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I know I haven't said it yet, but I love you. I really do. And it scares me to death. The thought of loosing you, the thought of us not working out.  And especially at the thought of you not feeling the same way. I was planning on telling you sometime this weekend. And then last night you go and tell me that you're voluntarily leaving for a work-related trip.

I'm such a baby. I teared up a little on the phone. But you didn't notice. I'm too good at hiding it. I'd love to tell you how I really feel. That I don't want you to leave and I wish you would see that it hurts that you choose to be gone during the only time I'll get to be with you. I know you care, and I know you want to be with me too. It just scares me that I could possibly care about you more than you care about me. Is that too selfish?

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Lechuga. So deep, so beautiful, so… lettuce.

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Touch the Butt.

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Its a lot of floor work. ;)

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My boyfriend starts calling me "Honey Badger". And here I am thinking aww that's cute, but what exactly is a honey badger? Well here my friends, is the owner of that endearing nickname... yeah. Not so cute.

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Love me some John Hughes movies.

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The excitement I feel when I start to watch a movie and "A John Hughes Film" appears in the opening credits...

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Oh the walls I've put up...

How do you open up to someone? My boyfriend tells me everything in his life. Good and bad. But for some reason I can only get myself to tell him the good. He wants to know everything, even my troubles, but I'm having a hard time tearing down my walls. I feel like its a sign of weakness or he'll think I'm too needy. Help...?

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I hated Rose too but eventually loved her.

finally started watching dr. who

my sister and i have decided to make the commitment to watching dr. who together this summer. we started frmo the reboot with series 1. we’re two episodes in and i hate rose but i’m entertained by the doctor.

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How do I know?

How do you know when you love someone?

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So much on my mind this morning. Where oh where should I take my life... If my mother had her way I'd be in college for the next 8 years on my way to become a doctor, which coming out of high school is what I had planned. But they never tell you in high school how completely surprising and crazy and wonderful this thing we call life is going to be, do they? I mean, I never planned on dating until I was at least 28, and definitely never wanted kids. And here I am, in a relationship where I'm pretty sure that we're going to get married in a few years and also considering the possibility of having a few children. I also thought I would be moved out of my parents house by now (3 years out of high school) and living on my own. Haha... yeah. Not yet anyways. By the end of my senior year I had an 11 year plan: go to school, ignore boys, most of all do NOT date, move out, and become a pediatrician... and then maybe consider dating. And then this wonderfully amazing guy pops out of no where. So I decide "Okay, sure. Why not become friends? He's nice". Little did I know that though we became best friends over the period of a year, and had decided not to date each other, we would in the end... start dating. So now I'm starting to have directional changes in my life. I no longer want to spend the next 8 years in school, and I no longer want to wait until my late 20's to get married. Is this normal? I'm still young... I'm 19, turning 20 this summer. There's no reason to rush into anything, right? I just am really starting to see my goals in life change (which yes was happening before we started dating), and I fear that my friends and family will blame it on my new relationship. Did I mention neither of us have ever dated before? Not even casually dated. Yeah... I can see us getting married in a couple years. I just worry about what my family and friends will think. I hate the idea of them being disapointed. :/ Am I silly to care what they think?

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"Maybe you don't need the whole world to love you- maybe you just need one person." -Kermit the frog

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Blind Boy

Soo... There's this guy I've become really good friends with. We met at a mutual friend's bday party, but since then we hang out all the time. We text everyday, usually talk on the phone at least every other day, and see each other all the time. In fact, today's the first day this week we haven't hung out. Anyways, my point is... we both agreed that neither of us like each other. But he completely acts like we're dating and doesn't see it. Even my parents and his parents think we like each other. It's so weird. I love hanging out with him, but I feel like when either of us start dating it will hurt really badly being that our friendship will have to drastically change. I don't know what to do. I consider him one of my best friends but I'm so afraid of getting hurt. Any thoughts?

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My life summed up

Let's see... how about I give some background story. Well, I graduated with the class of 2011. Had huge dreams of becoming a doctor. Now I'm starting to doubt myself... I live at home with my parents. Umm... oh, this fall term I am only taking a couple of classes due to the fact that I have absolutely not money. And yes, I have a job. I just don't get enough hours. I swear, does anyone else feel like everyone in high school was mislead to believe that everything after graduation was going to be easier? Well, that's how I feel. Trying to balance school, work (which for a few months I had 3 jobs),friends, sleep, and family is super hard. Thank goodness my parents gave me a car for a graduation present. But still, I now have to pay for school, car insurance, clothes, food, and all that fun stuff...while still barely making money. Please tell me there are other students out there having this problem. I feel like my parents keep pushing me to do more... umm hello? Neither of them went to college so how could they possibly understand. Whatever. Sorry to whomever is reading this. I know, my life sounds kinda sucky. But I swear all my post won't be like this. I'm just trying to figure out Tumblr... first time user and all.

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WHAT MAKES YOU FEEL BETTER WHEN YOU ARE IN A BAD MOOD?

Running.