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So basically it's been two years now?? I mean I don't even remember the whole idea i have earlier but i need to finish this story where Bobby is alive and Tommy is nonexistent.

So it could be still called

Something Something Sunday

‘I miss you’, - surprisingly Buck is drunk again. Basically wasted, there's no doubt - he's staying near the wall to keep himself vertical. And still, and Eddie won't be voluntarily saying it ever, it's…kinda nice to hear. Yes. He misses Buck. Every day. But what’s the point of this conversation anyway? ‘You’re drunk, Evan, and i promised your sister to get the plates from here so would you be so nice not to mess around? It's heavy and most probably very expensive set’  Buck's trying to keep serious ‘Sam told me you have a crush on me. Is it true?’ Oh, not that again! ‘We discussed that already as far as i can recall. He's paranoid.’ ‘And you don't have a crush on me?’  It's easy to say the truth, right? To finally confess but… Buck doesn't need it. He's happy with his stupid lawyer. He doesn't need Eddie anymore. He doesn't need Chris anymore. Maybe someday Eddie would wake up - and won't be needing Buck? God please make it quick. Meanwhile he's silent for too long and Buck is too drunk to wait  ‘Eddie, tell me!!’ ‘No… I'm sorry, Evan. No crush. You're my friend, that's all’ He used to be his friend right? His best friend. He should know it's over already but no way Eddie says this. It's painful enough to lie.  Buck looks at him with an unreadable face. And then… it's like a shortcut in his brain, Eddie can't explain it otherwise. Buck’s somehow getting so close - too close - and next moment his lips just land on Eddie's.  Buck smells like liquor and cinnamon and coffee and - last notes - his cologne or maybe just maybe it's Eddie's brain just knows Buck's smell to the core and… It hurts. The most hurtful part is taking the step back  ‘Buck what the hell was it? You're lucky I could keep the tea set in place otherwise your sister would kill me and… Buck?’ ‘You've called me Buck. I miss this also. I miss you’ - Buck looks like a puppy. Very upset. Very… very drunk. ‘I miss you too but it doesn't explain..that. Why, Evan?’ - Ok, he has himself at one place he can return to ‘Evan’ instead of Buck… how come Buck is so wasted and how strong is Eddie’s need to stop being sober right now. He needs to go home. Definitely. Just finish with the tea set and… ‘I just thought. About… I mean.. that's probably nothing. I just..’ ‘You just what?’ Eddie thinks that his lips still feel the touch. He still feels the taste of Buck’s liquor. And hell his heart is running away from the chest and it's worse than the panic attack and hell he needs to go. ‘I just wanted to check something’ - Buck sadly smiles and Eddie feels his heart is breaking again. How many times could this stupid heart do that?! ‘I hope i helped. Now sorry, I need to get this set at the table and actually I need to run home. I totally forgot about Chris’ homework’ - not a very good lie but nothing better came to his mind. Eddie finally left the room. And Buck sliding down the wall keeping fingers at his mouth. So… Eddie doesn't have a crush on him, okay, that's good. But what if… what if Buck wants him to have it?! What if?... 

No tagging cause I'm pretty sure nobody remembers

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Well

I dropped season 8 after the funeral cause really wtf wtf how could you i was too vulnerable

I have no idea what was in the season finale but I'm pretty sure nothing important and my cute gay firefighters still not gay enough.

So i can proceed my story (yet it has been years so nobody would read it i write not to be read but to write) and look at the pictures of rg

So~o

Did you miss me guys?

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Guys it's a joke right RIGHT?

I mean... It WAS my comfort show

I just lost my mother

I need comfort

Please tell me it's a joke

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My mother died

And I'm still alive

Giant mistake of me

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I love his moustache!

And i love your art!

Eddie in s8

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this is his third injury this week alone...

healer x auror

also I know it's unconventional but I like the idea of healers also using certain muggle tools but the ✨magic✨ version of it

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I swear I'm so fucking stuck in my story like s7 just killed me

me, reading my own incomplete writing : *gasp* and then what happened?

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Well...

But why?! I

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Sorry@notsorry but really....

truly don't understand why the lightning strike wasn't the arc buddie went canon. what do you mean eddie climbed the ladder without rope and tried to pull buck up with his bare hands? what do you mean eddie was so distraught he couldn't even look at buck? what do you mean buck ran to eddie so he could be alone? what do you mean they went on a poker date? what do you mean eddie remembers exactly how long buck was dead for, down to the second???

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He’s my sweet baby and I love him so much… anyways more Buck

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I just need to add it. For all of young beautiful people who has no idea who are these characters!

1. Benjamin Franklin 'Hawkeye' Pierce. He's a surgeon in mobile army hospital, captain and one of the main M*A*S*H characters and he is absolutely gorgeous. And a little insane. Portrayed by amazing Alan Alda

2. Tyr Anasazi. One of the main characters from the Andromeda, member of the Andromeda ascendant crew, cynical weapon officer, ex-killer(?) and more. Also genetic copy of the nietzchean prophet. Kinda. Played by Keith Hamilton Cobb.

3. Susan Ivanova. Second in command of Babylon 5, first openly bisexual character on TV screen, telepath and just an atomic woman. I mean LOOK AT HER. Played by Claudia Christian

4. Doctor Percival Ulysses Cox. Misanthrope nihilist alcoholic attending physician and residency director in Sacred Heart hospital. Also the famous 'Man not caring'. The better version of dr.House IMHO. Portrayed by John C. McGinley

5. Mason. Mason Mason Mason. Undead reaper unalived himself in the sixties by drilling his own brain seeking a permanent high. Spends his afterlife trying all drugs and alcohol he could possibly find (except for the injections - he doesn't trust needles). Also sweet caring cutie-pie. Played by Callum Blue. I mean look at him.

So, tagging i missed from people I've also missed!

Staring from @mairaiscarrierofthepaperclips and this funny thing.

Rules: Make a poll with five of your all time favourite characters and then tag five people to do the same. See which character is everyone's favourite!

I think it's funny because my taste is quite specific.. and I'm not sure all the characters are widely known. Anyway!

Cause i missed the train i suppose anyone has already done that but still!

@pirrusstuff @fionaswhvre @aspecbuddie @pansysgothgf @steadfastsaturnsrings

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So, tagging i missed from people I've also missed!

Staring from @mairaiscarrierofthepaperclips and this funny thing.

Rules: Make a poll with five of your all time favourite characters and then tag five people to do the same. See which character is everyone's favourite!

I think it's funny because my taste is quite specific.. and I'm not sure all the characters are widely known. Anyway!

Cause i missed the train i suppose anyone has already done that but still!

@pirrusstuff @fionaswhvre @aspecbuddie @pansysgothgf @steadfastsaturnsrings

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Guys, guys!

I'M STILL ALIVE

It was fucking hard time for me but here i am and I missed y'all!

So starting from today I'm gonna try to fill in all tags I've been missing.

And proceed with my story cause hell no i don't approve latest episodes of 911, no nein nie нет non

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Just quick hugs for my sweet @steadfastsaturnsrings

I saw your tags! I remember you! I love you!

I'm kinda in the middle of moving back home cause I'm double untermensch (there is a political joke intended but no politics in my Tumblr!) but when I will be in some stability I'll come back and answer your tags

Thanks for not forgetting me sunshine

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Well.

Actually

I just hope Tommy at some point asks Buck if he really wants him because of HIM or just because 'You were in the army? Eddie was in the army!'

Cause it would make so much sense

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Awww

"I'm only a man with a candle to guide me I'm taking a stand to escape what's inside me A monster, a monster I've turned into a monster"

-Monster by Imagine Dragons