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So, someone contacted me asking about a SUPER OLD Pokemon Creepypasta I wrote Forever Ago+it reminded me of how much I actually really like This Horrid, Little Goop-Faucet, so I decided to give it a new coat of paint+redraw it! Behold: Unownvee Reborn; fun fact about Unownvee that I don't think I ever imparted in the original story/lore behind it: It's supposed to have the playful/normal temperment of your average Eevee, it just Looks Off-Putting+Oozes Questionable Ooze from its eye-hole(shout-out specifically to my twin, @the-crow-cryptids-domain, they're actually the reason Why It Does That/Started Doing That in subsequent art I drew of this thing; said art is sadly missing/deleted, tho, bummer!)

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Big D: It's so nice to feel wanted, you know?

Marckus, running next to him: NOT BY THE LAW!!

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Tumblr is weird.

Tumblr keeps trying to force-feed me content for a show I've never watched, and that is why I no longer use the "for you" page, and always look at the "my tags" page, because in that page I have hand-selected what jargan shall be shown to me.

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Executive Dysfunction

God, I wish I could get over my crippling inability to do fucking anything even when I want to do it and just FUCKING do something. I don't even care what. Fucking. Anything that isn't look at memes, scroll Tumblr, watch YouTube, or similar variants of such activities. I need to force myself to do something. But don't know how to even do such a thing. I can, sometimes. But right now? It escapes me. And all I can find it in me to do is shout it out into a digital void...

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I will almost never agree to a post more than I do right now.

So when I wrote down that Big Undertale Meta Post about how Sans probably doesn’t remember RESETs at all and why that’s cool - I got a lot of responses to the tune of ‘that’s probably canon but I’m still gonna enjoy Sans Remember fics because of the angst’. And, well... first I want to emphasize that those are very good and correct responses! Like ‘I acknowledge might or might not be in the text but I am also gonna explore alternative ideas Because I Enjoy Them’ is a Good Damn Position to have! Transformative Fandom is Transformative on purpose! Engage with the text and it’s various analyses but don’t let it chain your creativity or fun!

It’s just that… all of the people saying that they prefer Sans Remembering ‘for the Angst’ make me think that maybe folks are kinda ignoring the incredible angst potential of Sans NOT remembering.

My original post focused on how cool it is that Sans manages to be so on-top-of-things even though he doesn’t remember anything - but let’s not ignore the fact that this situation is also grim as shit.

Through some mysterious super-science or whatever, Sans has managed to discover that his timeline is being RESET and altered constantly (before the Player came along, Flowey had already managed to basically 100% the entire Underground) and he has no memory of what's going on and what exactly is being altered. 

He knows he might’ve gone through the same day over and over and over again thousand times but he’s simply not aware of it. It’s all the helplessness and lack of forward momentum of a classic timeloop and none of the benefits of memorizing occurrences or acquiring extra information. That’s exactly the thing that drove him into his depressive spiral.

That line always strikes me. It’s like… Sans suspects that without the meddling of capricious immortal time gods, he’d be a much happier and motivated person. But he doesn’t know for sure, because he can’t remember how he was in some distant ‘original timeline’. He is essentially fighting to avenge a version of himself that might not even be real.

Like, yes, it is very impressive and badass how well Sans trained himself to notice every tiny little hint that might indicate that a RESET happened - but it’s impressive because the deck is stacked so heavily against him. And it is very impressive and badass how Sans managed to turn his weaknesses into strengths during his Boss Battle - but it’s impressive because these are usually huge weaknesses. Trying to work to solve a timeloop that you can only infer is going on through context clues is quite a hopeless and desperate mission!

Another bit in the Sans fight that I often think about is his unique reaction if you kill him and then RESET to Fight him again.

With how skilled he is at reading expressions, Sans probably knows what that ‘weird expression’ means, he knows the Player killed him once before and is here to try again. And yet he still goes along with the same attack plan he has, the one he knows killed him in that previous timeline. Why? Because he doesn’t know where the flaw in his plan was exactly, he can’t even begin to guess. So he has no choice but to go along with the plan he knows did kill him, because that’s the only thing he has. 

You know, the thing about Sans, is that he always plays his cards very close to his chest. It’s very hard to tell what exactly he’s thinking. That’s probably why so many people do believe he remembers RESET. If any non-Flowey character remembered RESETs, only Sans would be remotely able to hide it so well. But for me? It makes me wonder how much of his Troll who Knows Too Much persona is a bit of an act as well. 

You know, Sans’ deduction requires some keen observational skills - does he ever second-guess his conclusions? Living on constant high-alert that something has been reversed or that someone knows something they shouldn’t requires fostering a lot of paranoia, and that can’t be healthy for him. Is he ever overcome with doubt on whatever something was really an indication of a timeline RESET or not? How does he feel when he realizes something horrible happened on a previous timeline (for example, his brother dying) but he doesn’t know about the context to feel sure that he can stop it from happening again? 

I also think about it in terms of his relationship to Papyrus in general. Sans tends to hide so many things from Papyrus, especially in timelines where the Player is particularly kill-happy...

In part it’s about his perception that Papyrus’ kindness and pacifism is born from naïveté and thus the only way to preserve it is to hide the cruelty and harshness of the world from him (Undyne also does that). But also, with the paranoia and helplessness Sans lives in every day - is it any wonder that he might believe that ignorance is bliss?

I do truly think it’s beautiful how fandom can experiment with cool non-canon ideas! There are probably so many great emotional angsty ideas tied up to Sans remembering RESETs! I just feel it’ll be a shame if people ignore just how dire and depressing Sans’ canon situation also is!

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It pains me to find out that one of my favorite musical artists, AZALI, has practically no following on Tumblr. I am going to share their music now! You must listen! If you do not, I will smite you with the fury of several guinnea pigs. AZALI has all of their music on YouTube and Spotify. It's all amazing, no matter what kind of music it is. They make a lot of battle music, but also make nice calm songs that you could fall asleep to or take a calm walk into a mysterious forest never to return to. I choose Chaos King as the representative musical piece because I fucking love the way they mixed emotional violin and piano with violent drum breakcore. All of their music is short, so even if you don't think you'll like it, sampling their works wouldn't take much time. I am bound to make more posts about AZALI's music in the future. If I do not, then you may burn me at the stake.

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Artistic Drought. (Slight vent, kind of just screaming into the void).

I get so much inspiration looking at other people's art on this site. And yet. I cannot use this inspiration. It just kind of goes through my brain for a good 15 seconds, and then it leaves and I feel a little sad. Like, "I could never draw that good, so why should I try?" Whenever I give in to the inspiration I end up feeling bad about my art and throwing it away, and it just sucks to go through every single time.

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I may be stupid.

I just now found out that 'OP' stands for Original Poster. I'd never had the acronym explained to me.

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I started playing YOMI HUSTLE recently. It's pretty fun, but I'm still relatively unskilled at it. This is a replay that I liked. (I'm the cowboy.)

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This random-ass content is exactly why I made a Tumblr account.

Ooo I wanna curse someone real bad right now.

Imma do it.

Fuck it.

You there.

Breath manually.

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I am thinking of posting some of my older, less recent art, but only what I'm proud of, and so I've decided to share this. (It's Star Dream from Kirby Robobot. I made this quite a long time ago, and it went under some peculiar circumstances as a result of that. I had started making it before I had learned how to better use Krita, the art program I use, and had stopped making it around halfway through, picking it back up more than a year after I had stopped. This means that it has a weird mix of "I don't know what I'm doing", and "I kind of know what I'm doing". Despite the fact that I picked it up later on, I still forgot some details, and it looks slightly off as a result, but at the end of the day it's one of my best digital art pieces.) (I also appear to have lost the original Krita file, and can only find low resolution screenshots of the art, instead of an actual PNG... Sorry about that.) (Side note, made this with a mouse. The shading is awkwardly placed and sparsely utilized as a result.)

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I fucking love the close-up shaded scenes in the One Piece manga. They are always so amazing, and hammer in the energy of the scene so much. Look at these four examples. (Spoilers all the way up to Water 7 in the images. The images are out of context, though, so they don't really spoil anything but characters.)

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Welcome to hell idiot

I hope to enjoy my time here, thanks for the welcome.

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I want to try to integrate myself into Tumblr, even though it's very overwhelming. So have some of my trash.

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what they dont tell you about strategy based games is that its hard if you’re stupid