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dad engy is great and all but where’s the weird semi-ostracized redneck uncle engy. where’s the “buys a fish and kills it 2 days later forgetting to take care of it whatsoever and then turns it into a half-living cyborg abomination that wishes for nothing but death” engy. he sits outside and drinks beer and gives you good advice while he works on his actively decomposing muscle truck but he also thinks a little too fondly about guns, network cooking shows, and murder, in that order, and you feel like the only reason he hasn’t dragged you off into a field and put you down like a lame horse for being slightly too annoying to him is that you’re good family and you know not to go snooping around places you don’t belong

“he’s a great cook![cat emoticon]” well I think he’d start a fire after he puts a pot of macaroni on the stove and gets so distracted reading the box’s ingredient label and imagining chemical reactions that he doesn’t smell the smoke. medic asks him to feed his birds for ONE afternoon and he constructs a rube goldberg automatic bird feeder machine that topples over half of the base and he has to spend the rest of the afternoon swinging at doves outside with a net.

the only thing worse than trusting engy to remember or care enough to take care of your houseplants while you’re on vacation is to believe he’s capable of being responsible for someone’s physical or emotional well-being in any capacity, whatsoever. maybe including his own

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i’m still trying to decide what exactly demo does after the war. i do think he breaks the degroot cycle and i do think there’s a chance his mum disowns him for it. i think he realizes he’s too miserable to ruin a kid pretty early on in adulthood and decides it’s worth it to sit through every long lecture about bloodlines and grandchildren over birthing a child into a loveless marriage and making it just as miserable as he is (which, he eventually comes to terms with, is exactly what happened to him)

it’s hard. cleaving yourself from your family like that, your clan, the people that brought you into the world and half-raised you and filled your head with all kinds of funny ideas about honor. after the war i thjnk he just shuts himself off from the world and sulks for months and months and months regretting his choice, knowing he can never go back, figuring this is the path of unluck he was following all along, destined to die alone in his thirties to alcohol poisoning in a huge mansion he has all to himself. eventually, though, someone does come along. soldier or scout or engie, in town for a visit and they won’t take no for an answer when tavish tries to tell them he’s moved on and he’s not really in the mood for a drink. it’s just one night, they just go get smashed at a random dive bar off the street and probably end the night in jail, but he wakes up the next morning and realizes that whatever it was tipped the single upright nail barely keeping aloft this whole massive pile of misery and self-pity and for the first time in months he wants to live. he wants to know people. he wants to try to rebuild what he had even if it’ll never be the same again

i think he just packs his bags and moves closer to someone he knows, honestly. makes a few calls and picks up and goes closer to wherever everyone else he knew in the war fucked off to, the closest thing he ever had to a family (even compared to the people that raised him), and starts to rebuild his life from scratch. it’s hard but he’s got at least one friend near him who’s probably in need of a project anyway, and he finds out quickly he had much more family than he thought as his coworkers start becoming parents and uncles of their own, and he never ends up having his own kids but he might as well considering how many times he finds himself godfathered, after everything he’d done for everyone, which turns out to be much more than he thought.

i think eventually he manages to get a job teaching high school chemistry or something stupid like that. not for anything resembling loose change, but it’s something to do, and there’s just a little bit of pride in knowing his mum’s probably doing flips in her grave every time he goes into work. he’s not great at teaching what he’s supposed to, but somehow the kids always come out of the class scoring twice the national average on whagever standardized tests they have to take, and he’s basically paying the school to work there below board anyway, buying buildings and funding school supply initiatives with the millions he has stocked up from all that thankless work in his twenties and thirties. even if he doesn’t have a kid of his own he makes himself a part of so many kid’s lives, not just teaching but building relationships, helping with homework and checking on home lives and showing up on the soccer field afterschool to cause a disturbance. and well it’s hard to feel like you’re a horrible useless person when every student you pass on the way to the teacher’s lounge beams at you and tells you about their day. it’s not much to a lot of people but it’s everything to him, finally something he can do that has a tangible positive effect on people’s lives, and that gives him a reason to stay upright, too, keep on trucking, keep being a positive example for every bright eye that looks up to him. for the first time in his life he feels like he’s worth something, without pretending to be something he’s not, bending over backwards in work he doesn’t enjoy to please someone who never loved him for anything he was in the first place. ok that’s it i think i have to go cry now

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hi, ummm. this is awkward. haha. yeah um do you think you could push your boulder up somewhere else? like a different hill? because this one’s kind of already taken. yeah it’s the one i’ve decided to die on, so.

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My friend just made me feel weird for asking so now i gotta know.

If you do have a favorite bird please please tell me in the tags, i want to see some Birds!!

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absolutely incredible shit going on in circles of the internet I don’t even know about

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madoka magica x 2001: a space odyssey

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The landlord fears the urban oyster mushroom farmer

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Congratulations! You are now a Magic-User!!

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marcille's tone in the japanese and spanish dubs: WHAT THE HELL ARE YOU DOING??

marcille's tone in the english dub: AT LEAST BUY ME DINNER FIRST!!!

thank you emily rudd for doing it again for the girls and the gays this lesbian visibility week 🫡

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The oldest known instance of the "Cool S" symbol, a sigil of unknown origin, found on a Viking runestone dated to the tenth century AD.

This glyph has persisted through millennia and is still widely seen today. Scholars believe its origin is unrelated to the letter S, and that it may have originally been part of a religious ritual.

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I kept meaning to post about this and forgetting but tomorrow I am doing a solo recital on the legacy of queer composers in classical music. If you are interested it will be livestreamed at this link! The program is in the video description for your perusal but it will be cool and gay and yrasbgender so you should come watch! :)

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thinking about creatures.

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and what if i drew miss pauling tf2 x oc hmm?? what then??

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Hey tumblr???? Hey fucking tumblr?????

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me, posting stuff for over 7 different fandoms at random all on the same blog:

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Chimera Falin + Monster edit