in all seriousness it's very alienating knowing theres Something Wrong With You. like seeing your mental illness come through in your behaviour and thought processes and knowing it's irrational and unhealthy, knowing other people are reading you as weird or stupid, and not being able to do anything about it is such a lonely experience
do you ever feel like, oh god, my life is slipping away and i’m just sitting here. watching. there’s the constant, incessant itch to grab the reins and pull. but whatever you do, your hands keep sliding off, and the days keep slipping by and there’s no way to stop? and i just think, oh god, it’s almost may and i feel stuck. i am the same person i was in january, and february, and march. how does the world keep turning and i’m still here?
IT’S ALL FUN AND GAMES UNTIL YOU REALIZE THE RELATIONSHIP OF TWO FICTIONAL CHARACTERS OWNS YOUR SOUL AND YOU CAN’T GET YOUR LIFE BACK AND NOTHING MATTERS ANYMORE
tumblr friendships are hard to maintain like im sorry i know i havent talked to you in 5 months but you’re still super rad and i still consider us friends im just dumb