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no "other/see results" option bc JUST CHOOSE ONE

YOU TOO, GENDER-CONFORMERS,

EVERYONE!

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was asked to make a transmasc version of the meme

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be free!!

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smth abt recovery

(small ed tw ⚠️ //mostly talking abt the positives of my recovery w some references to my past experiences which may be triggering (no #s mentioned dw)- also it's kinda long my bad)

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it's been a while since i've talked abt my past struggles w an ed or recovery but i thought i might just bc of how far ive come- like every recovery there's gonna be ups and downs, but after almost 2yrs of being in recovery i've managed to come a long way, and im proud of myself bc i never thought i would recover at all tbh

i've always loved to cook and bake and it's sm more fun when i can make and experiment cooking new recipes that i can fully enjoy and not the extreme lowcal bs (it doesn't taste good ikyk 😔😔). it's a passion and i only want to learn more now that im not so limited

also i have sm more energy than i used to- dw im still an adhd burnout but i never realized how much of a difference eating had on ur energy and mood until i started recovering. plus i started to be able to feel my feelings again, the good and the bad. but i think its worth it to take the risk of crashing and burning than to not be able to experience how much good there really is in the world. there are some amazing things to feel and experience in life if u only let yourself open up and actually feel them

and i'm so so glad to be over the internalized fatphobia i had going on too. getting over internal biases takes time but is well worth it. i may of not thought or acted badly towards fat ppl, but part of the ed i'm recovering from was the fear of being seen as fat myself- which there is absolutely nothing wrong with being. you should be able to be happy and confident in whatever shape or size your body comes in. we have this one life and you can do whatever you want really, don't let anyone (including urself😤) make you miserable over something as unimportant as your size. there's sm more to life than that

but hey this is just my experience,, and for me im never looking back from recovery- its done me sm good. also i know at the end of the day,, eds are a coping mechanism- even if its a really terrible one. if you are struggling thou, im sorry for what youre going through, pls just try to get through today, appreciate all the little things that bring you joy, let your feelings rise through you like smoke and find yourself some ways to let them out

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thx for reading if you did lol, bit of a longer post here but i hope you have a good day- here's to 2yrs of recovery and to many yrs to come✌🏽

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I haven't seen this meme used yet so I made it

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The 'own way' Vanessa spoke of:

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FNAF (2023) + text posts

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Someone taped a photo of Markiplier to the FNAF poster at our theater

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[OCs] i just wanna live in this moment forever, 'cause i'm aftaid that livin' couldn't get any better

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gay men love me i cannot change this-

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just bit into my earbud bc it wasn't working- i may need to rethink my decision making process

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I think it's really easy for trans people to get really hung up on certain features or traits we have, feeling like they're dead giveaways to our agab- like, something that I've found isn't unique to me (though might not be a universal constant for trans people, of course, the experience is different for everyone) is that I'm always paranoid that everyone can tell that I'm trans.

But the thing is that, at least when going about my day in the real world, most other people aren't actually analyzing my gender trying to deduce what I am. Something that I've kind of realized over time is that, generally speaking, cis people assume most people are cis. Aside from the terminally online and a select (but vocal) few, the average person is just going to look at me, see the facial hair and more or less masculine features, and figure "oh, that's a guy" and move on with their life because sure, that math tracks.

Earlier this year at work, someone transferred to my pharmacy and after working with them for over a month I offhandedly mentioned something about taking testosterone (I think I was helping a patient get the correct needles to inject or something) and she just kind of paused and looked at me and was like "wait- and sorry if this is overstepping any boundaries, but are you... transitioning?"- she hadn't even realized I was trans in all the time I'd been working with her. This caught me off guard entirely because I was so sure that I was obviously trans at a glance, but then another coworker sheepishly chimed in saying he had no idea I was trans for several months of us working together.

Not long after that, I was lamenting how high-pitched I think my voice is to one of the pharmacists (a cis woman in her forties), and she looked at me with confusion. She told me that she didn't think my voice was high-pitched at all, and that I just sounded like a regular guy to her. Again, I was taken aback because all this time I was thinking that certain traits or features were broadcasting to the world that I'm afab.

As it turns out, most reasonable and well-adjusted people won't think much of those little things we assume are outing us to everyone we meet. Even though I've been on T for over five years, I think I'd been mentally stuck in my pre-transition days where I would get misgendered frequently and thought that would simply always be the case.

Of course, I'll still be self-conscious about things like my voice or my height, but it is reassuring to know that for the most part, I am readily perceived as a man, and that I am, in fact, the only one overthinking it in most situations.

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So, does anyone else let people walk all over their boundaries, then take a long time to process that it's happened, then get mad retroactively when they realize that their boundaries have been violated, then react really angrily, weeks later, and come off looking like a weirdo who can't control their emotions? Just me?

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gasolina playing in the background is the icing on the cake of this video

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what if instead of MCR5 they just release a rerecording of every snowflake

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Happy birthday to our favorite party (goth) dad Frank Iero! 🎃