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Shakespeare and Company, Paris.

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Dark Academia // Hijabi dark academia iii

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I don't want a fucking job I want to be that elegant woman you see studying in the library all day with her cat and a cup of coffee, pouring over ancient texts with a maddening half-smile on her face.

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Odd Nerdrum

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By the way, would like to let y’all know that the self love backfired on me hardcore.

I’m immensely in love with myself now. I can’t stop staring at my reflection. Like damn I’m so cute 😍.

I avoid water in hopes I don’t drown.

Part 1: https://dandolibrary.tumblr.com/post/650870539352686592/sometime-in-mid-january-of-2021-i-decided-to

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Sometime in mid-January of 2021, I decided to practice self-love because I was super dependent on others for validation.

Started affirming to myself. For example, I hated my smile. So every time I saw myself, I would smile and say to myself “Wow I have a pretty smile.”

It worked. I do have a beautiful smile.

Do I still have things I don’t like about myself? Yes, for example, I don’t like my acne. But I don’t see it as something to be self conscious about anymore. I don’t see it as something to hide.

So go forth and tell yourself everyday that you’re beautiful. Cause you are.

I don’t cry over my reflection anymore. That’s immense progress for me. I catch myself looking in the mirror and think “Daaaaaang, das me? 😍”

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gender of being a funny little guy. a he/he/he , if you will.

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He said goodnight.

And all I could think about was the day I could hold him while he fell asleep in my arms.

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A lot of people in my life called me “wise” and “mature for my age” growing up.

And I’m sitting here (now 19 years old) wondering if I actually was wise and mature for my age.

Was I? Was I mature and wise?

Or was it just common sense?

Or was it only common sense to me, and not to everyone else?

I was just a kid, so I was I actually smart or was I just taking things I saw on TV and in life and applying it to everything else because it made sense?

Does seeing things and then applying them to others make me smart or is it just common sense?

Was I just parroting things I’ve heard?

Am I socially smarter than the people in my life?

Or did they need a different perspective?

Did they already know the answer and wanted confirmation? To be assured that what they thought was right?

Is everyone else socially smarter than me and just using me as a sounding board to make sure that the decision their making based of their own advice was good?

Did they ask me because they thought I was not smart and decided that if a not-as-intelligent person could figure it out and get to the same conclusion, that it was common sense?

Am I actually smart or am I being used?

And this is why I’m awake at 1am.

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I miss the sound of your voice

I crave it, so I can fill the void

That lies in the middle of my chest

Open for any temporary guests.

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I refuse to let Java be the reason why I can’t be the sexy Data Scientist who is married to a fireman and together they own an ugly dog and a bunch of cats.

I refuse Java to be the reason why I choose another career.

And I absolutely refuse to let Java be the reason why I can’t be the sexy office crush.

Python is a saviour, I will kiss the creators.

I will be a sexy Data Scientist. I will be married to a fireman. I will have that ugly dog and a bunch of cats. I will have that Data Science salary.

And I will be the sexy office crush of the entire company.

I want to be successful and nobody else but my fireman can have me. My time is valuable and expensive and I’m very sexy.

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Fuck Java

For those of you who don’t know, I’m a Computer Science Major.

It is my intention, to become a Data Scientist.

Because I am too lazy to be a CEO but I feel like having a lot of power in the company.

Also partially watching The Office in high school made me want to work in an office environment.

I want to be that sexy person in the office that everyone has a crush on.

[Incoming Vent, with much cursing]

Despite my sexy Data Science dreams...

I fucking hate Java. I don’t know WHY I chose Java. Nobody told me I couldn’t take C++ or C#.

By the way my old college that I left only offered C++, C#, and Java.

And for whatever fucking reason I chose Java. Everyone told me how horrible it was going to be.

I didn’t fucking believe them even though they were juniors.

I fucking hate Java.

And then I dropped out and then transferred to another college who can accommodate my hearing loss.

But fuck it. I’m not doing Java.

I fucking hate Java.

Like 83% of Data Scientists apparently use Python.

So at 1am today, I decided, fuck it, I’m learning Python.

I haven’t been enrolled in school since November.

I start at my new college this summer (wish me luck btw).

Also, how the fuck does my old school, a big school, not offer any other languages besides Java, C++, and C#? No Python, nothing else.

Shitty ass program too. CS majors go to my old college to get their general education requirements done for cheaper and then transfer to the popular state tech school and complete their degree there.

But yeah, fuck Java.

And learning Python has been great and all.

I decided to make a simple game like snake or something to help learn more functions.

I need to import Python into my IDE. I use Visual Studio Code.

I have Pygame installed on my computer. I have the Python library installed.

BUT FOR THE LIFE OF ME I CANT

IMPORT FUCKING PYGAME INTO VS CODE.

“Use the terminal in your IDE” the internet said.

I’m using the terminal!

“Type pip import pygame in the terminal”

I’m doing that!

Anyways I took a break before posting this and I would like to add that I went ahead with the mini game tutorial anyways and for whatever FUCKING reason, it works with the pygame commands.

So I never imported it but it’s imported and it’s all confusing and I’m just not gonna think about it anymore.

Anyways Python is so simple it’s kinda dumb. Like if you read the code, it makes sense. Like I think anyone would be able to understand what a Python code is for if they read it and they would be able to understand what it does.

While JAVA, the fucking little shit, is an incomprehensible cum sock demon from hell.

If Python was a person, I would marry them.

If Java was a person, I WOULD PUNT THEM LIKE I PUNT GEESE.

Fuck Java.

*mic drop*

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I almost entirely forgot him. It was needing to apologize that kept him alive in my brain.

And now his memory will slowly wilt away,

And I can just think of summer and you.

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Dear UPS driver,

I know you don’t have my package, but I’m gonna stare at you from my window in hopes that you magically somehow have my package even though I have package-tracking and it says my pacakage is in New Jersey and you and I are staring at each other in this Georgia cul-de-sac.

I’m not gonna stop staring until you leave this cul-de-sac, which confirms to me that you sadly do not have my package, even though package-tracking now says my package is now in fucking Ireland.

Sincerly, Dannasofia

P.S I want my package.

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Shut up.

I don’t love you softly.

There’s nothing soft about my love.

I love you violently and impulsively.

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Me, holding a flower, to the moon: w- will you be my valentine ?