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Do you ever feel like, you're the only person you have? When you're drowning in your thoughts and you have no one to call. When it suddenly hurts. You wish your friends knew what you're going thru. You wish you have someone on your side. But no one understands the pain you're in right now.

I just want to disappear and forget. I just want to find the answers to my questions. Am I valid? Am I worth it? Am I being reasonable? Do I have the right to feel what I feel right now? Sometimes, I feel like I can't be sad because there are literally people out there dying and I'm just here being sad over nothing. Does it suck when I say I want their attention? To be seen?

Would they understand? Do I want them to understand what I'm going thru? I can't cry anymore, I can't ask for help. It hurts. My heart aches. I just want to forget the world for a meantime.

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I REALLY LOVE DRAKE

I can't stop loving him omg 😭

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CHOOSING A HAIR COLOR IS A REAL CHALLENGE

damn, I'm freaking obsessed with violet but I want it with blue. like the first photo but my hair is not long enough to make a transition. The second picture looks amazing but I don't know if I could pull it off. well of course I can duh. I'm just afraid of my hairstyle, she's not in her best position right now 😭 maybe ill give her some time to grow and when she's long I'll cut it again BUT WITH PROFESSIONAL HELP so I won't be in this situation again :') But I want to do it now?!?!?!?! Oh, fuck f2f they should be afraid of me my hair won't bite them... Unless...

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DRAKE KEEPS CALLING ME FERNANDEZ AND IM LOSING IT 😭 DUDE STOP YOU'RE KILLING ME, THAT'S MY JOB NOT YOURS 😭

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You.

"You're killing me, Fernandez."

"This is my lowest low. What have you done to me, Fernandez?"

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Something that I dreamed of.

He held me from his arms and rest his head on top of mine. We're naked, enjoying this moment. We don't want to let go of each other, we want to be like this until the world fades into darkness. Wishing we could do this without hiding from others.

The kisses, the pleasure, the laughs, and most importantly, the time we share together. Things that we want to enjoy without hiding. Just us.

Every time he sneaks out, he's doing it for me. For us. Why? Why is he with her? He's not happy. I'm the one he loves since the beginning.

Will it be like this forever?

Will I be the other woman?

Whatever happens, I will always choose to run away with you. Us against them.