empire-system

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[Text: This system has military fictives, but is NOT a bootlicker 👎]

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you guys seem so cool :3 we barely see fellow minor systems with mha fictives but tbf we don’t really post about being a system…..

Ah- pfft- uh- yeah we don’t really have any mha fictives anymore?? I mean- magne is still hanging around somewhere, and Eri….sooort of still exists? But there was an Incident about a year back which lead to a looot of people going dormant, and a lot of new people forming. These days we’re mostly fictives from a game called fuga: Melodies of steel. …and also Catnap from poppy playtime. For..some. Reasons.

Eri is still here kind of but she’s a humanoid dog now lol. Dunno what happened there. She’s cute tho.

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how to get the system's insomniac tween to go to bed no borax no glue and i don't have time to invent headspace chloroform (♠️)

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Friend on discord: You seem like you’re having a hard time right now. I know a lot about psychology and counselling and stuff, why don’t you tell me about it?

Me: oh…ok. I didn’t really want solutions, I just needed to vent to someone because I’m currently under threat of losing contact with my best friend. Here’s all my issues and what I’m dealing with right now. I don’t want to get help for any of it because I’ve not found therapy useful in the past, and the thought of working through my problems terrifies me.

Friend on discord: I can’t help with this, don’t bring it up again, I’m blocking you.

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He’s done! He took me 3 hours and I will now be reblogging this to all of my side blogs (that art active) because he took. TOO. LONG.

I’m never touching realism again. I don’t even know what came over me to do this in the first place.

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Short comic/meme thing of our alters lol. (Dw, this didn’t actually happen, jelly is fine lol)

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Sysculture is can you please stop saying you miss X alter? It's just very uncomfortable and annoying. We don't control fronts most part of the time. We can't be here to fulfill your emotions everytime. We are trying to heal and survive! We can't ask X or Y to front because you miss them. You can't and shouldn't be emotionally dependent on alters, on anyone! This is unhealthy! And suffocating! We are tired!!!

(Them. <- Not a pronoun, but a title.)

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Our mum: hey I’m going out do you want more cookies?

The evil cat dog who has murdered thousands of his own kind and resides in our brain, evilly plotting the destruction of his toxic ex (he’s scared of his own reflection): yes mother…cookies appease me greatly

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Me: *long rant about desperately wanting a dog because I feel so alone constantly, and I want to have someone to take everywhere, which just isn’t possible with a cat*

My mum: ok.

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Having one of those days where i feel like just giving up on everything and letting myself starve to death in bed.

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That feeling when you’re regretting choices and still desperately want a dog and then your friend tells you that he got almost the exact breed of dog you were hoping to get :’)

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Trying to come to terms with the fact I might be almost completely alone again soon.

One of my friends never responds to my messages and I don’t know how to start conversations with them. Also I just constantly have a sense of inferiority around them, like I’ll never be good enough for them, but they’re genuinely the sweetest person I’ve ever met and I want to be friends with them so bad it makes me cry, so I don’t even know.

Another of them refuses to talk to one of our main fronters, and he also refuses to talk to them, and honestly it’s starting to affect the rest of the system, especially one of the littles. He also says we don’t talk enough, meanwhile he never goes out of his way to message first, responds in single word messages and in fact deletes his messages if we don’t respond so wtf man.

And finally the third is dealing with a lot of stuff and there’s nothing he can do about it, and he keeps bringing it to me and I just don’t know how to help anymore. It’s just the same conversation over and over. It’s so mentally draining but I feel bad to say anything because I know he has it worse and I don’t wanna take away his only source of comfort.

I just don’t know what to do anymore…

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My friend: I never want to talk to Blutwurst again!

Also our friend when our communication drops significantly because he said he never wants to talk to one of our hosts again:

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Getting really sick of one of our system’s friends.

He dug up a bunch of trauma we didn’t even know we had, made it worse by telling us we were going to hell because we didn’t believe in god, refuses to talk to one of our co-hosts because said co-host was- understandably- upset about him saying one of their biggest special interests (evolution) isn’t real and about him trying to convert us to Christianity (after we explained that we have religious trauma), almost never initiates conversation and when he does it’s with something that we have no idea how to respond to like just a plain ‘hi’, and when we respond back with ‘hi’ cos we don’t know what else to say, he proceeds to not respond, and when we try to start a conversation, he also continues to reply with stuff we have a very hard time responding to like one word answers

And then he has the gall to vague post about us in the venting channel of his server, saying he feels ignored by us and is reconsidering some of the friendships he’s made.

Brother, we have constantly been there for you. If you come to complain to us about something, we are doing everything we can to cheer you up. We have sat in discord calls for hours with you because you’re stressed out and don’t want to be alone. What do you mean you feel ignored. You are the one not talking to us.

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System Culture is being the only alter who doesn’t actually like fronting but still being in front a 1/3 of the time anyway…

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I hate this. I hate living like this.

I yearn for lives that never existed.

I yearn to hold my son, to feel his soft fur, play with his floppy little ears, feel his tail wag as I lift him and spin him around

I yearn to be with my husband, to cuddle up in bed with him after a long day, to wrap my tail around his, to nuzzle into his neck and bask in his beautifully warm fur

I yearn to be little again, to be not even 2 feet tall, to run around and get under people’s feet and hide behind my mama’s legs while she shouts at them for being mad at me

I yearn to be great and powerful, an emperor in charge of the largest nation in the whole world, to have all the power I couch dream of at my fingertips

I don’t want to wake up tomorrow. Not here. Not in this body. I want my fur back, I want my tail back, I want my paws back, I want my spells back, I want my body back.

Ive been lost. I’ve been trapped in a human body. I’ve gone mad…

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Being in relationships as a system is weird sometimes…my husband from my source exists in the system, and we love each other dearly. We used to both be dating a guy outside of the system, but recently he and my husband broke up, so now it’s just me with both of them, and whenever I talk to him, I can’t help but feel like I’m cheating on my husband, but he says it’s ok and I so desperately need to have that social interaction…I feel horrible but I don’t know what else to do…