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my brain is once again telling me he hates me, is bored of me, wants to replace me.

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It’s so funny how “I can help you heal” turns into “you’re so selfish!”

Oh no! You didn’t get a boost to your little ego! How terrible of me to act like an ill person despite how you gave me empty promises and false hope! I’ll go jump now!

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Honestly, will anyone ever fucking love me like romantically

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this is how I feel everyday

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Yeah, I self isolate and then feel awful because no one seemed to care about it.

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at least you think about me, at least i think about you.

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Go ahead and convince yourself you’re innocent

That kind of guilt would eat me alive too

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I know that I’ll die by committing suicide; it’s only a matter of when

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problem? feeling worthless. solution? belittling myself

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what if im faking my bpd (im diagnosed)

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how do i always drive everyone away …

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to be seen without performing. to be heard without screaming. to be missed without disappearing. to be enough without proving it. to be held without falling apart. to be understood without explaining. to be wanted without conditions. to be. to be.

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I don't have a morning routine. I wake up on straight survival mode.

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I feel really weird, I don't know how to explain

It makes sense to me, but it probably makes no sense to you and that makes me question if it's even real

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I don't want to eat, I don't want to sleep I just want everything to go away!!

It is too much I can't take it right now