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Me (trying to remember the concept of gender affirming/euphoria): That really tickles my gender.

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Do you think we're together in every universe?

No. We're not even together in this one.

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I love standing in my living room, in the dark, half-dressed, chugging water, while texting my friends and scrolling social media after getting home from a musical.

As [insert preferred religious/non-religious figure/ruler] intended.

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I don't need "therapy"

I need someone to sit and listen to me analyzing characters and their relationships. And for someone to appreciate my tits.

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Not to offend anyone,

But eyes scare me.

Y'know the creepy eyes peering out of the darkness. Or the animated characters with realistic eyes.

Just eyes that are wrong. Or watching me.

I don't like them looking at me. I feel so uncomfortable.

Just thinking about it while typing this is making me feel paranoid that someone is watching me.

I don't like eyes.

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I wish someone cared about the state of my skin. (Even if they wanted to peel me to perform a ritual to take over the world.)

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Why does my friend keep asking to get the leitner treatment?

They don't know tma.

She has asked me a few times now for someone/me to hit them with a metal pipe.

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Sometimes, I want to take my needle and thread and sew my mouth shut.

I think other people would like that too.

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When will it be my turn to decompose?

I want to rot.

Please?

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Today is the anniversary of a certain man's death.

I'm here to remind you that smoking kills. And so do possessed twinks.

Be safe out there, guys.

Don't have a library full of dumb books.

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I choose to believe that Flynn Rider and Rapunzel are the bi couple where neither have been in relationships. Rapunzel has never been in a relationship (for obvious reasons), but neither has Eugene. And they are perfect for each other in every single way.

Yes, he's hot. But have you seen how he interacts with others? When we meet him, he's the most self-centered and emotionally dense man to ever love interest. "I have dreams like you, no, really, just much less touchy-feely." He doesn't know how to trust people, but he learns.

In contrast, there's Rapunzel who convinced a while bar of thugs to sing about their dreams.

They are so perfect together. She's very naive and hopeful. She's never left her tower she only knows that the outside world can be dangerous, but she's not seen that. He's very distrusting and deflects with humor. He's seen the worst that the world can be and does what he needs to survive.

I could talk about this movie for a very long time.

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I have never loved myself.

I don't know how to love myself.

All I see are the imperfections.

I see everything "wrong" with me.

I hate myself.

But you loved me.

You said that you loved me.

You told me that I could be loved.

I believed you.

I thought that maybe I could learn to love myself through your love.

You hated that I hate myself.

You knew that I didn't love myself.

And eventually you stopped loving me too.

But I was still trying to learn.

I wanted to love myself the way you loved me.

Instead you started to hate me the way I hate me.

Now the love is gone.

And instead of being back at square one,

I'm five steps back.

I hate myself because of how I let you "love" me.

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your unreliable narrator fucking bit me

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Does anyone know where I can formally submit an application to become part of the spiral? I can't find the door.

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"Sometimes I mess up."

No, Haiku Bot, you're perfect.

We love Haiku Bot.

Who makes the porn bots. Where do they come from. What do they hope to achieve.

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This is actually how bears time travel, not with calculators.

slowly approaching bear

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Such a simple task

To scroll

The platform may change, but the action never does.

It's been 2.5 hours.

Endless short-form attention grabbing reels/shorts/TikToks/videos.

It sucks you in

I don't remember when it started

But I can't stop myself.

Where am I?

When am I?

All I know is the process of scrolling

Swiping my finger across the screen as soon as I find myself losing interest.

My room is a mess.

I should clean.

How did my room get so dirty?

Why can't I clean it?

It's not that I want to live in this mess

I just can't fix it

I can't fix me.

But it's only affecting me

So it's fine.

I think I'll just lay here

All alone in bed

Scrolling.

The never-ending cycle of my life.

Scroll - I need to do something - Scroll - I am in pain - Scroll - I have no motivation - Scroll - I am on my own - Scroll - I need to do something - Scroll - Pain - Scroll - Motivation - Scroll - Alone - Scroll - Need - Scroll -