dear-readerr

[dear-readerr]

hi :)

im j, 16, new to tumblr, kinda using this as a journal/ diary just for personal motivation :)

im tryna quit smoking weed bc it has RUINED my brain and is just such a risk for me

ik im capable of doing great things and being a good person and I've always been really smart and full of emotion but since i started smoking a year ago i feel numb and lazy and all i feel is anger and shame when i used to only feel love and hope

when im not high i feel like a zombie and when i am high i feel stupid and weird

i want the world to have color again i want to see things normally i want to feel the drums in my heart and scream and cry and sob over guitars that sound like guns

i want to be me again and be in touch with myself and my heart and my brain and body and spirituality

so yeah... follow along if you want :) idc

i like other things i might post ab idk

taylor swift, music in general, clothes/makeup/skincare, self-improvement, nutrition, education, life planning etc idk

ill figure out more of what i like as i get sober :)

thxxxxx 🩷