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Not something I talk about a lot, but I recently started working on my time travel jjk fic I paused a while back!! It’s quite the passion project and means a lot to me haha, if anyone’s interested I just posted the most recent chapter!

Chapters (5/?)

Word count (28k)

Time travel Yuji centric

https://archiveofourown.org/works/60321019/chapters/153944596

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The only real way to cope after finishing Andor and immediately watching Rogue One

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you are a stinky head

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They’re having a karaoke night singing Sabrina Carpenter (I’m celebrating the fact that they aren’t divorced anymore)

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I love you so (please let me go) || tr!holywater duo animatic :D

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i am so eepy sleepy please have this tiny art dump and ignore the designs are different in each frame

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Babe wake up new ship just arrived

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the tragedy of !badboyhalo, (why his nature is good, not evil)

Okay I'm going to rant abt !bbh (tr!bad and q!bad) cuz i have so many thoughts. normally I put them on twitter but that's too short of a wordcount LOL (based on the little short animatic I did on the "what do you want to be when you grow up?" "kind" audio)

So, beginning with a recap of lore relevant to my post in case some people don't know, starting with bad's home being heaven. We know he was there for a time unquantifiable by human standards, as he was "outside of time" before being booted from heaven onto earth. We also know from recent lore that bad's job has something to do with destruction, killing and possibly bringing about the end of the world. He started this when he made all the dinosaurs extinct, but apparently, he was too early, and heaven(?) locked him away under the Euphrates River in a void-like pit for about a thousand years. Then bad either escaped or was let free, and has roamed the earth for roughly 15,000 years until now, where it seems that his role of destruction is finally ready to be played. Or at least, that's why he's building the cathedral, to get a message from heaven to see if its time to proceed. We also know his kids are waiting for him in heaven, and he probably can't return to them until he completes this mission.

NOW. onto my headcanons and theories. I like to think that bad wasn't always meant for this role, or there was a period of time where he was unaware he'd have to do this. Then, either as a punishment for something he did, or simply because heaven unluckily chose him, bad was turned into an angel of death/fallen angel/angel of the apocalypse. (hence my design changes of him looking like a basic angel and then changing)

I find this so interesting because, despite the selfishness, talk of killing and being insane, and this being his default nature, I disagree completely. His nature isn't to kill, or at least it wasn't something he chose himself. I think that was a result of when he was given his mission and over the period of time under the Euphrates and his 15,000 years of losing people he loves over and over and over and over. Because that sort of thing ruins even the best people, and the fact that bad still has some good in him even after all of this shows just how much "evil" ISN'T his true nature. If it were, then he wouldn't still make attachments, he wouldn't get sad when people die, he wouldn't drink himself into oblivion to cope with the pain of losing people.

If killing were his true nature, he wouldn't care what happens to people around him. But he DOES. Even after everything that's happened to him, he still cares, and that is heartbreakingly beautiful. He knows and says all the time how every mortal he cares about will die, maybe even by his own hand, but he loves anyway. He just can't help it.

His job, his purpose that is forced on him, is to kill and destroy, but deep down, he doesn't even seem to really want to!! Sure, he likes chaos, or the occasional kill, but only when it's not permanent. He doesn't find joy in taking life permanently. You can even look at the pranks he does; he never is truly destructive, only wanting to cause chaos in a way that won't genuinely hurt the other person.

He would never admit it either, to everyone else, he keeps up the perception of someone who kills for fun and doesn't give a shit about any living creature other than himself. Tr!water is right about the way bad lies, because when he says those things, he's lying to himself as well. Trying to convince himself that he doesn't care and he's not like that, because what the hell is he supposed to do? How could he physically cope with the fact that he's always going to love people and he's going to lose them every single time for all of eternity? That's the kind of thing he'll only admit when he's five bottles deep in Mike's lemonade.

That is the tragedy of !badboyhalo. If he were inately evil, his life would be a whole lot easier, wouldn't it? But he isn't, and he's going to keep loving and caring forever because if he hasn't lost that part of him yet, I don't think he ever will, and that is the most upsetting part of his character to me. Born to care, but created to destroy.

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Not everything goes as planned, and not every angel is meant for the light.

Some are angels of death.

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Baby's first accident! ‪‪❤︎‬

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Realm animatic that I made sort of inspired by arcane’s intro!!

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“As we dance to the masochism tango”

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quick messy comic (also happy birthday empanada :D)

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This is absolutely criminal and needs to be fixed right now.

2 of these are written by myself.

Almost every other one has the bitch who shall not be named in it.

CHICOMAXO ENJOYERS PLZ THIS MUST BE FIXED 😭🙏🙏

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Another thing I really love about these ghostie pov streams is that you get to feel the full consequences of qBad's death. Because yes, we're watching the eggs, but they don't really have a caretaker. It hammers in the absence of a pretty important character for the islanders too because suddenly you can't just expect qBBH to give cookies, armor or resources for your child. Nah, he's dead- you actually need to grind for those yourself to feed not only your kid but three others whose parents are kind of absent right now (Pomme has her French parents but she hasn't really seen them this week).

And it's not just the characters in-game that can feel bad's absence. The audience gets to experience qBad's absence too because we went from 8 hours of hearing his voice and commentary to just cinematic music, silence, and TTS.

So his absence is felt by both the in-game characters and the audiences too. And it's good because even though cc!BBH is still streaming, it hammers in the fact that qBad is dead. He's gone, and we, along with the characters are grieving him and are left to hope he will come back soon :')