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Uuuugggggh I'm soo tired and groggy and shit. I have work in HALF AN HOUR I NEED TO WAKE UPPPPPPPPPPPPPPP

I HATE NOT EATING BUT I GOTTA BE SKINNY!!!!!! REMEMBER WHY YOURE DOING THISSSS

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weigh-in is tomorrow.... oh the horrors.....

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Idk why I wanna be skinny so badly. Like yeah, my mom sucks and stuff but I do care for her and she was never an almond mom or whatever

I don't think I have any weight trauma or trauma that would make me see my weight any differently from anyone else.

I JUST WANNA LOOK GOOD! IM JUST SUPER VAIN YK???

I think it might have to do with control as well maybe???? Like control over how my body is and what it gets. But I think that's like a combo with getting an ED

I just wanna look good IS THAT TOO MUCH LMAOOOO

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Saw this on X/Twitter never related more in my life 💀

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can’t be bought liking this

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"it takes 21 days to build a habit"

thats the only thing that been getting me through staying in my d3ficit and eating well this week

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to everyone who is like omg ana is the best friend I never had no she’s not? she’s a fucking hair thinning demon who possess us until we can’t survive without her

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IM 142!!!

I mean, it's not the 130s but that's a 5lb difference from my last recorded weight!!

I'LL TAKE IT!!!!!!

HOpefullt next week I'll be 140 or below!! 😊😊😊

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Finally shit today, FINALLY!!!!

I haven't all week I was getting worried bc I weigh myself tmrw

But YES!!!!!! WE GOT SHIT OUT OF MY SYSTEM AND IM SO READY FOR THE WEIGH IN

(No I'm not I'm LYING, I am SO FUCKING SCARED.

I don't even know what number I'm expecting tmrw, I just hope it's less than 147 and in an ideal world Id have somehow lost 8 pounds and I'm in the 130s)

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Duuude I'm going out Sunday night and I'm only SLIGHTLY nervous

I've got work the next morning so I don't wanna be out too late bc I like to sleep OKAY and we're probably gonna be drinking and shit

I really don't wanna gain and lose my progress already. I probably won't eat anything bc my need to save money rn outweighs any hunger tbh

I'm just worried that my lack of sleep that day combined w the fact I'm not eating a lot anymore again will make me suffer at work 😭😭😭

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drinking black coffe is like nostalgic for me it reminds me of when i was so good at restricting

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Yesterday was my first day back on track. It went well! I'm working a lot so there's not a lot time time to eat or think about food which is good :)

I'm doing 900 and less and I'll be weighing myself on Sunday. Last time I weighed myself (like a couple weeks ago) I was like 146 😨😨😨😨😨😨 so hopefully I'm at LEAST a pound of 2 below that? 😭😭😭

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Its been a month since I officially lost 22.4 pounds I went down from 312. To now at 292.7 super proud of myself & this new miracle shot 😝

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Guess who's back

AGAIN.

I feel so fat and disgusting. I need to lose this weight, I've done it before and I CAN GO IT AGAIN GODDAMMIT!!!!

WE'RE SO BACK ✊✊😑😑😑

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How it feels to actually have an 3ating D1sord3r

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Ok so I weighed myself yesterday and I gained 2lbs from the last time I weighed myself -which was abt 4 weeks ago

I'm not too upset w myself bc I KNOW I gained weight bc of the holidays and I KNOW that I'm back on track now so I will lose this weight!!!!

Im trying to get into the 120's by the 27th of this month, which honestly isn't too hard let's be real

I WILL SUCCEED ‼️‼️‼️‼️💪💪💪💪