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Coming soon….? Tehe..

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Vamp!Joe Goldberg, now playing: Glory Box (live)- Portishead

3: 26 AM.

She was a light sleeper, Joe knew. So, he was carefully when he opened the stupidly loose window of her bedroom, I mean, wasn’t there regulation on this? Not even a lock. There she was, lying in her plush bed, with her duvet halfway on the floor as a result for her constantly moving around while she slept.

Joe walked carefully, over to her bed and kneeled beside it. He gently stroked her cheek with his pale, cold fingers. She sound of her pulse filled his ear, he was so hungry his teeth ached. Gently, with carefully hands behind her shoulders, he lifted her up in a seated position. Her head lolled back and she was slack and asleep, thick locks falling from the shoulder down her back.

With a trembling, strained form, he rested his face into her chest. When she stirred from sleep, he only held on tighter. His breaths coming out in little pants. “I’m sorry- m’ so sorry.” He murmured, slightly lifting his head up and locking his deep brown eyes with hers. “What.?-“ before much else could be said, his sharp teeth sunk into her slender neck and her eyes rolled into the back of her head as strained gasps left her parted lips.

It was gluttonous, drinking more than he should. Lapping at whatever blood escaped the two puncture wounds in her neck. Holding her close while whimpering into her neck, nose pressing into her skin as he desperately tried to press closer.

He only stopped when he knew your body couldn’t take loosing more blood, he carefully laid you back against your pillow and stroked your cheek. “M’ so sorry, you did so good for me.” he murmured, staring at her shut eyes and soft features. “Forgive me..I’m selfish, and cruel.” His eyes shut to stop the tears as filled his deep brown eyes and yet the warm, salty tears dripped down his pale cheeks.

He laid his head to her stomach, whimpering apologies that fell on unconscious ears. “I love you, you burn in my soul as if you are that very, undead heart that beats in my chest. You have dug your fingers between every fold in my brain, every loving memory I have is a mosaic of you. I only want you, in your entirety, for the rest of my immortal existence. You haunt every breeze that blows past— I cannot live without you.”

Just a little vampire nibble for my babies.

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JOE GOLDBERG, now playing: Golden Brown- The Stranglers

He did it for love, Joe told himself so. Killing your oddly co-dependent best friend and then trying to let you down gently, it really wasn’t his place. Yet he did, he held you close while you sobbed and screamed at him. Fed you medicines that calmed your racing brain, one’s that made days pass like a soft breeze in the summer. A moment of relief from the scolding heat. He even held you as you laid in the same spot for days, read you Joan Didion.

“Hi, sweet girl.” He whispered, gently coaxing you out of the illusory rest you laid in. “We gotta get you in the bath, okay.?” Joe spoke to you kindly, giving you the illusion of a choice you didn’t have. Your bleary eyes blinked open to meet with his soft features; the brown eyes that stared at you with ardor.

He gently picked you up, leaning your upper body to his chest, a hand under your bottom for extra support as your legs hooked to his hips and arms to his shoulders. “That’s it, good job. Gotta take it easy.” He murmured to you as he carried you to the en suite. The bath was already filled with steaming water, double checked not to burn your skin, which he adored with all his heart. The soapy water smelled like a vanilla laundry detergent, though he had used a soap that would be gentle and wasn’t too scented.

He helped pull off the old pajamas you wore, placing them in the laundry basket, while you padded over the white tile, settling into the porcelain tub. Listening to the drip of the faucet. “I should to get that fixed, m’ so silly, huh?” Joe said, walking over he took out the two plait in your hair and began brushing it as he sat by the tub.

“If I...wasn’t so stupid, i would have seen the signs and done something before..” your voice was low, if a little guttural. “Shh shh, don’t think like that. Don’t be stupid, you know better.” Joe scolded, but, oddly delicately. “You’re a smart girl, baby. Act like it.” It came out in a murmur, like he was just telling you a fact.

You sat and soaked in the bath, he occasionally pet your head. But, he was all the more focused on watching and admiring you. The emptiness in your sweet eyes made him desperately fix something, but he didn’t. Instead he got up and retrieve some pills from the cabinet, he bent down to your side. He held your face in one hand and squeezed your jaw till you opened your mouth. He slid the pill in and watched, waiting for you to swallow.

Just a little bite size snack while I try to get my motivation and energy back, academic burnout is no joke🫠. Hope you guys like it!

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yesss! i listened to the podcost yesterday and can't believe penn going to be a dad to twins??? and the gossip girl reference too? ugh his voice yummy.

I’m so happy for him and his wife, they both seem like such genuine people!

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and also the reaction pics are top tier! what keywords did you put in pinterest? since it's only my main source of memes.

Honestly I just type in “reaction pictures” and they come up 🤷‍♀️ but I <3 Pinterest memes, just wish there weren’t so many ads😒😒

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very excited for season 5 'you' but simultaneously don't want to finish it because I'd properly feel empty after lmao

This is vey real, I’m already getting withdrawals

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thank god penn badgley make a recap, because i have no idea wtf is going on anymore. stopped watching after love quinn my wife deserve better

We are all pro-Love Quinn in this house, she deserved to live a happy life raising Henry and getting far away from joe. Also, speaking of Penn Badgley, did anyone else see the interview he did on the Call Her Daddy podcast? He is such a cutie.

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are we going to be expecting you cooking up new joe bots!??? 👀👀👀 (don't feel pressured though!)

I’m actually cooking up a fic that I’ll release today or tomorrow, I’m feeling like finally feeding you with some content

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COMMING BACK FROM MIA TO SAY THAT I AM SO HYPED FOR SEASON 5 OF ‘YOU’ IM ACTUALLY TWEAKING OUT.

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i love the new theme !!! so cute!!!

thank you! I felt my old theme was so messy and out of order.

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im lowkey scared for henry's sake. because this is not early season joe that we come to know protective towards children anymore, what if, he treats henry, if not, worst, like how his adoptive dad did? omg im getting motherly over henry like get away from that kid joe you deadbeat dad of an bastard.

AAAAA HENRY MY SHAYLAAA🙁🙁

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this year's march are highkey sick month, like I went from strep throat to fever, itchy throat and then asthma attack to clogged ear and nose??? Wtfffff

Sick season is the worst, I’m just a silent member of the weak immune system community😭 get well soon, anonie!

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quite excited about season 5 ‘YOU’ joe Goldberg, he seem more unhinged than book joe by the trailer i fear. need to rewatch the seasons from the start 'cause i already forgot half of the plot 😭

YES OH EM GEE?? IM SO FUCKING HYPED

Also I fear pookie has lost the plot for season five, but it’s okay because he’s pretty

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lovelovelove your sibling!user bots, love me yandere older brother uaiaiiaaiiaiaa

Sameeee!!! It just hits the spot, idk about y’all but I love platonic love that’s just so raw and deranged, I can’t get enough hehheheheh

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For the few people actually reading my posts, full length fics are maybe perhaps in work?

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heeeey jadyyy is there any rules for yes and donts for your bot request??? thats all thank uuuu

Hiiiii, you can request almost anything tbh! But I do try to keep them as non descriptive of the user as possible, bots and fics can be either a coping method or just gen comfort for people so I’m happy to write about mental issues and ect as I do struggle with them myself! Also if you want to request please try and be specific about what you want because I want to be sure you get what you hoped for! Thank you for asking Areleine!!!

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HAPPY NEW YEARRRR!!! HOPE THAT YOU HAVE A GREAT DAY!!! :D

A LITTLE LATE BUT HAPPY NEW YEAR AND THANK YOU THANK YOU BEAUTIFUL ANONIE!!!