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my face hurts from crying so hard
wanting to scream but unable to make a sound
because it’s almost been a year
since i lost you
you, my soulmate
not to marry or kiss
but to walk through, to understand
the deepest connection
of platonic love that i will ever understand
it’s 12:07am
and my face is red
from violently crying into my pillow
i miss you so much
why were you taken from me
my dearest friend
Amelie
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26-Jan-2020
Australia Day is very controversial. I don’t celebrate it in its essence because it’s just celebrating genocide of the rightful owners of our land. But, I celebrate the bringing together of people, the mateship and freedom that is expressed on this day.
saying that, i’m spending the night at a friends uncles house. they have a super nice apartment with views of the city, and it’s really nice. i kinda feel a bit awkward here but the drunker the adults get, the less awkward it is.
the fireworks were stunning. My city had the biggest sky show in the country, it was awesome. it was kinda warm, the atmosphere gave me a comforting feeling. We had a pretty good view of the fireworks and i just admired them. We played some music from the balcony, it was super nice.
now we’re just chillin on the balcony, listening to eminem. It’s been a good day.
-eden <3
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25-Jan-2020
school starts in a bit and i’m stressed about it. an elective i’ve picked is drama but even thinking about having to perform again is giving me intense anxiety and it hasn’t even begun. as soon as i get back, i’m gonna swap it out for a different elective. i’m also really stressed about the core subjects i’ve been put in- extension english and religion. i’m just gonna flop the first few weeks so i can be put back down because i know i’m gonna fail.
but some new things are good about school this year. i’m going into year 10, which means i’m a senior. that means i get a top locker! goodbye the days of hurting my back trying to eat my stuff for the next period, or getting stuff dropped on my head from the locker above me. i also get to say goodbye to my shitty classes that i hated- japanese and math mostly. shitty teachers in both of them.
this year i’m trying to do really well in science so i can get into a human biology course next year. i’m not gonna even bother with math this year, i can drop it next year cause i suck anyway. i need to do well this year so i have the opportunity to do atar or something. i might actually have to TRY this year ahaha.
but other than school, i’ve been hanging out with friends a lot these holidays, along with my boyfriend. my home life is really shit right now and i don’t think it’s gonna get better, i just gotta get through it. i’m hoping i’ll be able to see a gender therapist this year at some point, and since the start of this year i’ve really considered going on T when i’m 18. it’s the first time i’ve had a huge urge to medically transition.
i’ve got some other things going on but that’s pretty much
- eden <3
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Connection
we talk any spare moment we get; after our stomachs are full from an exhausting day at school
we talk until stars are in the sky; i glance over them into the direction of your house and i know that someone, somewhere, is here for me
we talk until the sun comes up again; throwing a harlequin of pastel oranges and yellows on the brightening sky
we talk until we fall asleep; unable to even end the call from fatigue. we cherish the small fraction of sleep we both get before the new day
we talk until it’s another exhausting day at school, falling asleep at the desk and scolded by teachers.
but as i pass you silently in the halls, exchanging smirks, the exhaustion is worth it.
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31-dec-2019
Happy New Year! This year i’ve changed so much. I’ve matured, transitioned and changed my life in many ways. I made changes to myself that ultimately improved my life. I’ve been through struggles, highs and lows, and i’ve made it out alive.
I’ve lost a lot this year- my closest friend moved to the other side of the world, my sister ran away from home, my nana past away and so my beloved dog. also through this loss, good things have come out of it too. I’ve formed new relationships- both platonic and romantic. I’ve found a group of people that accepts me; my chosen family. i’ve found a partner who i love more than anything; someone who makes me happy every day i get to talk to them. i’ve gained knowledge of myself, connection with others. i’ve found more meaning in my life.
so alot of growth happened in 2019, and although it was a tough year, i’ve learned so much and i’m glad i got through.
but anyway, today’s been eventful. I went back to my boyfriends house and had the greatest time. we went to the movies and saw Jojo Rabbit. it was a pretty good movie, but i was just glad i could spend time with him. I stayed at his house for hours but it seemed like minutes, and i was late home.
when i got home i instantly packed my bags to go to another friends house. i’m staying here for new years- which is in 20 minutes now. anyway, it’s been a pretty good year and i look forward to the changes that 2020 has to offer
-eden <3
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23-Dec-2019
i’ve had a really shitty day. I didn’t have work, which was good. I woke up at around 9, and wanted to just take a day to do absolutely nothing productive and chill out.
around noon I opened the gates for my dad, and forgot to lock the doors coming inside cause I thought mum was home. She wasn’t.
I shouldn’t have left it open, i’m to blame for that. but mum acted really condescending towards me- she took away my laptop and said “if you clean the rooms to my standard, maybe i’ll consider giving your laptop back.”
she’s trying to punish me like an 11 year old, it’s so dumb. i just slept most of the day because i felt like shit. i’m angry at her for still thinking i’m still a little kid and treating me like one.
it’s fucking frustrating, but anyway
-eden <3
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Flowers
flowers grow all around us
they emerge from the corner of a cracked gravestone, text faded with age as a dying memory holds onto its last breath in rememberence
they grow wild in an abandoned house, long after its time is due as it sits vacantly, waiting for curious feet to stumble in and explore it
they wrap around the bodies of animals, cast aside the road as waste, a disregard of life- bloodied and left to rot
through all this isolation and loneliness, flowers still bloom
through all this pain and violence, flowers still bloom
through all this challenge and adversity, flowers still bloom
flowers still bloom, and i can too
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Strangers
ripples disturb the peaceful lake
as they clear, the reflection becomes still
while the calmness of the water is back, something is wrong
we have the same eyes, they glisten back at me
we shed the same tears, they stain my cheeks
we have the same broken smile, like a cracked porcelain doll
but this sence of wrongness won’t pass,
for i don’t recognise the stranger that i see
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20-Dec-2019
i’m exhausted. it’s been a somewhat eventful day, and it’s only 8pm. yet i want to go to bed.
i refuse to sleep yet because i’ve began watching an anime, The Future Diary, and now i’m invested in it. I watched an episode a while back but decided not to continue, but now i’m on holidays i have all the time in the world to watch the series.
it’s good my friend gave me AnimeLab Premium. He made an account and gave the password to a bunch of people for a fee of 2 bucks a month. considering it’s only 6 dollars per month for premium, he’s getting profit. but if i’m able to get it premium for cheap, i’ll take it.
anyway, today i went to someone’s house. well, i’d call him my boyfriend but we both don’t like calling each other that. one reason is since i’m nonbinary, their isn’t really a fluent term for boy/girlfriend for me. but- i like him, and he likes me.
i caught the train to his and we walked down to his house. i was surprisingly nervous, which was weird since i’ve been to his house a couple times before. We sat down and played mariokart for a while. he thought he was better than me, but i beat him in a bunch of rounds. it’s easy to distract him if you know what sets him off.
i had a lot of fun at his house, it’s honestly been the highlight of my week. we vaguely organised for me to go back next friday as well and i’m super excited about it. time went by so quickly. when i checked the time we panicked because i was meant to be home before 6pm and it was already 5:40.
there’s nothing i would change about today, it was amazing.
-eden <3
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life & death
neither death nor life can be both warm and comforting
for life is filled with warmth, a soft glow that beckons me into a tight embrace
but deaths silence is comforting, and calls me slowly towards it
and i’m forever stuck between both, wishing for life’s warmth but craving deaths comfort
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