el-el-oyd - Tumblr blog

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I wish mental illness was how it is in the movies; crying in your bathtub at 2 am and doing all of these wild things, and someone coming along to save you. But in reality you just lock yourself in your room all day and stare at the ceiling; and the world keeps moving around you but you just stand still.

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not to be unnecessarily fake deep on a wednesday afternoon but I feel like I don’t have a personality also that I’m not real

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"fuck my eating disorder" i say, as i binge on everything in the kitchen as if that isn’t. a part of. my disorder

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i lowkey hate that losing weight and realizing i have no friends are the only two things encompassing my mind

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a moodboard for princess harumi from ninjago 💙

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my brain has one (1) setting and that’s all

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I need to get some friends omfg

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current mood: prom queen on repeat while i scroll through thinspo

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Lloyd (Ninjago)

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ᴇᴠɪʟ! ʟʟᴏʏᴅ ᴀᴜ ᴍᴏᴏᴅʙᴏᴀʀᴅ

Kinda like the same one I have on my profile but with a few adjustments

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‘‘as always’‘

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I feel like every time something bad happens, I choose to make it worse. Like, I could be bettering myself and my situation, but my brain tells me to do the opposite for whatever reason. To save my pride? Because I’m lazy? I don’t like confrontation? It’s stupid. I fall into these awful coping mechanisms that don’t do anything good for me.

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hair go swish 

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via pinterest

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Lloyd with glasses edit inspired by concept art of him with glasses

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I am 100% in control of what I eat. I do not need to binge or eat foods that will make me fat, I can control what goes into my body. I can control how I look. It’s up to me now.

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Lloyd aesthetic because,,, kin.