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i’m going to eat Armin Arlert.

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people arguing over who in EMA touched each other the most while we know the real answer

(edit: I’m not trying to bring any ships down. People often forget how close they are)

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armin's altruism is mainly based on his self-hatred + fueled by thoughts that other people are better than him and deserve to live while he doesn't

self-sacrifice is either a part of his plan or his first thoughts when he can't come up with a proper plan

before ⬆️ and after time-skip ⬇️ examples + return to shiganshina arc

yes he learned how to stay more calm in dangerous situations but suicidal thoughts never disappeared

the pressure of new expectations after erwin's death and new responsibilities (post-rumbling might be heeelll) is what forcefully keeps him alive because of extreme guilt and savior complex

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Thought I would share my sapphic hcs for my favorite ships <3

They complete me in a way no one else can

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They live in my head rent free tbh

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They live in my head rent free tbh

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Drawing shifters resembling their titans

Just an idea I had

Some resemble their titans more than the others since I took some creative liberty

Like I’m not making Armin and Border collie bald or drawing Pieck with an elongated face, I won’t do that to them

Also forgot Falco but I drew so many I kinda didn’t wanna draw one more

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Look at the way arumika are looking at each other. In LOVE

im still angry, where is armin's blush and it's not even the sama face...we were so robbed wtf

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Daily reminder: Armin is the shortest and smallest in EMA 😅

I feel irk whenever i see someone drawing Armin being taller and broader than Mikasa.

Lol, i always find this art funny because Eren's shoulder is so freaking broad 😭

Even in Attack on School Castes, Armin is still that short and small lol 🔫

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Just some doodles of the gals from the human/modern au! (Adora’s style is kinda what I wear at my current job, while Catra is 10 times cooler than I’ll ever be.)

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been watching the new SheRa and wanted to doodle these two ✨

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It’s almost as if Catra is trying to play into the fawn trauma response with shadow weaver and Hordak in the later seasons. While Adora is framed as “the good kid” it’s Catra who abides by the horde and their strict policy for disobedience because it’s often how the neglected child acts when they are paired with another one when they grow up together. Even if Catra isn’t seen as competent as a fighter as adora, she desperately tries to win Shadow Weavers attention and get her praise even if it means going against the girl she loves and her morals she can’t understand. I find it a little weird that Adora just accepts her new life with Bow and Glimmer without much internal struggle in episode two. It’s been her destiny to be the chosen one and the golden child so obviously she is going to take this to the extreme and run with it? Catra? She doesn’t know where she stands with her own talents so she turns to her abuser to gain validation. Op is right as well as everyone else. It’s so baffling that she ra has taught me more about domestic abuse than other forms of media. It really shows how ahead of its time it was.

the first two episodes of She-ra are still so fascinating to me because we're presented with these two characters, Adora and Catra, and from design alone, you can tell Catra's the more rebellious one: with the lack of Horde red on her clothes, ripped leggings, and spiky hair; contrasting Adora's zipped up, clean cut red jacket and practical ponytail. The first scenes show us Adora diligently preparing for the day and arriving on time for training, and Catra showing up partway through, seemingly slacking off, and using an underhanded tactic to secure victory. Catra jokes around and Adora joins in, but Adora straightens up and salutes the second Shadow Weaver appears. Catra slowly assumes attention, then falls back into a forced relaxed position, notably neglecting to salute. Throughout the episode, we see Adora is deferent, always toeing the line, where Catra is "disrespectful" and clearly disregards and resents authority. Yet, Adora is the one to defect.

Though we know Adora is the main character and must become She-ra and join the good guys™, it's still somewhat of a subversion of expectations. It drew in my attention immediately. What reason would Catra, who seemingly dislikes the Horde and is mistreated by Shadow Weaver, have to stay? How could Adora, who previously seemed so dedicated to serving the Horde with all of her being, leave so easily? It's such a good set up for the series

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raagh they make me SICK

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armin and mikasa ‼️‼️‼️🥹

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I saw a lot of people talking about this on twt and I wanted to share my own analysis of Armins SA and how it relates to Mikasa’s own trauma

While it is true that the only character that confronts him is Jean, I would argue that the one soul to truly understand his pain is the one who has lived it; Mikasa Ackerman.

In the manga, we are shown various reactions when it comes to his SA. Jean being the well raised kid he is, knows it’s immoral what happened to his friend, Sasha and Connie being uneducated teenagers, laugh at the whole expense, Eren who is becoming more apathetic by the day, can’t feel anything nor does he know, Historia is just happy it’s not her. I don’t blame her. It would have been had she been in that situation.

The longest we get to an interaction with another character who went through the similar experience happens to be Armin’s best friend and the only other character to experience this treatment as a child and at the hands of child predators who go “against their nature” IE: The man in season three ep 1 saying Armin changed him and the two kidnappers who are usually against selling children for profit. It’s important to note that it’s not Jean who Armin talks to, it’s instead Mikasa despite Mikasa not being the one who Armin was protecting when he fired the gun. Why? Because they are very similar characters to this regard. Both had their humanities and their innocence stolen in one afternoon and yet ended up committing acts of great violence to combat those horrific experiences

Often times, when trauma happens to someone in front of you-especially if you have suffered a similar one- your first instinct is to push the memory out of your head by either laughing about it, ignoring it or making an off handed sarcastic comment that betrays how you really feel. Mikasa is shown in the anime to witness this. It’s important to note her expression as she does so. It’s much similar to that when she was a child- almost as if she’s reverting back to the same day. I find it weird that a lot of fans don’t see this connection. Everything about it is the same, down to the very shade of her eyes.

It also certainly doesn’t help that both Armin and Mikasa have a “freeze” expression on their faces. Armin is shown to be visibly crying but he’s unable to speak or defend himself. Mikasa isn’t crying in this picture but she was at first in a state of shock when it happened. I find it deeply upsetting that Am’s response to trauma is to freeze rather than fight or flight. It’s what makes their dynamic all the more impactful.

anyways, in the manga we cut to Armin alone and he is asking Mikasa through tears if “she went through the same thing”. People have pointed out that he is talking about the life he took in order to save Jean; similar to Mikasa and the lives she took in order to save Eren. Some have pointed out if he knew about her potential kidnapping that day (I do think she would tell him. She trusts him the most. Even more than Eren.) But I think it’s a combination of both aside from the fact that he very well could have seen her through the window. It seems like Mikasa knows what he means when he asks if it happened to her and accepts that he doesn’t need to apologize for his own SA. He isn’t responsible for what happened to him despite the man setting up homophobic rhetoric to be used against him. After Armin is victim blamed for the entirety of these two chapters, it’s Mikasa who embraces him and tells him “it’s ok.” Because that’s all you can tell a fellow survivor; that it’s ok because you have been there.

What I find so fascinating is we see Mikasa being more protective over Armin in the later chapters especially when Levi confronts him about the murder he’s done. Especially the frame work of words she uses “why would you say that?” Insinuating that how could he say that about someone who has gone through the worst trauma a child could go through and accept the type of person he is. A monster, in humane and filthy. A direct parallel to the way SA survivors especially children feel at the hands of their perpetrators.

Funnily enough, I find some of Armin’s words describing himself to be very similar to how Mikasa is described. By Annie and by her superiors. “A beast” and “the solider worth a hundred”. Almost like these two had to shed their innocence and become monsters because the world allowed for no other way for them to find closure.

The over arching point of this post is to not only draw parallels to how these two characters faced similar traumas and how Mikasa is perhaps the only one to truly understand Armin in this scenario, but how in tune both Armin and Mikasa are with each other. Especially Mikasa. I would argue it’s Mikasa that understands him the most because he is the only one she can be truly open and honest with and not only vulnerable but inspirational when he feels like he’s given up hope. She knows he spirals into a fit of self loathing and it’s her call to action that causes him to fight once again. If there hadn’t been Mikasa to fight for him- Armin would have been a catatonic mess.

Then she stops him from ending his own life knowing that nothing good comes from wishing things were better or throwing yourself away for the sake of your own worthlessness. She knows because she’s tried to do it herself just a few scenes ago. The “I won’t leave you here” is so important because here is this girl who is so focused on her own personal journey of strength completely revaluate her own goals once she saw the same self sacrifice happen to someone she loves dearly. She is still saying she won’t leave something behind but this time it’s a person and that person happens to be her best friend. The bottom line is, she will never leave those weak to defend themselves behind, she’ll never try to take her own life because Armin would be lost without her. She loves him too much to ever let anything bad happen to him.

That’s why his SA is so hurtful for her and leaves her speechless, she simply doesn’t know what to tell someone she’s failed to protect. So she tells him the only thing she can; “it’s ok.” It’s heartbreaking, but beautiful and the only thing you can tell yourself when you get SA’d as a child; That it’s ok. It will be if it’s meant to be. It’s ok for Armin because she’s here for him and that’s all that matters is that she cares and she loves him no matter what. He’s valid and she is. It’s all ok.