daughterlydawn

[daughterlydawn]

I-80, West Sacramento, California.

[daughterlydawn]

ever since i was young i wanted a mad scientist to be obsessed with me

[daughterlydawn]

You wrote about murder?? Murder is illegal?? You wrote about this dude killing someone and you didn’t even say ‘murder is bad’ at the start of the book, wht wtf, wtf is wrong with you? I can’t believe you condone murder, I can’t believe you’re pro murber, oh my fucking God don'ttalk to me when ou literally kill people, freak. I’m calling the cops, what the fuck, I’m shaking and crying.

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when i have a crush i dont kick my feet or twirl my hair instead i am in my kitchen at 3am pacing in circles with my hands clasped behind my back like a middle-aged divorced detective haunted by a cold case he just cant crack

[daughterlydawn]

having adhd and getting diagnosed later in life is so funny because

when you’re eventually listened to and diagnosed, suddenly all of the evil horrible debilitating symptoms have a cause. so you’re like ok! yay! this can be managed right? i can make lists and try out mediations for months till I find the right one and plaster sticky notes everywhere and keep a calendar and remember to be a little quieter right?? awesome! and then eventually you find the mediation that works for you and everything totally clicks and you’re able to function mostly normally. and you’re like hoooly shit. you’ll then look back onto all the struggles and missed opportunities and feelings of stupidity and inferiority and be like man! i wish i knew what i know now! but then you start feeling hopeful, like yeah i feel so much better and i can start taking on my day. like i can actually keep a job and maintain relationships and do good in school if i want to. and you get comfortable! but then guess what? if you live in america (and many other countries) you suddenly start having a little trouble picking up your medications. maybe it’ll be a few days late, no problem. and then it’s a week, super frustrating but it happens. then it turns into a month, or months. and you’re like what the hell. and you ask your pharmacy, what’s the deal? and they’re like “yeah man sorry everything is back ordered from the manufacturer.” so then you’re like, what the heck let me look into this. and you realize due to drug manufactures under estimating the amount of drugs they need to make, and the government limiting them to certain amounts, there suddenly isn’t enough drugs to go around. and they can’t make any more, that would be too easy! the government needs to be aware of every single pill produced and manufacturer’s can’t be like “hey government, can we make some more?” because the government is like NO YOU CAN’T! so then you realize it could take days, weeks, months to get your prescription again. and then you realize the drug that’s helped alleviate the source of your troubles is gone. and all of the generic and alternative versions are gone too. so then it sinks in that all of the progress you might’ve made will eventually crumple down because you’re now suddenly at square -5, because somehow you’re unable to function even more compared to how you felt before being mediated! and then, maybe, you contact your doctor to ask if there are any alternatives. and then you ask again. and after a few times they’re like “hey, you’re acting pretty weird.” and suddenly you’re silently labled as having drug seeking behavior because obviously, obviously, you must be selling the drugs and not actually taking it right? because that’s all they’re good for, just getting high and maybe cleaning your house right? and then you’re REALLY back at square one. because what doctor or pharmacy will take you seriously now? and it really sucks because there are only so many lists you can make and sticky notes you can write before the root of the problem bears it’s stupid ugly head.

it can be totally funny like that sometimes.

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i saw these two land squirrel at lovers point in monterey ca and it hit me. they’re the lovers. at lovers rock. they’re putting the rest of us to shame

[daughterlydawn]

The amazing digital art of Enzo Minarro

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rewatching bones for the first time in like 13 years and this show is so fucking strange i somehow completely forgot? like not even talking about the premise which is wild in and of itself (why is the lab in the museum when they regularly deal with things that could destroy priceless artworks? how is brennan allowed to basically be an FBI agent?) but i forgot that hodgins and angela have sex in cleopatra's bed in art storage?? booth's therapist just randomly meets him in diners and and the lab and everywhere that's not a therapists office? it turns out brennan supports safe use sites and harm reduction in a show that is coming out of the war on drugs era, but we also get scenes of booth enacting police brutality on people for minor drug offenses? booth hallucinates a character from family guy and it turns out he has a brain tumor he needs removed immediately and then he falls into a coma where he dreams about impregnating and marrying brennan? despite the fact that booth and brennan are obviously very in love with each other, instead of getting together or even having sex, brennan just asks for booth's semen so that she can have his child and justifies it because i guess booth has good genes or something truly what a wild fucking ride. did i mention brennan's sweet intern becomes an apprentice to a serial killer?

[daughterlydawn]

white girl save me

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[daughterlydawn]

Who really needs psychedelics when I can rub my eyes real hard and see fun swirlies literally whenever I want

[daughterlydawn]

I'm built different. like incorrectly i think

[daughterlydawn]

i dont “have ptsd” that’s all just the wizard’s curse

[daughterlydawn]

i was a landscape in yr dream... and all my mountains.. were on fire!!

april 2024