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Do you ever have a label, just ever so slightly, brush up against you and you just,,, aagalaugbluabaluagabaugblughvvvvvvnnnnnn

Seriously. The feeling. Makes me want to puke. Get that outta here. You are not welcome

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AHHHHHHH

So basically I have like loads of plushie toys. Like LOADS. Like 3 mesh bins of them. And the mesh bins were overflowing.

So ✨New Years resolution✨ I thought “let’s tidy my storage cupboard so there’s enough room for some of my plushies!! Huzzah!!

So it took me like alllll day like ALLL DAAAYY and was really hard because throwing away old stuff is really hard regardless but autism makes it even harder. And basically when I finished I actually wasn’t happy?? Like I put my overflowing plushies in there and it just felt super duper horrible. The whole day just made me so numb and the idea of shutting my plushies away in the dark made me so SO UPSET. AND I CAN’T. And I was just like 🙃but because I’m an ADULT I was trying to be STRONG and tOyS aReN’t FOr gRoWnUps.

Eventually this led to a bit of a meltdown and I was sobbing and eventually like caterwauling.

So the outcome is; my mum has agreed to take me to IKEA to get some hanging nets and shelves to put my overflowing plushies on so that I can still see them 😊

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Story time

Sister is moving back home. From her flat. And is bringing all her stuff with her, of course. Because that’s what you do when you move.

So it’s all upheaval. Lots of upheaval. And I’m quite physically strong so I keep being asked to help and lift things and move stuff and do lots of jobs, which is fine and I actually love helping, but there’s just so much of it and my autism is making it hard to deal with s o m a n y c h a n g e s. And it’s very stressful and other people are getting stressed, which is SSOOO STRESSFUL I HAVE HYPEREMPATHY PLEASE STOP I CANNOTJFHFJFHSDFSDG

But, I have to be ✨positive✨ because the majority of the moving has been done. Which is good. And I’m actually quite looking forward to living with my sister again, because she is lots of fun and she gets me. It’s just the moving things part is stress. Especially along with the rest of life.

So yes. Fun

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Dear girls in front of me on the bus

As someone who is both autistic and has hearing damage, please be quieter.

Thank you

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“What? Like, a disabled protagonist? How would that even work? How could someone with a disability be the hero in an action show?” local anime trash boy wonders while sitting next to his box sets of Full Metal Alchemist, showing no hint of irony or self awareness. 

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there are two key questions to gauge what sort of Weird Girl someone was as a preteen.

a) horses, dolphins or dragons?

b) Vikings, Ancient Egyptians or dinosaurs?

tell me in the tags please. if you were allowed to pick your own room decor between 7 and 13 the answer to A should be self evident bc every Weird Girl I knew who was allowed to pick had one of those three themes.

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Do you ever feel like the world is so unfair and cruel, and feel such a strong sense of injustice that it genuinely feels like it gives you physical pain?

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Story time:

So I went to a family gathering a few days ago (the family is on my partners side) and it was my first time meeting them all, and I was quite quiet because I was anxious but aside from that I was pretty much just myself.

I took my ear defenders (I have hearing damage and ear pain anyway so that stopped people quizzing me too much about them) and I was stimming with a tangle a lot of the time and generally just being me and yknow what? ✨No one disliked me! ��

In fact I think everyone actually really LIKED ME!

They said me and my partner were very similar and well suited (bearing in mind my partner is also autistic) so it made a lot of sense, and I think they were just happy we were both happy ^_^

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someone: hey what’s that thing you like???

me:

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I dunno bout anyone else, but in my head, shiny Pokemon are like the adhd or autistic or -insert literally any identity or feature that makes you different- of the Pokemon world.

Like maybe they got bullied by the other Pokemon a lot. Or maybe the other Pokemon largely ignored them. But like maybe they struggled in some way. Some people I’m aware don’t see the value in shiny Pokemon, they think what’s the point in putting all that work in?

Kinda similar to how plenty of people will drop friendships or relationships with neuroduvergents. They think it’s not worth it because sometimes it can be “hard work” to understand that some people’s brains operate differently.

But much the same as shiny hunters know how rare and valuable and amazing shinies are, there will be people out there who recognise how amazing you are too. No matter how different you are.

And In fact much the same as shiny Pokemon, we are effectively the same. They are still Pokemon, we are still humans. We are just a tiny bit different, and that should be completely okay. So find the people who will want to put the effort into your friendships and relationships. Find your shiny hunters.

Also, just remember this next time someone makes a nasty comment; you’re not weird, you’re shiny

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the universal experience

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I 👏 wish 👏 people 👏 would 👏 just 👏 say 👏 what 👏 they 👏 mean 👏 instead 👏 of 👏 expecting 👏 me 👏 to 👏 read 👏 between 👏 the 👏 lines 👏 AHHHHHHHHHH

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So the other day my mum and I were gonna go out shopping but my mum checked google maps beforehand and there was a massive accident on the motorway that she didn’t want to get stuck in the aftermath of and all the traffic that goes along with it.

So we waited it out to see if the traffic and situation would clear and eventually it did so just as we were about to head off my sister phoned and said she could pop in for a coffee before work.

We didn’t want to turn her down so said yes. Whilst I was helping clean the kitchen before she arrived my mum was super sweet to me and said she was so grateful at how accommodating and understanding I was being because she knows it can be super difficult and stressful for me when plans get changed a lot and I was basically like 🥺

It was super sweet and I’m really happy she said it and that she understood enough to thank me.

To people out there with autism struggling with how other people treat you, I promise you, there are lovely people who will understand you and accommodate for you as best as they can and not just expect you to accommodate for them just because they think like a “regular” person.

There are other people like my mum :’)

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Source ~ IG love.and.the.spectrum

[Begin Image Description:

Text image from @/thatASDdrummer

"I don't mask because I want to be neurotypical.

I mask because I have been punished and humiliated since I was a child because I'm not "acting normal".

There is a difference.

Masking is my response to trauma."

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So today I went to the camping shop to look at some tents with my mum, and I took my new build a bear eevee plush with me because she’s cute and why not?

I had two people react to her in positive ways! It made me really happy so no one should worry about taking plushies with them when they go out places.

One guy was actually the tent guy. After he went on about the cool tents we were looking at he then finished with “and I absolutely love your teddy, it’s awesome” I couldn’t stop smiling as a result!

And the other person was less directed at me and more at what I assume to be his sister (they looked like brother and sister and acted like siblings) because he pointed to my eevee and said “see? SEE? I TOLD you it was not not-appropriate!” I can only assume they’d had a discussion prior about taking plushies with them that day and the sister had come down to the conclusion that it wasn’t appropriate

Well do I have some ✨news for you✨😎

Take your plushies with you. Be happy. Screw anyone that says otherwise

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I mainly stim with plushies and squishies and I am not sorry

(Ignoring the massive amounts of nail biting)

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Hello! My name's T and i'm searching for positive blogs to help me express myself better and recover from my childhood.

If your blog has any of these please reblog/like

• FOXES!!!!!!!

•cottagecore

•mushrooms

•info about autism

•neurodivergent memes/content

•animation

•one punch man

•MINECRAFT!!!

•wolves

•cute animal or furry art

•lots of things about stimming

•satisfactory gifs

•komaeda specifically

•PLUSHIES!!!

I'm on a journey to finally recover what people stole from me, dms of any type of interaction is super appreciated!!!! I want my blog to be a safe space for me, i no longer wanna come here to turn my life into a bigger tragedy.