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"came back wrong" but it's from work

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What a year this week has been.

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Happy Pride Month in T&T! 🌈✨🌈✨🌈✨

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Diversity loss! Being gay is now illegal in my country again! 🏳️‍🌈

Rip gay rights 2018-2025 it was a good run but sadly we live in the worst timeline and colonialism is still fucking us up even 63 years after gaining independence!

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writing is just staring at a blank document thinking, “this is the year i revolutionize literature,” while frantically googling synonyms for “walked.”

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at least sisyphus only had one never-ending task. i have like 50 and all of them cost money

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Devastating to have more evidence that done IS better than perfect

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Sorry I wasn’t listening some guy taller than I am is standing within ten feet of me and I wanna fight him so bad I want to kick his ass I just want to kill this guy

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so I'm making a site skin, as I so often do, and I need a dark colour for a semi-transparent background. I decide to go with #2a2a2a because that's the background colour for Reversi (AO3's dark mode). But to make it semi-transparent, I need to use the RGB value, not the hex, so I convert it and

AO3 = life, the universe, and everything confirmed

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Real question are there people out there who dont know how to properly use a firearm I am asking this unironically its very intuitive to me but that may just be because I was raised in appalachia do you guys not know how to reload aim and shoot properly

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"came back wrong" but it's from a nap

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mutuals can always dm me but be warned i talk like your coworker who is trying too hard to get to know you and my response times are akin to the response times you might get if we were communicating by letter

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when people are like “he’s not even attractive you could find a guy that looks like him at any gas station” i’m like….. well you see there’s beauty everywhere actually

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My Grandfather died

I've never had the right reaction to hearing someone died. Even people I know. I always kind of wondered if there was something wrong with me or if it was just how good I was at disasociating from my feelings

Or maybe it was that I lost my father when I was so young. I didn't properly understand it at the time. Now I can't even grieve my memories of him because I don't have any. I can only grieve the memories we could have had not the person I barely remember.

I don't know why. But hearing someone died has never made me cry. I never know what to say. I just tried to put on the right expression and say the right words. Even when I actually feel sad about it

Right now I'm crying. I was always worried I wouldn't even over him. I had thought about it so much and I was scared that I wouldn't cry that I wouldn't know how to feel

I loved him

It hurts. I'm never gonna see him again and I loved him so much. I feel so guilty that I hadn't been to see him in so long. He wasn't well and it hurt to see him like that and i was so busy and I knew I didn't have much time left but I thought I had More Time.

I know he loved me and I hope he knew how much I loved him and I know he would be - was proud of me.

i don't know what to say

i miss him and it doesn't feel real I'm so sorry I let my fear and pain keep me from seeing you one last time Papa and I hope you know how much I love you

I'm not religious and I don't really know what you believed in but I hope you're happy out there. I hope you're having a beer with my dad and your other family and I hope you know I love you I hope you can hear me saying it. I love you and I'm so sorry.

I hope you're somewhere happy and i miss you so much

I love you

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thoughts on

please for the love of god turn them back off

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A new year, here we go again~ (hii.. now I'd return no my cave)

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A new year, here we go again~ (hii.. now I'd return no my cave)