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Ah yes thank you MADD for driving me to create very specific playlists that are otherwise useless and just a strange combinations of songs

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Yes!!! Those paras are some of my favs tbh

Ok weird question but do any other madders have a para who doesn’t really exist in any paracosms but they can talk to or *be* in the real world? Is that what a verit is?

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daydreaming in certain rooms just hit different iykyk

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PAIN PAIN PAIN I AM SOBBING AT A DAYDREAM WHY DID I DO THIS TO MYSELF I LITERALLY COULD’VE JUST STOPPED THEM FROM DOING THAT🧍🏾

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How do I explain to my parents that I’m not sad because of my depression I’m sad because my para is going through something traumatic😀

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Remembering an old daydream feels like returning home after a couple weeks somewhere else. Really comforting, warm, and relaxing. Probably not gunna be able to get work done for the next week but I’ve missed these paras.

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All I know is daydream and practice witchcraft. No other thoughts. My head is sO empty.

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People dont talk about the negatives of madd enough

Everyone just think its QUirkY disorder, where you have fun all the time with your uwu paras

Like?? What about the trauma that causes it? Intrusive daydreams that traumatize and re-traumatize you? Feet bleeding, shit knees, tinnitus, no friends or connections, lost in life, social anxiety, depression, executive dysfunction that comes with it cause you cant get anything done you daydream so much, bpd that usually comes with it, dissociation symptoms, feeling like you don't have an identity or personality, feeling disconnected from the world around you and yourself, even your hands and face, feeling numb or apathetic, etc...

Like, its a dissociative DISORDER for a reason??

Thank you for coming to my ted talk.

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Realized I had an issue when I started waking up and was IMMEDIATELY in a daydream. Either as a para or with them. Anyways tho

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I was literally trying to do something and instead I sat on my bed and daydreamed for an hour😀

Had a whole plan to be productive today and you know what I did instead? Daydreamed. Non stop. Did not do any work today only daydreamed.

Let’s see if I can get up and be productive now.

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Being in class with MADD is just a constant battle between half of my brain that wants to daydream and the other half that’s paranoid there’s a mind reader in the room who will be able to see all my daydreams and I’ll be embarrassed.

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Me: extremely stressed, way too many assessments next week, desperately trying to get into college

My MADD: right but :) what if :) instead of being productive :) we just daydreamed :) for hours on end :) and then felt extremely guilty afterwards :)?????

More than 5 assessments in this coming week and my dumb brain wants to daydream instead of actually be productive. I sat down to do work earlier today and ended up just staring at my wall for an hour. Sigh

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Lately my paras have been randomly popping up whenever I’m about to do something that’s is ~bad~ and it’s super helpful bc then I’m 1.) distracted and 2.) it kinda snaps me back into reality and helps me to not do the thing. Ya know?

MADD is my mental support disorder and I am simply not ready to let rhat go

Like at some point I’d consider recovery but no

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Sometimes I’m just tryna vibe to my music and then a song comes on that was playing in the background during a traumatic scene for a para and I have to hurry up and skip before I slip back into that scene😀😀😀

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Being in public and a song starts playing but it’s the same song that was playing when something traumatic happened to a para

When someone mentions your para's trauma and u gotta try to stay cool like

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no you live in a society, i live in unrealistic idealised romantic daydreams about fictional characters

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EXACTLY like I really have to do some deep thinking on how to bring things up without bringing up MADD

me trying to figure out how i’m going to explain a problem to my therapist without bringing up my madd