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i’ve been in a funk energy and motivation wise, I saw a friend last weekend I haven’t seen in a while and we had a great conversation about self improvement, our barriers and self sabotage, all the bullshit going on in our country and the struggle of not catastrophizing, he told me about how it took it 6 months to feel really comfortable with his new routine, among other things. And I realized having someone close to me to talk to about all this is so helpful, I have some motivation back

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All the political bullshit going on really has a dark cloud over me, I’m struggling to stay on my routine and to not just give up. People tell me my day to day life hasn’t changed but that doesn’t mean other people’s lives aren’t affected in that way. And I have fear of whats to come.

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how the hell do i manage getting burnt out i am good about forcing myself to do things for about a week or 2 then i get really adhd burnt out and go back to in bed on phone time

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Nerevar and Dagoth

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I got a good haircut for the first time in a long time and it looks sooo much better. I’m going to start babying it to reduce breakage and see if that helps with density

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i REALLY want to get up early and go the gym before work but i never sleep well and wake up constantly until 2 or 3 am so once i fall asleep i need every hour i can get and i dont think its healthy to go work out sleep deprived off of 2 hours of sleep………ugh…

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just in case you need a reminder...

yes you will have a good future, yes you will find someone who loves you fully, yes you will achieve your dreams, yes you are worthy of love, yes you will find close friends, yes you will get your dream house, yes you will live the the life you deserve.

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February Goals:

Start taking care of dad’s death certificate and legal stuff. It has been a year and a half and I keep putting this off because I don’t want to deal with it. I need to get it done so it’s done and gone!

Go on a hike

Pour a lot of energy into cooking at home

Start the habit of a consistent cleaning schedule

Continue to not drink alcohol until Feb 22nd

Practice mixing 5 days a week

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be busy. busy not checking messages. busy reading those books you never started or finished. busy having a good night of sleep. busy taking care of yourself and your skin. busy moving your body. busy helping your community. busy reflecting on your life and what you can improve. busy doing things aside from the capitalistic viewpoint of “productivity.” busy slowing down.

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quit brainrot. unfollow trolls. read essays. go down rabbit holes. have a calendar. maintain a todo list. read old books. watch old movies. turn on dnd. walk with intent. eat without youtube. chew more. train without music. plan for 15 mins. execute. organise your desk. take something seriously. read ancient scripts. act fast. find bread. eat clean. journal. save a life. learn to code. read poetry. create art. stay composed. refine your speech. optimise for efficiency. act sincere. help people. be kind. stop doing things that waste your time. follow your intuition. craft reputation. learn persuasion. systemise your day (or don't). write. write. write. write more. iterate violently. leave your phone at home. walk to the grocery store. talk to strangers. feed the dogs. visit bookstores. look for 1800s novels. experience art. then love. sit with a monk and offer them lunch. don't talk shit about people. embody virtue. sit alone. do something with your life. what do you want to create? turn off your mind. play. play a sport. combat sports. notice fonts in trees. fall in love. notice patterns on a table. visualise it. talk to people with respect. don't hate. be loving. be real. become yourself. cherrypick your qualities. discard the useless. rejections aren't permanent. invite what aligns. accept what does not. read great people. be different. choose different. do great work. let it consume you. lose your mind. value your time. experience life.

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January recap:

Had brunch with my 2 pregnant girl friends

Went to a all female auto shop class for the first time (this was so much fun!)

Got a mammogram/US for breast lumps

Got my iron and ferritin levels checked

Made progress in finding a dermatologist

No alcohol all month!

Increased water intake

Consistent with multivitamin for the first time all month

Got more storage to organize and declutter my living space

Got some cute decorations at thrift stores

Finished 3 crochet projects

Went to a few shows

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why is eating so hard

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20 years from now you’d give anything to be this age again and have the time you have now. make it worth it!