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Metamorphosis

Invite my shadow to walk next

to your colourful parts glued

After the storm

I will carry on blooming and

Turning into a butterfly

For the night

For my wings to Fall and

My heart to die

I let my guard down

One last time

//Enjoy your metamorphosis<3

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Detached

Who's that body

Numbness of its parts

Have I said it?

Have I let the silence

kill my heart?

Oh there goes a tear

Oh how it aches

Let it bleed

Let it slip out of my hands

I can hear but I don't listen

Why do I let this noise pass me by?

Why this sentence structure I still choose?

Why the language?

Maybe there's no pulse

Again

The ghost, always two steps behind

Maybe it's staring from afar

//Enjoy your detachment<3

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The smoke, me and the sky

Why am I in love with a smoke

that strangles your throat?

Is there enough

to float to the cloud?

Will it take me to the sky

in the flickering fire's

lights?

Am I light enough

to blend with the sky?

All of you are blind,

blind, oh so blind,

not to see the smoke, me

and the sky.

//Enjoy your blindness <3

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Waiting

A bleeding flower grew

where the rain was due

A sturdy ground

dry soil

fluffy moss

concrete fountain

waiting for the drops

//Enjoy the drops of life<3

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Eternal

He died so many times

No fire could take him

No wind could move him

There was no stare to split

His heart in two

and to wonder why

//Enjoy eternity<3

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Hotel experience

The million faces,

ghosts and wanderers

in between social

groups and families,

Are they for their

business cases

or to rest, loose the

laces?

Are they here to discover,

or is it just another

trip to the city of

Kings that conquered

it all for them

to hang it on Instagram

wall?

I love the different

smiles, delicate stares

and unpredictable reactions,

I love the sound of

coffee maker, vacuum

and chatter from all

sections,

I love the rush

with every problem to

solve and every new

gossip that helps pass

the time.

Some things are tirening

in routines dark eye

but I don't mind

//Enjoy what's in the drawer<3

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Crystal glass

I go back to the old days

but now are no

old ways

and you say how

it all changed

but see we are much

the same.

Looking for the main

sense

and I don't even

write nowadays

I feel so transparent

like I'm made of

crystal glass,

they all look

but don't see me as

who am I

Am I someone to

them anymore?

Time will show.

//Enjoy being someone to someone<3

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An evening bliss

I'm hypnotized by the

way the trees sway on

the wind

and as the light

of street lantern

flickers within,

the old TV shows that

play well-known sounds,

the way I caught

your shiny glance,

I was there, I was

alive, and for a moment

the world was mine,

so sway on, sway on,

sway on.

//Enjoy your evening bliss<3

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Sympathy for the lost

Give me the heat,

don’t leave me standing

in the cold,

I never fell for all

that’s gold,

but a heart,

a flesh and a soul

inside you,

and the eyes,

eyes crying over

world’s dispair,

now here we are,

don’t leave me in the

hollow,

or I will go my way,

and keep to follow,

the Moon’s dance,

my feet rustling in the

leaves,

from an end to another end.

//Enjoy your warmth<3

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The wanderer

Jet black hair

shining in the Sun

once was red like

cherry wine.

Where have you gone?

Where are you now?

Silent, sad girl that

took a road for a life.

Hope they didn’t take your whole will,

your whole might, and

that God healed your scars,

hope you didn’t give up

and that you’re somewhere

there, looking for a better way out,

giving another chance to

your life, one more

circlin of blood

//Enjoy your road<3

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The Virus

Stuck inside,

pandemic in my brain,

virus in my mind,

taking over each neuron

but not the one you

heard of,

it’s a virus of feelings,

using time where you

face yourself each day

in many ways,

where you look for answers

while getting more questions,

where you change moods

and methods

like changing color of

your walls.

How about the ones that build you?

The ones that

surround what’s

inside? Do you have the

cure for that?

//Enjoy the virus of thoughts<3

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Human flesh

We’re just human flesh,

mixed blood in each veins

so how could I judge your

ways?

For feeling cross across strong

bones, for being lost

with bold thoughts, for spitting

on someone’s pain, for

bringing yourself or other

soul down, like there’s

none, none of sensitivity

that just lays on the

surface.

Live and let others, eat

and feed tolerance,

in any possible way.

We are just mix of

stones with enormous power

on others, makes you wander,

are we?

//Enjoy your awakening<3

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Sleep deprived

Maybe I like these all nights? To keep my eyes open wide, whereas everyone sleeps tight. To keep my mind flowing since too often I shut it down, I let myself run away into silence To deprive myself of actually being awake Enough. To the point where I don't want to take anymore Time. Maybe that's the case too, it runs, everything runs and I'm the one not keeping up. Maybe, Or maybe not. That's me: Sleep deprived.

//Enjoy your insomnia<3

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Everything passes

Sometimes you get that certain breath upon your shoulder, You hear it say "you aren't infinite", It's death reminding to live the life you want Cause there may be no other chance to do this or that, Don't hold on tight To a grudge. It's good when you smile through the tears And mutter "life's beautiful", I think it's hope, that no matter what, It's just a period of time which will too pass soon.

Photography: @Lizzie9970

//Enjoy your moment<3

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Story of the Light

She was a princess trapped in a cold, bricked castle, thorns and dust hugging it's walls crippled around her. It's been like that since she could remember so being used to it wasn't a magical trick. Secret laid in the Sun rays reaching from above the window sill. Secret laid in her face facing it's arms. There were princes trying to reach her and the light they shared was shining for a while but it couldn't last just like that. Their armors were drown to dark silk, it made them feel hidden and thrilled mixed with numbness for emotions. They didn't have to face the dark all their lives to fear it, to despise it, to know it's back. So she had to let them go with hope that their will be something in a right time that will make them face the light and admire it the way everyone could if they'd just try enough to be inside out with themselves. So it went on until the doors opened again, another brave but there was something different this time, that drew her mind. The eyes sparkled with well-known light. Soon enough, she got to share her own and get his back and they got warm in each other's spark. When the dark started to attack one, it had to run from the other and they could bathe forever.... in the precious light.

//Enjoy your stories<3

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You gave me steady light, In a trembling darkness, Standing alone in a windy night, Feeling in my hair, air's freshness. I no longer have to worry, where I'll be And what I'll do All I care about is being next to you. The rest will settle somehow Because having you around Gave me strength's addendum. I wasn't supposed to write About amores floating round Cause there are people outside Feeling lonely, in a constant worry But maybe this time I'll inspire them To try living their lives And that there's no hurry, It all comes at the right time, Life writes a story.

//Enjoy your path<3