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DEAR DIARY,

I haven't posted on here for a while. whoops sorry! I've gone through a friendship breakup and I'm kinda upset about it. I tried to talk to her about ending our friendship and she was kinda mean about it so yeah. that was yesterday at school though. after school me and my best friend went out to hangout for a bit before the party that my older friend invited me to! I did have a mental breakdown in the park so my eye makeup was smeared everywhere...! anyways I calmed down and we got there and my cool older friend introduced us to most people and we were there for a few hours. Some people were surprised because we're in year 9 (14) and they're in college/year 11 (16-18) but it was really fun. Everyone there was so nice! they let me and my best friend share stuff with them like cigarettes, vapes and alcohol!! It was so fun omg!!! everyone there was so cool. maybe they'll let us have some weed next time. one of my older friend's friend's were really high and drunk and he was screaming at us for most of it, he's very funny though. he was kissing alot of people, especially boys... IT WAS SOOOOO FUNNN OMGGGGG!! I feel so rebelious. so even though I lost a three year friendship over a stupid misunderstanding, atleast I got to hang out with older kids and smoke and drink!! thank you universe for this opportunity, when a door closes, another opens!

thank you for reading, i'll catch you between daydreams!

– eloise

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DEAR DIARY,

oh my god. I had a sleepover with my best friend and we snuck out!! so basically at around 1:40am we went downstairs to her kitchen and filled up a plastic bottle with vodka. we had three plastic bottles, one with redbull, one with the vodka and one empty bottle. we went out of her living room window and by 2:00 we were out of the house. we went to a park and drank there. VODKA IS SO DISGUSTING!! we poured a bunch of the vodka into the empty bottle and put some redbull but it tasted so bad because the redbull was white peach flavoured!! whenever I drank some I literally recoiled, IT'S SO NASTY!! she was then super duper paranoid so we had to move locations. as we were walking I realised that I had lost my ability to speak properly and I did not feel like a real person. I was being really annoying so she slapped me in the face and it definitely woke me up...ouch! we sat down in a alley thing and we drank more and I chugged the vodka redbull mix but I started dry heaving because it tastes like ass. that lead to me not being able to walk normally, it was so fucking freaky because I was like stumbling about and I couldn't stand upright. I felt like a ragdoll like my limbs felt super light it was so weird. I kept on recording videos on my phone so she took my phone away. we stayed there for a while and then we decided not to drink anymore because I was incredibly drunk and she poured it down a drain. she then had to hold me up and drag me to the field. at this point I've been holding in a piss for ages. there was this weird building with a porch on the field and we sat against there. I was laying in her lap, trying to sleep but I couldn't because I was twitching and jolting every 2 seconds. when it hit 5:00am we decided to leave because I felt myself loosing consciousness. we got back about 15 minutes later and I climbed back through the window and she told me to go piss as she climbed through so I did and it felt so good to take a long vodka piss. we went upstairs back to her room and thankfully her parents wasnt aware we left!! I stripped down to get changed but I showed her my bare tits. jeez...how embarrassing. she said they looked nice though so yay I guess. we then slept but it was hard to fall asleep because the caffeine in the redbull. I think that whole thing put me off drinking, maybe I'll wait until I'm at the legal age requirement and then I'll try again. so yes that was my night!

thank you for reading, i'll catch you between daydreams!

– eloise

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OOTD

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DEAR DIARY,

I love my bestfriend so much. we are eachother's best friend and I'm so grateful for her, I don't know what I'd do without her. my motivation for getting up for school is knowing I will get to laugh with her even if its just for a few minutes. we've gotten even more close recently. it's just us against every other boring person! we just get eachother, we laugh alot and I feel like I can be myself around her. we're both weird, whimsical perverts and I love every moment I spend with her. she is my best friend ever. sure I have other friends but they don't compare to her. our friends are different from us...they're mature and smart, we're silly and stupid! we're just whimsical and fun and joyful. it's like everyone else in the world are dull shades of grey and we reflect the bright colours of the rainbow - like iridescence! I love being around her, she makes me the most happiest!!! she's like a divine being to me; out of all people she could be best friends with, she choose ME? I'm a complete loser and she's just so awesome...we have the friendship I've been craving for years and I'm so grateful for that!! we're always laughing together, so much that our friends have gotten annoyed at us because of it. they're just not on our level of whimsy, silliness and joy!! thank you universe for blessing me with such an amazing person!!!!

thank you for reading, i'll catch you between daydreams!

– eloise

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what’s your favourite shade of pink?

I love bubblegum and cherry blossom pink! (hi daisy I love you)

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if you were an animal which animal would you be??

hmmm...i like to think I'd be a ginger cat, a fox or a ermine :D or a unicorn cat hybrid!!!!

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what songs are on your les mis cd??? :3

at the end of the day, I dreamed a dream, who am I?, fantine's death, the confrontation, master of the house, stars, the ABC cafe, do you hear the people sing?, a heart full of love, one day more, on my own, drink with me, bring him home, javert's suicide, empty chairs at empty tables and finale!!

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RANDOM PNGS.

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🦋 calico critters - willow deer family 🌷

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I wonder what the moon is thinking right now

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physically in bed, mentally in wonderland

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I wish I had naturally pink hair...i love pink!!!! :3

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I work hard to serve this much cunt on the regular

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i love when pretty girls call me pretty

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DEAR DIARY,

I just got home from hanging out with my friend! we went to the village and looked around the charity shops, I bought a few things! I bought a little purple bracelet, long rainbow necklace, a really adorable pink necklace that I love lots, a purple necklace and a les Miserables highlights CD!! jewellery in charity shops are so super cuteeee! I wore one of my new cute shirts and the pink necklace I bought went super good with it (picture below).

afterwards we went to Costa and she bought me a smoked bacon bap for lunch, yummy! I had a nice day. im excited for wednesday....i can't tell you why because it's secret......ugh fine...ill tell you but you CAN'T tell anyone....okay? me and my best friend are having a sleepover and we're gonna sneak out in the night.......i feel so mischievous!!! muhahaha!!!!!! I wonder what the birds outside talk about, they must talk to eachother about trees and worms..thats the dream....to be a bird talking about trees and worms carefree. I wish I was an animal, maybe a fox or a cat!! They're so cute, I love them!!!!! love letters by clairo is stuck in my head, it's such an adorable song. I'm laying in bed right now, I feel so comfy and cozy!! thank you universe for the good day I had :3

thank you for reading, i'll catch you between daydreams!

- eloise