just tooth-rotting fluff and I'm all for it

@starlit-sanguine Look, SOMEONE has to keep your men on a leash (especially Gid), and you're just the person to do it! Seriously, without you, these men would fall apart. We should all be thanking you for your service. Plus, seeing you and Gideon get married in that Miiverse picture was somehow the funniest and most wholesome thing ever

@subnausea Ummm you and Ryley OTP? That isn't even enough. You guys are SO in love and it's beautiful. You love everything about each other and bring each other so much hope and happiness. It's so sweet and wonderful to see (no pun intended)

Thank you to everyone on this list (AND ALL OF MY MOOTIES!) for sharing their beautiful selfships. It's such a joy to see all of you guys on my timeline!! Please tag as many people as you'd like, and feel free to come back to tag more! I may do just that :D

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⁺‧₊♡˚₊ Reblog to give your f/o a love bite ♡ ‧⁺˖

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It's interesting how many of these are complementary colors (green and pink is a beautiful combination).

Probably more complementary colors I missed! 🖤🖤🖤

what colour makes up your and your f/o’s name?

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So I've been trying to get my thoughts together on this fic because life has been hell lately but this fic? This fic brought me so much joy. I know it's an x reader fic technically, the selfshipper in me just sees you x Shiu, so watching him treat you SO well and be so supportive and sweet? Beautiful. So many things in this fic were worded in just the right way for my brain. Like "blessing a kiss to your temple"? Oh my gosh. And the little fight when you went into full panic mode over Shiu about to use the needle (when YOU asked him for help!!) was so funny and adorable. Mf really said "I ate it already" GURL 😂😂😂 Seriously, I just love reading these ones about Shiu in particular. idk, maybe I'm just invested in them, but there's something about the way you write these domestic bliss stories with Shiu that really is such a joyful read. Leaves me feeling satisfied and glad to have watched a happy couple just be happy and in love like this.

ꕤ shiu kong x pregnant fem wife!reader

ꕤ shiu helps you administer your new daily medication you couldn't be less than excited about due to your utter hatred of needles.

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ꕤ cw: brief mention of suggestion so minors dni, fluff, needles, but nothing graphic. mention of quitting smoking, mention of shiu and reader getting tattoos but no extra details besides that, pregnancy, medicine.

ꕤ a/n: just self indulgent hell bc i missed my love sm 💕 im kinda mad w how long this got LOL was supposed to be a drabble but hopefully you enjoy 💕☕ dividers: @/animatedglittergraphics-n-more. sparkles: @/anitalenia

"For the love of God, Shiu, just do it..." You whimper into the fuzz of your sage green pregnancy pillow.

It's Sunday. The sunshine drizzles in haphazardly through the french windows and lacey curtains, casting ornate shadows on your body that's splayed across the lap of your husband, the rich smell of mocha that was brewed downstairs wafted impatiently through the hallways as it was temporarily forgotten.

Shiu gives your hip a squeeze with a scoff of frustration, your matching silk pajama top is pulled up over your swelling belly, needle poised at the ready in his hand before he gives up again.

"Babe. Goddamn, I'm trying..."

"The longer you wait the worse it gets!"

"Yes, baby. Because you won't even let me get close enough to do the damn thing." Shiu retorts curtly.

The end of his patience is crystal clear despite his level headedness he was doing his best to keep with you in your vulnerable state.

"You think I actually want to stick a needle in you like this every damn day?"

You grumble. Your first baby and you're already met with the unwelcome news from your doctor that you needed to be on an anti-coagulant for blood clots that came with the miserable prescription of a daily injection that you'd be stuck with the entire duration of your pregnancy.

You opened up the box that morning and sat down on the toilet and just stared at the little needle for what felt like an eternity until you called for Shiu.

Now, it led to this predicament with your face buried in the pillow, nearly an hour later as you both shifted positions numerous times (and not in the fun, sexy way you two were used to doing) from the bathroom, to the counter, to standing up, to your bedroom, both of you scared shitless to just get it over with.

You groaned and let out a mini scream of frustration into the pillow while Shiu set the needle down once again, combing a hand through his dark hair with a sigh of his own, frown lines blooming on his forehead. It didn't help that he was on nearly month three of no cigarettes for your sake, either.

"Gonna make me start smoking again, woman, I swear..." He mutters, but just loud enough for you to hear.

A beat of silence.

"I'm sorry, Shiu darling..." You say softly, turning to look up at him with those starry eyes of yours.

Your little apology and those damned sweet words cut right though his icy front he had the nerve to direct at you, his beloved pregnant wife. Shiu sighs again, pulling you into his chest.

"No, I'm sorry, dollface." His eyes soften as his chin meets your head, cradling you closer to hear your heartbeat, his reminder that it was his lifeline away from the shadows.

"I was frustrated but that's no excuse for being a dick to you, sweetheart. It's not your fault."

After another lengthy moment, you pull away and both of you look at each other, defeated, exhausted, but your love for one another kept you determined.

"What are you thinkin about, Mrs. Kong?" He asks, those deep, dark orbs of his swimming through yours as he studies you, as though he was trying to learn your mind despite him all but making a home there ever since the moment you drifted into his orbit.

"Hmm?" He hums, performing a little massage on the pillow of your thighs.

You shrug with a weary sniffle through your nose, voice shaky from the exhaustion of the whole debacle. "I dunno, honey... I just hate needles."

"What, this tiny thing?" He smiles as he holds up the syringe. "Piece of cake, angel. After all those tattoos we've gotten, this is nothing."

"It's different, Shiu!"

"Not really." He shakes his head, blowing air through his lips as he does his best to downplay the scariness of the needle to set your mind at ease.

"Some of those tattoo guns take up to 25 at a time. This is just one." He winks at you. "If you can take all those at once you can take this little one, no problem."

You groan. His words should make you feel better but they're not. You're still paralyzed by the fear of doing this thing you've never done before. Giving up the responsibility to Shiu made you spiral because you weren't in control, yet you couldn't bring yourself to do it on your own.

"Tell you what, dollface." Shiu changes the topic, patting your bum as you flop back into your pillow sanctuary.

"What are you craving, right now?"

You don't have to think long and hard before you tell him.

"That tuxedo cheesecake we got last night at dinner."

"Uh huh..." Shiu smiles as he leans in, thumb swiping your cheeks as he lowers his voice.

"What if I told you I got an extra slice to go and it's all yours waiting for you in the fridge? Right now. If you let me do this." He wiggles the syringe in his other hand.

"I know...I ate it last night."

Shiu's face falls as he sits back, almost in disbelief, almost in complete exasperation, and also in endearment for your greedily adorable indulgence that apparently just couldn't wait.

"What? I'm pregnant, Shiu. I can eat whatever I want!"

"What? No, I never said you couldn't, angel. Of course you can! I just....Jesus, man."

He just laughs as he sets the needle down on the nightstand once again, pinching the bridge of his nose, the flecks of grey in his hair surely becoming more prominent by now.

"Alright, look. Pasta. Brunch. Coffee. Shopping. I don't give a damn what it is. It's all yours. And you can kick me, punch me, scream at me. But we're doing this. Right now."

He uncaps the syringe, hovering over your belly.

"Shiu, Shiu, Shiu!!!" You sit up like a hairpin, laughing out of utter nervousness as you plea for mercy.

"Shiu, baby, honey, wait, hold on..."

"I'm gonna count to three..."

"OKAY, but Jesus, Shiu...look at me!! Do exactly: one, two, three, then poke."

"I hear you, love."

You whimper loudly, almost screaming again as you stow your face back in your pillow in anticipation for the painful pinch you knew was coming.

"But ask me first. Say: 'ready?' And then when I say 'yes', go: one, two, three, poke, okay? Got it? Babe?"

You wait, face still pulled into a grimace in your pillow as you turn your face to the side, calling for him. "Is it in yet? Shiu??"

There's no answer from Shiu, but you feel the tiniest little sting in your belly that almost makes you jump.

"SHIUUUU!!!"

"Yes?" Shiu looks over at you, completely non chalant, fighting a smirk as he reaches for a bandaid.

"I....what??" You sit there, dumbfounded as you try to piece together what just happened. "That was it?"

"That was it." He smooths the SpongeBob bandage over your bump, gently pulling your top down with a loving pat before he leans over you, kissing the corner of your mouth. "Not so bad, was it?"

"I..."

"Yes?" He asks, voice dripping more huskily as his kisses wander lazily to your neck, until he nuzzles his face against your throat to catch the lingering scent of fig and manuka honey that you wore the night before, sighing as his body weight is gently lowered onto you before he collapses next to you on the bed.

"What do you need, Mrs. Kong?"

"I'm..." You wrap your arms around him, welcoming his closeness even though your confusion still hasn't quite worn off. "It's done?"

"It's done, angel." He kisses your cheek, hand splaying across your tummy in smooth circles as he closes his eyes for a moment.

You exhale, the apples of your cheeks growing a bit warm. "I'm...honestly just embarrassed now at how fast that was."

"Yeah you should be." Shiu teases, lips pressing against your pulse just once before he charts a new path of little kisses up your throat, landing just shy of your lips.

"But now that's out of the way, the others should be pretty simple from here on out, hmm?"

"Y-yeah..."

"Good."

You pause.

"So... is the cheesecake still off the table?"

Shiu pauses as well then chuckles. He exhales another weary sigh, as you never fail to run him ragged.

But God, if it's for the unpayable deed he owed you for carrying his unborn child, the cornerstone of a home with a white picket fence he never imagined could be his, how you'd readily agree to grow old with him like a promise, then, he'll do it every time.

"Nah. It's not, dollface. You want more cheesecake?"

He checks his watch before blessing a kiss to your temple. "I think the restaurant should be open by now. I'll just get changed and run out."

"Wait, really?" You smile at him. "You're so sweet. But actually..."

You fiddle with one of his buttons in that sickeningly adorable way you always did like you didn't know he was irrevocably wrapped around your finger.

"I was thinking your world famous pancakes could be an acceptable substitute, my love."

He chuckles, cradling your face in his hands and bestowing a kiss to your lips before he gets up.

"You got it, Mrs. Kong."

He stands and stretches before he strides to your master bathroom in those black silk pajamas, tired, but utterly pleased with himself as he washes his hands, then comes out.

His shirt is half unbuttoned with that sea of salt and pepper hair plastered on his chest you adored so much, tousle in his hair from how your fingers had left it as you watch your entire sky disappear downstairs to cook you breakfast, but of course, not before making sure the reruns of your favorite show were turned on in the meantime, sealed with another passionate kiss to hold you off until later.

Anything for his pregnant wife.

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he looks so tired,,, i must hold him,,,,,,

Hold him gently in your hands 🤲🤲🤲

I don't think there's a single picture of Matthew looking tired. So here, maybe some of Matthew's raw, unadulterated energy can rub off on your man and wake him up.

please god let me have this much energy so I can function, amen

There are at least 2 gifs of Matthew just speeding around like a toddler, and many MANY more of him dancing. Like seriously can he at least share some of his energy???

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i drew you guys in a grassy minecraft area

Duuuuude??? This is SO sweet and cute??? 😭😭 Oh my gosh thank you SO MUCH this is insanely thoughtful!! We look so peaceful and tender 🥺 I utterly melt at kisses from Matthew when we're out and about in nature (I mean... Just in general, but nature kisses are so wonderful!). I love this, I adore this 🖤🖤🖤 I will cherish this picture, thank you!!! Also reminds me I need to draw Matthew kissing me in the rain at some point 🖤🖤🖤