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Short confession,

Feb 16th I tried to end my life by cutting my wrist (I only get bruised)

Feb 20th I was planning again to end my life by overdosing from medicine intake (Idk, but nothing happened the moment I took the tablet)

Feb 21st my sister died from hanging herself.

All this time, I am planning to take my life while my sister is also suffering. I was wondering, what if I died during my attempt? Would my sister be spared? Or will we both be mourned by our families? I have lots of questions, but I surely missed my sister.

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looking for part time work 🥲

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“Suddenly she realized that what she was regretting was not the lost past but the lost future, not what had not been but what would never be.”

— F. Scott Fitzgerald, A Nice Quiet Place

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“The thing I’m most afraid of is me. Of not knowing what I’m going to do. Of not knowing what I’m doing right now.”

— Haruki Murakami, 1Q84

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“I think you lost all interest in this world. You were disappointed and discouraged, and lost interest in everything. So you abandoned your physical body. You went to a world apart and you’re living a different kind of life there. In a world inside you.”

— Haruki Murakami, 1Q84

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I don't wanna go back to my old self... But, here I am again.

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I want to die. I really want to die. I’m so fucking tired. I just can’t do this anymore. I feel so lonely. I’m afraid of living. Please I want to die. Please…

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I want to quit my job. Badly.....

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It’s okay to need a break. It’s okay not to be the busiest one. You don’t have to overwork yourself to have worth. You are enough no matter what you have accomplished today. 

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It's like hell inside my head

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I just want everything to stop.

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I'm so tired of proving myself to everyone.

I'm so tired of just being the second best.

I am not good enough.

For once, I wanna be appreciated.

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I AM WORTHLESS. I DON'T EVEN KNOW WHAT I'M GONNA DO WITH MY LIFE.

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I don't have enough reasons to continue living 😔

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“Being traumatized for the rest of your life is the worst thing that can happen. It always feels like it happend yesterday. Every day you try to get better but inside It’s always inside.”

— via @goddessofunknown