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Hey guys! I am now doing paid readings on my second account if anyone is interested! If not I would greatly appreciate you passing this around for me <3

Hawthorne House Readings

Hello Alchemical Souls! Welcome to Hawthorne House. My name is Vivienne, and if you’ve been here before you know that I disappeared for a few months. I’m here to briefly explain why. I’ll probably go into more detail later once things are settled but essentially it is this. The last few months there were struggles with home life and it all came to a head this last week, which resulted in me finally breaking free of and ending a twelve year long toxic and abusive relationship. I am now in the process of moving and saving up funds to do that. I’m leaving officially on the 16th of this month, taking what I can but leaving most of it behind. Which brings me to the reason for this post. Money is still really tight. I have enough to pay two months worth of rent and buy some food but not enough to make me feel safe and secure going out into the world after basically being a shut-in for the last decade (more on that later). So! To earn a little extra money and find a sense of stability in all this chaos I’m going to be offering paid readings here at Hawthorne House. I will get to as many as I can as time goes and I will list what can be requested below. If you are interested in one of my tarot/oracle/channeled readings, please feel free to dm me here or on Instagram @vivihawthorne. Please note that I will NEVER message you first in regards to a paid reading so if someone comes along pretending to be me ignore them and don’t give them any money. Thank you so much for taking the time to have a look at my post. And without further adieu. Hawthorne House Readings All readings (except those listed otherwise) will be recorded and sent to you via video. Once your reading has been accepted I will provide a method for payment (this will be Chime or paypal). Payment will be required in advance before your reading is done. I use a combination of Tarot and Oracle cards depending on what I am drawn to during the reading and each tarot reading will receive one oracle card at the end as an overall advice or final message. Disclaimer: The Readings at Hawthorne House are not meant to dictate your life or your actions and should not be taken as the end all be all knowledge for your situation. You know what is happening in your life better than anyone, my readings are only meant to provide you with as much clarification as possible so that you can choose the best coarse of action. Also it is important to understand that life, fate, destiny, existence, however you want to refer to it as, is in a constant state of flux. Having greater clarity or a different perspective on a situation can cause the timeline of events to accelerate or change depending on how you put this information to use (I’m saying this from personal experience) so please keep that in mind. $5 Quick Card Pull – This is a one card pull plus clarifiers in which you can ask any question of your choosing. (These are very simple readings for simple questions.) This reading can be done via video upon request.

$10 General Reading – This will be a three card pull plus clarifiers. If you do not have a specific question we will look at your general energies and see what information the Universe (and/or your spirits and guides) wish to provide you.

$15 The Scales – In this reading we’ll take a look at the two sides of your situation, question, or concern. What it is bringing into your life that is positive and what it might be bringing into your life that is not so positive, as well as any advice for you on the matter. $20 A Week Ahead – In this reading we look at the energies of the upcoming week. Your energies, the energies surrounding you, and how they will shift. We will pull a card for each day and then clarify and break down each of those cards to give you as much detail as possible. (Please note this reading is still fairly new.)

$27 Doors to Destiny – This is a seven card pull as well but rather than your week ahead this looks at your soul’s journey and where you are within it overall or just in this life (situation varies person to person on what is picked up) where you are going, and what information would be most useful to you at this time.

$30 A Month Ahead – This reading will let us take a look at your upcoming month. We will pull five cards for the five upcoming weeks and then break each of those cards down with clarifiers weeks one through five. We will see how the month is unfolding and how you and the energies around you are shifting/changing through that month. What to expect, what to look out for, and any helpful advice to see you through it.

$35 Web Reading – This is a thirteen card spread in which we take a look at the energies surrounding you in four distinct categories. What grounds you, what inspires you, what frightens and/or obstructs you, and what heals and/or guides you forward. We’ll see which of these energies are hidden from you and which ones you are likely aware of. We will also look at what ties you to that energy and any additional information that comes.

$45 Soul Reading – A soul reading is a bit more mystical. It involves trance and reading your energies, the essence of you, as you are seen by the Universe. In this reading I will deep dive into who you are as a person, both what I see, what is channeled naturally, and with the assistance of cards. These readings can be anywhere from 45 minutes to an hour long and require you to be as open as you are willing to be, keep in mind the more open you are the easier it is for me to read you. If you have a specific inquiry  you can ask before we begin the reading and that will be where I focus when we begin. But I should warn you that these readings tend to have a mind of their own and I will get whatever they (the energies, your soul, your guides, the universe, the gods, whichever you want to take it as) decide. So while you will get information on the question you asked it is likely that there are other more pressing things that will need to be conveyed (this is just from past experience in doing these readings).

$50 Soul Bond – In this reading we will look at you and your person. You can call this a love reading but it doesn’t have to be. This could be a reading about your connection between you and a lover, or you and a friend, or you and a parent. Just about anyone. We will look at their energies, your energies, the energies building between you, what that could mean for your relationship, and how to strengthen or release those energetic ties and any other information. As well as any additional information and/or advice on this connection.

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Guess who got a new camera, yall. Good evening everyone, Aria here. As it says above I got a new camera with much better picture than the one before for a reasonable price. As such I’m startin up my new set of videos. Instead of doing like I did with the last introduction video this video is a schedule of what videos to expect to see closing out the month of April and ending on the new moon. Then on the 1st of May I’ll release another schedule video (or at least that is the plan) and will continue to do so before each round of readings or significant weeks for the foreseeable future. I hope you are all having a lovely Friday and that you will join us over at Hawthorne House for our busy week ahead. Yours, Aria

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I decided to make an official blog to put these video’s on along with the written readings I had been doing before. If you’re interested in divination, channeling, oracle, tarot, horoscopes, or intuitive readings then this channel might be for you. I am still learning and seeing what fits best with my practice in creating these videos, as well as getting used to doing general readings (I plan to include regular pick a card videos in the near future as well) and the channel will continuously change and evolve. My method of reading will be done in a go with the flow style until I find my personal niche. Until then I hope you enjoy the unfolding of this journey with me. Virgo and Libra’s videos were released today. Scorpio, Sagittarius, and possibly Capricorn are scheduled to be done tomorrow. Until then, have a wonderful Thursday evening, Aria

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Hello again everyone, I have returned with another dream. This one had more disturbing underlying themes in it but still had the feeling of being a dream meant not just for me. So I wanted to share it. If you anyone is keeping up with my readings so far, Cancer’s video came out today and I’m going to take a short break tomorrow before jumping back in with Leo’s reading on Thursday. There maybe some triggering subject matter though it doesn’t go into detail at all I mention things like domestic violence and marital abuse because that’s what the dream involved. But we’re all adults here and I figured those who might need this message or who are experiencing something similar would rather be able to see it than not. Hence the warning instead of just age restricting the video entirely. I’ve discovered two things since I started doing these collective readings. The first being that four in a row is my limit. Anything more than that without a break and I feel like death wormed over after. Honestly I forgot how exhausting readings could be. Even more so with collective ones since I’m not narrowing down to a single person. I didn’t think it’d hit me this hard honestly. LOL But we live and learn no? The second thing is that, as this video shows, I’ve started dreaming again. And not just these deeper, download, vision journey, important feeling dreams. But more normal dreams. Or rather not normal exactly but inner work like it used to be. For example, during my nap today I had a strange almost reconciliation dream with my adopted mother. I say reconciliation only because usually when I dream of her it’s an upsetting dream in which I relive my childhood neglect. And this time it wasn’t like that. I think subconsciously I’ve finally accepted and am healing from that childhood. Anyway! I finally feel like things are moving again and I’m very excited to see what the rest of this year will bring us. Until then. Adjourngrund, Aria

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I had what felt like a weirdly straightforward dream last night. The first one in ages I really remember and/or was aware that I was having it at the time. So I thought I’d share it here. Is anyone else having weird downloads lately or strange dimensional shifts? Maybe it’s just my part of the world waking up again after winter but it feels like the spirit side of things is waking up right along with the earthly ones. Anyhow I made a youtube channel that I’m doing some collective readings on, so I decided to also keep track of my practice a bit more. This might be easier than typing it all out. Also Collective readings are very different from solo ones. It’s interesting. Anyway, Happy Sunday, y’all. It’s been a while. Maybe I’ll end up being around more. Aria

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To The Sustainers,

Numbers: 33 Colors: Blue, Orange Charms: Dolphin, Mermaid, Swan, Pegasus, Elephant Cards: Storm, Sustain, Sacred, Humility, Attract, The Tower, The Three of Cups, The Three of Wands, The Knight of Cups, The Queen of Cups, Judgment, The World, Ace of Cups

The one who tries to maintain themselves while sustaining others.

In this life, you are the crafter, the builder, the sculptor. You shape and change your destiny with your own two hands, here, in the physical realm. No matter how small your actions in your day to day life, you have the ability to create ripples that become waves to those around you. Either that raise them up or pull them under.

This is true of all of us, we impact the lives we interact with on scales both large and small, direct and indirect.

However, your impact is one that is direct more often than not, a fixed energy.

You may sometimes feel like the weight of the world is on your shoulders, that you have too many responsibilities, or perhaps that you are the only thing holding everyone else together. It is not from a place of ego that you feel this way, but from a place of acceptance. Because you wish to sustain them, to carry all the burdens for yourself so that others won’t have to suffer them.

On the flip side, you might be oblivious to this, unable to see how your actions directly impact the people and environment around you without you even meaning to. You can be hyper-focused and stubbornly rooted (especially in relationships with others) when you have found something that works for you. Even if that something wears you down to your bones over long periods of time.

The storm card speaks to me of both an upheaval and a cleansing or renewal coming on the horizons. The much needed change that you may be avoiding or a realization that you never expected will come to knock you out of your comfortable, fixed energy. In the moment it happens (and in the aftermath), it may feel uncomfortable, as though something vital has been ripped out of your hands.

I am sensing, hearing, feeling, that at that moment, if not now, it will be important to look at what is around you. Do not focus on your empty hands. Nor on the anxiety or turmoil that suddenly overtakes you. Instead, hold very still. And before giving in to lashing out or drowning in despair because of this loss, stop and see that you are not alone.

There are others grieving with you. People who love you and are sustained by your love. Not only people, but animals, projects, passions, your environment are all sustained by what you do or don’t do, and they are there for you.

They take your loss as personally as they would if it was their own. But they also celebrate your victories in the same manner. Do not let what you love suffer due to your grief. Instead let it (or them) be the thing that support you as you work through your loss. As you learn again to maintain yourself.

You do not have to deal with it alone.

Know that when the foundations you have clung to for so long are shifted, yes they may crumble, but new space will be left in their place, making room fro new desires waiting to be planted and grown.

Comfort and fulfillment will come again.

Sustain what is sacred to you. Allow the rest to be swept away. Maintain humility and you will attract clarity and a new beginning that stems from a place of love and support rather than one of sorrow or rage or feeling as though the weight of the world rests on your shoulders.

There is nothing to fear. You are only transitioning, completing a leg of your journey gone on too long and beginning another, fresh and vibrant. You know what you want. So take the time you need to grieve the loss of what was or who you were, and then go get it.

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Dear Collective,

This came through as an open letter to all, myself included. Because I realized even I was trying to rush through the process. I hope those that need to hear this find it useful.

I dreamt of another card last night. Well, no. Another set of cards but I only remember one. It had very strong Three of Swords energy but it was a woman on a green and blue and gold card holding her face in her hands. The colors and the woman looked like they were melting together. And instead of a word like sorrow or fear. The word Honey came to mind when I looked at it.

This is a message of time breaking down. Unraveling at the seems. Melting away. Honey is sticky, sweet, and slow. It is a slow process, slow progression. If you were to stand in a vat of it and try to move forward it would be at a snail’s pace. In earlier readings this week I warned about rushing through the mourning process. If this is related to that then it tells me that those who perhaps continued to try and leave that process of grieving or inner work behind quickly, everything is coming to a nearly full stop. Not by choice. But by command of the Universe. There are some of you who just cannot slow down, you have forgotten how to stop, to rest, to breathe deep breaths and take a moment to drink water at the waystones.

The waystones are placed at intervals on your journey, they are resting places, they are moments in time where you stop and reflect on what was, leave behind baggage that you no longer need to continue forward, and check your maps for directions. They stand as pillars. But if they are ignored for too long they can become road blocks, even pit falls (a pit full of  honey?), that prevent you from rushing ahead. This is the Universe or Spirit’s way of protecting us sometimes, to keep us from over exerting ourselves along the way. Which is why everything might feel like it’s slowed down to a crawl, as though you aren’t making any progress.

The truth is that you are making progress, though. In fact I’m getting this sense of not even needing to struggle within that pitfall, but simply letting go and allowing the current to pull you along at the right pace. The burdens will be released on their own. It’s slow, and you may not be able to see it right now. But when come to the end of the river or trail and you pull yourself out of that sticky trap, out of the honey that has held you back, you’ll rinse yourself off to find that your skin is glowing, that you feel refreshed. And that the things you lost along the way, the things that got stuck that you couldn’t retrieve, weren’t things you needed. They were thinks making you tired, burdens of the past you were trying to drag into the future. But you had to let them go so you wouldn’t sink and now without them you realize that this journey is much easier.

There is a very specific channeled message that goes along with this that I got on the 15th.

“Remembering comes at the end of the year to close a cycle. It is one final walk down memory lane before leaving the past behind, living in the present, and conjuring the future. The cord is cut. The bridge burned. You are freed from the shackles of the past and the things holding you back will gracefully fall away or soften, becoming hazy. The wounds are healing, no longer left to fest and the scars that remain are fading fast. You are offering the pain and pleasure, the sadness and joy, of the past to the Universe. It is an alchemical process, transmuting those failures and triumphs into a promising and abundant future.”

And then I found this other message, on the page directly opposite the one above that has no date or time and came some time after October 2nd.

“This has to be done.” “If someone doesn’t wake them up they will be stuck in the same endless cycles, forced to repeat the same roles until their souls crumble to dust and are lost from the natural cycle of death and rebirth forever. They will never know true freedom or second chances. Or that their choices do lead them to other paths and roads and results. They need to know that they are not truly stuck. That they’ve done nothing wrong. That they can save themselves.”

“They are not lost. They’ve only been sleeping a little too long. They must see the dawn. The dawn must be shown to them. We must bring ourselves out of the night.”

“Dawn must arrive.”

Because that is the natural cycle, I’m here now. There is an ability to change all things, because the universe, destiny, fate, what have you, is mutable, mercurial. It shifts with us. And we are not alone. We may feel we are separated from one another. But that is only an illusion, a fog in the twilight morn we must walk through, that will dissipate with the rising sun.

Have heart. You’ve got this. After all. You are the coming dawn.

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Dear Collective, 12/15/2021

I have returned again with a collection of messages. The first meant for all. And then a few more that are more select.

Numbers: 8, 14, 55 Words: To Tara. Two Terah. Tutara. Tutera. Cards: Trust and Justice

Last night and the night before I dreamt in tarot. The only cards I can recall are the Aces the first night. Ace of Cups. Ace of Pentacles. Everything's coming up Aces. Ace of Wands. Ace of Swords. I am seeing Aces as both new beginnings and the completion of a cycle. It is both the beginning and end. Or, the in between of beginning and end. A period of gestation before and overflow of energy. A suspension of a heartbeat in the moment where something goes from 0-60.

Buckle up and get ready.

And then the second night the Two of Cups remained most prevelant. There were twos the first night too, but I can't recall which ones. But last night it was all water, endlessly pouring out.

There is a sensation of something filling up to the point of flooding or overflow. A dam bursting. It is cathartic though, rather than frightening. Filled with relief, a releasing of discomfort. This is not destruction but rather a sudden outpouring of power.

Trust in this sensation, let it flow. Let it take you over, covering your head. And then breathe in. The water isn't painful. It's as light as air. There is a sense of oneness, of unity an balance that come from the two cards drawn for the overall energies, and with it will come inspiration.

A Message for Taurus,

This is in line with yesterday's reading depending on the Archetype you chose.

The most positive thing a Taurus can do when they are frustrated is to try seeing things from a different perspective, or change the way that they are perceiving a problem. Sometimes Taurus energy to me feels like it can get tunnel vision. Me too, I mean. Who doesn't once in a while. but maybe it's the stubborn aspect. "You" want to see things a certain way or are so set in an outcome playing out a certain way, the way that you envision it, that you lose sight of what you're actually looking at. Taurus in the complicated to me has that very "lose sight of the journey while looking at the goal" vibe.

Below will be selection piles. They are amazingly held by two of the three archetypes from the other day. As in those two archetypes were the ones pulled, at random, for the focus of the reading. Since they came out again I focused in on those two groups. They are The Creator and The Sage. You do not have to pick the same group you chose last time if it is there but you can if you want to.

To The Creators,

Charms: Bat, Horse, Dog, Butterfly Numbers: 33, 12 Words: Colors: Blue, Gold Cards: Soul Work, Versatility, Death, King of Wands Reversed, The Empress, The Three of Cups

Today the Creators are Earth and Sky. The need to be flexible is still there, but not it is accompanied by more balance, and by the strong sense of being more in charge. To have the Empress along side The Creator is an invitation and an acknowledgment. You have the power. The control. The magic. And the time for that outpouring of creative energy, the built emotion, is close at hand. Perhaps the image I keep getting of a cup overflowing or a dam bursting is coming from you who had been trying to rush through some sort of lose into creation.

There is death here, the card that calls for change and transformation alongside versatility. You won't be able to avoid whatever it is anymore, it will pour out for you. However, it will do so in an amazing and creatively productive way. Now is the time to be mutable my Creators. To be able to shift between earth and sky. Grounded and yet with faith like the Fool who steps from the cliff. Have trust. Not simply in the Universe or an unnamed force. But in yourself. In your core. In your heart and your soul. Trust you.

As you are observing the situation around you, as you experiencing the flood, remember there is a time for logic and a time for emotion. And you must judge wisely when one is needed vs the other. However, also understand that you are human and that it is alright if you make a mistake. It is good to be genuine if you do make one and acknowledge it, but also important to be generous with yourself. Do not let the mistakes hold you back.

There is a celebration on the horizon. This could be simply referring to the upcoming holidays or it could be related to a creative accomplishment. Rather than Yule or holidays, I have the feeling of golden liquid in a glass on New Years.

I see a red ribbon around the stem of a champagne glass. And there is a chandelier and red patterned carpet, like a hotel lobby. One or a few of you is having a very grand New Years this year. I'm not sure who will need to hear this but. There's a woman with the dark brown hair done up in a vintage side do of curls or coils, with a glittery pin holding it together. She is wearing a black shawl and red lipstick, holding a glass of champagne or white wine. If you meet her eyes over the brim of her glass as she brings it to her lips. Smile. If she smiles back, go speak to her. I think it will be an interesting conversation.

To The Sages,

Charms: Fish, Octopus, Turtle, Dragon Numbers: 22, Words: Sanctuary Colors: Cards: Ask Body, Release, Ascension, The Hierophant Reversed, The Magician Reversed, The Two of Cups, The World, The High Priestess

Not surprisingly, this group ended up with creatures of water and fire. Though predominantly water, which speaks of a very emotional time approaching. Even your cards suggest the uprising of that emotion and feature one of the cards that appeared in my recent dream. While you are juggling and balancing the world around you in an attempt to have it all, you must remember even in the vibrant and busy chaos you are experiencing, to check in with the body.

Again in your reading there is that balance. Not only in the harmony that comes with the two of cups. But also in the other four tarot cards. I cannot help but feel they are connected. The Hierophant with The World and The Magician with The High Priestess. This could allude to two couples or two very close friends. Or two people working together perhaps. Soulmates. Twin Flames. Whatever you want to call it, these people are connected by fate. And there is the potential, if you are not already experiencing it, for perfect balance between them. A give and take that creates a synergistic effect, propelling the two forward. And the two to become four.

In fact a group of four is strongly caught in my mind's eye. Two friends and their partners or four friends. And this group comes with the image of Christmas or Yule. The holiday season. But not of this year, of the next. Ah, which may be where the 22 above came from. 2022. There is a coming together, a gathering of the two sides. Either of these two couples meeting one another for the first time. Or of the formation of those couples. If you are single, I see a passionate connection. But again, this could be outside the scope of a romantic relationship.

What I do see is that there is an otherworldly bond between these four people. A complicated knotwork or network. This could also be a marriage of ideas. The balancing of the chaos becomes much easier when the others are involved, when all four come together over the next year. The frantic energy won't slow, but it will feel lessened. And you will elevate one another.

In the meantime, though, it is important to take care of your body and your mind. Meditate and stretch. Drinking water, exercising. There is something that needs to be released in order to reach these other people, your soul tribe or family, your web of connectivity. Something must be let go of. A person, a place, or a situation. My Sages know. Even though your eyes are closed, even though you are juggling in the dark, you know when the weight or feel of something doesn't belong. It can be difficult to know when the right time to release something is, but trust in your decisions. You will know, instinctively, you will feel that it does not fit in the delicate balance you are creating.

When you are ready to, release it. I have the unshakable feeling that good things will be swift to follow.

As a side note, I believe that the reversed cards in this particular reading aren't so much reversed as showing the true opposite. And I also get the sense that two of the people are on the other side of the world from some of you. Some travel may be very near in your future. At the very least, you are going somewhere in the coming year. I keep picking up on snow for the winter meeting. And I heard or saw or felt or sensed New York, Amsterdam, Russia, Canada, and South Korea.

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Dear Collective,

This letter was sent to your doorstep with purpose. There is something to ponder in it. However, it won’t be for everyone. So take what serves you and leave what doesn’t. If it’s not for you feel free to pass it by.

The overall energies or messages from this reading are, quite simply, to breathe and allow yourself to be open to (or open the ways yourself) communication. Rushing forward right now will only create movement without change, a repetition of cycles. So instead, it would be better to take a step back and perhaps observe for the time being.

What are you today? The Seeker? The Creator? Or The Sage? Or some combination or the three?

I will thank you ahead of time for your visit. And I wish you the most abundant holiday season.

Keep reading

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I absolutely understand! I wish you the best truly. May you be blessed with wealth and abundance.

Okay. So I really didn't want to do this, but I'm in a bind, and I need help.

I've already called all the legal and support helplines and such to get the ball rolling, but I need some financial help-I'm in a DV situation and I think the other party is going to try to sabotage my new job by witholding the means for me to get to work. Which, I need the new job to financially support my daughter and I as the legal challenges and living arrangements are sorted out.

In the short term, I need money to uber to work-its only a couple of blocks away but because of my lungs I can't walk there in the snow. So I need uber money and at least some groceries.

In the long term, I need a car, and the best I can get right now is one with a large (2k! OUCH) down payment, unless I can find something used for that amount right out the gate.

My PayPal is theireclipse@gmail.com and my venmo is Levi-monster ...if you can't help, this desperately needs views and retweets. Also for legal reasons I'm not allowed to do a GoFundMe type thing but I'd welcome one to be set up if anyone gets a bug and wants to help that way.

Anything is appreciated. Thank you, and I love you all.

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Just want to do what I can to assist you!

Okay. So I really didn't want to do this, but I'm in a bind, and I need help.

I've already called all the legal and support helplines and such to get the ball rolling, but I need some financial help-I'm in a DV situation and I think the other party is going to try to sabotage my new job by witholding the means for me to get to work. Which, I need the new job to financially support my daughter and I as the legal challenges and living arrangements are sorted out.

In the short term, I need money to uber to work-its only a couple of blocks away but because of my lungs I can't walk there in the snow. So I need uber money and at least some groceries.

In the long term, I need a car, and the best I can get right now is one with a large (2k! OUCH) down payment, unless I can find something used for that amount right out the gate.

My PayPal is theireclipse@gmail.com and my venmo is Levi-monster ...if you can't help, this desperately needs views and retweets. Also for legal reasons I'm not allowed to do a GoFundMe type thing but I'd welcome one to be set up if anyone gets a bug and wants to help that way.

Anything is appreciated. Thank you, and I love you all.

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https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WHbU6s0jANc

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this is it they won tiktok everyone else can go home

(tiktok @ captainmcslugs)

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A lovely story by my friend that made me tear up. A difficult thing to accomplish.

A story I wrote for a $20,000 writing competition that needed to include coming into a large sum of money, and a little black book. It’s a quick read, but I would be incredibly grateful for any who have a moment to read it :) Thank you!

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“Singing Stones.” Why do they sing? “Because they are never lonely.” I see. Me: Casually scrolling down my dash, zoning, to relax before communing with the spirits vs the spirits popping in whenever they please.

Birkrigg Bronze Age Stone Circle, Birkrigg Common, Bardsea, nr. Ulverston, Lake District.

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Give voice to your desires.

Disclaimer: It is unfortunate that this is the world we live in, but I know before I even begin to explain what I mean I have to first explain what I DO NOT mean. The following thoughts do not apply to desires that are morally repugnant or harmful to others. Pedophiles, murderers, abusers, racists, rapists, and anyone else who falls under the umbrella of improper conduct for a decent human being: this post isn't for you. So scram. Now that that's been said. Hail and Hallowed Hunting my friends and fellow witches, I was in the middle of writing a very long, detailed post, with backstory from my childhood tied in, when I figured you probably wouldn’t want to read the big essay I ended up writing. So I’m only going to post the tl:dr of what it is I want to say to you. It is okay to want things. It is okay to have desires. And it is okay to voice those desires, to yourself and to other people. To allow yourself to acknowledge that you have them. It doesn’t mean you have to immediately go out and get them, or that you are demanding someone else get them for you. There are circumstances and situations in which, even when you want things, you cannot have them. Or you cannot allow yourself to have them. A good example of this is “I want some chocolate.” When you are on a diet. Or “I want to see this movie.” When you do not have the money for it. But just because you want something doesn’t mean you are a bad person or a selfish person. It doesn’t mean you should berate yourself for thinking such a thing. It is important to acknowledge the things you want rather than dismissing them, for one reason and one reason only. If you constantly criticize yourself for wanting things, if you constantly deny yourself of the things you want, that want doesn’t simply go away. In fact, in most cases, it becomes a vicious cycle of you wanting something and telling yourself that you shouldn’t want it or can’t have it, making the desire for it and the thought “I want this but I’m not allowed” grow stronger. So give voice to the little things you want. And the big dreams too. “I want to be a writer” or “I want to go to a foreign country someday”. Don’t tell yourself you can’t or that you’ll never be able to. Instead, voice that desire, even if it seems impossible. Like magic and manifestation, send it out into the world. Give it wings. Let it go. Allow yourself to acknowledge it with all your heart, that you want this. And then just let it be that. Don’t follow it up with “but it’ll never happen” or “but I can’t” or “but I shouldn’t”. Even if it is only to yourself and no one else, be true. As true and authentic to you as you possibly can be. It’s okay to want things. And it’s okay to allow yourself to have the things that you want. Anyway! This is just a rambling post really. Or a life lesson I’ve learned? I’m not sure. It’s still pretty long but certainly not as long as it would have been. I hope you all are staying safe and having a lovely evening. Adjourngrund, Aria

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“Those who believe they can do no wrong have lost the ability to grow, develop, and change. They are unable to learn from their own mistakes because they do not believe they make them and so they will gain no power.”