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On the Last Day

With a storm you went

They opened the gates

Maybe some anger was felt

Maybe sadness

But overall killing silence and electric air

We knew you were there

Although not physically anymore

As if somebody just took my heart out

And tore

Into pieces with mad passion

Then put what's left on fire and told me

To live with the ashes

There's no way I could ever forget

//Enjo...

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You should

Maybe it's good that I'm not numb

The hurt makes me feel the love that I had

Though there was everything and could be

A different wind flew through the window

A different bird sung that day

A different face you showed me

A different tone of voice

Without any preparedness,

Without a warning

It came like a lightning across a clear

Blue Sky

Change, It doesn't happen just like that, It shouldn't,

If you say you'll fight till the end, you do

You should… 

//Enjoy the goodbyes<3

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Maybe we're not okay

People like when the words hurt

People like plot-twists and sudden turns

People like theatre mostly in life 

People like to tell lies

People like heartaches when they're not theirs

People like storms when they stay inside 

People like thorns under roses petals 

Firey red 

Safely swaying in the vase 

People like rain when they read books 

People like events if they don't shake the day 

Maybe we're not okay 

//Enjoy your doubts<3

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Dagarama

Schizophrenic madman or a genius in disguise?

Wasn't he the only one who knew and who was of any worth?

Creating humanopolis, your utopian heaven

Between the nature and human hand's constructions,

Passionate talks with those who would listen,

Long walks to face the accident of conciousness

A Road to despair,

Forget-me-nots, lines and dots on a piece of paper that were supposed to be appreciated after 2000s,

Burning hand, the touch of God and artists around not knowing whether they want to believe or leave,

In the end they would regret,

But the tongues have started their run,

I want to believe this is just a start for a future

That you have created

As Dagarama

//Enjoy your utopia<3

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Migraine

My migraine,

My hurricane, my earthquake, holding me hostage,

The pain, painkillers painting my numbness,

I slowly fall into another dimension,

Behind a wall of not feeling at all and a head's pulsing roar,

Neurons breaking but still it's captivating.

//Enjoy your pain<3

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Metamorphosis

Invite my shadow to walk next

to your colourful parts glued

After the storm

I will carry on blooming and

Turning into a butterfly

For the night

For my wings to Fall and

My heart to die

I let my guard down

One last time

//Enjoy your metamorphosis<3

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Detached

Who's that body

Numbness of its parts

Have I said it?

Have I let the silence

kill my heart?

Oh there goes a tear

Oh how it aches

Let it bleed

Let it slip out of my hands

I can hear but I don't listen

Why do I let this noise pass me by?

Why this sentence structure I still choose?

Why the language?

Maybe there's no pulse

Again

The ghost, always two steps behind

Maybe it's staring from afar

//Enjoy your detachment<3

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The smoke, me and the sky

Why am I in love with a smoke

that strangles your throat?

Is there enough

to float to the cloud?

Will it take me to the sky

in the flickering fire's

lights?

Am I light enough

to blend with the sky?

All of you are blind,

blind, oh so blind,

not to see the smoke, me

and the sky.

//Enjoy your blindness <3

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Waiting

A bleeding flower grew

where the rain was due

A sturdy ground

dry soil

fluffy moss

concrete fountain

waiting for the drops

//Enjoy the drops of life<3

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Eternal

He died so many times

No fire could take him

No wind could move him

There was no stare to split

His heart in two

and to wonder why

//Enjoy eternity<3

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Hotel experience

The million faces,

ghosts and wanderers

in between social

groups and families,

Are they for their

business cases

or to rest, loose the

laces?

Are they here to discover,

or is it just another

trip to the city of

Kings that conquered

it all for them

to hang it on Instagram

wall?

I love the different

smiles, delicate stares

and unpredictable reactions,

I love the sound of

coffee maker, vacuum

and chatter from all

sections,

I love the rush

with every problem to

solve and every new

gossip that helps pass

the time.

Some things are tirening

in routines dark eye

but I don't mind

//Enjoy what's in the drawer<3

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Crystal glass

I go back to the old days

but now are no

old ways

and you say how

it all changed

but see we are much

the same.

Looking for the main

sense

and I don't even

write nowadays

I feel so transparent

like I'm made of

crystal glass,

they all look

but don't see me as

who am I

Am I someone to

them anymore?

Time will show.

//Enjoy being someone to someone<3

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An evening bliss

I'm hypnotized by the

way the trees sway on

the wind

and as the light

of street lantern

flickers within,

the old TV shows that

play well-known sounds,

the way I caught

your shiny glance,

I was there, I was

alive, and for a moment

the world was mine,

so sway on, sway on,

sway on.

//Enjoy your evening bliss<3

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Sympathy for the lost

Give me the heat,

don’t leave me standing

in the cold,

I never fell for all

that’s gold,

but a heart,

a flesh and a soul

inside you,

and the eyes,

eyes crying over

world’s dispair,

now here we are,

don’t leave me in the

hollow,

or I will go my way,

and keep to follow,

the Moon’s dance,

my feet rustling in the

leaves,

from an end to another end.

//Enjoy your warmth<3

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The wanderer

Jet black hair

shining in the Sun

once was red like

cherry wine.

Where have you gone?

Where are you now?

Silent, sad girl that

took a road for a life.

Hope they didn’t take your whole will,

your whole might, and

that God healed your scars,

hope you didn’t give up

and that you’re somewhere

there, looking for a better way out,

giving another chance to

your life, one more

circlin of blood

//Enjoy your road<3

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The Virus

Stuck inside,

pandemic in my brain,

virus in my mind,

taking over each neuron

but not the one you

heard of,

it’s a virus of feelings,

using time where you

face yourself each day

in many ways,

where you look for answers

while getting more questions,

where you change moods

and methods

like changing color of

your walls.

How about the ones that build you?

The ones that

surround what’s

inside? Do you have the

cure for that?

//Enjoy the virus of thoughts<3