deadlynightshadeblues

[deadlynightshadeblues]

[deadlynightshadeblues]

[deadlynightshadeblues]

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The hurting

And the travesty of it all is

I can't remember the dandelions

But I remember the roses and all their thorns

I can't remember what good love was like

I can remember how you made me feel

How I'm lost here

But you gave me glimmer of hope

It's all gone

The demons that were kept at bay

By your soothing hands

They circle like vultures around my painted skull

And I am conquered by them

Please return to me

The silence was medicine

Hell is your memory

Waking up without you beside me

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Do you ever feel it like I do

A needle threaded in delicate skin

An animal cry in the distance

Do you ever feel it like I do

Slipping down into black holes

Nihilistic thought patterns

Do you ever feel it like I do

Gnawing away parts of me

Breathing through plastic cylinders

Did you ever feel it like I do

You as a concept, not a person

I keep breaking apart with no precision

Did you ever feel it like I do

I must love another to feel something

I must hold your silhouette till my body bleeds

Does it ever feel like I do

You create distance to comfort me I suppose

I only feel something when you suffer

Does it ever feel like I do

Put me out of misery

Put me out of my shame

Will it ever feel like I do

Void killer space filler

I keep malfunctioning in my head

Will it ever feel like I do

Inter looped middle feelings

Where does the body end

Will it ever feel like I do

I am a fool who wanders, a fool who wanders

Lost/alone/lost

Now it’s all a just bad sound

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Welp.

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The space you create between

Emptiness and blank screens

You honor it with your brown eyes

Never gazing into mine

I'm sitting in my cotton tomb

Screaming inside for affection

But there you are

Staring into a blank screen

Your love life crucified before you

Youd rather watch a pixelated image

Then hold your lovers hand

You will never have love

Till you learn to give up yourself

This is my last anti love song

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Just one photograph

I hope he does to you What he did to me My body has fallen apart at the seams Both physically and mentally Laying in a hospital gown Dreaming of better times O’ how I wasted my time loving you I sink into this pool of black water I float to the surface I scream for you to run But you don’t know any better Youre just as I am You look like me as well He’ll stomp on you with one kiss This I promise you Run while you can Run like hell He’ll never be satisfied Like the belly of the beast He’ll never be satisfied Like the rulers of the East He’ll take your pure intentions Build them into his sick spiral Run while you can Run like hell

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This is it The end of the world The last kiss you gave me A serpent hiss, a bell chime I am feeling aligned Before you walked out the door The bitter pill to swallow My heart is broken & hallow. As you slept with your warm chest Pressed against mine Oh my body is dead Oh my head is caved in A dream I woke up from A passion that is dead You can take shelter in the fact that I'm leaving I will never speak to you again

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When I hear your nasally voice circling like a vulture I want to take a bridge You created empty spaces in my brain To be filled with God knows what I was never what you wanted Just a shy pale placeholder I was waiting to die in your crooked arms But you sold me to the wolves

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Hi

Motor oil fumes around midnight Romance the genderized poison Like the devils tongue Tasting death so sweet Vibrating sounds Seep into empty cavities Erupting to mass decay You are metals corrioding You are mountains eroding We’ll be demons together Or something similar I have to have something I’ve slipped into great unknown With out your drumming arms I will surely die With your beautiful tone You divide your drug abuse To keep me from turning loose

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N.

The waves of the ocean They could never come close To what I feel for you now I sleep unrested When resisting your love The vultures they start to tear The flesh from the bone I bury myself in your native arms You're so very beautiful to me I just want to waste away with you Buckle down & morph into blue Lay your troubled head beneth the thornbush Keep the twine wrapped around your wrist Keep my love in your head You capture me so easily My mocking bird

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O’ rest my active heart Tender eyes crystallized At such a beautiful sight Restless at the sinners thought Of love so pure Be still, do not hurry Taste copper on my serpent tongue Visions of what may come Please be still, please be still For this ship will wreck quickly Bury your empty hands In the dirty soil Tell me this is it

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Thank you for bringing some sunshine into my life