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Then my mom, people pleaser as she is, kept saying, "I didn't want it to be this way." It's okay, I understand. I didn't either. I never like to cry, it just happens.

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My love is a cruel god, and I am led with blind devotion.

I am constantly giving up sacrifices and doing things in hope I'll get some sort of blessing, a sign, an answer to my prayers. But the sky is empty, so I curse the temples I used to polish daily. I slam offerings against the wall, creating cracks in the pure white paint.

Then, when my precious god makes it sprinkle with rain the next day, I cry with the clouds. I crawl back to the temples, back to my god's feet. I beg for forgiveness, I bow to the floor, I cry and pull at any string I can for another sunny day.

At best, I get a pat on the head. A stern telling and a wagging finger. I'm obedient. I won't do it again, I'm holy and devoted through and through. I'll rebuild the temples, silently put my offerings back on the shrine. My prayers will still go unanswered, but that's just my religion. My beautiful god teaches me patience, perseverance, and obedience. I am their best student, so I won't complain anymore. I've learned my lesson. Thank you love, my god, my teacher, my pacifist persecutor.

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" Just like a child; when I don't get attention I cry and hurt myself and put on shows just to get a glance "

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" Even if, in another universe, we were stuck in the olden days, I think I'd still wait by my door for every letter or trace of you. "

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If I wasn't so insecure of how I may look splashing in the puddles and slipping on the wet concrete, maybe I'd enjoy the rain a lot more.

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" We often take the sun for granted. It's everywhere, every day. Even if we don't see it, we know it's there waiting for us. I think people would improve if we just looked up at the sky a little more, instead of down at the land that it blesses. "

In fact, I know a few people who may even relate to the sun.

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" You're the most horrible person I've ever had the honor of loving. "

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" I care more about you than I care about my self, and how horrible is it that you couldn't care less about me. "

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" I just wanted you to love me as much as I loved you. That's all I asked, and it was still too much for you. "

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" That night- the night I could never explain in full detail to you; is because it was all about you. "

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"And yet I found myself deciding that if you took his hand, I would find a way to live with it. It would be your choice."

I sipped from my wine. "And if he had grabbed me?"

There was nothing but uncompromising will in his eyes. "Then I would have torn apart the world to get you back."

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He said softly, "I love it when you look at me like that." The purr in his voice heated my blood. "Like what?" "Like my power isn't something to run from. Like you see me."

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" I felt the power shift to me, even as I saw it shift to him. And we just looked at each other, as we were both suddenly crowned High Lord... " -ACOMAF, Sarah J. Maas

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" I've never been one for corny stuff, but I write your name in my notebook with a little heart on top of the i and put our initials everywhere I can- that way you feel as omnipresent as I imagine you. "

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" I tell my friends that I'm over you, but I'm still writing your name in cursive on the mirror fog so that I don't forget how to spell your name. "

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" I wish this life was a fairytale, that way I'd know that our story ends in unrequited love. But it's not, and this stubborn love my heart holds for you is becoming exhausting. "

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" I wish you knew how badly I wanted you to forget about my past and push me to actually try with you. "