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My sociology booklet has the makings of a great tumblr post

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LW: An ordinary purposed organism on the floor of my chamber again. LW: Wait, what is that in your hand...? LW: ...! LW: PERRY the purposed organism?!

Linking Wires has yet another interaction with Perry the Purposed Organism, who has likely arrived to thwart yet another mass ascension attempt. Probably with some random new invention with a sob story attached.

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Potion of Recall

HEY

TELL ME THE NAME OF ONE ITEM FROM TERRARIA DO IT NOW !!!!!!

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Did you take your vitamins?

reminder to myself to take those damn pills

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Ultrakill and Arma 3. Sounds like a confused mess

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Requesting answers from Otherkin/Therian community

I hate to double down on this, but the post got fuck all attention, which unfortunately meant I got fuck all answers.

However, my desire to find some form of answer is clearly beating my desire to avoid repercussions from loudly broadcasting my deeply personal issues to strangers online.

Does the experience I am describing in any way align with your community's experiences? And if not, can you at least point me towards the right direction?

Since I am vibing with the Dragon HRT story (and its off-shoots), and that story being tagged with #therian, I believe your experiences could at least be in the same ball park.

Thanks for reading

Why can't I just feel... "right"? (a vent by me) (Warning: LONG)

This will probably need some form of content warning here, but I can't think of anything specific right now. I will edit them in just below this paragraph if someone wants some here.

CW: //TODO

I found myself this morning browsing some transformation related subreddits, and ended up reflecting on myself (I will just go ahead and blame r/tf_irl for sparking this specific moment of reflection).

The obvious question: What is drawing me to this type of content?

The most honest answer I can give is, that I don't like my body. It doesn't feel good. It doesn't feel right. It doesn't feel "me". And it bothers me a lot.

Needless to say, I am not particularly "in-tune" with my own body.

A striking example would be how I suddenly started to wet the bed regularly as a child and only managed to fix it by the month of my 21st birthday. As it turned out, I was unwittingly neglecting my (male) body's sexual needs, and the solution was to engage with it from time to time. And it still took like a year to figure everything out. Not to mention the solution was suggested by a friend.

Funny tangent aside; I would probably be fine if a disconnect between my self and my body was all there is to it.

In hindsight, I am surprised how early I recognized this part of me in a way. A feeling I would describe today as a sort of envy. I clocked it the first time when I started sensing a pattern in the characters I made for games like World of Warcraft and TES IV: Oblivion, although it took me much longer to realize that what I was doing was engaging in wish fulfillment. I once told my older brother this pattern, but his reaction made me hesitant to bring it up to anyone else.

The problem with wish fulfillment, however, is that it is confined to fantasy, unless a path towards it is available. Like an itch I couldn't quite scratch, this only grew to bother me more and more. I would go so far as to say that it has come to genuinely upset me.

If you have been reading this far, I want to thank you hearing me out. It is time for me to get to the point. I expect to be losing some people at this point.

The problem I have with my body is that is it human. I have an entire list of things I would rather be.

Dragons, Gryphons, Lizardfolk, Werewolves. If you can name it -and especially if you would call someone a furry over liking it- I probably imagined myself being that instead of what my body happens to be.

I even have this weird feeling at the base of my spine, as if I had some kind of phantom tail; a reminder of what I am missing.

All of this is really, genuinely upsetting me.

And that's so dumb!

What kind neuro-chemical process fucked up to make "No tail. Sad. :'(" a possible psychological effect a person could have? The modern human species never had tails! The fuck you mean I'm "missing mine"?

Everyone has to play the hand life deals us. All the things, like body or sexual attraction or whatever, that makes us "us". But I am starting to wonder if some of the cards are AI-generated. And I know, no casino in the world would accept me playing a Kree of Dubs.

I honestly don't know what to call this "condition", but I know how it weighs on me mentally. Don't know if that makes me an "otherkin". I am painfully aware that I am human and always have been human, so this might disqualify me.

From the day I was born, to the day of my death, I am human. And there are very few things I despise more.

Before I end this post, I just want to emphasize that I am intellectually fully aware how fucking stupid this thing is. Including how I am posting my grievances on the internet instead of bringing it up with my therapist. Although I don't know how they could help me with... that.

Also shout-out to trans people. You guys (gender neutral) probably recognized some similarities to your body dysphoria, so you know I kinda relate, I think. Even though I can't join you, I wish you luck your own path to be the "you" you want to be.

I don't know what to tag this post, and I am willing to take suggestions.

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That's not true! Could someone brainwashed by the oversaturation of romance in today's media do this?

*trips and falls up the stairs*

I haven’t platonicposted in a while

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Why can't I just feel... "right"? (a vent by me) (Warning: LONG)

This will probably need some form of content warning here, but I can't think of anything specific right now. I will edit them in just below this paragraph if someone wants some here.

CW: //TODO

I found myself this morning browsing some transformation related subreddits, and ended up reflecting on myself (I will just go ahead and blame r/tf_irl for sparking this specific moment of reflection).

The obvious question: What is drawing me to this type of content?

The most honest answer I can give is, that I don't like my body. It doesn't feel good. It doesn't feel right. It doesn't feel "me". And it bothers me a lot.

Needless to say, I am not particularly "in-tune" with my own body.

A striking example would be how I suddenly started to wet the bed regularly as a child and only managed to fix it by the month of my 21st birthday. As it turned out, I was unwittingly neglecting my (male) body's sexual needs, and the solution was to engage with it from time to time. And it still took like a year to figure everything out. Not to mention the solution was suggested by a friend.

Funny tangent aside; I would probably be fine if a disconnect between my self and my body was all there is to it.

In hindsight, I am surprised how early I recognized this part of me in a way. A feeling I would describe today as a sort of envy. I clocked it the first time when I started sensing a pattern in the characters I made for games like World of Warcraft and TES IV: Oblivion, although it took me much longer to realize that what I was doing was engaging in wish fulfillment. I once told my older brother this pattern, but his reaction made me hesitant to bring it up to anyone else.

The problem with wish fulfillment, however, is that it is confined to fantasy, unless a path towards it is available. Like an itch I couldn't quite scratch, this only grew to bother me more and more. I would go so far as to say that it has come to genuinely upset me.

If you have been reading this far, I want to thank you hearing me out. It is time for me to get to the point. I expect to be losing some people at this point.

The problem I have with my body is that is it human. I have an entire list of things I would rather be.

Dragons, Gryphons, Lizardfolk, Werewolves. If you can name it -and especially if you would call someone a furry over liking it- I probably imagined myself being that instead of what my body happens to be.

I even have this weird feeling at the base of my spine, as if I had some kind of phantom tail; a reminder of what I am missing.

All of this is really, genuinely upsetting me.

And that's so dumb!

What kind neuro-chemical process fucked up to make "No tail. Sad. :'(" a possible psychological effect a person could have? The modern human species never had tails! The fuck you mean I'm "missing mine"?

Everyone has to play the hand life deals us. All the things, like body or sexual attraction or whatever, that makes us "us". But I am starting to wonder if some of the cards are AI-generated. And I know, no casino in the world would accept me playing a Kree of Dubs.

I honestly don't know what to call this "condition", but I know how it weighs on me mentally. Don't know if that makes me an "otherkin". I am painfully aware that I am human and always have been human, so this might disqualify me.

From the day I was born, to the day of my death, I am human. And there are very few things I despise more.

Before I end this post, I just want to emphasize that I am intellectually fully aware how fucking stupid this thing is. Including how I am posting my grievances on the internet instead of bringing it up with my therapist. Although I don't know how they could help me with... that.

Also shout-out to trans people. You guys (gender neutral) probably recognized some similarities to your body dysphoria, so you know I kinda relate, I think. Even though I can't join you, I wish you luck your own path to be the "you" you want to be.

I don't know what to tag this post, and I am willing to take suggestions.

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Baba like dragons?

DRAGON IS FAVORITE

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it's pride month, you know what that means

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I love this feature. It's like a little tree growing from a seed

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Why are you lgbtq+? wrong answers only GO

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its pride month, survivor slugcat. you know what that means.

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Happy pride month everyone :D

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this is so dumb