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My headphones fucking stopped working I'm gonna kmfs

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I kinda love that toxic diet culture is back in.

I live for it. I need to be validated

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My mom is low-key disordered too so it works out lol

i can see the suspicion in my mum. it’s so obvious. we both pretend we’re talking about picky eating but i know she thinks she knows.

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Daily Log 🪵 [072625]

🌤️ Morning Diary ☀️ [4:46]

     * I was awaken today with a really bad wave of nausea. I don't understand why or what I did, but I have yet to throw up. It has lessened somewhat, but I can't sleep because of how terrible it is.

🌙 Night Diary [0:00]

      * Got back from the concert, OH MY GOD. My bias is Jongho, but all them other ones were getting close. I need them so bad. And atiny's are sweet, but I like stays better. Atiny's like are mellow (unless they're barking at mingi) but stays are like hype and match energy. They also give more freebies out. At the concert today, it seemed like you definitely had to trade to get any. But whatever. Everyone was hot and I talked to cool people and gave all my freebies out and died cause of Wooyoung

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🍽️ Food & Water Log

* Low-key, don't even remember

Total: a lot

Water 🌊:Drank a lot today

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🎧 Song of the Day

In honor of me absolutely dying at the concert omg

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📝 Today at a glance

     *Woke up at: 4, then fell asleep again and woke up at 10

     * What I did: concert, ate, Chinatown, pastries, train

     * Energy Level: Guerilla

     * Best moment: literally everything

     * Worst moment: low-key nothing

     * Overall vibe: 11/10

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🌱 Plans for Tomorrow

     * Wake up by 9

     * Eat yummy things

     * Art museum?

     * Leave to go home :c

     * Be sad probably

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Bye bye, Love you!

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Daily Log 🪵 [072525]

🌤️ Midday Diary [13:48]

     * I've been on the road for a while, I'm excited. I ate kinda a lot but not really. 634 c@ls so far today. I'm going to break 1000 probably but it's okay I think. I'm going to be kind to myself this vacation.

🌙 Night Diary [22:33]

      * Just got back from the pool 😝 there were some hot guys working out and they had to see my nerdy weird looking self walk out of the pool. I had my glasses on and overall just looked like a drowned raccoon. I'm gonna k!ll myself. Oh, I got checked out by a bunch of dudes today (obviously not those ones) so that was cool. Im gonna be looking ugly the rest of this trip though so that's gonna stop. I still don't know what I'm wearing for Ateez... Oh well.

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🍽️ Food & Water Log

* Broke at noon with a kiwi 🥝: 42

*Konjac jelly snack (had like half cause it was weird) 🍎: 2

* Coffee drink ☕: 200

* Protein bite 😋: 100

* Cream bun 🍞: 250

* 3 Hello Kitty mango marshmallows 😺: 39

* Got out of the car, ate dinner with my mom:

* Half a burger w/ Swiss, BBQ, avocado, lettuce 🍔: 360

* Half a small house salad 🥗: 75

* 2/3 serving seasoned fries 🍟: 225

* Went for ice cream cause my mom was mad: Scoop of Dubai chocolate ice cream w/ nuts 🍨: 260

Total Calories: 1553

Water 🌊:Drank 2.8 bottles today? Not enough. Ill do better!

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🎧 Song of the Day

Makes me feel like I'm high. It's so crazy I love it. I'm like ascending I think.

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🔮 Horoscope

♊Gemini ♊

     * Don't automatically assume that you can work out all your problems alone, Gemini. Just talking things out with others may help shed light on a situation that baffled you earlier. Enlist the help of others in areas where you need it. Don't be ashamed to ask for assistance. We all have problems and issues to deal with. You aren't alone.

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📝 Today at a glance

     *Woke up at: 8:30

     * What I did: drive to Chicago, walked a shit ton, got ice cream, swam

     * Energy Level: excited, very very excited

     * Best moment: literally everything

     * Worst moment: looking dumb in front of the hotties at the pool 😔

     * Overall vibe: 10/10

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🌱 Plans for Tomorrow

     * Wake up by [time]

     * Eat brunch

     * ATEEZ CONCERT DAYYYY

     * China Town

     * Walk a lot again

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Pictures

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Bye bye, Love you!

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"you don't owe anyone anything" You are a tar pit. Speak for yourself. I personally owe the cafe employees my dishes put away and my friends a listening ear and small scared insects a cup and a gentle trip outside. Hyperindividualism is a rancid infection borne of capitalism and willfully misinterpreted therapyspeak and I will defy it by continuing to be kind regardless of whether or not it benefits me personally

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why doesnt starving for a day automatically make me lose 20 lbs

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I found some guy on YouTube. I've never watched his long form videos but he criticizes diets and I've found so many skinny girls in his videos and he stays judging them. Also the comments are so good. Such unintentional th!n$p0, love to see it.

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My monster juices aren't going anywhere they're so yummy

"dont drink your cals!!!!" you're gonna have to rip my sno-berry flavored peace tea out of my cold, dead hands

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I've never rejected homemade food before and I hated it. My mother looked genuinely hurt. It's worth it to be small I think.

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‘start thinking about what you’ll do in the future or you’ll ruin your life’

well sorry i was not supposed to live past 13.

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Literally 🤕

WHY am I so bad at MY OWN eating d|s0rd3r ?!?!!

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Daily Log 🪵 [072425]

🌤️ Midday Diary [16:32]

     * I've done a whole lot of nothing. I just realized I have to work and wanna die.

🌙 Night Diary [21:12]

      * I had some tea. I'm stressing out as always. Home is so terrible, I can't wait to leave.

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🍽️ Food & Water Log

* Teaaaaaaa ☕

Total: 0-5 👍

Water 🌊: drank I wanna say 2.5 bottles of water today

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🎧 Song of the Day

In honor of Skz giving us the Karma album trailer

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🔮 Horoscope

♊Gemini ♊

     * Your dreams will never come true unless you believe in and act on them, Gemini. No one else is going to do it for you. Unless you have a fairy godmother, you need to take matters into your own hands. Realize that you can get there many different ways. The first step is always to believe in yourself and the fact that anything is possible. Today is a great day to let your imagination take charge.

      * Alright! I'll continue to work towards it!

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📝 Today at a glance

     *Woke up at: ???

     * WORK 😖

     * Energy Level: medium but depressed

     * Best moment: I saved a bug that was hanging on my car

     * Worst moment: when my family came home

     * Overall vibe: 7/10

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🌱 Plans for Tomorrow

     * Leave for Chicago!

     * Break fast (I'm hoping to last till noon at least)?!?

     * Dye hair? 😨

     * eat cream bun? yummy yum yum

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Bye bye, Love you!

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I hope things get better n I hope maybe one day America won't be so shit

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free me bmi 18 jail free me

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Literally my life

of course i fucking binged anyway tho

jesus fuck